wilsonx Posted June 4, 2011 Share Posted June 4, 2011 Your Gone and Im Sad and Miss You!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted June 4, 2011 Share Posted June 4, 2011 I still miss you. I still want you, even though your cold, cruel actions have deeply ripped me open and I will heal with a scarred heart. But I WILL move on. Link to post Share on other sites
RuinedLife Posted June 4, 2011 Share Posted June 4, 2011 I'm so sorry I let my insecurities ruin our relationship and push you away from me. I would do anything to try again, to change the past or repair the damage I've done. If only you would come back to me, come to talk to me, I'm sure we could work through this. I'm sure we could find a way to make it work. I love you so much... more than I should maybe... Please, please come back to me... I'm so lost without you. Link to post Share on other sites
california15 Posted June 4, 2011 Share Posted June 4, 2011 Have you thought about me at in these last 4 days since you told me it was over and you wanted your stuff back and to have a nice life? Probably not. She's probably consuming your every waking moment and thoughts. I know she's consuming your bedspace. Hurt that I've been in your life 10 years and you nonchalantly said good bye to me permanently because of your new 2 week girl. I think about you 24/7 and still hold true that you're the one for me and that I knew it the year I met you, 10 years ago. I hope one day I can look back with fondness when I hear your name. Not pain from being rejected by my best friend. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted June 4, 2011 Share Posted June 4, 2011 I promise I will never be your friend. No matter what. Ever. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Pikachu Posted June 5, 2011 Share Posted June 5, 2011 Lately Ive been thinking about what makes a person who they are? Losing the home we built together has been incredibly hard on me. It was the place we grew together. The place I always felt safe. The place that I dreamed about returning to at the end of a hard day. Then there was my job. I complained about it (like most due), but its what I did for years. Its what I continued to do for years to keep the house over our head. My puppies have probably been the hardest thing for me to walk away from. No matter what happened in my life they were always there for me. They were our children in our eyes. Finally there was the woman I planned to spend the rest of my life with. The person I trusted and loved more than anyone ive ever met. The woman I spent half of my life with and who would end up costing me everything in the end. So while I think that our home, job, children and love singularly dont mean everything, together they made up who I was. In the matter of a few days I lost my entire identity. Now I struggle to move on to a new life because even though I know my old life is gone I feel like it was stolen away from me with no warning. The worst thing is I dont think you even realize what you have done to me, or you just dont care. Link to post Share on other sites
starmar Posted June 5, 2011 Share Posted June 5, 2011 Hey there, Just wanted to let you know that just as fate would have it ... ( that's f-a-t-e you spelling bee champion you) but yes, as fate would have it an old friend contacted me... He is" the one who got away" for me... I hadn't talked to him in years. He messaged me after our third date as well but I didn't respond as I should have because I was loyal to you. You insisted that we be exclusive after only a couple weeks... Meanwhile back at the farm you were busy with your ex the whole time... Anyways...now that I'm free I will respond the way I should have months ago... Ahhh fate ... my new favorite word. big hugs!! Link to post Share on other sites
Net Jedi Posted June 5, 2011 Share Posted June 5, 2011 Hey there, I've been thinking on my drives to and from work and I had an epiphany. I now know that no matter how much I still love and care about you we are NEVER going to get back together. We will also NEVER be able to be your friend. I realized that I'll never be able to trust you ever again after everything you put me through and how you ended our 7 year relationship. I walked through fire and was there for you at every turn. When your dad died, when your friends turned their backs on you, and whenever your family decided to disrespect you, I was there. I can guarantee you that there is no one else on the planet that would have gone through the hell that I put myself through for you and loved you as much as I did. You don't deserve someone as dedicated and devoted as me. My love is too valuable and precious to waste it on someone like you. Oh and one more thing...I know there will come a time when I look you in the eyes and say I told you so, I promise you this, you're gonna miss me, as long as you live you're gonna miss me...Later Link to post Share on other sites
