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[0hpenelope]

Your birthday passed and the world kept on turning. It didn't collapse on me.

 

So happy that my resolve didn't weaken. So, so happy.

[SimonSerenade]

Well, It's been a hell of a long time since we was together, If I said I didn't miss you sometime's I'd be lying, Been 7 months since I last held you in my arms and kissed your head, That's a long long time a go, To think now that my life will be with somebody else as will yours hurts a little but that's the only thing that hurts now, Everything else is fading in to the distance, I'm still nowhere near ready to be your friend or see your face again and it will take a lot on your part to get my friendship after all of this, Until I get an apology that's heart felt I just can't have you in my life, You picked everyone over me and really ****ed me over, You can't expect me to be anything in your life that easily.

 

I'm different now, I've developed a back bone and a major confidence boost if you didn't finish me I'd still be a little worm crawling at your feet, Nothing will ever be the same again now and for that, I could never take you back should you ever discover just how good for you I was, If not the best for you.

 

I cherished being your first and only time for everything and being your first and only love, Clearly you didn't, If you did we'd still be together, Knowing I'd never be able to say that again in the future just ruins it for me, I'll never again be that person you loved, I'll be better, Have a nice life =]

[AcaciaStrain]

Ex kept staring at me last night, dunno why, she just did. Then woke up to a text of her saying "why didnt you say bye? night **** x."

 

 

sigh. Don't understand anymore.

[Roadlesstaken]

To my ex husband,

 

Saw the skank you left me for yesterday at the grocery store. She was gawking at me and probably surprised that I haven't gone to pieces over you. I am sure that since I took you to the cleaners during our divorce and you are now singing the post divorce financial stress blues, that your days are numbered with her. Better yet, she left three previous husbands for other men, so what makes you so special? I am sure that she is now considering returning you since you are no prize. Make sure to tell her that she should have read the buyer beware caveat when I filed for divorce from you which emphatically stated "no returns".

[cloudstoday]

Dear S,

How much I am missing you today. I'm trying to focus on work but my mind keeps drifting to you. I was so lonely alone in bed last night, I had a dream about you. But I know it's not going to work. That if we got back together nothing would change. I would be miserable again. So goodbye, please don't call me anymore. Please let me stop loving you on my own.

Love T

[Anxiety]

I still can not stop thinking of you. I lay in bed before the alarmclock goes off thinking of you, I think of you all day, and I go to sleep thinking of you.

 

Because of the way you treated me, and as strong as your personality is, I know I wouldn't be totally happy. But I still want you back so bad. You've turned me into the biggest wuss. I cry while watching TV when I see 2 people in love, or a nice father-daughter moment...since I miss your daughter so much too...I miss being a daddy.

 

Now I'm miserable without you. I love you so much. I don't know how I can ever stop loving you. I will forever be cursed by being in love with someone who no longer loves me.

[angelboots]

Happy Valentines day you ********* ************ ************* ********!!!

 

GRRRRR quit playing the friends card, quit saying you want me back, I am all you think about, you havent moved on yet ect ect ECT.............. then trying to follow it up with sex CRAP and when I say that comes with time you go all M.I.A???

 

I am worth more then just a piece of F@CKING A%SS!!

 

I am NOT YOUR FRIEND, I AM NOT YOUR FALL BACK GIRL, I AM NOT STUPID your excuses and motives are so obvious even a 10 year old could call your bluff. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH FINALLY.............. it took me long enough but enough is enough! If you really had thoughts of wanting me or even respected me on ANY LOVE BASED LEVEL EVEN THAT OF A FRIEND... you would have responded at the least a "you too" when I wished you a happy hallmark day and asked if you tuned in to my show this morning..

 

Your just constantly angling for ass. Like I told you at the start;

 

"when YOU decided you wanted to change our realationship from that of BF/GF to just "friend" the only thing that changed was that YOU no longer got SEX from ME"

 

Dumb ass mother ****er....... Im out.

[rg123]

goddammit. what the ****? it's valentine's day and i always expected that you'd cave and come back. guess i was wrong. i'm a ****ing idiot, huh?

 

guess what? i'm sitting here feeling like utter **** that i'm not with you on this stupid holiday. i have actual pain in my heart - a first. i never thought it was a real thing, that people just made it up. well either i'm having a heart attack or it's real. love hurts. and i still ****ing love you, you pathetic anemic dishonest hooker. WHY? because it was really great. but then you turned into a weirdo ****ing fame whore and never returned to sanity. and there's a part of me that hopes that you'd wake the **** up and see what was there all along. (yeah, i never actually cussed at you like this, but you're not going to read it, so die, whore. )

 

i saw a picture of you from a birthday party i didn't go to last week. you look like ****. really bad. you are a cute girl. what's wrong? do you, oh I don't know, regret it? do you know you're an idiot? or are you maybe intentionally looking like a wreck around our acquaintances so that they'll give you pity and feed the empty hole in your heart with bull****? or maybe that guy you were ****ing (and I KNOW you were ****ing him, you terrible liar) left your pathetic ass? i'm gunning for all of the above.

