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[Owz600]

So it's been 3 weeks since we broke up and there's been NC from either of us, I thought you would have made contact by now as when we broke up you said 'ill be in touch in the new year'. I guess it's a good thing that we aren't. I miss you, you filled a massive part of my life for 3 years when we was growing up, I let myself slip while going out with you because I had you I didn't need anything else, it's only when I lost you I realised how bad my life had turned, now I am left with a uphill struggle to regain myself but I will do it. I do wish you would contact me just so we could meet up and chat, I wish with time then I could talk about where it really went wrong with us, we never really talked where it went so wrong or even gave it a second chance. I hope your doing ok and I hope you understand why I deleted you on facebook and why I don't contact you.

[0hpenelope]

I stubbed my toes against the table today. It hurt a lot, but I actually prefer that pain over still missing you.

[Aisha4457]

Hi its me!

You know the one yuo supposedly loved more than anything you ever have or ever will love Well where the hell are you if thats the case?!

 

So I guess your living it large and happy without me now, saying all that bull**** holding me close and cuddling me to sleep everynight...For what?! You never made an effort sometimes I find it hard to believe you actually did love me.

 

You say you wont block me cos i was a big part of your lifw for a year and a half PAHA! Well then why did you leave me.

 

URGH TIT FACE.

[Stilicho]

hey babe, miss you, but i also hate you, lol. i miss the person you were, not the child youve become. i wish i could talk to the girl i knew, hold her, run my hands through her hair and tell her i love her, but she is no more. my heart is still broken, and although i seem to be doing better every day, when the clock hits the times that you used to call me throughout the day, my heart drops and i feel alone. the way things ended to me is similar to running on a treadmill at 8 miles an hour, not a worry in the world, and having the power cord pulled out, sending everything to a halt. i always stressed open communication, and you knew you could talk to me about anything, but in the end, you decided to lie. obviously, i have spent many hours revisiting that night, and how it could happen, but in the end, ive realized i did nothing wrong, you were just too immature and impressionable. in less than 12 days ill be seeing you in class, and to be honest, im looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time. it still boggles my mind how you could tell me the night before we broke that you cant wait to move out together, than the next day tell me you dont regret what you did, than hours later, cry and say your a terrible person, than kiss me, cry again and say i give you butterflies, than the next day say your too young and dont know who you are anymore, and quit on us, only to run to some loser who you yourself said offers you nothing....

 

im doing a lot better, this i know, its just that periodically i regress. but i guess i have alot to be thankful in this. for the past month, ive been focusing on me for the first time in2 yrs, back in the gym, back to the shape i was before meeting you. i guess i got too comfortable in our relationship, and i gained like 20 lbs in those 2 yrs, going from 195 to 215+ lol, what can i say? i believed you when you would whisper to me that you would love me forevr no matter what, even if i gained so much weight your arms couldnt fit around me, haha, to think, i believed you? well, at least im getting back to my physical self, and gaining confidence in the process. And i know that you would always tell me that i could get any girl i want,and while ive been very successful at getting numbers and dates as of late, i still have no real desire to pursue anything with them, even if its just for a night. On the otherhand, id bet money that you have or will very soon, sleep with the new guy, in order "to feel close" to him, just like you told me you did with your highschool bf when you were dumped. but, who cares, not my business anymore, even though the thought of it tears at me inside.

 

im sorry if i did anything wrong to you in our relationship, such as making you feel judged(never intentional), or being controlling, but that does not excuse what you did and have done, and its ot like you were an angel either.

 

its the 19th today, in an ideal world, wed be together, probably sleeping on your couch, getting over jet lag from our planned vacation to europe, which we were supposed to have returned from yesterday around this hour..... at least i got my money back lol.

 

we had so many plans for the future, babe, but you threw everything away so easily.....

 

i cant look back anymore, i offered you the world, and treated you too well, putting you above everything else, i now see that that was the wrong thing to do. but im not gonna regret treating you how i thought you deserved, lesson learned i guess.

