Andymack Posted May 21, 2011 Share Posted May 21, 2011 Hey Corryn I just want to say I miss you so so much. I wish everything could be the way that it was and I wish that we could just be together again. I know that will never happen now that you are seeing someone else and I guess it was just a matter of time before that happened. I really want you to know that I never meant to do anything to hurt you and wish I could turn back time and right all the wrongs. I still love you and I think I'll always love you and can't see how anyone else will compare. I'm such a mess without you. I wish you would come back Link to post Share on other sites
collegeguy_24 Posted May 21, 2011 Share Posted May 21, 2011 Hello Jen Hows Europe? Yes I know your there, your mother told me. How are you doing? Enjoying it? Shag any one there yet? I have become a very bitter person because of you. You lied to me, cheated on me, and refuse to accept responsibility. I tried to be friends and once again, you led me on until you just stopped responding. I remember your last email very well. You lied in that email. I never said I would wait for you to contact me. I told you, numerous times, I would contact you when I was ready. Now your twisting the truth around for your own means. Your evil, pure evil. But you know what, I have become evil to. I owe it all to you. You made me realize that nice guys really do finish last. Because of that realization you gave me, I have started to change. I am purging myself of love, kindness, compassion. You made me realize those are emotions for the weak. All that matters in this world is power, and the means to obtain it. I still miss you. Even after everything you did to me I still miss you. The only love I have left is for you, I have obliterated the rest. I have lost my trust and respect for you. I have more respect for the bug on my cars windshield then what I have for you. And this is all by your own making. You can change this. You can earn back my trust and respect. You can earn back my friendship, and possibly, my heart. You would just have to work for it. But I know you won't. You don't have what it takes. Your a coward who would rather give up all her self dignity and become a glorified sex toy for men on campus then to actually put forth an effort for a relationship with the only man who loves you. And I'm the only man who loves you. Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted May 22, 2011 Share Posted May 22, 2011 See, I'm more peaceful when you two aren't contacting me. Can't help but imagine your faces if you find out I'm not in our home state anymore - and that I didn't tell you. :lmao: You two used to be one of my go-to people, but in the wake of how y'all treated our friendship? Goodbye! Waste your energy in getting in touch and I actually don't have to do a thing. No use pointing out what y'all didn't do. Most lessons are learned best through self-realizations and this is one of those lessons. Link to post Share on other sites
Radke Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 You broke my heart, why are u putting this pain on me, i would have given up everything for u, i miss u so much, please just come back, just for one second, i love you. please i can't do this without u, and i am so scared im frightend of dieing now... i want to so badly, i need u, i need you to hold me like i did for you... please Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 Today is one month from when you left and shattered my soul. One month since you ripped apart our bright and shiny future. When you choose your selfishness over my heart. I am so sorry I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be. I'll be myself and find someone else who will love me for it, while you'll go searching for the perfect partner to fit your perfect life. I not sure anyone will fit your unreal expectations and put up with your emotionally stunted personality, your inability to feel or express emotions, your inability to get close to anyone, your prudishness and inability to let go of yourself. But I don't care because I am starting to feel like I've been set free, open to new experiences and a new life. Open to someone who will show me their love, express their emotions and be an equal partner with me. They're out there.... unlike your unrealistic dream partner. Good luck with that. Link to post Share on other sites
Frank13 Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 God, once again I am so close to contacting you. Just a text to say "Hi". I don't even want a reply. I don't want to talk to you. I don't even know why I want to do this as I know nothing will change. Maybe I just want you to think about me for a few seconds, but why, it won't change anything. Meanwhile I am trying so hard not to think about you, but that doesn't stop it from happening. I guess part of the problem is that I was doing so well with nc but feel I have gone back to day one and have stayed there for the past 10 days. Link to post Share on other sites