Steven T Posted June 5, 2011 Share Posted June 5, 2011 I hope one day you will realise and come to terms with everything I ever did for you, I will make a list. Being there for you when your dad died. Putting up with your mother. Going to the hospital with you for your check ups. Bought you all the things you wanted (Remember your birthday? no other boyfriend you have will ever buy you that much stuff) Helping you find a job. Making your CV look better than it was. The list is endless... I did everything for you, I always did my best for you. You dont deserve the love and everything I gave you. One day you will realise what you have lost. Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 (edited) To my never-loving wife, I actually had a good day today with a new good friend. I am angry at how you did what you did but I'm not that sad anymore about losing you. You will go on to be an emotionally stunted, cheater and liar, only concerned about your own needs. Good luck with that in your rebound relationship -- which you'll likely soon find in your quest to validate yourself through someone else, rather than actually looking at yourself. I'm also angry that you took away my financial security and the dreams about our future. But I'll recover. I'm smart and I'm educated and I'll move on to a better job, a better woman (one with actual feelings and emotions) and a better life. Bitch. Edited June 6, 2011 by The Great Gazoo Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 Just want to say, I am fine thank you. You are a bad person. I feel sorry for the people that think you are great. Because you are not. You know it already. I got into a car accident, it was really cool getting hit by a truck, and it was really cool that I was not your gf anymore when it happened. It could have mean so much less. And it hurt me still so please stay away from me. Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 You treated my like one of your game. the IM, for example, you were bad at it, so you gave up. like, i dont care that you want to do it, i just dont care, i am not gonna do it anymore. like a lot of the game, you never beat, because its hard, you give up. you dont go back and forth and build your skills to the point of beating it. to be honest, you are kind of stupid. nobody play game like just go through it one time and beat it without going around a lot to build the skills. you stupid. Link to post Share on other sites
jacksonBrown Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 its been lonely with out u, i miss you and the dogs miss you i realise i took you for granted and i know we didn't have a healthy relationship over the past few months but you mean so much to me and i know we could be great in the future, i wish you would give us another chance we can just take it slow maybe just date for a while. I love you Link to post Share on other sites
worldgonewrong Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 I believe that we will get through this hell, and that God will get us back together for the sake of our children. Link to post Share on other sites
Adoridith Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 You're so focused on having fun with your friends how can you miss me? We're supposed to be best friends and yet you barely talk to me and avoid all your emotions because they're too hard. What really sucks is the fact that when you're around different people you act completely opposite. Around me it was always trying to avoid going out even when I suggested it you told you didn't want to do shows and you wouldn't even let me meet your friends. I became the thing to come home too and you've even told me the only time you miss me is when you're alone and roll over in the middle of the night and I'm not there. I have so much planned for this summer and I realize now so many of the issues I had and how to fix them. Had a couple of those epiphany moments that just feel so good and I sincerely apologize for my portion of our break up. I know I can at least say I have realized what is wrong with me and that I'm working on it now, no more overreacting, no more trying to make you feel guilty for being with certain people, and total trust of the people I care about. I even had a moment yesterday where I instantly went back on what I was saying because I clued into how stupid it was and how it wasn't fair. It's really too bad you wouldn't even try to fix some of the things in you that bothered me even when they were small. I never wanted to change you, I just wanted the girl that you were around me when no one else came into the picture. That girl was absolutely amazing but she is gone now, at least as far as I can tell. I long for the day when all the debts and money is paid up and we are out of the apartment and I can truly go no contact although I will admit I'm hoping that before that you'll come back to me wanting a friendship. I miss you everyday and still love you greatly, you were always the one I loved the most in my life and that hasn't changed. I'm just not in love with the person you are when you're around those people. 6 years of friendship and dating should mean enough to try and keep this going, but only time will tell when you're finally done your mourning and hurting period. Here's hoping our lives don't get screwed up before that ends though. I will always be yours even if you don't want me, but I will let you go for now and hopefully you'll come back one day. I love you. Link to post Share on other sites
ECuellar Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 My ex... I hate you. Everything I done for you after you got kicked out your house my family and I took you in with open arms. You didn't have a care in the world I worked so you can have money I sacrificed everything I dissappointed my own parents for you. I gave you everything you ever wanted. I loved you unconditionally. I would have done anything for you. You where everything to me. I even helped you get a job get your GED I was there for you for whatever you needed. Everyone told me that I was too good for you that you dont deserve me for what I done for you. What do I get in return you cheat on me, you talk down on me, you don't show that you love me which is all i ever wanted from you. I hate you so much and I hate myself for loving someone like you. You make me feel like im worthless like nothing is good enough. I can't believe i loved someone like you now im slowly starting to see the kind of person you really are. This helps! Link to post Share on other sites
