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[shook187]

Yes, so I never went to a damn bar anymore with you. Could have I enjoyed it more? I know not since you always make that annoying "I am drumming" movement and you can't even play drums for ****. I play the guitar and you don't see me pretending to do an air guitar right? And yes I can say the singer can't sing in English well and yes I can be proud of my good English. But you know what? You are a whore.

 

Yes, I know we didn't plan a trip together except to your parent's. Yes I didn't take you out more. But you know what? You are a whore.

 

Yes... I know I didn't try to be more likeable to your friends, maybe because I don't like kiddos going to ****ing ANIME CONVENTIONS and talking all day about ****ing work issues and videogames. But you know what? You are a whore.

 

Don't even have to thank me for turning you into a well-dressed beautiful girl, unlike the bad-tasted chick that I meet that day back in 08. Because you know what? That's my payment for all the times we ****ed. So don't feel like you are a whore that doesn't get paid for it.

 

Have a nice rest of your life.

 

 

you made my day.

[Karala]

you made my day.

 

Yeah, I also loved that bit about the annoying drumming movement thing.

[shook187]

So a month later i'm sitting here in what seems like hell. Never leave my mind, never leave my dreams, and unfortunately i'm not even ready to throw away all the crappy presents you bought me, seems a little ironic that you cried when i attempted to give you all the letters and pictures of us back. You mentioned that you'd keep yours in your memory box, yeah until the next over protective rock ape comes along and tells you to throw them out, and then your sucking him off like its your favorite cherry lollipop. only a month before our demise you told me you wanted to move back out together, and then a backflip that has left my future uncertain and here I stand questioning any/every decision i ever made. 7 days today NC, i never thought i could be without you, bad I can and anyone can, but sadly it was a forced choice. you've given me very little answers to move forward with, only that because we met and you were 15, now 21. you feel asthough you need to find yourself, well the gorgeous girl i knew wouldn't even take the risk to let me fall inlove with someone else. maybe your plan is genius and we'll end up together somewhere, and we needed this. I highly doubt it, your an airhead. and you even messed up making mashed potato, it was lumpy and the only thing you ever cooked me in 5 years, but i swallowed it because you do that for the one you love. Sadly you'd point out every flaw i ever had. You'd redicule me for every girl i ever kissed, and be mad that you weren't my first girl i slept with, your jealous side pushed me away, hence the fighting and arguements which could carry on for days. I hope one day you wake up cold, lost and lonely. Your only doing well because your busy. Your new modelling career and your trips away. Can't wait for your bestfriend who you've been spotted with walking around every shopping center every day of the week moves away, you'll be lonlier than an abandoned donkey in the desert. It's like you don't even feel anything anymore. Your heart has transformed into a rock. Not because you don't have one, but because your not recognising your feelings. Your running from them, while i'm healing. my biggest fear is your return, not because your not great, but because then i'll be ready to move forward, and you won't.

 

goodluck with your future, I'm longing for the reaction when you go to dial my number and the rush of blood you feel when you realise i'm gone.

[Karala]

With every passing day you're becoming more of just a memory.

 

You're dead to me now. Hope you have a nice afterlife. I won't know about it, and will be so much better off this way.

 

I just wish that I could ring you up and tell you all about it so that I wouldn't feel so lonely, lol. But in real life, you were never that person that I could call up anytime and know you'd be there for me. First off, because your cell phone was out of battery 50% of the time or you just would have forgotten it some place stupid or taking a nap and not hearing it ring.

Second, because I could never feel 100% comfortable reaching out for you.

 

Both reasons come down to the same : you just weren't available.

F*** you. Good night.

[bikinibeach]

First I want to apologize for writing so much on a thread that doesn't belong to me...

Keeping nc is so hard for me and everyone else that this is a good thread to have. Thx polywog...

 

Ex sent me a txt this morning saying:

I miss you so much.. I hate not being able to talk to you or text message you.. It hurts so much.. I love u baby.. I would do anything to make u trust me again.

 

And I just want to say this...

**txt msg**

I told you to stop contacting me... are you that stupid you don't understand what I've told you. I hate you for everything you put me through. So I figure now that 3 girls turn you down you want to crawl your a** back to me. I don't think so... I hope this hurts you more than anything else in life has. And the day ill start seeing other people ill make sure it will be known to you. its funny how much of a pathetic jerk you are. The anger is passing I'm starting to feel sorry for you. You are how old? And still live at home and what you can't get into a good school...lol... bye honey.

