Im having a bad day. It happens to us all.

[AlexanderJames]

Hey everyone I hope we are doing well and staying strong!

 

As I predicted in my thread yesterday I'm not feeling too crash hot today.

My ex's threw a massive curve ball when she lashed out and left me a rude and agressive note at my doorstep a week after I initiated NC.

It was a shock because she had been so friendly and co operative even though she made the decision to walk away. And I had done nothing in between to spark such pettiness.

 

I didnt break NC when I recieved the note and shrugged it off and the day after I felt amazing, in case you havent read my thread about it .

 

Sadly last night I let myself dwell on it, trying to figure out why she was acting out, all the thoughts about her maybe missing me and it not being too late krept in. Even though I told myself I wasnt going to set off this trap, I couldnt help it. I thought more about her last night than I did in a fortnight, and to make it worse I dreamt we were back together last night. Safe to say I woke up in a bad place and I'm still feeling a little lost today. It doesnt help that the doc suggested I have a break from weights training due to illness (weights training is my life)

 

Im not letting it break my spirit though, I cant write in one thread to expect the occasional bad days and to stay strong only to buckle under the pressure myself

 

I've found that the hardest days in each stage of progress are the last ones. Which means once I get passed this rough patch, I'll be onto the next stage and be even better! One step closer to the goal.

[DMS]

Hang in there bud, you are an inspiration to many here. I myself have hit a rough spot the last few days but as you say that just means the next phase is right around the corner.

[AlexanderJames]

Thanks DMS.

I felt so good the days before yesterday, cant wait to feel even better than that soon. We take the good with the bad.

 

Hang in there too, you know where your headed and it sounds like you're well on your way

[Notforever]

I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough day, I am as well. But you're right- once they're over it seems like I'm further along.

Dream about them or being back together are the worst, but for me they've started being less frequent.

 

Good luck with tonight, hopefully in the morning you'll feel all rejuvenated!

[AlexanderJames]

Notforever!

 

It happens to us all. Just gotta keep doing what we're doing.

I hadnt dreamt about her in a long while. They really do suck..

 

Thanks and you too. Ive got a big night planned with friends tonight. Cant wait!

Glad to hear your staying strong. Keep in touch

[StarlaStardust]

I don't have any wise words, but consider this post a show of support:)

[Winning]

Rough days will come and they will go, but it WILL get better with time and effort and no contact. Hang in there.

 

I started journaling tonight, just vomited out my feelings in one long bit of writing, not caring about grammar or anything, just getting those feelings OUT and oh my goodness did it help. Along with a game plan for getting my self-esteem back to prior levels (before guy or BG) I am now 2.9 Beta Harder Better Faster Stronger, like the Daft Punk song. I know there will again be bad days but hey it WILL get better. Today was horrible until I got busy with some things for fun around the house and the sense of accomplishment is grand.

 

Get busy, stay busy. Mourn when you have to. Let it out, write it out. Dance and sing. All by yourself. It does help the mood. Fake it til you make it. And all that cliched stuff that's actually got several bits of truth to it. *hug*

[AlexanderJames]

Rough days will come and they will go, but it WILL get better with time and effort and no contact. Hang in there.

 

I started journaling tonight, just vomited out my feelings in one long bit of writing, not caring about grammar or anything, just getting those feelings OUT and oh my goodness did it help. Along with a game plan for getting my self-esteem back to prior levels (before guy or BG) I am now 2.9 Beta Harder Better Faster Stronger, like the Daft Punk song. I know there will again be bad days but hey it WILL get better. Today was horrible until I got busy with some things for fun around the house and the sense of accomplishment is grand.

 

Get busy, stay busy. Mourn when you have to. Let it out, write it out. Dance and sing. All by yourself. It does help the mood. Fake it til you make it. And all that cliched stuff that's actually got several bits of truth to it. *hug*

 

Thanks for taking the time to read and write this response winning

You're right about everyting you've said.

I too wrote out a massive long journal, I wrote my whole story out in my first thread on here. But it didnt get many replies, probably because it was way too long for anyone to read haha But it felt good to get it all off my chest.

[skyisfalling]

 

I've found that the hardest days in each stage of progress are the last ones. Which means once I get passed this rough patch, I'll be onto the next stage and be even better! One step closer to the goal.

 

Yes, you are more than halfway there alexander! I also like to think that for every rough patch I hit, its just another phase I'll be entering.. everytime I feel like im overwhelmed with sadness and I miss him like crazy I know im that much more closer to breaking my addiction and on my way to recovery. Great job and continue being an inspiration to all of us:D

[AlexanderJames]

Hey sky I hope you are doing well

Thanks for the support! It feels amazing being able to provide helpful advice and comfort to people who need it.

 

We are all on here to look after each other and be looked after in return. And you've all been such a great help to me. I owe everyone whos taken the time to read, comment and be a part of my journey many many thanks. I wouldnt have made nearly as much progress as I have without you all

 

So thank you!

[lovinglife21]

I hope you are feeling a little bit better alexander. You will have your ups and downs, it's only natural. Personally I keep a list of reasons of why I don't want to be with him on my mirror especially for the down days. I also keep a list of things I want to achieve and it helps me get through it. I felt amazing yesterday... now I feel just 'ok' but the fact that I felt amazing for a few days in a row means that I'm motivated to do anything I can to move on.

 

p.s it still freaks me out when I see your name and I always go back and read your threads to make sure you're not my ex haha.

 

xx

[AlexanderJames]

I hope you are feeling a little bit better alexander. You will have your ups and downs, it's only natural. Personally I keep a list of reasons of why I don't want to be with him on my mirror especially for the down days. I also keep a list of things I want to achieve and it helps me get through it. I felt amazing yesterday... now I feel just 'ok' but the fact that I felt amazing for a few days in a row means that I'm motivated to do anything I can to move on.

 

p.s it still freaks me out when I see your name and I always go back and read your threads to make sure you're not my ex haha.

 

xx

 

 

 

I keep my list in my phone :3

Whenever I'm felling down I just remind myself there's better days and nights around the corner. I had a bad day today. Had no motivation to do anything. I wasn't hurting and I didn't miss her. But I couldnt stop thinking bout her. Nothing specific just her in general. But then I hit the clubs tonight and had an amazing night out! Even though she was apparently going to the same club I was at. And I was the sober designated driver

 

If it makes you feel better my name is just Alex not Alexander

And James is my middle name. It's just somethin a friend used to call me.

[Jose11]

I had a terrible day yesterday. The fact with my ex throwing breadcrumbs didn't help. But I hope today is a better day. I hope we all have better days.