radrluv72 Posted January 4, 2011 Share Posted January 4, 2011 (edited) Joe...my dear, sweet, sweet Joe... It's been 4 weeks since you've left me. Your things are on their way back to you along with a handwritten letter I sent. And although I told you not to contact me, I wish so *very* much that you would. Every morning that I wake up, you're the first thing that's there in my heart, along with a raging ball of anxiety in my chest. It's been there every day since you sent me away, and it shows no signs of fading. I just wish that I knew...had answers...I wish so much that you could find it yourself to tell me what happened. I know that you didn't want this, I know it. Baby, whatever it is that you did, I'll forgive you...I love you that much. We were so happy...it was real, and we were both right there...baby, how else can I make you understand? The guilt you're carrying around, I can feel the weight of it. We can fix this, I know we can...if you'll just talk to me. I won't hate you...how can I? Everything that you gave to me in just 2 short months...this beautiful, wonderful bliss that we had...I know I wasn't imagining it. I miss everything about you. I miss you calling me "gorgeous" and "beautiful". I miss calling you "baby". I miss stealing away to your house on the lake with a bottle of wine and spending all night in your loving, capable arms. I miss waking up to you pulling me to your body in the morning and decorating my back with kisses. I miss listening to your rambling. I miss listening to you play around on your guitar. I miss your incredibly messy bedroom. I miss you playing with what you called my "bedroom" hair. I miss how everything was so easy with you. I miss seeing you step out onto the front steps of your house before I could even get out of the car, your eyes lit up like some little kid. I miss your frankness and your sincerity. I miss your stories. I miss the plans we'd made. I miss the peace that only you were able to give me. I miss feeling proud--SO proud--to be with you. I miss YOU. I love you Joe...so very much. I don't care what you did. You can tell me anything, baby. Just please, please...come back home to me. I need you. Every day for the past weeks, I've woke up in a scathing, unbearable hell of which there seems to be no end...I wish I knew what it was that you thought you could never tell me. We can start over again, baby...the way that we should have. We can do it the right way. Just please, please...don't be scared, and don't shut me out. Whatever you've done...I've already forgiven you. Just please baby...come home to me...I'm begging you. Edited January 4, 2011 by radrluv72 Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted January 4, 2011 Share Posted January 4, 2011 A- I hope you know that I'm not using our son to guilt you into coming back. Its so heartbreaking to hear him say "i miss mommy and daddy" over and over. He is hurting over this. I know you think this is the best for him, and I guess I should agree with you. We definitely had our problems, though I truly believe they can be worked out. I know I probably won't get that chance. I'll always love you. Link to post Share on other sites
eidolon Posted January 4, 2011 Share Posted January 4, 2011 Jerbeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar. I just want to call you and say Jerbear over and over again. I love saying it. I miss you. Wish you felt the same, and wish you realized what you've thrown away... Link to post Share on other sites
Mrlonelyone Posted January 5, 2011 Share Posted January 5, 2011 S I want to write you so bad. I know that if I write you too soon then I'll blow what chance I have. I know that if I never write you I'll blow what chance I have. So I will not write you...for as long as I can restrain my fingers. My brain knows that every day, every week that I say nothing is more time for you to remember me, and compare his reality to mine. My brain knows that if I write you, your defenses may go up again. My emotions don't know any of that. Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted January 5, 2011 Share Posted January 5, 2011 You'll never get to a point where you feel I've suffered enough for my mistakes, will you? I've never be punished so harshly for anything in my life. Link to post Share on other sites
AC06 Posted January 5, 2011 Share Posted January 5, 2011 (day 8 nc) I could never compete with your friends, because you gave them all the opportunities I never, ever had. I miss you every day, I love you every day, and I will never forget how you made me feel for so long. And I just hope one day I'll get to feel that way again. Link to post Share on other sites
Porter Royal Posted January 5, 2011 Share Posted January 5, 2011 Wanna get a cup of coffee? Link to post Share on other sites
bzoe Posted January 5, 2011 Share Posted January 5, 2011 ..this thread put tears in my eyes. all this heartbreak..same time as mine Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 let me guess, your new girlfriend is Korean, am I right? Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 Hey, ex? You're a f*cking idiot and emotionally stunted, too. I'm learning all of these things about you and I know you're going to regret losing me. You don't appreciate this now, but I have concrete validation of this. All it's going to take is time. And you will regret missing out on all of this goodness. Link to post Share on other sites
