patagonia Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 thinking of you right now. Really miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
ScienceGal Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 For the first time since the break up, I don't miss you. I don't "wish you well". I don't feel like I owe you anything, and I would not feel guilty about throwing any concern or affection you show to me back in your face. You may have been great to me in the relationship, but you ended things on a horrible note that was totally unwarranted. I didn't deserve to be treated that way, and your previous good behavior as a boyfriend does not excuse your actions. I deserve the same respect and care that I give, and if you can't reciprocate, I don't have energy to waste giving what won't be returned. I was happy before you came into my life, and I'm happy again now, after you've left it. I'm saying peace to my past with you, and will have an absolutely WONDERFUL future without you. I still miss him... but DITTO to the rest! Link to post Share on other sites
patagonia Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 thinking of you right now...i miss you a bunch...sleep good Link to post Share on other sites
CantLoseHer Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 I love you so much and I would do anything just to hug you and hear you say that you love me. I wish we could work on things and let me prove to you that I'm the man you fell in love with. No contact blows, because I used to talk to you every day about hopes, and dreams, and our future together. I miss you so much. I hope that one day I can have another chance and not mess up. You deserve the world and more, and I'm sorry that I lost sight of everything. you are the love of my life and I can't let you just go, you mean too damn much to me. I love you with all my heart and soul. Erika, I love you and I want you to know that I always will no matter what life brings in store, dont ever forget that. Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 Everyone, please tell me that I can't send my drafted letter after 4 months.... I almost sent it. I've been NC for 4 months, I'm so so close to sending him a message. Tell me not to..... talk me out of it. Link to post Share on other sites
PelicanPete Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 Everyone, please tell me that I can't send my drafted letter after 4 months.... I almost sent it. I've been NC for 4 months, I'm so so close to sending him a message. Tell me not to..... talk me out of it. If it wasn't worth it 4 months ago, what makes you think it's worth it now? Link to post Share on other sites
LYNNLH Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 my phone was faulty for some reasons and i just saw a txt from you couple of days ago?. no, i didn't read it because it will be some nasty crap from a jerk. if its in retaliation from my fb message which you did not respond and have your mandatory last word in it..well, fyi..it was sent immediately right after you responded with the nasty name calling message to me. honestly, i tried so much to ignore you, be nice to you but i will no longer respond to your further nastiness. my friends actually adviced me to email you this. i just can't believe why i should take these crap from you, ******* (yeah..I'm gonna be as nasty as you now. immaturity begets immaturity) i dont ****ing owe you anything. we had like what?couple of dates?..i never took anything from you and i certainly dont deserve your crap and nastiness. if you're referring to the date money and pirated cds..come on..i can easily pay u back..it's like what?... 50 bucks in total?..sheesh..he may have given me a note book, so what? it was for my daughter and i certainly have the rights to accept anything from anyone..none of your freaking business. that doesn't mean i will sleep with him and certainly its none of your business too even if i did. at least he was nice to me, much better than you. no drama..actually most guys i meet were nicer than you.you and i had nothing! we are not even exclusive and you didn't even text or responded to my text that fri nite when i texted u(i bet you're on a date with some whore, yeah u date whores, you said it yourself)..what does that mean? am i your gf?...certainly not! so, you hv no ****ing right to call me names and whatnots. you're a bitter and nasty person. day 1 since i know you, its always been drama with you and you have been showing your nastiness to me. that is why i was hesitant in any sort of relationship with you..if u wanna say i will be alone..i'd rather be ALONE if any guys i meet in future is like you..also,at least i don't stay alone, lonely and bitter like you and i have a full life with my family and friends. you're even worse than anthony. at least i was in a bona fide realtionship with him. what are you to me? nothing! you can't even have the courtesy to give my things back to me, jerk! you keep asking me to grow up..you grow up. being 40 and all..you certainly behaved like a tantrum throwing sulky 3 year old. maybe you should try dating 40 50 year old ugly spinsters because they are the only one who could take your crap and mother you.you're a bitter person by nature. your colleague, hong chee was nice enough to bring your sorry ass out to meet people and all u did was to mock him. get a life. have more friends instead of just colleagues. you have always blamed you ex-wife, your parents and pratically everyone for your probems..but never yourself. you have NPD..you really do..dont text me or reply..cause everything will be deleted. without reading. i have never met someone as nasty as you. you have issues, man. get help and go to hell. gosh..that felt good. Link to post Share on other sites