NSDNQ Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 call my love for you pathetic and creepy all you want, and like i said to an extent it is, but when I look around and I see all these chicks with boyfreinds that dont do **** for them, that use them, that abandon them when they need them most, I'm perfectly fine with how much effort I put into attempting to make us work. yeah I got angry, yes I hurt you, yes I put alot of strain & stress on you, and yes things didnt work out and theres a %99.99999999999999999 percent chance it never ever will in a million year's, but you know what? when push came to shove I was there for you. I gave up an offer for a comfortable and affordable apartment in a beautifull neighborhood two blocks away from my work, where I was getting overtime every week, doing work I enjoyed doing. I left some of the most important people in my family. I risked my long term career. I put up with the hell that you shall never begin to imagine of having to live with my mother for two months. willingly. I spent my last dime (like literally my last dime, the very last peice of currency I had to my name) time and time again on rides up to greene, and when I ran out of money you know what I did? I literally walked 20 miles up hill in three feet of snow (once with 70 lbs of camping equipment on my back). and why did I do this? partly becuase I'm used to doing crap like walking 20 miles with a bunch of stuff on my back in the army and its something that doesnt bother me all too much, but the real reason was simply this: to make you happy. to come through for you. to be someone you could count on when you said you needed me, or even at a time or two only just wanted me. to be someone you could truely depend on. you can list a million reasons we're not right for eachother but you will never find a guy that will offer you half as much of himself as I offered. even the all mighty and majestic travis. who over the course of, what eight years? never not once could spare two hundred and fifty bucks for a greyhound ticket to come see you? I make that and more in a week. how many weeks are there in eight years? how many opportunities did he pass up to spend time with you? how many times did he fail to make you a priority? so whatever he texts her or tells you over the phone that worked so well to make you fall in love with him, whatever promises he makes you, whatever "IT" is that he does that makes you so happy, my deepest gratitude for him doing that and making you feel as special as you truely are. I mean that, as sincerly as sincere can be. but me and you had something special. something real. something in the here and motherf*cking now. something you could reach out and touch and taste and see with your own two eyes in the way we looked at echother, the way we held eachother. something you dont see all that often at all in the world. something you could feel in the air around us, but could never quite put your finger on. something most people go there entire lives never being fortunate enough to have. it ran its course. it went ****ty very quick becuase we're young and stupid and didnt know how to handle something like that. it got out of hand fast. It stirs up powerfull **** in the very bottom of who you are as a person when you find something that rare. so we ruined it. we ****ed it up. we took turns ripping this wonderfull thing we found to peices. its a hindsight 20/20 kind of thing when I look back at it. I didnt realize how delicate what we had was, and you probably wont see it for what it could have been for a long long time. so you can bet your ass I dont regret a damned once of blood sweat and tears I put into that relationship. not for a second. you thinks travis is your one and only then I wish you the best, I hope when he finaly holds you at night you close your eyes and falls asleep sound as can be like how you did the night at the party. I got plenty of peices of arm candy to keep me from getting lonely at night. and even if its never quite the same as holding you, well like you said "**** happens". You threw away a fantastic opportunity sunshine Link to post Share on other sites
doodels Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 Hi ****, It was around this time a few years back when we first met.... Sometimes, I would give anything just to have that first day back when I first met you, just so I could see your face again. I miss you... You're the one person that I am certain I always will, until the day comes that I leave this earth... Link to post Share on other sites
mysticnights Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 Hey you, YOU drive me INSANE YOU KNOW THAT? I dont get why I still look at your Facebook profile to see what you're up to. I have a girlfriend that treats me soo much better than you did but I can't seem to grasp the fact that you're gone. Out there. Doing your own thing. I know that you're not at your happiest because you face shows it all. And I know that I'm happy but whenever your name or face cross my path, the mood changes. soo quickly. Why did you dump me? We were going perfectly strong. We didn't argue. I was being myself. And you liked it. You know what.. **** YOU! I'm done thinking about this ****. GO **** YOURSELF. -Ex Boyfriend Link to post Share on other sites
