Karala Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 .yesterday i had a weak moment and went on crapbook Crapbook, lol, love that. As someone on this board so rightfully say, if you've been broken up with, you will come to believe that Facebook was invented by Satan to bring you to ruin and desperation until there's nothing left of you but a pile of ashes (or something to that effect) I just deleted my account. Wasn't worth the hassle. But it did torture me for weeks before that. I know how hard it is to break that bond when that's all you have left, but in my case I really just wish I did it sooner and saved myself all this pain. Link to post Share on other sites
clementyne Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 (edited) Crapbook, lol, love that. As someone on this board so rightfully say, if you've been broken up with, you will come to believe that Facebook was invented by Satan to bring you to ruin and desperation until there's nothing left of you but a pile of ashes (or something to that effect) I just deleted my account. Wasn't worth the hassle. But it did torture me for weeks before that. I know how hard it is to break that bond when that's all you have left, but in my case I really just wish I did it sooner and saved myself all this pain. thanks...totally agree! i was editing the post as you were quoting and changed it to 'assbook' (though it should really be HELLBOOK!!) bane of my life, that site! for people in our kind of situations, it really is the work of the Devil, lol. i haven't found a single bit of solace or happiness by going on there, so don't know why i do. old habits die hard, i guess... even though i don't have the need to delete (yet)...i did deactivate it, so it's a compromise of sorts the good thing is, FB's new 24-hour wait period for reactivation is helping with the addiction, a little. at least now i have the chance to think again or stop myself from logging back into Hell, lol. probably the only useful thing about that place right now! Edited June 8, 2011 by clementyne Link to post Share on other sites
Ladyfuzz Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 (edited) I laughed last night, laughed because the grass isnt always greener is it? learned your lesson did you?. When i found out, i laughed so hard, because you were making your closing move to mark them as yours and you got well .... rejected, not a nice feeling is it .... come on realise the mistake you made and come crawling back so i can .... wait what was it you said to me .... " Oh im really sorry you have feelings but i cant be with you i dont feel like that anymore, hey ill still be your friend if thatll make things better ", thanks but no thanks, your not a very good lover, id hate to imagine what sort of a friend you'd be. As much as i keep hoping youll want me back just so i can say no to you, i know you probly dont even think about me, you were the most important person in my life, but im just another person in yours that you dont really care for anymore -or if you ever did. Edited June 8, 2011 by Ladyfuzz Link to post Share on other sites
clementyne Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 it's dark, i'm alone and feeling low again. this was meant to make me become stronger....then why am i feeling so weak? is it really worth putting myself through all this when all it does is kill a lil part of my soul a bit more each time...? am i really doing this for me, or just to prove a point to you?? i don't know anymore. but i know i have to get through this and somehow finish what i started. i mean how much of a loser would i be if i cant even manage 5 lousy days, when you can do it for days, weeks, maybe even months!? no, i have to stick to it. i have to make you realise. Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 (edited) Hi A...., I just accidentally found out that your house went into foreclosure and I can't help but feel happy!!! Hahaha!!!! It seems that Karma is working her charm and messing up your life. Fairly speaking, you didn't treated me badly, except that the whole relationship was just a lie or your game. You really shouldn't made me believe that you were looking for something serious or you also want children in the future when you've been determined for a long time that you don't want kids at all. Why did you lie to me? Guess you know that if you told me you don't want children, I wouldn't date you since I don't do casual dating at all. You are so selfish!!!!! You lied just to get my whole heart and total affection! I will never do the same thing to another being. You don't deserve me at all! I was a total wreck after I was dumped out of the blue. I was seriously depressed and now it has been six months, but I'm still having some issues, trust issues. I could never give out my heart and trust another person as before. You cannot imagine how painful it was the breakup for me. I could feel the pain physically in my heart. Whenever I recall the breakup, my heart constricts and it hurts as if there is some heart disease. You were the guy I saw myself with for the rest of my life. And you are so cruel. Anyway, I'm happy your house is in foreclose. It feels like a closure to me too since I don't know where you live anymore and it's a relief. It feels like that you just disappeared and it feels good. And karma helps too. Good bye my big kitty. I loved you. I hope I'll never ever see you again. I hope karma plays you well. The damaged girl Edited June 8, 2011 by bluebirdsfly Link to post Share on other sites