 

i'm so glad i deleted your number, because i almost ****ing called you a second ago. that would have done no one any good. i know you are a disaster. you might be able to have an actual relationship once you get over all your ****, but as that could take a lifetime, i'm going to take my love elsewhere. where it will be appreciated.

 

**** you and have a loveless valentines day.

[alimpo83]

I hope your valentine's day is awful. I hope you suffer because of your new boyfriend, you don't deserve to be happy. You simply don't. You made my life a living hell since the breakup and you ran away. Face your actions, grow up! You are an horrible person, what you say is rubbish and the woman I knew is dead.

 

I cry on the inside, I suffer like never before. But life will make you suffer two times harder.

 

[Free spirit86]

Fucccccckkk!!! I wish I didn't have this gnawing desire to contact you! What is wrong with me?!! This hurts so much!!! I wrote that email-I shouldn't have sent it. I am not trying to get back with you-I hope that you realize that. I just thought that job would be of some interest to you. Why the **** should I give a **** about you when can't even respond. I just feel like I didn't do anything wrong to deserve this. I am so exhausted from thinking about you. I thought I was doing better, but no it still hurts so much. I just want to talk to you. I just want to take a pill and forget about you already. I want you to go away. Please go away pleaseeeee. The pain just isn't worth it. Please leave my thoughts. Please take those memories. I want to stop crying. I want to stop wondering. I want it all to stop. I feel so miserable. Sometimes, I feel really good but it all comes down, and then I'm down. I just can't take it anymore. I hate feeling like I just have to forget. I hate it so much.

[D78]

Dear JH,

 

The house was so quiet when you used to go out of town. I knew when you would return based on how many days were silent. You would wake me up playing music, or whatever...

 

So yesterday, I woke up and thought wow it's been silent for a really long time. When is he coming home? And I had to actually think about it for a bit before realizing - duh you're never coming home.

 

I told my mom about this, and she looked at me like it was the saddest thing she'd heard in a while.

 

I don't even want you back. I hate myself for crying over this.

[GreenPolicy]

Dear Christen,

 

It ticks me off to no end that you were sh*tty to me and then turned the page without ever looking back. I know you are blocking it all out and are good at compartmentalizing your emotions so you don't have to think about or deal with cutting me loose after the plans we made for the future together.

 

I don't wish you unhappiness in life. I truly do hope that if we can't be together, that you one day meet another guy who is like me and treats and loves you like I did. And when that happens, you don't f*ck it up like you did with me. But in the meantime I do want you to suffer some consequences for what you did to me. I want you to endure the consequences of making bad decisions.

 

I will never wrap my head around or understand the quick turnaround from "I love you so much, you're the best guy I've ever had, I can't wait until we're married, God has finally brought the person I'm supposed to be with into my life" to wanting me out of it in such a short space of time.

[Zansatsu]

Roxy,

 

I was a fool to let you go. I miss you and I wish things could have been different. I love you.

 

Maybe I'm just saying this because I can't have you. Maybe it's because it's V-Day. Maybe it's because I can feel our primes ticking away and I want a family. Could just be that I just miss you. Times were good.

 

I left the apartment. Too many things reminded me of you, not to mention the ton of money I will save. At least here, I can move forward and not mope. If I could have gone with you, I would have. If I could have made you stay, I would have. I'm sorry if I never listened to you.

 

Now you are like a ghost, when all you wanted to do before was talk. Now that I want to, you don't want to? Our timing is way out-of-sync. Oh well. If you ever come back to Georgia, gimme a call. I hope you have a wonderful time in Alaska. Thank you for everything and take care of yourself. I love you and miss you and Ollie. Te amo y te quiero mucho.

 

Alex

[SimonSerenade]

It's finally sinking in now that your gone for good and that my life is going to be without you now, It's a shame we had to end but looking at you now, It was the right thing to do, Maybe one day far off in the future we can be together again but that will be a long time off when you've grown up and learned how to appreciate and respect what you have in life, Lucas has been saying he don't like you cause you shout, If I find out it happens more and more then believe me, I will take him off you legally and that'll be the end of it, I may have been willing to suffer for you in the past but it's quite clear Lucas prefers living in a house less crowded with people who don't shout at him.

