I Feel like I'm not normal!!

[Jackieblue]

]I’m almost 40 years old and never experienced an intimate relationship with anyone. Men I like doesn’t know I exist I always get rejected. This happens ever since High School. The last guy I had a crush on was from Long Beach that was over 10 years ago. He’s my best friend’s brother. Even he rejects me. I get rejected too many times that I get so depressed. Right now I’m going out with this guy in my office. We haven’t had a serious relationship yet, I’m hoping something will happen. I don’t know what I do if this guy doesn’t work out. I feel so retarded never having a boyfriend. I’m not getting any younger. I feel like life is not worth living.

[what?]

C'mon jackieblue! It isn't that bad. What I see is that you are dating. That itself is a good thing. Not every person you date is going to end up in a LTR. Just don't give up hope. Sometimes it takes a long while to find that right person for you. I myself am still searching, and like you, am not getting any younger. It all starts with you. You have to find a way to convince yourself that you will one day get what you want. You may be 40, but how do you know you won't meet that special guy when you're 50? Or anywhere in between or after? When you find your soulmate, does it really matter how old you are? If you never give yourself a chance, it can't happen. I've been rejected same as you have, but you gotta lick the wounds and press on. You'll get there, just keep positive. There is someone for everyone, you will find somebody, just keep your eyes open but don't expect it. If that makes any sense, it is gospel! Just be who you are, this guy you're seeing now is interested in you for a reason. Be confident in yourself! Good luck, jackieblue!

[Jackieblue]

Thank you, I feel so much better. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one on earth without a soulmate. It's nice to know that I'm not alone. I've been going through a lot more than just being rejected by men. I've been backstabbed by friends, getting hassles at home and my job, my life was like a nightmare. Right now I'm suffering from depression because of a lot of B.S. I've been through, especially being rejected by men. I probably still be depressed right now if I haven't met this guy I'm dating. I met him when I got transfered to another location after the office I used to work at shut down. I was kind of glad because I was so miserable there. Right now I'm doing the best I can to pull my self together by getting myself occupied. It's not easy, It takes a long time for me to recover from my wounds, but getting conforting support helps me heal.