jealousy

[daydreamerz]

I have always been extremely shy even though I've definitely become more outgoing since I've come to college, but I still struggle with it. My freshman year was pretty rough because I was so homesick and I took me a long time to make friends, but now I'm in my third year and I have a great group of friends, who are the best friends I've ever had. Even though I love them more than anything and they have shown me more than once that they would do anything for me, I always have this weird fear that they don't really like me. I actually feel pretty stupid writing this, because I feel it sounds really juvenile, but I really want to get past this.

 

I get extremely jealous of my friends having other friends, and I hate being like that. I'm a very jealous person in general and that's probably the thing I hate most about myself, but I'm not sure how to change. I find myself getting jealous/feeling left out a lot and I know it's my own doing, and that there's no one to blame but myself, but once I start feeling this it's hard to snap out of.

 

I know that it's all a matter of self-esteem, which I know I don't have much of even though I think I have a lot more than I used to. I never feel like I'm good enough. I really don't like myself most of the time, so I can't understand why anyone else would, so I just assume that they don't. Ugh, I really just want to be able to move past this because I feel like it's really going to start effecting my relationships.

[Trialbyfire]

Have you considered expanding your group of friends so that you're not reliant on a small group of friends? They don't have to be close friends, just people you have fun with.

[bridget_jones]

Have you considered getting counseling? I think you have a very low self-esteem right now. Counseling has helped me greatly with my low self-esteem issues. Also if you project that you don't like yourself, others, such as your friends will start to believe negative things about you.

I highly suggest counseling.

[daydreamerz]

Have you considered expanding your group of friends so that you're not reliant on a small group of friends? They don't have to be close friends, just people you have fun with.

 

Yeah, I've actually been thinking about that because I think a lot of the problem has to do with me being around the same people all of the time. The thing is I live with these 5 girls, so often out of convenience I just tend to stick with them. I do have other friends outside of these girls, but most of them I don't really see on a regular basis. I've never really had a large circle of friends because I am very introverted and it takes me a long time to feel comfortable around people, which usually I'm ok with having just a few close friends, but I think it would help to have other people to hang out with sometimes.

 

 

Have you considered getting counseling? I think you have a very low self-esteem right now. Counseling has helped me greatly with my low self-esteem issues. Also if you project that you don't like yourself, others, such as your friends will start to believe negative things about you. I highly suggest counseling.

 

I have thought about counseling. I've discussed this with my mom a couple times and she keeps suggesting that I get counseling. I'm just not sure how I would feel about talking to a couple stranger about my problems in person. I would be kind of afraid that I would end up just sitting there the whole time in silence. Since I'm in school right now I could go to my school's counseling center, but I've heard from someone that they aren't very helpful there, so I'm not sure if I would want to find someone to talk to off campus instead.