 

ill be seeing you in school soon, hopefully you havent turned for the worse, and hopefully you can still pass your classes and attempt to graduate with out me helping you w your homework at night, or rewriting your papers for you.

 

you used to tell me that every morning when you woke up, you had to ask yourself if finding me and having me in your life was real, because it was so good that you felt it was a dream. Well, you ****ed that up, huh? lol

 

you tuned so cold and bitter at one point, and told me you hate me, yeah, i get it(your way of pushing me away and hiding your guilt), but i still cant find a way to honestly hate you.

 

ive heard you havent been doing to well, i told you that in the end youd regret this, you told me i was wrong, you tryed to forget about me, i told you to never doubt me, well, hows your life right now without me?

 

see you soon. love(kinda, sorta, maybe) the man you used to love.

[bluebirdsfly]

A,

 

To be fair, you are a good person. You possess many good human qualities. I mean it. The only thing you shouldn't have done is that you shouldn't have lead me on to believe that you are ready for commitment and everything. All the talk about marriage, family and children, are those just your games to win my heart? It was so cruel of you. You know, if a friend of mine had been dating you, I would have told her not to, because you are such an emotional wreck(though it was not your fault that you have been hurt, still you shouldn't have hurt me), and there's no way things could work out. I understand it all, it's just that it's really hard to forget you since you gave me all the hopes of a future together and the took it away out of blue. I hate your games but miss you still. I'm so hopeless.

[Stilicho]

am i less of a man because i wanted to work it out after you revealed to me that you kissed somebody?

 

u hurt me terribly, and maybe i just wanted to see if it was still there.....

[marqueemoon4]

we all yearn for reconciliation, for catharsis.

[Stilicho]

i seem to be having a hard time today.... some days im absolutely fine, but right now i just have an urge to call you. I want to speak to you so bad... why? im not sure, i know the girl i knew wont be the one picking up the phone, but a new, more immature and cold girl, who refused to fight for us. i tried so hard, but you just gave up, and that hurts me more than the fact you kissed that guy. you were part of my family, and you loved that. wasnt it you that just asked my mom during the week we broke up if you can invite my parents over to your house for a boardgame night(although i admittedly thought that would be boring, lol)?

 

than when i told you that i told my mom what happened, you started crying and asked if i thought we could still have a family if my mom didnt trust you?

 

i said you should worry about us first, but in the end you were weak, resulting in 2 yrs thrown in the trash. part of me wants to speak to you just to tell you how deplorable of a person you are, ask how you can sleep at night, another part of me wants to tell you that i love you. idk what to think, all i know is that you had us all fooled, and i thought you were stronger than that babe. were in 2 classes next semester, and its gonna be awkward, this i know. i miss you, but part of me also wishes we never met.to think that i cancelled 2 seperatestudy abroad programs because i wanted to spend the time with you, or that i basically neglected my friends on in order to give you more time that you would ask me for.

 

it makes me sad now when i look back on certain memories, memories which used to be some of my happiest. like when we first hung out at your barn, or when we went sledding at the h.s fields. Or when i first saw you walking over to me after our final in astronomy, the class we met, and you asked if i wanted to hang out with you. Or the first time i cooked your favorite meal for you, or the first time i saw you in a dress(and how you told me it drove you crazy to see how i looked at you

 

or when we went camping and we would go lie on the beach at night at look at the stars.

 

but now, these memories mean nothing but pain. and i would do anything in the world to reverse this all. I would have given you the world.

[SimonSerenade]

I think the only thing that bothers me now about all of this is how much you feel like a stranger to me, After loving you for so long and after everything we did together, After everything we had, For it to come to this is just tragic and for you to hold out and be an ass like you are is just beyond me, I hope this is hurting you right now cause I'm over the hurt now and I'm willing to move on, Dosen't mean I'm going to replace you like you did to me but it means I'm not gonna pine or care for you anymore, Its your life, You've messed it up enough, Have fun knowing nobody will be there to give a rat's ass anymore.