 

I should hate you but I don't, That's a good sign I think, I don't love you either, I'm just happy with my life and the simplistic routine I have found myself in, I'm working at making myself better, You'll never get the best of me again cause my best will always be better than you, I hope you know that

[Blueberry7691]

I'm glad I texted you yesterday. I don't regret it. At least I know you don't hate me. Jerk!!

 

I want to text you today but I won't. I have to go back to NC.

 

I want to text you 'I LOVE YOU!!!' and 'I MISS YOU!' but I can't. I don't want to start up again. I woke up this morning, telling myself I don't want to resume any kind of communication with you. I'm so much better off without you even though it hurts, and I'm sad at times, and I miss you.

 

Let's just keep it the way it is. I don't hate you. I just want my life back. I'm getting better and I've come a long way!!!

 

take care.

[radiodarcy]

ok ok so i broke NC after you contacted me last week and have been initiating contact ever since. now it seems you're back to intermittent contact. being distant. same old tricks! goodness it didn't take you long, did it? not that i'm surprised. and while i initially found myself running in circles like a dog suffering from separation anxiety, the recovery period was much faster than it was before and after a few hours of chasing my tail i just sort of - - calmed down and let it go. my guess is you dropped in for some easy tail and once you realized it wasn't going to happen, you pulled your disappearing act. you're used to me giving you all the answers about what i'm thinking and feeling and giving you whatever else you wanted without having to ask for it. well - - those days are over. i'm not giving you any more answers unless you ask for them and i'm not going to be your back-burner girl (no questions asked), either.

 

maybe there's something to this NC after all. not only did it give me greater clarity, but i'm doing a lot better than i thought i was. i mean - - i did make it three months without talking to you what's another 3 or 4 or 6 or ....

 

look, i'm not saying i don't still have feelings for you because i do. but i'm done with selling myself out. i'm the one who has to live with the decisions i make, not you. in the past you just got to zip up your pants and leave. well i've decided i don't want to replay that scene anymore. besides you know enough now that you can't plead ignorance anymore. if you have any questions ask me. but don't expect me to make it easy for you. you can't slam the door on me one minute and then seamless try to move through it the next...

Edited February 15, 2011 by radiodarcy

[Blueberry7691]

I'm thinking contacting you yesterday was a mistake. Geez, makes me feel like i took a GIANT step back!! UGH!!

 

I deleted ur # from my cell. This way, I'll have to actually think about ur tel. # if I feel like reaching out. Hopefully not.

 

I have plans on Monday and I'm looking forward to them. Guess I should focus on that and not on you. Why do you consume my thoughts. I sit here and wonder if you do the same.

 

Well, back to NC!! Still don't regret yeterday but...gotta get back on track.

 

Love ya you stupid idiot!!! xoxoxo

[starryeyed12]

I feel alone even when I have you next me. Looks like we've been through too much to ever go back.

 

How many times do I have to say that?

 

 

I am alone.

[SimonSerenade]

Life is good at the moment couldn't be better actually so please please please don't spoilt that and never ever try to be a part of my life any more, the only niggle I have now is forgetting you all together and coming to terms with the fact that were no longer a part of each other's lives, just know that you'll never ever find better than me and geuss what, you'll never have me again I'm way too good for you, Grow up and stand on your own two feet, pathetic girl.

[makelemonade1974]

You are such a loser. It is so obvious to me and to so many other people in our department what a pompous, self-absorbed, whining, lying, self-aggrandizing, ridiculous ass you are. If you think I'm at home crying because you are socially ostracizing me and excluding me from your group of "special" artist-people then you are sorely mistaken. I don't give a flying frick about the shallow, unethical, narcissistic, self-congratulatory, machiavellian pieces of ****e that you hang out with. I have ethics. I am a better person then you ever deserved and you certainly didn't deserve two years of my life. I am so glad I am rid of you before I let you get involved more extensively with my children, who you would have mind-fricked even more than you did me. How DARE you walk around on the face of the earth abusing people and then discarding them like trash. You are nothing. NOTHING. Underneath that facade, that persona you create to get your praise, your congratulations, your ability to suck the life out of people - underneath that is NOTHING. And you have to look in the mirror every day and see that nothing, and I'm glad of it.

 

You think you are a great poet? You think you deserve to be treated like W.S. frickin Merwin? How many publications have you had this year - NONE. I have a better chance of getting published then you do, because my poetry actually contains empathy for other people - because i actually feel real emotions.

 

You can go ahead and ride the coat tails of these "special" people who are fifty times more successful than you, but they are never going to make you a talented poet. Because the fact is - the reason you aren't getting published - is because you SUCK. You weren't a freaking olympic gymnast, you don't know Latin AT ALL (and I loved the day you avoided those translations when I asked you about them). You don't speak Spanish (as evidenced on the platform in Italy when that Spanish woman approached us - you are no freaking linguist and your prose style and criticism is laughable.

