catwalk5 Posted March 6, 2007 Share Posted March 6, 2007 I think the shack is a great forum place... so many people with so many points of view and experience, that makes it so much better than being alone in this... what do I do?? Help... Since I broke up with my last bf 1.5 years ago, I haven't met anyone that is attractive, or worth pursuing or worth a second date.... let alone fulfills me, completes me, satisfies me. I kind of just gave up I guess. Then I signed on (pathetically) on this website where you upload your profile, can send winks etc etc... and suddenly got bombarded with so many emails, winks, kisses to meet up... mainly by strange guys who maybe scary... So here starts my story, or my venting. I met this fantastic guy online. we started emailing, and chatting on msn.. and the connection and chemistry was just clear... i felt so comfortable with him, i didn't have to try to communicate... it was as natural as it could be. You know what I'm talking about... connection. After a while, after I was certain he was harmless and honest and straightforward.... we decided to meet up.. this was about 2-3 weeks after we started chatting... I knew we would get on really well... and of course we did. We continued to have long chats on msn, and things progressed pretty fast, before we both had to leave the country and I didn't see him for 1 month... do you believe on online love?? Man, you know how minds work when you are apart... absence makes the heart grow fonder and more passionate and all that... I really couldn't control anything... and the past 2 weeks have been so intense.. Anyway to cut a short story even shorter, we connected like 2 people from the same coin... I'm just trying not to feel much for him, as he has to now go away and leave for work. He is still trying to get a job here, and I am hoping like hell that he finds a job here so we can at least have a chance. I can't control what I feel about him - somtimes I feel i feel too much and I don't know what to do. Am I just being crazy. Does he really like me? Is he being non-commital? I think its good he's going away for a week so that I have time to sort my thoughts out. why do I feel the need to see him, call him, text him, msn him... when he doesn't! And that brings me to my next point.. he doesn't call me! He didn't call me to say goodbye when he left on a trip for work... and just msn'ed me like 2 days later and said - oh how are you, like nothing happened! In the beginning of the relationship, don't you just want to always call/hear that other person's voice?? That is what confuses me... I asked him once, and he said - its just normal for me.. I love being alone and I don't usually call.. he said I was being paranoid for thinking that he didn't care. And when we spoke again, and i asked him if it was just a physical thing, do you know what he told me? he said - babe, if i wanted a physical thing, I could get laid very easily.. its not what I want.. otherwise we wouldn't be having deep conversations! " Whats that about??? Do you think I should keep him or just move on... now I've got it out I feel slightly better. I don't think he's going to give us a chance. I don't know. I really don't know. I may be confusing falling in love with something else... its the first time in so long that I feel comfortable with myself and my skin with someone... I feel that I have known him for ages but its only been a few months. Calm down, slow down.. I know...but we only have a few more weeks/months together before he leaves for his new job, if he goes. Shall I enjoy every bit of time with him for what we have now, rather than think in the future, and be realistic? The only realistic thing to do would be to stop seeing him in the risk of getting hurt... but... I like him so..... "I love every every inch of you".. he told me... sigh. Link to post Share on other sites
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