 

I will never ever take you back so don't you ever come crawling cause most likely I'll squish you like the pathetic little bug that you are, You thought you were everything, Thought you were something you are obviously not, You took advantage of me at every moment you could cause you knew I was so in love with you that I would just sit there and take it, Well not anymore, Your going to have one hell of a wake up call sometime soon when you see me for the strong amazing person your pain transformed me into and I hope you suffer big time when you realise that.

[Username37]

Days are getting easier.

 

Just some thoughts though, did you really want to be friends? Or were you trying to keep me on a string? And seriously who gets mad over a cake really...

 

You're sad. Using people like you do.

 

You're gonna be a cheat like your father

 

Good day

[angelboots]

grrrrrrrrrrrrrr far out , I like that we can still do our jobs on a professional basis even though it means we are in contact again

 

BUT i hate that the careers we were building together are now being done for futures we wont experience as a couple the way we wanted them too. We had big plans to make a difference to underprivileged kids TOGETHER.

 

And i hate you and your skanky ex wife...... the one who cheated on you and dumped you via text when she was 6 months pregnant with your second child while she was at a party so she could sleep with your best friend at the time.

 

The one who barred you from the birth of your daughter so her new boyfriend could be there.......

 

The one who revoked your sponsorship in her country so you couldn't see your kids so she could move on.....

 

The one you claim was a cold bitch who never put out for you and told you after you married her she married you for your accent and nothing else.......

 

Yeah you left me to go back to that after a year with me giving you my everything, planning our future and telling me you had never felt anything like what we shared and how truly magical it was and how if it wasn't me who was made for you it was no one......

 

Are you on crack or what!! oh well good luck with THAT. douche.

[angelboots]

i passed your case on... so we no longer even have to work together.. because you were pushing boundaries towards friendship and trying to maintain flirty and pushing the boundaries that i have the right to have in place... yours is a friendship i dont want.

 

If i fill those gaps she gives you, its an emotional affair at best and i wont let you make me into that. I wont mask the fact that she doesnt make you happy and that she cheats on you and uses you as an easy meal ticket and has told you as much.

 

You were separated for three years but not divorced... and you only told me your were not actually divorced after 6 months of us being together. I should have known then you were playing games. i hate that i hurt still when i thought i was getting better. I hate that you must think that you have everything you want... yet I am the one left out in the cold... alone. I miss your kids, i will miss the fantasy that was the relationship i thought we had.

 

i hate this hurt. i hate it.

 

Back to NC i go,

[Stilicho]

for some reason id like to give you a call right now, but i know i dont really have anything to say, and i doubt you do either, so what would be the point? i guess i miss the routine, or the comfort i would get from your voice.

 

i wander what you would say though.

 

11 days til school starts..........

[marqueemoon4]

my subconscious is thinking about you and the pending divorce. It makes my stomach hurt. I'm tired of this, it wasn't worth it. I wish I had followed my instincts and insisted you were too young for me when I met you in 02. But you kept pressing it. And you were so hot. And you promised you weren't like the other woman that destroyed me years before. You lied.

Edited January 20, 2011 by marqueemoon4

[radiodarcy]

