Going total NC on M. Too much crazy to put up with.

[Mrlonelyone]

Some of you who read this will and others will not have seen my six month chronicle of M. Our friendship / relationship had ups and downs. Here is how I see them .

 

We met cute UP. We met again after having briefly met and hit it off pretty well. We got along with no bumps.

 

I asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said she was. I backed off after that DOWN.

 

She started talking to me again and being very friendly and never even mentioned seeing anyone at all UP.

 

She was a friend and confidant and commiserant when My father was sick and in the hospital Way UP.

 

She and I planned a dinner where, through her action, I end up meeting her family. A family who it seems she has told all about me. UP.

 

On the same trip we were intimate UP.

 

 

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Then when we got back now I supposedly make her uncomfortable. DOWN.

 

She seems to warm back up to me, Slightly UP.

 

My parents ask her parents to dine with us. She freaks out and ask me to leave her alone DOWN.

 

 

Now today.

 

She sits right next to me at school like nothing's wrong. I was leaving her the heck alone. I did not acknowledge her existence at all.

 

Then I have to go meet with a dean who tells me and her to leave each other alone and have no contact. WAY WAY DOWN.

 

Which is absurd because school will soon be over, and I will very soon be graduating from my degree program. She knew that since she helped me study for the oral examination and still went to this extreme measure. A couple of people who know both of us sees my point of view and has assured me that they don't fault me for anything. M could always be erratic.

 

As you can all see our relationship has had many deep downs, and some not insignificant ups too. Those ups were enough that I thought we could just push through the downs. Not any more. M is dead to me now. In fact I am more sad at never being able to hang with M's really cool family than I am with not seeing her again.

 

I am not heartbroken. One good thing about multi-dating is that one always has the arms of another to fall into, and I will. It is saddening because so far no one else has made me feel as good about just living as M did at times.

 

I want my next intrest to be in someone who will be nice, steady, attractive enough, not boring but reliable. Someone mature and experienced in life's pock marked road. The person I have recently started seeing may just be that. Perhaps they can be that steady reliable but not boring partner in life that I am really ready for.

 

TL;DR: POP the champange. Someone who has caused me, at least lately, so much confusion, drama, and consternation is gone from my life. I am done with her and I really do feel like Rhett Butler.

[Mrlonelyone]

24 hours after writing the above. What can I say.

 

I feel good, stress free and totally OK. I can only credit having talked about it on LS so much, from the start for keeping my feet on the ground, and providence for having provided me with the company of others who are as nice, if not nicer than M was in many ways.