TearyEyedPride Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 Dear You, It's funny how you were the one to dump me but I'm the one who's forced to let you go. Hell yes... I miss you alot, and I love you even more. It's only been a day of NC and you've crossed my mind sooooo much. I'm wondering if you're missing me, thinking about me, or wanting to reach out to me at all. I thought about checking your facebook, texting, etc etc. However, I didn't. I realize that somewhere along the line you lost hope, or trust or faith, and that ultimately I was the expendable party in your life. I know you love me, I really do and I believe it when you say it. I just don't think we work for love in the same way. I just can't continue to fight you to be with you anymore. I'm tired of feeling insecure, and like if another stressful moment were to come up in your life that again pushing me away would be the option for you. With love it's supposed to be us against the world... or so I thought. I guess that goes back to the differences part. Anyways... I just thought I'd tell you I do miss you. I'm working to get me back though because this relationship has taken its toll on my resiliency. Hopefully we'll live through this and become better people, together or apart. Wishing you luck as well, The one you let go. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 I need you so much right now. I'm so afraid I'll end up hating you for letting me down like that. I never want to hate you. I love you. Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 I believe that we will get through this hell, and that God will get us back together for the sake of our children. I'm pulling for ya my bro. Link to post Share on other sites
DSM2709 Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 (edited) It was great seeing you this past Saturday as we watched the game together and ate pizza and had ice cream. First off, I told myself before you even came over to not mention the new motorcycle I got because you will probably criticize me anyways for having it and sure enough I couldn't help myself but share my happiness of my new hobby with you and what do you do, instead of giving me a compliment, you criticize me and say "Why does that not surprise me?", get off your high horse for once will you, secondly, It really sucked that you wouldn't even allow me to give you a kiss goodnight after I walked you to your car. Your so cold and heartless. Why are you so miserable inside? I'm sorry that what ever happened to you when you were younger has turned you into the person you are today. It is not my fault we broke up a year ago, it's your fault, your so critical and always analyzing everything I did. I felt like I was walking on eggshells with you. Nothing was ever good enough for you. Your own brother even said last year when you two were helping me move into my new apartment that you do this all the time to guys. Even your own family can't understand why you do the things you do. For some reason and I don't know why I still miss what we had together when we were together. I miss you so damn much it hurts. I miss your pets and it was wonderful to see Benjamin on Saturday, I'm glad you brought him over. I miss making love to you and feeling close to you. I miss your parents and I wish I could see them one more time to tell them how much you meant to me, but I know I can't. I know I was not perfect, but guess what NOBODY is perfect, not even yourself as much as you try to hide it. I really wish I had stayed in Palmer and not decided to move in with you, it was a silly move and I regret doing it, but it was what I thought was the right thing to do at time because I loved you and it's what WE wanted. I just wish you would give me another chance, but you will NEVER change Lauren, never. You will always be a cold, criticizing, bitch. You said to me when we broke up that if you never met anyone, you could live with being alone, well how's that working out for you? You will always be alone, because I can't imagine any guy wanting to deal with what I dealt with for anytime at all with you. Good luck with that. After your text message on Saturday night, I erased your number from my phone because what's the point of having it?, you will never want to be with me again. It's a complete waste of our time even talking to each other. You already stated to me that if we hung out, that we would only be doing so as friends when you know how I feel about you and you won't even budge one bit. Well, maybe it's time for me to move on FINALLY!!!! So and if when you ever contact me and I don't respond....you'll know why and you probably won't even care anyways. You'll probably breath a sigh of relief, but yet again I might too when I don't answer your call. Edited June 7, 2011 by DSM2709 Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 *sigh* for all the grief you gave me for my making you feel like you couldn't be yourself around me; being around you - - for me, at least - - made me feel deficient, boring and unattractive. and as much as i want to contact you at times i know that not only am i going to feel the same way. but i'm also going to have that horrible, hollow feeling that i'm never going to have you in my life the way i want; so - - i'd rather not have you in my life at all. at least i can enjoy the feeling of being myself without feeling like it's costing me anything... Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted June 7, 2011 Share Posted June 7, 2011 (edited) I hope you forget all about me, and I hope that he and it are perfect and totally worth it. 4 rlz. Please, don't ever try to come back. Go live happily ever after. Edited June 7, 2011 by Nohbody Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 I can't believe you cheated and lied and I've lost you ---- now today, one of my best friends has picked you over me. WTF like I needed more rejection and betrayal added on?!?!? I am getting really sick and tired and fed up with feeling this ****ty. Oh well, I'm going to rebuild my life and become a stronger, more rounded, positive and happy person WITHOUT you and your new little friend. Link to post Share on other sites
Sassygirl2 Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 It's been 7 weeks and I am still having a hard time getting over you. I miss you terribly. I go between hating you and loving you but mostly find that I am angry with you. I am angry because you didn't give us a chance to work this out. You just ran away like a little boy. You can't handle emotional **** and never could. I knew that but I still loved you. Your ex wife must have done a real number on you because you have no hopes and dreams. I wasn't happy and we both know that. I was pushing you away. I was stressed. We had a big bad fight and I acted like a fool and you left. I know. I screwed up. I wasn't getting what I needed from you or me. I needed to love myself more and stop revolving my life around you. I don't know - maybe you did me a favor. I thought you would call about taking the dog cuz it's been over 2 wks but you haven't. Do you not care anymore or are you afraid? Maybe you miss me - who knows. You are such an ******* - but I love you. Link to post Share on other sites
clementyne Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 (edited) i'm gonna write in lower case coz it's easier...and just coz i want to. so...it's day 3 of NC and i feel....mixed. sometimes comfortably numb, sometimes painfully low, most times crap, but never nothing. 'nothing' is the state i wanna reach...before i break NC. but that may be never...coz someone like me who feels too much, can never feel just nothing. the last 3 days have simply d---r---a---g---g---e---d their asses and i can't believe i have come THIS far without switching my phone on. it may seem like a little, but to me, it's a LOT. it's like an Eternity. each day...no...each HOUR is like a year. daytime is the worst, when there is dangerously too much idle time for all my weaknesses to awaken and rise to the surface and start taunting me...willing me to mess up...undo all the good work...but so far i've resisted. actually i lie...yesterday i had a weak moment and went on assbook. i wish i hadn't coz it just shot me back down again and made me angry. angry that you hadn't updated your status...don't know why but i was expecting or rather, HOPING that you may have written something for me to indicate that you were missing me...but no...nothing...nada. you only ever give statuses for other people, don't you?? the ones that don't matter or are no longer here. it would mean a lot to me if you had written even a simple lil line...but that would be asking for way too much from someone like you, who only has time for others. i checked ___'s profile too...stupid updates every two seconds about what a wonderful time he was having assing around...most probably with YOU. yeah...no wonder you don't miss me...coz you're too busy having fun with HIM aren't you?? it's like no-one else exists when you're him> dog's ass to your pathetic wagging tail. you both make me so angry. i felt this anger again today and it made me feel better, stronger. i need to keep feeling angry...to remember why i'm doing this...to focus on staying strong and not become weak again and expose myself to the cold, harsh, unbearable pain which you'll no doubt inflict on me again as soon as i crumble. can't let you do that to me again...have to do this...for me, as much as for you. coz we both need this. first and foremost, i'm doing to block out the pain. just the act of switching off my phone was in itself a way of literally blocking out the pain...of you ignoring me...not calling me...responding only when i message you...not asking how i am or what i'm doing...just needed to block out that cold and distant stranger masquerading as you. secondly, i need time to heal. coz if i don't heal, then i won't be able to face or talk to you again normally. i will still be bitter, angry and hateful. don't like feeling so ugly inside. wanna feel good again...but it will take time to filter out the toxic crap that's churning around inside me right now...it will take a while for me to feel objective, positive, sweet and loving again. i really need this time away from you to heal myself...to look inwards and reflect, accept, grow and become better. hope you will too. tho' a tiny part of me is doing it to teach you a lesson, too. you never thought i would actually do it, did you? you always took it for granted that you could treat me as you liked and i would still be there for you...angry and upset maybe, but still there...like a fool...and you would, as usual, brush away my hurt with a few excuses and "sowees"......well not this time. Edited June 8, 2011 by clementyne typo Link to post Share on other sites
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