you told me to move on. i didn't have a say in it. that was your choice, that was how you felt. i had no choice other than to accept it and i have. in the past i didn't do a good job of accepting the friends with benefits situation because i allowed it to continue in spite of the fact that we both knew i wanted to be more than friends. that was my fault. i should have cut you off back then. but i wasn't at the point where i felt that i could. and as long as you kept stringing me along, i thought i had a chance. stupid i know - - but i loved you so - -i still do, in spite of myself. but you finally got sick of me enough to give me the kick that forced me to move on. and what a blow it was. the harshness of your words cut deep. i can't allow myself to forget them because if i do i won't be able to move on. as i never wish to be spoken to or treated that way again. in time i will be able to let go of the bitterness and the hurt feelings. but not now. and i certainly cannot be your friend as you requested during this time either. i cannot be your friend because I want more than you're willing to give - - at least to me. i know you either are or will be dating other people and that will be too difficult for me to handle. i don't understand why this is such a difficult concept for your to grasp. contrary to what you said *i do not* have to be an adult and listen to you talk about dating or hanging out with other women. being an adult means that i have the option NOT to. likewise, being an adult and knowing how i feel about you means that you DON'T have a right to rub my nose in it and then feign ignorance or act dismayed when i get upset or call you out on it. just like i knew what i was getting into when all this started, you knew what was going on with my feelings as well. so i'm not the only one to blame for the situation getting out of hand. you continued to string me along for two years until you wrung just about all you could get out me and i became a burden. particularly when you started hanging out with that group of lushes who kept fighting over you and stroking that overgrown ego of yours.

it makes me very angry that you tried to make me feel guilty about feeling the way that i do - - when those feelings are completely legit and normal. i have talked to several people (men and women alike) who are going through the same thing - - and they all feel the same way. hell - - even if feeling that way isn't normal then at least i know i'm not alone So I am moving on with my life. and i'm sorry if you think i'm being trivial or childish about not wanting to hear the details of your dating life but - - i honestly don't care what you think. i've sacrificed about all of the dignity i could in all of this. i'm not willing to relinquish anymore - - because i need it for me and my healing.i've wasted enough of it on you.

Edited January 20, 2011 by radiodarcy

[poopierabbit]

Hey Tonya,

 

So lucky me. For my Christmas vacation I went back to Elizabeth City to start moving out all of the memories, furniture and the scraps of our life together.

 

By design, you used *my* house as storage in my absence and waited until I arrived in Elizabeth City before getting the rest of your crap. Why? You could have easily got your sh*t, put your key under the mat and made sure the door didn't hit you in the ass as you left, considering you were in and out anyway. But no, let's make this even more heart-wrenching! Your sorry-ass had, what, 4 f*cking months to get your stuff?? I mean, really??

 

What really pisses me off is you felt entitled to take my furniture with you even though clearly you had no right. Whatever hoity toity white horse you were riding on during our five years together must have recently bucked and left you in the muck. Whatever high moral ground you did have is surely slipping now. Interesting how those things change when you _actually_ have to pay for an apartment (on time and monthly no less)!

 

You are not doing well - you look old. Your grandma wrinkles on your upper lip make you look even older. Being 42, I still don't hold much hope for you, especially with your anemic sex drive, unless you plan on dating a creepy old man.

 

Oh, me? Yeah, that's right. I did look good. And you know what? I still go to the gym, still eat right, still have a great job, and I'm now the eligible bachelor!

 

So screw you, "you-grandma-looking-past-her-prime-but-still-believes-she looks-30-and-hasn't-been-bitch-slapped-into-reality-quite-yet-by-offers-only-by-70-year-old-men."

 

You are getting what you deserve now. That's pretty clear.

 

Always, your loving EX-boyfriend,

 

Jordan

 

PS - Bitch!

[Stilicho]

11 days til school starts, im wondering if youre gonna end up changing your schedule so that were not in classes together, for some reason id rather you stay in them. I miss talking to you, and seeing your face, and it hurts me knowing that your talking to another guy like you used to do with me, and so soon after. We almost had it all babe.

 

i know the break up was your fault, but the fact that you told me you felt i didnt appreciate you still haunts me, as i thought actions spoke louder than words, and you know more than anyone that i did everything possible for you.

 

Im sorry if i made you feel that way, but it doesnt excuse what you did.

 

 

that song above is basically how i always felt about you. i miss you, and i begrudgingly still love you, but it is ruined and is in the past.

 

if only we could have worked things out............