 

tehe! nice one

[Alan Guillermo]

I trusted you, you were my everything, i loved you more than anything.

I thought you were different than most girls, but i was wrong.

You lied to me, even after i begged for the truth..

It just wasn't true love, I hope your as miserable as I am.

[MT152]

Ah, I've been slowly been coaxed back into thinking about you lately.. I don't know why. I guess seeing all the girls and couples at the mall just reminded me of you. While going to the mall, I even walked in a girls clothes store because I was so used to shopping with you for your clothes. My long summer starts after my final tomorrow and I don't know whether to embrace it with hope or wince as the hours tick down. I got invited to a random bon fire at the beach on Thursday and while I don't know much people there I will just get drunk again and meet people.. I wouldn't do this usually and you know that, but it seems like the only way for me to socialize is to get drunk.. Whatever.

 

I still am waiting for an answer from you even though I know it won't ever come. Why can't you just admit you cheated on me already? Also it seems you aren't going to the ONLY class you are enrolled in.. C'mon Sweetie, you can't even go to one Art class..? You got a D the first time and now you are going to get an F.. See, without me you are already on a downward spiral in terms of education. I really hope you are not hoping your job at a clothes store can support you for life, because that is laughable. I really wish things were back to normal at times, because I truly do miss being able to talk to you about anything like I used to but I am slowly getting used to the solidarity I am being forced into. I know I said so many hurtful things, and to this day I still feel guilt for that but mistakes were made and I apologized to them so the guilt is very minimal.. Not to mention you joined in on the last year of insults as well.

 

I really wish I was able to see how you felt and your how your days are going. As far as I know you are taking this breakup quite well even though you lost so much in terms of financial stability, education, and someone who wouldn't cheat on you. It's okay Sweetheart, I had saved you from your abusive father and now that I am talking about this I just remembered when we first met you were depressed because of him. Not only because of him, but also all the conflicts within your family regarding your sister, your mother, and your father. I saved you from all that, as you didn't need to take those stupid prozac pills anymore and in the end you run back to what caused so such depression. You once called me your hero, but it seems the tables have been turned and they are now the heroes and somehow I am now the bad guy. Well, I shouldn't speak so quick on the reversed roles. I know eventually they will turn back to the ****ty parents they were before I came and gave you a house to live in. It's only been two months, and I am just awaiting for the day your Dad throws a chair or raises his fist again.. Though I don't really wish such awful things I know it is going to happen again..

 

So my Summer begins tomorrow, while yours started a bit ago since you just stopped showing up to your one class. We shall see how it may turn out. Our first Summer single since 2006.

[shook187]

I listen to our song in anger. it drives me.

I wish you sleepless nights and angry days.

Once known as your everything

Now i'm not even worth a text, or call.

I fixed your life, gave you a family.

Sitting here waiting for it all to crumble.

It's too late baby.

You'll never hurt me again.

Sweet dreams

[Ladyfuzz]

I feel bad for the argument we just had, the things i said i feel so bad for saying them, but i feel they had to be said, you dont get to walk away and live a happy life rubbing her in my face and expect me to smile about it, you dont get to tell me im a mistake and that you hate me.

 

I just feel so bad right now .

[Karala]

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you, ex,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

 

...remember last year? Oh, I know you do. What a perfect girlfriend I was, the cake I baked, the collective gift. Remember how you cried tears of joy when you opened that present?

 

It's so clear to me now, how you just can't take people loving you and showing it to you.

I couldn't understand it at the time, how you could be such an *ss, how you went to drink yourself stupid and finish the night being so horribly mean to your best friends. You made one of your best friends cry with the things you said to him, remember?

I couldn't understand that you could be such an *ss to the very people who cared for you most. Well I understand it now. You hated us for being so kind to you, because you can't take people getting near you emotionally. You're a sad cut off person, and you can't even be in a relationship with the person you love. That's sad.

 

It's such a shame that you were so drunk when you went to bed, you never even remembered what happened that night. You only remember the morning after, when you found me sleeping on a pile of towels in the bathroom. With this red spot on my neck where you had grabbed me. The perfume bottle smashed into one hundred pieces.

How you cried and asked me what happened.

