Love is a drug - a story written by me

[davesterr]

This is a story i thought of today and it made me feel (at the moment) temporary better and maybe in the long run aswel.

Anyone especially those struggling with a break up or nc is free to read this.

 

True love is the strongest drug.

wonderful, addictive and balanced.

You love the person and they equally love you back.

It is like a daily drug precisely dosed to your needs.

Not too much and not too little. It is a perfect harmony and it makes you feel like everythings perfect and the entire world feels great.

 

However when you get dumped it is like the drug suddenly becomes permanently unavailable.

Before you ever used this drug you were fine living your life without it.

But now you have been using this drug for so long that somehow during some period you became addicted to it without realising it.

Finding out you no longer have access to this wonderful drug called love you find yourself doing anything you can just to get it back.

 

After a while when you realised the perfect drug is no long available you end up with several options.

Some people try to find a different drug elsewhere. Others manage to get back to their normal life. However for some their love was so strong and they became so addicted that they end up not being able to cope living without it.

Just like the desperate junkies you see in movies craving and doing the lowest of low just to get some drugs you find yourself doing whatever is neccessary to make your ex love you again.

Most of these addicts end up being wasted so far that the damage can no longer be undone.

Think of old worn out skinny people with no teeth left and physically and mentally ill ending up living in a dark alley way with no friends or family left and no one that cares for them.

It's a true sad picture but that is the reality if one can not let go of their ex and is unable or refuse to get their life back together.

Some even end up killing themselves because the pain having to live without just hurts toomuch.

 

Ofcourse the moment of coping and staying addicted matters.

An addict who is only addicted for half a year won't do as much damage to themselves as someone who is still completely crushed after 15 years who resulted to alcohol or other destrucgive ways to numb the pain.

Or someone who gave up on life and hasn't been sleeping for years.

The damage for those only struggling for a short period can be undone and you often find themselves living a great life after that.

However for the severe cases the damage is too great and not much can be done after that.

Those are most unlikely to ever become clean again however even if they do then they would stil have to live with the fact that they lost so many years off of their lives and living with the fact that they no longer look like they used to or have the friends and family they once had due to them cutting off any social interaction for all these years.

Just like those no teeth homeless addicts you see on the street, dont let yourself end up getting that far.

 

Now for those that went through the initial grieving process of finding out you no longer had full access to your favorite drug , you can now find a way to live without it.

For some their original drug dealer decides to stay friends and is willing to give you a little bit of drugs every once in a while.

A lower doses of drug which hardly has the same effect but yet comforting in a way.

Perhaps because it makes the addict believe that some day he might receive the strongest drug once again.

This smalldose of drug is called friendly contact, small talk or just an occasional how are you doing?

 

At first this seems perfect because a little drugs is always better than no drugs at all.

Ask any addicted person out there and you will hear that.

However just like every addicted person , they know that the only way to become unaddicted is by completely staying off drugs all together.

That is where no contact comes in.

The first few months are the hardest.

At some point you will feel what in the drug world is called: Withdrawal symptions.

During these moments you crave even the tiniest bit of drugs.

You will find yourself wanting to call your ex just to hear their voice.

Text message them just to receive a hi or even go online to check their facebook or to send them an email just to make sure they didn't forget about you yet so you can talk to them even jus for the slightest.

It is most important you restrain yourself from doing this.

The process will be incredibly hard but try to go keep yourself busy at all times when you feel this way.

Go outside , spend time with friends or family or simply focus on anything else to keep your mind off and to not contact your ex.

Just like how odysseus tied himself to the mast of his ship so he couldn't go to the island of the circle of sirens with their heavenly voices.

You have to in a way do whatever you can to prevent yourself from obtaining that heavenly drug which is contacting your ex.

 

Once you got through this stage and you have been living clean for quite a while you find yourself doing pretty good.

Most things turned back to normal and you are once again able to enjoy life without getting high.