brokendreamz Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 I was ill. After 8 years you should have spoken to me about what was going on in your head. I'm better now but you're gone. Someone on here quoted 'the opposite of love isn't hate... it's indefference. I never really understood that statement till now. I'll never think bad of you for leaving - but we should have talked. I love you. Goodbye. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 I wish you hadn't rang me this morning, there was simply no point to it, none what so ever, I'm sorry to hear about your friend dying and so many of your family being in the hospital at the moment, for them mind, not you, a part of you deserves this for how cruel and heartless you've been through out all of this, as for the other part, that's gone now and what a shame, such a waste of a wonderful person, you sounded miserable and bitter, so far from the person I used to know and love, maybe a few months back this would of been a sit back but I realised something when you talked to me, I can do much better and I'm no longer fond of your voice, the only part of you I miss is the part that's never coming back, that part of you is dead and buried, maybe one day in a few years you'll look back and regret what you did and how you treated me, as for your so called "gift" of being "psychic", wise up and get real, you ain't got nothing you stupid fool, your such a pathetic freak these days, I'm glad to be away from you. Link to post Share on other sites
NSDNQ Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 what is it your new guy does thats so special? didnt what we have ever mean anything to you? its not that bad baby. we can work it out. c'mon we had had some great times, you really think thats gone forever? I know I'm all over the place but we just didnt know hoe to handle things, no I didnt know how to handle things. forget about him. come back to me. let me make you happy again... Link to post Share on other sites
lost_one_01 Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 Today is one month from when you left and shattered my soul. One month since you ripped apart our bright and shiny future. When you choose your selfishness over my heart. I am so sorry I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be. I'll be myself and find someone else who will love me for it, while you'll go searching for the perfect partner to fit your perfect life. I not sure anyone will fit your unreal expectations and put up with your emotionally stunted personality, your inability to feel or express emotions, your inability to get close to anyone, your prudishness and inability to let go of yourself. But I don't care because I am starting to feel like I've been set free, open to new experiences and a new life. Open to someone who will show me their love, express their emotions and be an equal partner with me. They're out there.... unlike your unrealistic dream partner. Good luck with that. Sounds like my ex..especially emotionally stunted part. I just have hard time believing people can be so cold and calculating. Idiot I am I fell back into it more than I want to admit. So Jayne...go **** yourself. You contacted me again..saying you want to see me in person then ignore me a few weeks later with no explanation..like usual. How dare you bitch..do you get off on causing me so much pain?? I would have done anything for you...and you know that..why you keep doing this to me. Well no more..you do not realize how much you ****ed me up again...so just leave me be and go find yourself another victim Link to post Share on other sites
Damien Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 Hey you, It's been 7 months and you're still in my head, why? Get the **** out already! Nah, really. I hope you're doing fine and all. For someday Karma will come back and bite you in the ass. As for me? I've hit the gym and been far more athletic and healthier than I've ever been. I no longer sit at home playing Video Games, I go out with friends and meet new people all the time. So I hear you're studying in China in September? Good for you! I'm going there next year also to study for 4 years and you better pray you do not run into me, for this time I won't be as nice. Same goes to your new boyfriend. Just you wait and see, I will meet that special someone that will make you pale in comparison. (To LS: I just want to say thank you to the community and the OP for coming up with such a wonderful idea! Even after writing all this I feel a lot of weight lifted.) Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted May 23, 2011 Share Posted May 23, 2011 I'm trying not to think about you all of the time, but it isn't easy. I wonder if you still wake up in the middle of the night wondering if you made the right decision. I still wake up in the middle of the night, and I think of you. I believe you'll be back - maybe it's just a false hope, but I can't shake the idea that you may come back. If you do, I hope you decide it's forever. If you don't... I do want you to be happy, in spite of my selfish want for you in my life. But I don't think you'll be happier without me in the long run. I wonder if I will be happier without you? None of this makes much sense. I'm sorry this happened, and I love you. Time to start being the person I want to be. Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted May 24, 2011 Share Posted May 24, 2011 You moved out three weeks ago and now you're having a house warming party in the new condo? How very gauche. I am jealous though, some, but not of you, but mostly that I'm not spending that fun time with those colleagues and friends we shared. Link to post Share on other sites