You don't remember yourself shouting to me "go find yourself another guy if you're not happy with me! Go find yourself another guy!".

Yeah, I was mad at you because you were so drunk and acting so mean, on your own 25th birthday. But I did not want to find myself another guy. Screw you, I wonder why I didn't.

 

You don't remember all that I remember, but enough to have that memory sting you for a long time.

And I know it will at least sting today, for sure.

 

 

Hope you drown in your own guilt and hate yourself for all you put me through.

Hope you feel lonely today and feel half as bad as I have felt for those past 4 months.

Hope that some part of you waits til the very end of the day for some sign of me, that some part of you thinks "she can't be ignoring me on my birthday..."

 

Well, I am. F*** you!

Have a happy rest of your life without me!

[light_vader]

You know what? I don't hate you.

Even if you're now talking trash about me (and I know I have too hehehe... but mine has an argument, but whatever sweetie)... I don't really care.

Do what you want with your life, if you wanna keep on being a dysfunctional mind.. then so be it... blame your family and others for your inability to accept yourself and grow in life.

 

As for me, I feel much better. I am improving... I feel my mind becomes stronger and stronger every day that goes by.

And yes I keep being "lonely", and so? I'm not desperate to run into the arms of the first woman that appears in my life... because I'm worth THAT much...

 

Bye my ex bunny.

[0hpenelope]

It's nice to not feel angry. It really is.

 

Even the good parts of the relationship are fading.

[shook187]

so i saw your car parked today, just wondering if you've turned into a whore. i really wanted to text you this, but i didn't want to give you the satisfaction seeing as you texted me last. this is the immaturity you bought to the table. because you push away the one guy who loved you for 5 years straight. GIGS all over again. have a nice life without me

[wilsonx]

I ****ing hate gigs its so god damn annoying why would you ****ing cheat on me ugh

[JustTawm]

You left me for an utter meat head with a flash car, tiny house, who likes to get hammered all the time, GIGS at its best. Your whole family loved me to bits.

 

When we see each other in December, you're going to regret the choice you made. New me is going to be stronger, fitter and a happier person. I'll even take you for a catch up lunch and be happy knowing that you mean nothing to me and all the regret in the world is pouring into your mind.

[shook187]

i know your strength is running out, your being coached by several people, including that idiot whos been thru this, difference is she just wants you single beause her boyfriend left her, and shes miserable. when your done travelling and you see me around your going to go weak at the knees. you probably don't even have thoughts about me anymore. i want to emotionally rip your heart out and stomp on it!!!!!

[dunnowhat86]

I know that I am drunk.

 

But I just cant understand how someone can love someone for 3.5 years and then change their minds on what they want in their life. if you are so sick of they way you live, why not change it?instead you exchanged me, as if I am the thing that is making you miserable.

 

I am so angry because I cant believe you destroyed the best months of my life before graduating. I was looking forward to this time so much, to spend it with my family, my friend, YOU, because it is the people i love the most in the world. But instead I am half enjoying half feeling miserable because i f****** miss you so much. I look at other couples and feel so jealous. Why cant i have that? why did you never love? you must not have loved me. that is my only explanation.

 

And your friend puts a picture of you kissing a girl, your work-collegue, 1.5 months after we have broken up??? that hurt alot alot alot. where did all the love go for you? I dont know. but i miss you. i hate myself for still loving you. i must be a machovist. after all that pain that you have caused me and i still miss you and love you.

[Jman171]

I deserve the respect you never gave me.

[light_vader]

Yeah definitely today was a good day, even though you were wearing the best blouse and sweater I gave you, It didn't made an impact on me, more than the impact of looking at any other well-dressed girl at the office.

So yeah... I think I'm slowly starting to get over you.

 

so i saw your car parked today, just wondering if you've turned into a whore.

Nice, if she did then maybe our exes should meet sometime and share experiences about their whoring and the like... hehehe

Like who holds the most records and that kinda stuff.

[california15]

The comments you made about my body made me feel bad. the one person whose opinions mattered... At least you said it to my face though, and not behind my back... and at least you weren't trying to be intentionally mean about it.

 

Thats why I never felt sexy around you - because you subtly shot my confidence down and its my fault for not saying anything about it. I tried to change.

 

I feel like I was never good enough for you. I know your ex was a model and I could never match that - it was always in the back of my head. Couldn't compare to her. Other people tell me I have a nice figure, good bathing suit body etc,... but I wanted to hear it from you. I didn't care what they thought. I wish you had found me sexy.