Almond_Joy Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 Everyone, please tell me that I can't send my drafted letter after 4 months.... I almost sent it. I've been NC for 4 months, I'm so so close to sending him a message. Tell me not to..... talk me out of it. Hey DLish, I read through the thread about your situation some time ago, though I never posted. I'm very sorry about the way things went down with you and this guy. Reaching out to him is not going to change the situation, though. He's not the man you want him to be, and there is nothing you can say to him that's going to make him into that man. Contacting him is only going to set up an opportunity for you to lose some or all of the progress you've made in these 4 months of NC. I understand and relate - it hurts badly, and sending him the letter seems right now like the right thing to do. But it's not. It's really not. Some ideas for distractions: -Computer games (Bigfishgames.com has a ton!) -Start a book or start rereading one you love -Pace/clean your residence -Just go stand outside for 10 or 15 minutes -Sleep I've employed all of the above to keep from sending letters. Hope this helps and stay strong!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Arlia Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 (edited) Alright, I can't take it anymore so I'm venting here!!!! -------------------------------------------------------------- I think today you had your first interview and I hope it went well. I never had to do a group discussion in front of people as an interview, but I heard of people who did. Must be quite difficult, i know I'd fail because I'm not really good at presenting especially if I don't have much time to prepare a speech. But I think you did fine, I know you're used to making presentations and debating with other people about serious topics. How was it? What was it about? How long did it last? It's been 9 days since we last talked. I'm doing ok sometimes, but most of the time I'm not. To be honest, I feel hurt all the time and I'm really sad and depressed. Today, for some reason, I keep crying because I still can't believe you are gone. I'm so sad and I miss you so much. My dearest wish at the moment is to get back with you. I still have a lot of trouble accepting that this is happening. I love you so much but I know this is one sided and it hurts. It's hard to believe you don't love me anymore and that you now like someone else. Even if I don't want to, a small part of me is hoping that you will miss me and will want to try again, although in reality, this is unlikely to happen. You started losing your feelings for me last year in november, and it's already been 9 months, so I know it's not just a temporary feeling due to a bad argument. Letting you go is the hardest challenge of my life so far because you were such an amazing woman. I hate myself for taking you for granted and not doing more efforts for the relationship last year. I wish I had a second chance. You will feel bad by reading this, I'm sorry but I needed to express my feelings somehow. I miss you and love you so much. Edited July 29, 2011 by Arlia Link to post Share on other sites
patagonia Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 I thought of you all night. I miss you a bunch and wish I was there with you... Link to post Share on other sites
Ajax Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 Everyone, please tell me that I can't send my drafted letter after 4 months.... I almost sent it. I've been NC for 4 months, I'm so so close to sending him a message. Tell me not to..... talk me out of it. What's it say D-Lish? Regardless, DON'T SEND IT! You got this! Link to post Share on other sites
RuinedLife Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 Ouch my heart hurts Please stop torturing me... I love you so much. Why don't you love me anymore? I want to be therefore you, you know I do... I want to stay friends... but its too painful Link to post Share on other sites
collegeguy_24 Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 I wish I could hear from you Jen. I still care for you, but I will live up to my word and not pursue you. I will happily accept being your friend, I know its like me settling, but its better then nothing as long as I can still be your friend, and still have you in my life. I miss hearing your voice, looking into your eyes, I miss our conversations and I miss discussing and debating with you. Please give friendship a chance, its all I ask of you. Link to post Share on other sites
patagonia Posted July 29, 2011 Share Posted July 29, 2011 I couldn't take it anymore. You told me to go home almost 4 weeks ago and I said no. I drove 2400 miles to prove my undying love for you, just like you asked. In the mean time, when I was on my way, you started talking to this nathan guy. It was all innocent. I saw your phone. You said it was light hearted. I knew the truth. I stuck it out and waited for your stupid decision. You are now in love with him after knowing him for a few months. You moved on awful fast. You say you care. You say you love me but you don't. After years of marriage and loving one another you move on that fast and go give your heart to someone else. You send me an email and a text as soon as I leave. You cried more than I did when you sent me off. I don't believe what you say anymore and I don't believe you love me or care for me. You are now in love with this guy. Good luck. I just sent you an email and a text message asking that you never contact me again. Your words are bull crap and no I don't want to be your friend. That is what you want because you do feel bad and you know what should have happened and how things should have been handled. You want me holding on to your empty words of hope and I'm not going to do it. ____You just replied to my email saying, Okay, I understand your need for doing this. .... My need? No it was YOUR need to get me out of your life. You wanted me to go home and to never come back. Why would I want to talk to you again? I miss you like crazy but your words and your actions are senseless and heartless! AHHHHHGGGG! Have a good life Link to post Share on other sites
CantLoseHer Posted July 30, 2011 Share Posted July 30, 2011 You texted me this morning, and I was hoping it was going to be something nice, instead it said "You aren't respecting my space, like I asked". Well f*** you, you are the one who initiated contact 2 days ago and were a complete f***ing b**** when I did nothing wrong to make you be that way. You didnt respond to the last text or message I sent those 2 days ago so I said to myself, whatever I'm going to move on in my life and just not talk to you. And I know you saw that message that day, not 2 days later and decided to respond. Stop trying to just have me wrapped around your finger. F*** off, I hope you're thinking about me and are in the same amount of pain, but I'm not going to give you the satisfaction of a reply, you are no longer worth my time. Link to post Share on other sites