Found_and_Lost Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 Hey, the talk we had yesterday was very important for me, but also very painful. I played cool but to be honest it felt like a hundred knifes to my heart. At the point where you didnt answered and you said your on the phone, i knew it was another guy. I dont know who and i dont know why.... If i think of it now it just feels like you disrespect me and you just try to make it easier for yourself. After all, i miss you very much but this is not helping me. I cannot eat and i cannot sleep, my head tells me to get over you, my heart keeps me back and it is ripping me apart. love Link to post Share on other sites
AC06 Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 (day 9 nc) You know what ****ing sucks? The fact that you're happy and probably haven't even thought about me this week. Not that I don't want you to be happy, but your happiness came at the expense of mine. WE should have stayed happy together. But your lack of effort and poor choices drove our relationship into the ground. You couldn't even make changes when I pointed out the obvious flaw that was going to tear us apart. You just didn't get it. I wish you knew how much I missed you. But knowing that you're going to miss me that much as well, albeit too late (just like every other time) is hurting me so bad. Link to post Share on other sites
wrencn Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 Dear Future Ex Husband, Please use that brain of yours for one minute and stop behaving like a lovestruck teenager. Our children know that you feel for her when we were married and that is why you left. It doesn't matter that it took 8 months for her to finally give you a chance because all her other options have run out. You get our kids 2 evenings a week and overnight on the weekend, however you get 6 evenings alone to have her spend the night. You work with her and see her all day long. Stop bringing her around our kids when it is suppose to be your time with them. I don't care that you are dating. Have fun! I hope you find happiness, but be smart about it and the impact on our children. I haven't brought anyone around our boys and I have them the majority of the time. I will not bring anyone around them until I know he is going to be in my life for a while and you and I are legally divorced! Get your head out of your @$$ and think about your kids. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 Sam So what can be said now?, Nothing I geuss, This past week I've felt no pain for you what so ever.. Only sadness remains now, Sadness I have to overcome with happiness, I wish things had ended better so we didn't have to be like this but I geuss you felt I wasn't worthy of a half decent ending. It was hard to let you go, Especially when I was your first for everything, Now I have to think of somebody else having you in those ways and being better than me in everyway possible and thats going to be the hardest part of not being with you now or pretty much ever again, What a lovely mess ey? I hope you know I'm too far gone now for you to ever have me back? Well if you didn't now then you'll realise it one day, I'm starting to see all the bad you did to me and boy did you do a number on me, You knew all I ever wanted was a family and as soon as I my dream is reality you rip it out from under my feet and laugh in my face, You ran our love into the ground with your stupid ego, Listening to others time and time again. I hope one day you realise everything we had together, I hope you pine for the family life and I hope on that day you realise what you threw away and how you'll never ever get it back again and it's all your fault. We were good together once upon a time and for that part in my life, I must thankyou for it, It really was a hell of a ride and now I must move on with my life without you and be happy, I'll miss you for sure... and heck I'll always love you but my life's going to be something special and I'm going to the best person anyone could meet and thats because of you, The pain you put me through pushed me into being a better person, Thankyou for that. =] Link to post Share on other sites
Porter Royal Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 5 minutes ago a friend just called and said ex is in the building in one of the rooms downstairs just standing around waiting for a class to begin or something. I jumped up, put on my jacket and started walking there (to get a cup of coffee). I caught myself and ducked into the mens room. Now I'm back at my desk. Somebody stop me from accidentally purposely bumping into her. I'm full on in NC. ARGHHHH! Link to post Share on other sites
Porter Royal Posted January 6, 2011 Share Posted January 6, 2011 Eff that. I didn't go. I wanted to though...about .1% worth. She's a highly attractive unit. Link to post Share on other sites