Anxiety Posted May 24, 2011 Share Posted May 24, 2011 I sent you a card for Mother's Day, it was a nice card I thought you would get a chuckle out of it. But to my surprise, I get home yesterday, and the card is in my mailbox because you wrote "Return to Sender" on the card. Who does this? It's a mothers day card for god sake. I know you didn't get anything from your Mother or your Sister. They didn't get you anything for your birthday, so I know Mother's Day is out of the question. So you sent back the only thing you probably received. Do you hate me that much? And why would you hate me, I've done nothing to deserve the way you treated me during or after our relationship. You would always tell me you thought you were rotten, and I would say "No your not, your wonderful". Well, you really are rotten. I just loved you too much to see it, or accept it. Who else but you would call some Cop buddies to try to get them to pull over your boss. All because he wanted to know when you left for lunch and you didn't like that he was "keeping track of you" He's your boss, that's part of his job. I can't believe we were almost married. Now I can only imagine the agony you would have put me through by yelling at me or putting me down at every opportunity. I just hope you didn't permanently scar me for life, because I don't want to turn into you. I'm lonely and want some companionship, but I'm afraid to date again. I'm afraid that I'm not going to live up to someone's standards and that all women I meet will be like you. I tried to bring a smile to your face, but I guess you would rather live in your paranoid little world where you think everyone is out to get you. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted May 25, 2011 Share Posted May 25, 2011 It would appear my best friend has now been given the same treatment as me and his ex left him just as you left me, seems like she has a lot of growing up to do just like yourself, I'm starting to realise more and more why you caused the petty little arguments between us and why you constantly made me out to be such a bad boy, you were hoping I'd walk away from you so that you may have your freedom, I hope this freedom makes you happy because you've just denied yourself as well as our son a very good life with a proper family, one day in the future you'll realise, as do a lot of people but it's already too late, I sometime's think back and I remember the precious times we shared when you were pregnant and the way we felt for each other back then but suddenly you changed and there was nothing I could do about it so I don't beat myself up any more because I tried my hardest and even if I saw this coming, there was still simply nothing I could do about it and right now it's the same for my friend but I'll pull him through this, I'll make damn sure of that. Link to post Share on other sites
NSDNQ Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 happy birthday sunshine. i miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
flyman Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 Everything about you annoys me. You have no guts. You are irresponsible. You cannot take care of yourself. You are weak. You always come to me whenever you are in distress. You were never there when I needed you the most. You had no plans in life. You showed no empathy. You are gaining weight. You were never caring. You have a retarded sense of humor. You never listened to my advice. Everything about you annoys me. Why do I still think about you? Link to post Share on other sites
NSDNQ Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 Wouldn't it be nice to talk on the long sleepless night I am about to face. This life has become surreal and wordless. Now what? we learn how to be really good at listening to silence. and enjoying it. Link to post Share on other sites
NSDNQ Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 why waste a good night longing for the impossible? why not enjoy **** for a change. when me and my ex used to fight, I would have killed a mother****er for some peace and quiet lol im all alone with two smokes and a shot left. and you know what? I'm having a good time. it would be better with her, but **** it. it would be better with a magical unicorn made out of coke too lol Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 enjoy your shallow meaningless existence fueled by your flat stomach and halle berry look alike girlfriend. sooner or later reality is going to come crashing down around you and your going to realize you have to deal with the real world like the rest of us. and no i will not be there to hold your hand when that realization hits you. you had your chance and you threw it away. not my problem. grow up and start dealing with your own issues you can't hide behind pretty faces and inside banging bodies forever... Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 oh and by the way -- beating up a guy and pissing all over him is nothing to brag about. i'm sure your gf will be very impressed by it. but i find that to be incredibly foul behavior - - regardless of how old you were when you did it. then again - -it doesn't surprise me that you enjoy kicking people while their down... mercy and compassion arent exactly your strong points. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted May 26, 2011 Share Posted May 26, 2011 Saw on the news that 2 people died in a crackdown on protests in the capitol of the country you're in. I hope you are ok, and I hope you stay safe. I hope you read that little stay safe memo I sent you, even though you didn't seem to care at the time. I love you. I'm trying to let you go, but **** like this does NOT help. Link to post Share on other sites
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