[vtbrokenhearted]

You know, I'm really trying. Really flipping trying to work this out so we don't end up looking back on this like such a horrible experience, but a learning experience. Why did you run away, and why do keep on running? Why do you think your parents have all of the answers? They don't know me. Do you realize in the past nine years, we saw your parents probably twice or three times a year? Do you realize that was a choice you made? You never wanted to visit with them. You just took from them and that's what you're continuing to do. What the f--- is wrong with you? What are you doing? You cheated, you didn't come to the hospital, you flipping married me while you were seeing someone else, you told me I needed more friends and then when I'd bring friends back to the house, you'd dominate our time hanging out, you told me our garden was going to look like s--t this year after I worked my a-- of on it. Why can you not compromise? Why are you so selfish? Why the he-- can't you just communicate? I wonder what you're thinking about when it's -20 and the snow is coming down like mad. I wonder if you imagine me moving the snow around, trying to keep the house warm. I don't care what you're doing, I just wonder if you feel bad because you've totally abandoned me. What did I do to you? I didn't do ANYTHING! I gave you everything you wanted...EVERYTHING! And all you can tell me is that you want your stuff.You've taken advantage of me for nine years, controlled me for nine years, and now you just want to leave...walk away without helping. I talked with a friend last night and explained that I'm just trying to communicate with you because the way you're approaching things, I'm going to have to pay so much money out to my lawyer and your parents are paying for yours! He told me, "you guys just need to compromise." And you know what I said? I said, "but he's never compromised. He's always gotten his own way. Always." And you know what he said? He said, "I know, I lived with you guys. I saw it." Other people are wondering why your selfish too and wondering where the f--k your backbone is. You are 35, not 15. Stop letting your parents bail you out and tell you what to do. I just need to vent. My therapist said, "The big question now, is, if you knew he was selfish, couldn't communicate or compromise, why did you stay with him for so long?" I can't answer the stupid question! It's so pertinent. I've asked myself that for a long time. Why can't I leave. You know why I couldn't leave? Because you'd break me down- tell me I had no friends. You'd ask me," Where are you going to go? No one is going to want you around?" Why did you do this to me? Why did you say these things to me? Why did you need so much control? Well, I'm realizing a lot of things. Most importantly, I've learned that once someone begins to treat me like this, they're gone. Argh!

[vtbrokenhearted]

To your parents,

 

What the is wrong with you? Why are you paying for your 35 year olds mistakes. Why can't you let him live his life? Why can't you let him be responsible for his actions? You told me that you felt like you're in the middle of it, and that you couldn't hear anymore. You are in the middle of it because you're choosing to be. Do you realize that your son wants his things and as much money as he can take from me and that he has always taken, never given? Let him be an adult. Yes, support him like my family is supporting me, emotionally. You giving him money and more money and bailing him out is just going to push him to continue his habits of being so dependent and emotionally distant from anyone he tries to bring into his life. I feel sorry for both of you. He needs to be accountable and communicate. Life and love is not about money, it's about true compassion and respect. You and your son display neither of these things.

 

Love,

Your soon-to be-ex daughter-in-law

[SimonSerenade]

Hey Sam

 

Seeing those pictures kind of took me back to square one, I regret contacting you now, My moment of weakness is now over, Completely over, I have to get over you, You haven't made this easy though, You left without any real explanation what so ever, Without any meaning to what we had and to look at you now, It looks like you've moved on, You look different and you are different, What hurts now is that were both strangers and you didn't care less about what you were putting me through or maintaining any kind of contact/friendship with me, I deserved better than that and so did our son, I hope your happy now but at the same time, I hope you'll one day regret all of this and be miserable.

 

I'm getting on without you and it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, I was your first for everything and now I'll never be able to say the only and that was special to me, It meant more than you'll ever know, It meant enough to know I could never take you back had I not been that to you anymore.

 

We had it made and you threw it away, Thanks for the wasted time.