clementyne Posted June 8, 2011 Share Posted June 8, 2011 (edited) another reason why i have to do this, is the sickening possibility that you are absolutely and utterly fine and haven't even noticed my absence. god, i don't even want to imagine that....the thought of you happily roaming around without a care in the world, while i'm suffering every single second and struggling to make it through each day....makes me feel sick to even think about it. it's this sickening thought which keeps me going. at least then it will be worth all the pain....at least it will determine how much or how little i really mean to you. Edited June 8, 2011 by clementyne Link to post Share on other sites
OhioLaw1987 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 In a two week time period, you went from me being "the love you always were searching for" to the "wrong man for me." I know you are with a new man, and you are sleeping with him, and you've known him for two weeks. Its funny how that worked, isnt it? All I have to say to you is this: Maybe he doesn't see it yet, but eventually he will; you are a scared, pathetic, selfish shell of a person. I put you first in all that I did. I was nothing more than a crutch, a commodity, to you. When the novelty of this new person wears off, or when he finds out what you actually are, I will not only be absent (remember when you said "I know you will catch me if I fall, always...maybe thats not what I want"...good, i hope its not) but I will paint the harsh reality of what you are, what you have done to me, and why you are no longer deserving of this love that I have to offer. I loved you, and you took it all for granted. There is nothing you can do that will change the conclusion that my life is no longer open to you in it...you have maxed out all the credit you had. But do you want to know what the worst part is? I hate you and hope I have occasion to tell you what you did to me, BECAUSE I think it is the only way you will ever truly get better...so here I am, reduced to the lowest a person can reduce me, and I am still thinking of your well-being. Its funny, because you never have thought of mine. Link to post Share on other sites
OhioLaw1987 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Hey K, Hope you're having a nice day, so I can ruin it by saying "F*ck you!" Talk to ya later!! Sincerely, A p.s. F*CK YOU...and yes, you are getting fat. Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 p.s. F*CK YOU...and yes, you are getting fat. lol, that cracked me up ^^ Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 I feel like I'm kidding myself when I tell myself that I can be happy without you and that there's more to life than you... When in truth, nothing compares to the joy I felt being around you. I feel like I would give up a year of my lifetime in exchange for a day with you. I feel so humiliated for feeling that way, but repeating myself "that is a bad bad way to be and feel" doesn't help at all. I feel like a drug-addict. I don't even know what it means anymore, does it mean this is real love, or does it just mean I have a serious problem. I hate it that I need you like crack cocaine. I know that I won't ever get a puff again so I have no choice but try to move on, but I feel like this just means accepting that life will be dull and empty from now on. Like someone took the colors off. I hope I see the light soon and realize this isn't love, this is addiction, and renouncing it doesn't mean my life will be ever dull and empty. PS: oh and these days, sometimes I also feel annoyed at you. I like it far more than the pining away, lol. Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Oh, and I probably won't be sending you that birthday card after all. Yes, you'll feel lonely, but that's what you wanted, isn't it? Enjoy your freedom and life away. Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 10, 2011 Share Posted June 10, 2011 Your birthday is in 4 days. Hope you're starting to feel the anguish about knowing I won't be in the picture this time. That'll leave you plenty of time to reminisce about last year, when me and our friends went through so much effort to make your 25th birthday something you'd never forget - remember how you repayed us? Remember the miserable drunken mess you made of yourself, how you managed to alienate your best friends and your girlrfriend with the horrible hurtful things you said to us, just because you're a sad cut off person that can't handle people loving you and doing nice things for you? Remember how I ended up sleeping on towels on the bathroom floor, remember how you kicked me out of the bedroom? No, you don't, because you were so miserably wasted, you didn't remember a thing in the morning, you just woke up to an empty bedroom and went looking for me and you crumbled in tears when you found me crying and I told you all about what happened. Did I shun you and at least took a couple of days or even hours to let you reflect on what an ass you'd been? No, I just cried in your arms and let you comfort me and took your apologies. I feel like kicking myself now for being ever so sweet and understanding. You're right, I can't wait to find the person who doesn't resent me for loving them and doing things for them. Go ahead living your miserable shut off life where you can never get too close to anybody, protect your heart forever and die alone. Yeah, I'm angry, but it's supposed to be part of grieving, they say, so I'll just be angry at you for once. I know you're not a bad person at heart and in truth I've forgiven you, but you still did screw me up on your own birthday and I can't say I hate that spending this next birthday away from me leaves you plenty of room to reflect on that. Link to post Share on other sites
Ladyfuzz Posted June 10, 2011 Share Posted June 10, 2011 I wish i didnt feel how i do, im angry at you for just giving up when the one thing you always promised me was that you would always fight for us, but you didnt, you walked away and i never got to tell you how i feel because i was too busy trying to save us because i thought thats what you were doing too, but you werent, you were finding the next victim to sink your claws into, i wish you would care, wish you would at least pretend to care and notice i do exist and what we had did happen, instead of choosing to forget every moment and treat me like i never ment anything to you. I should have known it was over before it began, i was your dirty little secret from the start,and then there was that time you got angry because you heard me listening to Justin Bieber, honey Justin has the voice of an angel . Link to post Share on other sites
Annalisa Posted June 10, 2011 Share Posted June 10, 2011 You made me wait 6 months before declaring us as a couple on Facebook. 2 months after we've broken up, you declare yourself in a relationship with her? I was surprised. Then angry. Then hurt. I'm still angry and hurt. Sometimes I almost hate you and I'm not the kind who hates. I'm hurt that you would do something like that to me. You want to make me jealous. You want to hurt me on purpose. You want to provoke a response from me. Well, you got one. I deleted you from Facebook. I don't need to see that ****. Why did you have to go and do something like that? Of course I was sad after breaking up. I'm human. I feel. I went out with friends so I wouldn't keep thinking about you. I wasn't trying to make you jealous. But you couldn't handle the fact that I'm doing fine without you so you had to go and do something stupid and childish like that. You've destroyed my memories of you. Now we can't even be friends. How did we come to this? Once upon a time, you made me happy. Towards the end, you just made me cry. And I don't want to cry anymore. I left you so I wouldn't leave you for another guy in future. Our relationship obviously wasn't working. I was trying to do the right thing. I don't deserve to be treated like this. Link to post Share on other sites
RuinedLife Posted June 10, 2011 Share Posted June 10, 2011 I'm so to the power of infinity. I love you to the power of infinity. Please forgive me and come back for an eternity. Link to post Share on other sites
Ghosst Posted June 10, 2011 Share Posted June 10, 2011 It has been four and a half months since we split up, two months since you begged me to come back to you and marry you, 1 1/2 months since you started dating your new girlfriend...Your new picture with her as your profile pic on Facebook is nice. You never did something like that for me. How do you go from telling me repeatedly that you love me and have thought of me every day for the two months we were apart, to asking to marry me.....to being with her just a few weeks later....posting you are in a relationship. I make myself look at those things. I make myself feel the pain. I must face it. I must move on. I must heal and find happiness. Your telephone call to me on Tuesday to ask me to send an image to the photo store so you could enlarge it and give it as a gift to your parents for their birthdays was strange. The fact that your new GF was in the background talking with you made me feel surreal. You always find a way to hurt me. As always I was nice and you were thankful. Your text message to me the next morning was weird....why do you care if I am dating your former coworker/friend? You have a GF....do I not deserve happiness also? Then when I did not reply you follow it up with its none