starmar Posted May 27, 2011 Share Posted May 27, 2011 It seemed to me that we had something really good. I was happy. Only to find out you were sleeping with your ex. The ex you were talking so mucj sh*t on with me. Calling her all kinds of names. In hindsight, that should have been my red flag that you still had feelings for her. And should have given me insight into your character. The flowers, poems, candy and all the attention you gave me was unnecessary. If you were just playing me why go the extra mile? That's just plain cruel. Going to church with me? wanting to meet my children and talking about our future...that was taking it a bit too far. This past weekend you purposely didnt call me. Because you knew that would get a reaction, you even told me and when I reacted you proceeded to start a fight and tell me I needed space. At the time I didnt know that you were still sleeping with your ex. Wouldn't it be so convenient to have me break up with you...how cowardly. The next day your ex texted me your picture and proceeded to insult me. why? was that necessary. It is clear to me that you two deserve each other. I hope you get what you deserve. Link to post Share on other sites
Rory12345 Posted May 27, 2011 Share Posted May 27, 2011 It's good to see that you have completely forgotten me after a month of splitting up. How you said you weren't interested in anyone yet you have been going out with other men. This then shows that you lied about saying you wouldn't be the same person before we got together. Cheers. I thought I would mean more than that to you. I still care but I know you don't give a rat's arse. Link to post Share on other sites
Rory12345 Posted May 27, 2011 Share Posted May 27, 2011 Gee, my ex is a girl, and I feel the same way about her. Except the whole "love" part. She dumped me and moved on without a second thought. -tp the "starter" boyfriend Your post maybe 4 years ago but I am in the same place now! Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted May 28, 2011 Share Posted May 28, 2011 Where we are rubbing butts in my Mom's kitchen. I tore it up. Link to post Share on other sites
Username37 Posted May 28, 2011 Share Posted May 28, 2011 You're such a different girl and you're getting a bad rep now. I mean, why would you give your new bf a handjob in the back of the bus that was filled with people you know around you? You're pathetic Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted May 28, 2011 Share Posted May 28, 2011 Was feeling a wee bit better over the last few days. But it's been hitting me like a sledgehammer today. Losing you, losing my lifestyle, losing my future, if it weren't for my kids I'd seriously consider checking out. My stomach is one big twisted knot. My heart is aching. I haven't slept more than 4 or 5 hours a night for a month. I'm so tired. You hurt me so very deeply and said so many mean, cruel things. How could you do me like this? How can you act like this? Just completely throw me away? Why did you have to do this in such an immature way? Cheating and deceit and hiding your true feelings all this time -- only to drop a bomb on our life together? So cold. Why couldn't you tell me you were unhappy? Work on it or get counselling before throwing away 9 years? You are so immature and selfish. Link to post Share on other sites
starmar Posted May 29, 2011 Share Posted May 29, 2011 So today your ex emails me this long nasty email. How she's going to fight me etc etc The first thing I thought is why am I still on your minds I'm relieved that you're not in my life anymore. I deleted the email...I should have saved it and pressed charges but neither one of you are worth it. Link to post Share on other sites
Steven T Posted May 29, 2011 Share Posted May 29, 2011 I cried yesterday. Things in my everyday life triggers memories of you and what we once had. I saw a girl the other day who wore ugg boots and denim leggings... thats what you used to wear. I wanted us to work it out and forget all the arguments we have had. I believed we could be like we once were, happy and in love. You said you wanted things to be like they were before too but you also said you were to scared to try as you didnt want either of us to get hurt. That shows me you dont trust in me or us and wont be positive for us. I feel like you messed with my emotions so I had to let you go, I had to be cruel to be kind. I cant waste anymore time trying to put things right and getting nothing back from you. All the best in your life and thanks for the memories and experiences you have given me they made me happy. Link to post Share on other sites
Rory12345 Posted May 29, 2011 Share Posted May 29, 2011 I saw you today in the library, you didn't see me. Emotions swamped all over and I felt sick and still do. I realized how everything you said after we split up, every promise, was a lie. It hurts so much. Link to post Share on other sites
NewMoon2203 Posted May 30, 2011 Share Posted May 30, 2011 Truth be told I'm a wreck, but I can't let you see that. Want to scream I miss you, but I can't. Truth be told I adore you, but that isn't what you want to hear. Let me tell you... I still love you. Inside I'm dying, praying that one day you'll open your eyes. Open your heart and realise it was all a mistake. Inside I'm crying, broken and remaining confused, Trapped... I did nothing. Playing a game, with my heart as the dice. That cruel little smile says it all. Playing a game, not caring about the the price, Your killing me... and so I fall. Sick as it is, I still want you my dear. Many would hate you, not me. Sick as it is, I keep hanging on to you. I'm your doormat... your doll. Link to post Share on other sites