[Stilicho]

waking up, the first thought on my mind is always you, and it hurts. Its not intentional, it just happens, and leaves me depressed until i get my day going. I know your doing something oday, which will probably end up aiding your decision to do something youll regret, but doesnt matter to me anymore, right? i wish that was the case, but its not. i love you still, and im not sure why, as you treated me like **** after we broke, and i had NEVER did or said anything a all that hurt you in our 2 years together. less than 10 days til school starts, hopefully its not awkward when we see each other, and i will do my best to hide my pain, as i will not give you the satisfaction. thanks to you, im afraid to start really dating again right now, even though more than a few girls have shown interest. i guess im afraid to let somebody in, only to have my heart ripped out like you did to me.

 

we had it all planned out, from kids names to where we'd live, you changed your major in order to best achieve our plan, and i strived to reach as high as i could.

but your lack of friends and immaturity destroyed it all, in only a few weeks. all it took was somebody to whisper a few sweet nothings into your impressionable ears. after everything we shared, did you really have to end it that way?

 

i miss you, and i wish i didnt....

but i also wish none of this happened, and i still had the beautiful and caring girl i knew and cherished, the one that was always on my mind, the one i would surprise with flowers just to see that beautiful smile, the one who i could lie in bed with all day and never want to leave. you were the first girl i actually fell in love with, yet also the first to hurt me. i hope you feel good about yourself, although im not sure if that is possible.

[alimpo83]

I miss you k.

 

I miss your kiss, i miss hugging you, miss every bit of you. Miss your smile, your perfume, the kisses i gave you on the back of your neck.

 

I wish we could be together again, you know I would move mountains to be with you. I've always did.

 

I miss you k.

[Stilicho]

hey babe, i hope what you did today doesnt mean what i think it does, but if it does, thats life i guess.... i miss kissing you, and i feel that maybe i should have gone in for that kiss i could feel and see you wanting, the last time we met. can you believe its been 2 weeks since we've talked?

 

i remember you telling me, not too long ago, that you hope we would never be apart for even a week, and tha you couldnt picture not seeing me for more than a couple of days, well, hasnt that changed?

 

a week and a half til school starts, and i know that through out the semester well be talking, and im not sure what to expect. i think ive come to terms with the fact that i love the memories we shared, and the girl you were, whom i cherished, but i have no love for the girl you are now.

 

however, i would trade anything to have th girl i know back, and for none of this to have happened.

 

im struggling not to call you, or text you right now, but i will stay strong, and if you make that mistake, the consequences are yours alone.

 

p.s, go jets!(i cant help but think of you when i watch the game, and i know your thinking of me during the game too)

[poopierabbit]

Hey Tonya,

 

NWA in it's day actually made something that describes you to perfection! Let's take a read through:

 

"Now ask yourself,

are they talking about you? Are you that funky, dirty, money-hungry,

scandalous, stuck-up, hair piece contact wearing bitch? Yep, you

probably are."

 

You may not wear a hair piece, but the rest is applicable!

 

By the way, I couldn't help but to stare at your ass when you came by the house - you've lost any ass you once had. You now have a grandma pancake ass. No thanks!

 

Always yours,

 

Jordan

[Stilicho]

hey babe, less than 10 days and well be talking again.... i think in the end it will hurt you more, thats why when i told you that youre gonna regret everything you did, and your "decision", you started tearing up, saying you wouldnt(after 2 years, i learned to pay attention to your body language and emotions rather than your words, as they mean little most of the time).

 

no matter what, in the end, i will succeed. i have alot of interested girls around me right now, but the pain you have given me is still preventing me from pursuing them, as i dont want to use them as rebounds and hurt them. how do you think your life will be babe?

you dont even have the grades to graduate, let alone get into grad school, while ill be in law school this time next year. why did i plan to do go to law school? to provide for the family i thought wed have of course, but you ****ed that up. never the less, i will still go, and you, will most likely keep living off your mom and dad's dime, and stay working at that dead end job, around all those people you claimed to hate.

 

whatever