of your business and you hope I have a good life. You are right. Its not your business. You gave up that right when you retracted your belief in us getting married and decided to pursue your relationship with her. I texted you that I hope you have now finally found the inner peace and happiness you desire. Your response confused me....we all find peace in the end..... Are you happy? Are you suggesting you will find peace when you die? Do you miss me the way I miss you? I know we can never work. Sometimes love is just not enough. I know you are going to take her this weekend to meet your parents. I wonder if they will like her. Your mother never liked me. I did nothing to her. I am a nice person and there was no call for her dislike. The fact that she has disliked all of your previous girlfriends should have been a sign. You are 42 years old and have never married and call your mother almost every day. Stand up for crying out loud and don't share all your feelings with her. Maybe you will give your new girlfriend and chance at being liked. I wanted to tell you all of these things when we talked on the phone but I am not willing to share myself, my heart with you anymore. I refuse to let myself get dragged back into the drama of your life. You said you would not contact me anymore. I am not sure how I feel about that. I cannot believe we have really parted forever this time. It still feels like you belong to me. Every day I get a little stronger and I know this will continue until you are just a fond memory of how I learned to love the right way. Goodbye my love, I will always love you. Link to post Share on other sites
Flowerzzz Posted June 11, 2011 Share Posted June 11, 2011 B, Well, I have had some wine and I started to think about you. I heard you are going to iceland with your new gal and that you two are moving to another state. after 4 months of being together. wow. I really dont know what you are thinking. Either she is gonna break yr heart or you two will get married. I dont know which. It makes me want to puke. Link to post Share on other sites
MT152 Posted June 11, 2011 Share Posted June 11, 2011 Well, I'm in a horrible position right now because of where our breakup has left me. While I do want you back for your company, I know I am better off without you. You never motivated me to do anything.. Yeah I don't want a person who is like my Mom but when you see me messing up and you let me you aren't being the motivational person I want in my life.. I pushed you on to go to school and to work and while I did for a while enjoy the fact that you never judged me I realized you never judged me because this was how YOU were. I motivated you to go to school, and hell look at you already ceasing your education once we I am not barking at you to go. You argued with me at times saying that what you did was cooking. Cooking is not microwaving me something.. Even if you did cook once a week or so I always had to beg you to do it.. Cleaning was another thing I had to beg constantly and yet you always had the nerve to show examples of how your sister treated her husband.. If I lived like her husband or you lived like her we would be two horrible people.. Of course you seem great when you compare yourself to two lowly people.. I know for a fact I do not want you back in my life. I went clubbing for the first time in my life yesterday.. Got my first hangover even.. And it was great. I enjoyed myself for the first time in years. I loved you and I really wished we could have worked out, but apparently we became detrimental to each others lives. Yes, we had a common interest of just not really succeeding in life that kept us to each other.. Also the fact that we were each others' emotional support.. However you always had your parents and friends.. I just had my one or two close friends.. Thank god those friends are REALLY REALLY good friends that make up for like 20 friends each because they have made me strong and give me the energy and hope to continue on.. At first I never wanted to believe you cheated on me. Hell, I rationalized the hell out of what you did but in the end you cheated on me. I face up to the facts and I just can't believe why to this day you won't admit it to me. You still deny liking him, yet I know you loved him. You deny ever doing anything with him, but I bet you have or you did after we broke up. You were my everything for years. I gave up quite a few things for you, and while you did the same it was I who is kind of in shambles now but you know what. In a few years I will be continuing to go to school and work and I will get somewhere.. You have your damn sales associate job dating your coworker.. Enjoy that while it lasts before one of you two cheat on each other.. and if not enjoy that $9/hr job for the rest of your life. I already make double that and I treat that job as if it was a temporary job because that is what I want it to be. Would I take you back if you came to me right now? I don't know.. I wouldn't