betterdeal Posted May 30, 2011 Share Posted May 30, 2011 I won't tell you this directly for two reasons: First, I don't want the backlash. Your fury is detestable. Second, I don't wish for you to commit suicide or go insane, which are both things you have threatened to do when faced with difficulties. I rejected you not because you had sex for money in the past; but rather because you said you "were sold". You're an intelligent, middle-class white girl; not a destitute, ignorant member of the underclass. You said you believed in free love; then bawled your eyes out when I went to see a film with Eve. You went on a date with your colleague's husband, yet you described it as "he wined and dined me". You use sex and men as weapons; yet you crumble when any woman talks to me. You said you saw me as a brother, then call me gay for treating you like a sister. You rejected me a dozen times, and the one time I rejected you, you wouldn't let go. You idolize your father, yet it is he, and your mother, who made you such a mess. It's not because you used to take heroin; rather it is because you said it was yet another man who cajoled you into it. You accused me of keeping my options open whilst you were discussing moving in with your ex. Why is it you have no female friends? Why is it you three exes who all went insane? Why did you revel in the opportunity to rage at me, to mock me? I am not your father. I did not make you who you are. You allude to us being together then tell me you're dating other men. You double dated me. You called me once a month for a booty call but you can't invite me to your house because you have badmouthed me to your housemates. You can't ask to visit my house because then you couldn't say "he convinced / seduced me". You say you're complicated. Complicated like spaghetti. You're a mess. You're not the one for me. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted June 1, 2011 Share Posted June 1, 2011 Hey Tonya, It's been a while since I've last written. I suppose that's partly because I've come to a realization that life does go on. Also, I'm coming into my own with regard to my life and seeing a very positive and exciting future without you! I really did crumble when I used to think of what my life would be like without you -- now I realize life is so exhilarating without you! I am really empowered like I never thought I would be. Think of it -- you decided to fall in love with a bald, old, sickly looking man. My only guess for this would be he's impotent combined with "successful" as you put it. I've moved on, but not quite like you have. I'm taking my time, dating, and deciding what I want in someone. Not just anyone deserves my heart quite like I gave it to you. You fell across my path (metaphorically) and I simply gave you my heart without hesitation because I wanted to love you. You've taught me an incredibly valuable lesson: Only give your heart to those that cherish and deserve it. You simply squandered the best thing that happened to you. While I have an occasional streak of anger that runs through me when I think about what I sacrificed for you and your ungracious and self-entitled nature, for the most part it's over. I find myself just not caring. Why would I want a woman that urinates when she cums anyway? I mean, let's "be real" for a minute - that all by itself would be a miserable long term prospect. After all, you ruined one of my down comforters the first time we ever had sex! Um, next time tell your partner of your "little problem" first - hell, some type of warning! But know that I really will always love you even though you don't deserve it. Love, Jordan Link to post Share on other sites
knathema Posted June 1, 2011 Share Posted June 1, 2011 (edited) has been 2 months now. It's not completely NC, but doing a lot better than before. Still have up and downs, but hitting the gym 6 days a week and I am now in the best shape of my life because of her. Apply the LOA and put yourself on the pedestal time will heal everything, stay strong and hang in there! Edited June 1, 2011 by knathema Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted June 1, 2011 Share Posted June 1, 2011 Still miss you, still ambivalent about you coming back. I hope you do. I hope you don't. Kind of a crazy thing, but then I guess that would be keeping in character. I never thought you'd do this... how full of bull****. Thoughts are scattered, I love yers - but I deserve someone who wouldn't do this. Link to post Share on other sites
NewMoon2203 Posted June 1, 2011 Share Posted June 1, 2011 its funny.... you knew that i have an attachement disorder, and yet you still blame me for being clingy. Hello? You have depression, and do i blame you fore being gloomy and pessimistic? no! seriously sort your life out and realise what youve let go of! Link to post Share on other sites
Flowerzzz Posted June 2, 2011 Share Posted June 2, 2011 B, I like your new profile pic. You look cool. However, your new girl's matching profile pic looks stupid. She isn't as cool as me and you know it. It has been a long time since we talked. Even after all this time away from you, it makes me sad that I lost you...my best friend. Remember the miles and and miles we would walk together? Talking non-stop? I miss walking with you very much. I have a new roommate. It is helping with the bills since you moved out. I know you are living with your new girl. I think you are pathetically naive for moving in with her after only 3 months. But I understand. I don't know why I am missing you so much right now. You only gave me grief in the end. Heather says I can never ever talk to you again. I think she is right. You make me too sad and you hurt me too deeply. peace B! Link to post Share on other sites