SillyS Posted July 30, 2011 Share Posted July 30, 2011 Last week, I had a real urge to contact you. But I'm well on my way to recovering from this, so welcome to my hate phase! I hate you. I hate how weak you are, I hate how ridic your white trash family is and how much crap they talked about me. That's right, one person in a relationship is the victim and the other does EVERYTHING wrong! Being weak must be a family thing! With your mother marrying two men that beat up on her kids, and your sister trying to screw you over every chance and sleeping guys next door to your room. But I am the devil. Please. I don't want to be your friend, I got friends and they don't treat me this way. I don't want to be your family, because obviously I don't make the low standard that these individuals have set for you. I know you wanted to break me, wanted to make me feel bad but guess what you don't have that power over me. No one does. Because I love myself, and I have so many things I want to achieve in my life so I won't allow any more chances to hurt me. I don't care to contact you or to have you realize this phase because I'm not that type of person. So I wanted to write it here. Oh and I want you to know, while we were together I listened to alot of sad songs that talked about hurt and broken hearts, but right now I'm listening to Nipsey Hussle's Feelin myself! I'm feeling myself, I'm feeling myself, I'm so fresh and I can't help it! So take that! Link to post Share on other sites
xeros Posted July 30, 2011 Share Posted July 30, 2011 I can still barely accept that you're gone. I made a point to try and strike up a friendly conversation with you but when I got back you were offline. And after thinking, I'm so glad you went offline. Link to post Share on other sites
dicky_fish Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 I'm numb, lost and confused. I miss you like hell and I love you so much I don't think my poor heart can take much more. These next few days are gonna suck so much for me, not just because of things that have gone on in the past (I knew I should have proposed this time two years ago!) but for everything I had planned this time round. I guess it's stupid of me to think you'll be thinking of me this weekend, but I can but hope. "I see my future when I look in your eyes, and it took your love to make my heart come alive" "You were my fire, so I burned, now there's nothing left of me" I love you my baba xxxxx Link to post Share on other sites
Thieves Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 Dear You, Today was slightly a bad day. I don't know, just one of those random days where everything was alright, but something was off. It set in, YET again, that you're gone and with somebody else. I've known this for months, but here I am, sinking into this sad realization that you may never be coming back. I just wish I could understand why I can't accept it. I get so angry with you sometimes, and at other times it's like I forgive you. But today I feel like I can't forgive you. I can't stop wondering whether you care at ALL about the fact that I'm hurting. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I truly am. I'm emotionally exhausted by thinking of you and whether you give a sh*t about me at all. If you did, wouldn't you be talking to me? Wouldn't you WANT to talk to me as much as I want to? Why would you tell me you love me and then do this? Why? I just want you back in my life like when we first met. I want you to believe in me again, I want this gnawing pain in my heart to stop. It hurts so bad to wanna reach out to you, but I can't. I've already reached out to you many times before, now it's your turn. But you never will, will you? Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 Ouch my heart hurts Please stop torturing me... I love you so much. Why don't you love me anymore? I want to be therefore you, you know I do... I want to stay friends... but its too painful Says it all- and reminds me why I am an ass-hole. Thank you. It helped. Link to post Share on other sites
triphopper414 Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 It has almost been two months, but I still find myself randomly crying. I have no desire to talk to you, but I want to talk to you to see how you are doing to make sure you are okay. I try to not think about you but you still wander into my thoughts. My feelings for you are becoming more superficial. I feel like if I talk to you again they will become more. I am not ready to talk and probably won't be for another few months or until I find someone else who makes me forget about you. Whichever one comes first. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 Go and be happy without me. I'm closer to not caring every day. Not to say that I'm CLOSE, but closer. So to hell with it, and to hell with you. Link to post Share on other sites
sd89 Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 I hope someday you realize that was all just a huge mistake. Before it's too late. I love you more than anything still, and it hurts now we aren't in contact. I can't show you that though. I need you to show me you are worth it. Until then, this silence stands. Link to post Share on other sites
ScienceGal Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 I hope someday you realize that was all just a huge mistake. Before it's too late. I love you more than anything still, and it hurts now we aren't in contact. I can't show you that though. I need you to show me you are worth it. Until then, this silence stands. true story. Link to post Share on other sites
patagonia Posted July 31, 2011 Share Posted July 31, 2011 I'm glad you are 'in love' with the first man you are dating after our divorce. I'd call it a 'rebound' relationship, you'd say you are ready to move on. That's ok, you are the one who claimed you weren't ready for a relationship and needed to be single for a long time. Then got into a relationship with him while I was still staying at your place. Love is blind...but so is lust. I'm glad you had to 'decide' if you wanted me or him. Quite frankly I'm not sure I can deal with you anyways. If I was so evil to wish bad things upon you, I hope you get preggo from the dude and ruin your angelic, perfect facade that you put on for everyone. Please don't tell all of your family how this all happened because that too would make you lose face. And I know you hate that. Your friends, well they know all about it because..oh wait, they don't know the entire story. They just hate me, so why would they not support what you are doing? You are perfect! How can I forget. I want to believe, I want to think I did the right thing by trying to work on things. I wanted to believe your words of hope and passion because I have no reason not too. But they were all lies and hurtful knives to the heart. You didn't care for me the past 2 months, you didn't love me the past 2 months. You lied right to my face, the face of the counselor and to everyone else in your life. So now I don't trust you, I don't believe you and I don't care what you have to say. It's all fake Toodles Link to post Share on other sites
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