want myself to, but hell I'd probably be willing to give it a chance. I'd definitely want to start slow and I'd make for sure that you haven't done anything with him and that you come clean with EVERYTHING. Thanks to the last week I've finally been able to see with a clear conscious. I don't feel guilty for **** I shouldn't anymore. I don't feel like we were the most perfect couple because while we were great we were far from perfect. Let's put it this way: with the demands I will be asking there will definitely not be an us. I really wish the ball was in my court to say no, but sadly it is in yours and your answer has been no till this time but I'm glad for it because I am in the same boat as you know. In the end, all I want to do is talk to you right now.. Not about us, but about the truth of it all.. A little about us as well and how we got to where we are.. How you came to betray me.. I thought you were my best friend, but a good friend wouldn't leave me in the blue when I asked them to answer up.. You blatantly ignore my message to come clean and you probably take this all as a joke.. Enjoy your life.. I might not be enjoying mine that much right now but I will shortly. I know what I am capable of, and I know what you are capable of. All you have is your looks and we'll see how long you can run with that until you are used out.. Link to post Share on other sites
light_vader Posted June 11, 2011 Share Posted June 11, 2011 Yes, so I never went to a damn bar anymore with you. Could have I enjoyed it more? I know not since you always make that annoying "I am drumming" movement and you can't even play drums for ****. I play the guitar and you don't see me pretending to do an air guitar right? And yes I can say the singer can't sing in English well and yes I can be proud of my good English. But you know what? You are a whore. Yes, I know we didn't plan a trip together except to your parent's. Yes I didn't take you out more. But you know what? You are a whore. Yes... I know I didn't try to be more likeable to your friends, maybe because I don't like kiddos going to ****ing ANIME CONVENTIONS and talking all day about ****ing work issues and videogames. But you know what? You are a whore. Don't even have to thank me for turning you into a well-dressed beautiful girl, unlike the bad-tasted chick that I meet that day back in 08. Because you know what? That's my payment for all the times we ****ed. So don't feel like you are a whore that doesn't get paid for it. Have a nice rest of your life. Link to post Share on other sites
cerridwen Posted June 11, 2011 Share Posted June 11, 2011 You should be contacting me any moment now... because I am sooooo over you. Link to post Share on other sites
RuinedLife Posted June 11, 2011 Share Posted June 11, 2011 I'm so sorry I said our relationship wouldn't work out if you couldn't understand me. I love you more than words can say. I think about you every day. So please please I'm down on my knees... Come back to me without delay! Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 12, 2011 Share Posted June 12, 2011 I hope you feel the dread about your birthday coming up and knowing I won't be there to spend it with you. Sorry, I know it's bad, but I do. I don't want you to feel bad, but you brought it on yourself. Have a happy rest of your life without me. Link to post Share on other sites
light_vader Posted June 12, 2011 Share Posted June 12, 2011 Oh by the way. So you make fun of the fact I am an orphan? Does that amuses you, to think that I was never able to say my dad "I love you". **** YOU. I can't believe sixth months ago you were wasting your time making me a Valentine's gift and telling me how much you allegedly loved me and now you treat me like if I was nothing but a toy to you this whole time. You're worthless. Link to post Share on other sites
hurt and devastated Posted June 13, 2011 Share Posted June 13, 2011 You know, whenever memories of you start to get me down I start thinking of all the guys you were e-mailing dirty pictures and notes to, and cheating repeatedly on me. It's sickening. I drink your poisoned water and am quenched with renewed energy and a stronger resolve to get my daughter away from you before the cancer that is your life infects her too. Enjoy it while it lasts; you can't hide your disfunctionality forever. P.S. I'm wondering how long your new f*ck friend goes before he notices he doesn't have a licence plate. It'd be a shame if one of Avondale's finest noticed it when he was driving his drunk ass home last night. Link to post Share on other sites
shook187 Posted June 13, 2011 Share Posted June 13, 2011 me: hey so how are you today? her: oh i think we're fighting too much and i just wanna see who i am without you. me: oh 5 years and now u want this? her: i'm sorry. me: begging for days, until coming to me senses it's not worth chasing. (assuming in 6-9 months she will realise.) Link to post Share on other sites
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