Steven T Posted June 2, 2011 Share Posted June 2, 2011 It has been a few weeks since our split. I thought I was dealing with our break up really well, until today. I cried to myself a little in work today. Alot of the amazing times we had spent together came back to me. It's so hard to think I will never kiss your lips again or be laying in bed with you as your head rests on my chest, whilst we play on my Ipod. You were my first love, 2 1/2 years we were together. More importantly you were my best friend. It's a shame we didnt work out. Link to post Share on other sites
starmar Posted June 2, 2011 Share Posted June 2, 2011 I will have my last words for you. You have done me a favor with what you did last weekend. Yeah being betrayed hurt but id rather have it happen sooner than later. I did nothing wrong to you. I did nothing but be a good person with you always made sure you were ok if you were at my house. Always treated you how I wanted to be treated. You on the other hand have been deceitful, repaying evil for good. There is no doubt in my mind that circumstances in your life will remind you of what you did. God is my witness. I'm leaving this in his hands. He knows everything and knows your heart he will deal with you accordingly. I would never be able to live with myself if I would have done what you did. You may drown your guilt with alcohol some days but your conscience will not forget what you've done to me. I promise you that. That heavy feeling in your heart when you think about it will only increase over time. Link to post Share on other sites
starmar Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 And even though you did this to me this month my team was ranked 2nd in the entire area. while you continue to make .50 cents higher than minimum wage You can't even spell. You wrote me a poem and spelled fate " fait" Ugh. I should have broken up with you then. One of my biggest pet peeves is spelling. And I thought that assassination of the word fate was cute.*sigh* I see the irony here. It was fate that took me away from you We were fated ( not faited) to end. The second we settle for less than we deserve we get even less than what we settled for.. If you would have taken an ethics course I'm sure you wouldn't have behaved so unethical and cruel. I hate when I get judgmental like this.... I need to get it out of my system. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 (edited) 2 AM. Thought of you. Won't go read your blog. I hope you don't come back. I think you probably will. I don't want to reject you when you demonstrate to me that you haven't changed in any meaningful way... so please don't come back. Edited June 3, 2011 by Nohbody Link to post Share on other sites
jacksonBrown Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 miss u thinking of you Link to post Share on other sites
starmar Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/irony Correction: "I am sure you wouldn't have displayed such unethical or cruel behavior." Also; "I hate when I become judgmental. " Just playing a bit and hoping to get a smile. His spelling was terrible! Lol Yeah, my grammar isn't perfect. English is my second language...lol Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 whenever i so much as consider contacting you i remind myself of the following: * the fact that only birthday gift i ever got from you was a plastic novelty sex toy; while you gave the married woman you were crushing on a far more respectable gift (i.e. something she had been wanting) because you know - - she's a married woman and you could never give her something like what you sent me! that would be disrespectful. yet - - it's perfectly respectful to send it to me *all the times you had plenty of time to meet with all your other female friends (including said married woman. call me old-fashioned - - but i think it's highly inappropriate to have dinner alone with a married woman - - esp if you have feelings for her, dumb a$$) while you only had time to text or IM me. * telling me the particulars of your last relationship: you two started out as friends, she confessed that she loved you; even though you didn't feel the same you still gave her the chance you refused to give me. but things ended when you couldn't bring yourself to tell her that you loved her. when you finally did come around she was done and refused to take you back. when i told you that i saw a lot of parallels between the way you treated me and her you told me that you weren't thinking along those lines: i.e. you didn't see me as being in the same league as her. actually you were right - - you gave her legitimacy in dating her and calling what you had a relationship which you never did with me. good grief, why i didn't run for the hills after all that i will never know. * your making it seem as though you were doing me a favor by being my "friend". ummm no. make no mistake about it -- i was doing you a favor by continuing to remain in the picture as your friend. my decision to move on and go NC was my decision. not yours. and i don't owe you thanks for that. i owe it to myself. might i point out for all your threats to end the friendship - -I was the one who actually ended it, not you. which should tell you who benefited the most from this so-called friendship. because it sure as hell wasn't me! Link to post Share on other sites
wilsonx Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 Please hurry up and move out of my apartment... So I can heal... Link to post Share on other sites
starmar Posted June 3, 2011 Share Posted June 3, 2011 I do miss the random poems and all the attention you gave me. It's a shame knowing that memory is now tarnished by the harsh reality that you were stringing me along and playing with my emotions. *sigh* I also miss playing you in wordfeud only because I always won. You can't spell to save your life. LOL But yes, I do miss you I guess. But I miss the "you" you were pretending to be, and not the REAL you. Link to post Share on other sites
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