At this point after a seemingly endless struggle of fighting your way through you feel like you can finally lower your guard.

They say one can lower their guard but never lower their awareness because there is a big chance that one day will occur when your favorite drug dealer offers you a small dose of drugs again in the form of contacting you.

Every past addict knows that it only takes a little bit of drugs to get you to relapse and fall back into becoming completely addicted once again.

Therefore be extremely cautious to whether or not to take it.

Only the strongest of people that know that the small dose of drug will have no effect of them whatsoever can take it and talk again to their ex.

It is only those kind of people that no longer want the drug itself but simply want to talk to the drug dealer who has now become a normal person who you can hang out with that are able to make contact without any risks.

 

In some extreme cases however, your ex drug dealer found out that there was no better customer than you were and will even offer you the strongest dose of drugs that you once had!

The drug you always craved for all along after the initial break up.

The drug that is called:Getting back together.

 

This is the hardest decission you might ever have to make.

Because despite of all the pain and hurt you have gone through, there are also all the amazing memories you once shared.

There is no right or wrong answer when this offer comes along.

However do know that some drug dealers are simply looking to make some quick money before leaving you for someone else again.

When this happens and you let yourself get completely addicted once more then you are now back to where you were all this time ago.

Being the addicted person that has to find his way to become clean once again.

 

It was one of the hardest things to do to get clean in the first place.

To quit your addiction and to live your life the way you were ment to live.

By chasing your dreams, succeeding in your goals and by the pursuing happyiness.

When your favorite ex drug dealer comes back and offers you this strongest type of drug then the only thing you can do is to make a decission based on whether or not you agree to take it and to get back together.

The best thing to do in this situation is to look back at the past, learn from your mistakes and to go with your instincts.

No one can tell you what to do.

Only you know what you feel inside, what you feel is worth the risk and what your inner voice tells you what to do.

 

The truest form of true love is like the strongest vitamin.

It makes you feel the most amazing you have ever felt.

Physically and mentally stronger than ever before.

You feel like you can handle the entire world and have never been happier.

Everything is in perfect harmony.

You can not love the other person enough and they can't love you enough back either.

Two souls completing eachother as one.

Ofcourse not even the strongest vitamin can keep you healthy forever.

Sometimes you might get a minor cold such as a small fight.

However aslong as you both work on it and truely love eachother, that cold will dissapear and you will once again feel as healthiest as ever.

 

During these wonderful, romantic and happy times it is important to remember that not even the strongest vitamin can replace nutrition all together.

Just as how all the right foods such as carbs, fats and protein keeps our body healthy followed by regular excserize.

You will need to live a healthy life by having great goals for yourself that you are accomplishing.

 

If you only live of the strongest vitamin called true love as your only source of nutrition then soon you will realise you have become completely addicted to it.

This is not healthy for yourself and for your other half.

Because now 2 souls have become one so it is your responsible to take good care of yourself as you are responsible for your other half aswel.

 

They say no vitamin can replace a healthy diet.

And no single amount of love can create a happy life.

There will always be bills that need to be paid, or struggles that need to be overcome.

But when you are in love and you are equally being loved back then with your own good nutrition followed up by that daily dose of strongest vitamin that feeds your soul , you will feel healthier, stronger, happier and better than ever and hopefully your life will be that of like a fairy tale.

One with a happy ending.

 

Written by - davesterr ©

[TheJiltedGeneration]

heh nice little sustained metaphor there dave, especially liked reference to Homer in the odyssey slotted in there which succinctly summarizes what a lot of us ( include me) need to do right now, sometimes imposing on what we delude ourselves to thinking will make us "FEEL" better.. ( I.E tough love on ourselves). maybe if any mod is reading this we can see if we can make this a sticky =D ( couldn't see any grammatical errors but I have dyslexia and mild dyspraxia so might want to get it checked, unless you have done)..

[davesterr]

thanks for reading it! it would be great if it was turned into a sticky lol.