 

Anyways, I don't know if you knew how bad it hurt my feelings to hear you say those things, and to know that you werent 100% happy with my body. its still hurtful now when I think about it. I know you didn't intentionally tell me to be mean. I just wish you were happy with me. all of me.

 

It doesn't matter now.

Edited June 16, 2011 by california15

[marqueemoon4]

you heartless, ungrateful, dishonest tramp.. one day you will pay for your treatment of me. you're disgusting.

[radiodarcy]

it must be exhausting being you; trying to be all things to all people. thinking that the more money and material possessions you have, the happier you'll be. when are you going to grow up and learn that the whole world can't possibly love you? go to therapy. get help. become an adult and for god's sake stop looking to relationships with women as an identity and the road to acceptance

[TearyEyedPride]

It's funny how the tables turn...

 

At first all I could see was how wonderful of a person you were. How you were my everything and my future. I gave you it all! Every last trusting drop I could muster and squeeze out... I gave it to you.

 

Even when you hurt my feelings from time to time, and broke up with me once before. I sucked it up and just chalked it up to being "emotions" I could move past. You were perfect in my eyes... even with all of your imperfections.

 

Now I realize that although I may still love you (which I'm working on), You're a liar, and a perpetrator. You made it where you will never be able to deliver upon the promises that you made to me and that makes you a liar no matter what you say. You pretended to be someone worthy of all my love and all my effort, and pretended that you were able to reciprocate that and you weren't that makes you a perpetrator.

 

You were also a coward because although you found the balls to break up with me twice, not once did you allow me to be a part of the decision. Not once did you honestly just open up and discuss what the real issues influencing your decision were. You were able to do it with your friends, or alone but when it came to me... you'd just hand me the final verdict. Remember asking me to trust you and let you in? Remember promising to never hurt me? Newflash: I did, and you betrayed me.

 

F*ck you and all of your arrogance! I wasted years and opportunities with other people who were interested in getting to know me, to be faithful and committed to you because I loved you and I believed we could make it through anything. Through my moods, through your moods, through moments of unaffection, and cold behavior, I consistently let you serve as hope, motivation and a one of my sources of happiness. That's what real love is. Anytime I could be, I was there for you. F*ck me for ever trusting a word that came out of your mouth when from the beginning I should've known you'd be just another lie in a pretty package.

 

I'd say something cocky or bitchy because i'm close to being that spiteful. But out of the shred of respect and decency that I somehow manage to maintain for all of the people who've done me wrong in my life... I won't say it. You did a number on me. Congrats.

[Net Jedi]

I knew you were scared and I knew you weren't so confident but I was hoping that everything I had done was showing you that I was truly the man you had always said you wanted. I know in the past that I was a lot of talk but now that I'm all action you decide to walk. Fine, our relationship should have ended years ago but we were both such stubborn fighters that we wouldn't let each other go. But now that I'm trying to heal and get over what has happened you pull this BS and tell me that you still think that we could be together! I know that you're already seeing someone but would give me this sob story about how hard it's going to be for you to find another guy to deal with you. You're such a cruel person as to try and keep me on the hook and make me feel like I should feel some sympathy for you. When you were all alone and abandoned me time and again I was the only person that would listen to you bitch about how terrible your life was. I'm so glad that I got to be your sponge that got to absorb all the pain you had me deal with on your behalf. Now you get to feel good about going out while leaving me hear with all the baggage you gave me over the years. Thank you and you're welcome. Have a great life while I go out and try to be the man you always wanted and I truly hope that when you see me next you realize what kind of mistake you made and how much you truly miss me. I hope you feel nothing but the loneliness and depression that you put me through for the past 5 years.

[light_vader]

I still commit the mistake of passing by your edifice on the car (I have to, and you know it's true), and taking a glimpse to my right, and tonight I saw the other guy's car in there.

Which is great because I don't even feel the urge anymore to go spy on you at 12 am just too see if the lights are off, just to see if he's there still.

 

Good for you, just take care not to get a STD out of sleeping with so much people in such a short time.

But now it's day 4 since I've felt great and without the need to spy on you, hack your damn accounts, or track you via GPS.

Niceee!

 

I think I'm getting over you slowly but going hard!!!!