 

You think I am sitting at home pining over you because you abused me, dumped me when I had cancer, assassinated my character, whined and complained on our entire trip through Europe, gave me absolutely NO emotional expression at all, and now are acting like an infant and pretending I don't exist when we work on the same GD literary journal together? How DARE you interfere with my professional opportunities, just because you are jealous that I won that award and you didn't. You are a narcissistic piece of crap and let me tell you something - you will NEVER find another woman like me. You will NEVER find someone who will love and care for you like I did, and you will probably never have sex again because you are UGLY and you NEED A HAIRCUT.

 

Okay - rant over. I feel SO MUCH BETTER. ahhhhhh

[SimonSerenade]

I'm feeling great at the moment, Feels like my life is finally starting without you now and I'm beginning to accept our relationship is done and dusted for good more and more each day, I feel now the only thing left to really accept is that your not in my life anymore and I have no intention for you to be in any way what so ever, I'll know I'm over it when I can finally look you in the eye without one single feeling of discomfort, Hopefully that day will come sooner than I hope, You threw us away and run us in to the ground, I take no responsibility for it, Just know that you've blown your last chance with me now and I will never ever love you again, You chose terrible people over me time and time again and put me to the bottom of your to do list, I deserved so much better than that, One day I'll get it for sure and it'll be way more than you could ever give.

[SimonSerenade]

The reason I hated you the most just occurred to me, You always made me out to be somebody that I wasn't and claimed I wanted things I did not, It really did my head in how low you thought of me at time's, You never really went in to great detail for how you were treated back then but here's hoping one day you won't be able to find a reason to justify treating me that way cause in all honesty it was childish, pathetic and down right idiotic.

[Blueberry7691]

Hey,

It's amazing how my feelings change.

 

I'm at the point now that I'm feeling good I have my life back. Yeah, you still cross my mind but at least I don't feel that weight on my shoulders. I'm not upset and crying for the lost friendship anymore.

 

The other night, when we texted a bit, I felt so distant from you. I wasn't feeling it for you or from you and I was fine with it. I'm really ready to keep moving on. i feel good.

 

Oh, yesterday I was going to block you from my cell but I felt soo bad. Not because I want you to contact me which I don't think you will, but because i don't want to hurt you like that. If by chance you reach out, fine but I'm not looking for it or expecting it. And you know what, if I see you out there, it's okay. I'll say hi, wave, maybe chit chat but that's it.

 

The days of us texting 24/7 are over and I'm glad. It took me over 3 years to free myself from this codependent unhealthy relationship. I'm not blaming you at all. We were both at fault.

 

I almost wasn't going to write this but I thought maybe it's therapeutic for me.

 

take care

[silvermane187]

I saw what you wrote on your friends wall on valentines day. "violent conflict pretty much sums up every relationship i've ever been in". You ****ing lying piece of **** bitch. I was the only serious relationship you've ever been in, and I never laid a ****ing finger on you in anger during our 3 years together. I never abused you in any way, and you go around acting like a ****ing victim, needing your "support system" to deal with dumping me, **** YOU! In fact you're the one who has kicked and slapped me in the head out of anger. You ****ing two faced hypocritical crazy cunt.

 

I tried to be your friend 4 months after getting dumped and you ****ing ignore like nothing, put up a picture of you with some guy, then have the nerve to tell me I cause you pain? **** you. I hope one day you fall in love with someone, (real love not lying to yourself for 3 years)and he dumps your ****ing ass out of the blue without ever trying to work it out. I don't have the words to describe my resentment for you now. All you had to do was put in a ****ing effort. Even with all this I still love you and hate myself for not being able to stop thinking about you. FML.

Edited February 17, 2011 by silvermane187

[radiodarcy]

so you got the worm squirming back on the hook again. i'd like to say i can't believe i let this happen again. but i did. luckily no sex was involved this time. good thing i was smart enough to not let that happen.

 

knowing you, you baited me because you wanted to see if you still could. what a cold cold heart you have. i'm sure you will find a woman to be in a long term relationship with and i hope she has just as cold a heart as you do. it would serve you right. of course, you're so self absorbed that you would never see the parallels between how she treated you and how you treated me. i really do pity you. you have no self-awareness whatsoever. you see your offers of friendship to me as sign of how forgiving and compassionate you are i see it as a game that you play to keep me at bay while you're exploring other options while at the same time keeping me on hand to serve your own needs. cynical? yes. but hey - - look at who i'm dealing with...