J0N Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 X, Lately I have begun to realize that you are never coming back into my life. It's been 12 weeks since you suggested parting ways. During most of this time, I was convinced you would come to your senses, and we could reconcile. Over new years I thought about you nearly non stop. About us, and all the great times we had together. Even though I thought we had everything planned out, futures have a way of crashing and burning sometimes. I do not want you to feel guilty for leaving me, it is your life to live how you choose, I respect that. I know that I made some mistakes, and may have taken you and your love for granted at times but I always loved you dearly. I will always remember you and the joy you brought to my life. You are a very beautiful woman with a good head on her shoulders, so I know finding the right guy won't be difficult. You will always hold a special place in my heart. Farewell X. Sincerely yours, J0n *I had thought about writing a farewell letter for a while, but I am just posting it here instead. Link to post Share on other sites
ame Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 ex.......... i still love u soo much and i think i will for a long time to come. just hope u realise what youve lost! you bake my head! aghhhhhhhh Link to post Share on other sites
ame Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 (day 9 nc) You know what ****ing sucks? The fact that you're happy and probably haven't even thought about me this week. Not that I don't want you to be happy, but your happiness came at the expense of mine. WE should have stayed happy together. But your lack of effort and poor choices drove our relationship into the ground. You couldn't even make changes when I pointed out the obvious flaw that was going to tear us apart. You just didn't get it. I wish you knew how much I missed you. But knowing that you're going to miss me that much as well, albeit too late (just like every other time) is hurting me so bad. it has taken my ex 15 days of NC to start roughly talking to me on msn dont give up hope x Link to post Share on other sites
melenkurion Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 I f***ing hate this. Why the f*** am I so lonely and sad when you are so happy and loved? It's not f***ing fair. You did a terrible wrong. You don't deserve happiness. But life isn't fair. You really don't deserve to be happy. You are an evil, soulless thing. Utterly, remorseless, repulsively selfish. What you did to me is the worst betrayal I have ever known. It would have been far kinder to kill me. And you don't give a f***. You *relish* the fact you hurt me, so I'm told. You sick, twisted lunatic. Getting off on the power no doubt. Narcissistic personality disorder at it's purest: as long as it's all about you, you don't care if you're hated, feared or loved. As long as you get attention, anything will do. Well XXXXX. You're a sad little loser with a crap job. You're of fairly mediocre intelligence I'm afraid to say. Why the f***I didn't ditch you years ago is beyond me. You didn't deserve me. You do deserve OG, a reject from the dregs of humanity. I hate OG more than anything. And from my point of view, you are the perfect instrument for his destruction. He has no resilience. No inner strength. You will crush him, like you tried with me. With him you will succeed. Link to post Share on other sites
Mrlonelyone Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 S First of all how is our son? I understand that you are supposed to travel to see his cousins and the only family he has ever known. I wish you would leave him with them and just live your life. Perhaps you are just not one to ever really want to be tied down for long. On the other hand I know that it must make you feel good to get this attention from a new man...for him part of the draw is certainly having an instant family. Why create an alternate FB page and use it to spy on me? Why drive all this way just to drive by my house? Why can't we just talk things over for five or ten minutes and work something out? Why is it that when it comes to eachother, at least, we both act more like teenagers than the grown adults we have become together? Link to post Share on other sites
AC06 Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 (day 10/11 nc) Still miss you. Still love you. Still thinking of the future we'd planned and hating that we aren't living it. Hating the fact you're with someone else and knowing it'll never grow to be what we had and should have continued to have. Hating that I haven't heard from you. Hating trying to come to terms with the fact you'll want what we had again, but not until it's too late. But most of all, missing you and your smile. Link to post Share on other sites
AC06 Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 it has taken my ex 15 days of NC to start roughly talking to me on msn dont give up hope x Appreciate it. Well, I'll be crossing my fingers, and hope it works out for you as well. Link to post Share on other sites
Buzzkillington Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 Hey you, I just found out that your new boyfriend has already cheated on you (I didn't even want to find out, a girl told me she had sex with him a couple of days ago and that she feels bad and wants to tell you.) Pahahaha, 4 years and I never cheated on you, 3 months and he cheats on you... after I've written this I'm never going to think about it again but it made me laugh. Smart choice! Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted January 7, 2011 Share Posted January 7, 2011 Amanda- I love you and our son more than anything in the world. I have to accept you're gone for good. I can't stop the bleeding right now... time will heal but I really don't like my new reality without our family. I'm glad you're happy. I wish I was too. Link to post Share on other sites
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