Betrayed All Around UPDATE!

[LaDiva]

Thank you Dub for replying to my initial post!

 

After 4 1/2 excruiciating days, Barry finally called me, I took Dubs advice and I tried to make ammends with Marg, but she flaked on me! "Sketchy" was the right word to describe her! She said after 3 days of having me waiting for a response, that she would give me the opportunity to talk to her, but it's been almost two weeks, so I deleted her from the friends list of that online forum, which is what I've wanted to do for a while, since she's never really been one of my friends. I mean, I tried to apologize, but I, as a person can only do so much. And I know that the "trash talking" went both ways... so I don't feel as bad as I once did.

 

Barry told me that yes, he was initially upset with me because of his pride being wounded, and he said that it was mostly because he didn't want to go searching for Greg, because Barry wanted to hurt him for saying those horrible things about me!

 

(That is why I love Barry... he's such a stand up guy! I mean, I hurt him, and he still wanted to smash someone's face in for me!)

 

Things were a little shaky, after I talked to him that first day... (BTW he said it felt like it had been years since he spoken to me, although it had only been four days, and I corrected him and I was like...Ahem! 4 1/2!)

 

He didn't call me for almost another week, actually it was actually a week to date. He stood me up for church and said that he was coming to get me and he didn't, because he said that he didn't want conflict in the car. I guess his girlfriend feels uncomfortable with me... BUT I MUST REMIND YOU GUYS... its not because she found out about my feelings for Barry, it's because she didn't like me from jump street!

 

And I got upset with him, but I figure, I can't win them all huh? So he calls me and he's just gushing with stories about his week and everything, and he sent me texts and just overall kept good contact.

 

Maybe I was misreading what I thought were signs? Here are a couple? Can you guys let me know what you think?

 

-I have more photos taken with him than his girlfriend does

-He always asks me not to cut my hair he likes it long?

-He always asks me to wear my hair blow dried, because it looks sexier?

-He tells me even though he has a girlfriend, I'm still #1 in his heart.

-He and his brother keep clothes at my house, because they want to feel

comfortable when they hang out with me.

-When I asked him what he felt for me? To just tell me the truth, he said, I

honestly don't know where God wants me to be?

-His own girlfriend had to ask him about me, BEFORE they even started dating, her exact words were I'm concerned about you and DiDi's relationship.

-His friends automatically assume that he's on the phone with me and not his girlfriend.

-We got into a mini argument, and he apologized to me while his girlfriend was in the car, I mean he got out the car, and hugged me for like 5 straight minutes and he was whispering to me that he never wanted to fight like that again, etc.

 

I mean, in some retrospects, it shouldn't matter to me, if he likes me or not, because I'm on a personal sabbatical to be single for all of 2007. If I am single for longer than that, so be it! But I want to try not having a boyfriend, all of my life, i've had one, can I just enjoy my mid-20's for me?