Niaka44 Posted August 29, 2011 Share Posted August 29, 2011 I'm angry enough to almost hate you today. If I don't post here, I'll end up calling you and leaving a ranting voicemail about how much I think it sucks that you're f***ing someone else. I have no right to do that, but I want to anyway. I don't even care about her. It doesn't matter who it is. Sure, she's got a great body, but so do I, and at least I know how to treat people with respect. You and I were each others' first, so how can you say all of the things you've only ever said to me, to her? How can you do that without thinking of me and everything that you loved about me? How can you tell her you love her body when only a little over a month ago, and for so many months before that, you were telling me you loved mine? Where did I go in your mind? Where did I go in your heart? I don't think I love you much anymore, but I think I'd still want you if I saw you. I can accept you falling in love with someone, later on down the line, because I truly want that for you, but I can't accept you messing around with someone right now just because you can't control your hormones. Grow the f*** up and focus on getting the good grades you didn't get last semester. I know your family wasn't all that disappointed in you, but I was. You could have done a lot better; that's why you got that scholarship in the first place. You're not a teenager anymore, so act your age already. Link to post Share on other sites
ljh2011 Posted August 29, 2011 Share Posted August 29, 2011 Dear L Lets trade shoes for a day? Not just so you can know what this feels like, i wanna learn how to act like you. I wanna know how to get away with not caring about anybody or how easy it is to act like you do. I wanna learn how to go through mates and an impecable rate yet when you break a finger nail someone will be there with a shoulder to cry on. I'd like to find out how powerful it feels to know that someone thinks about you all the time and how to turn that into feeling good about myself. Teach me how to hate someone one day then be their best mate the next, I wanna be like you and not have any morals or boundries. I've never been able to lie maybe if we traded shoes i could learn what its like. Link to post Share on other sites
The_Good_Me Posted August 29, 2011 Share Posted August 29, 2011 I've been dreaming about you a lot recently. Annoyingly the dreams have started just when I found myself starting to think about you less during the day. I can't seem to get away from the pain of losing you, it's like I have an elastic band tied to you. Whenever I seem to start feeling better about things, the elastic contracts suddenly and I find myself in tears again. I know there is nothing you can do to ease my suffering and realise I no longer have the right to ask you to try. I am so sorry for the way things turned out. I miss you every single day and I still love you with all my heart & soul. I won't break my promise to let you go so you can experience and explore your new life. I imagine you have a new man in your life now and even though it tears me apart to think of you with them, I hope that you're happy. I think I'm destined to love you my whole life... maybe one day I'll accept that and learn to live with it. Until then, at least I get to see & be with you in my dreams, no matter how traumatising they are xxx Link to post Share on other sites
Buttercup84 Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 Dear J So you contacted me again today , jut about our lease. My heart is breaking all over again because you just feel sorry for me. You seem to be doing Ok and living your life. I want to so badly just to come home to you and have you kiss me and wrap your arms around me.Knowing you are in the house and I am yours.I keep thinking about how it was when we first got together , the passion and romance. How we couldn't get enough of eachother.In the end it was just me who wanted you that much. Today at work I was doing a little girls hair in pigtails , thinking how much you wanted a little girl when we were together.I think about if I went ahead with the pregnancy if we would be playing with our little girl or boy.If the child would look like us.When I see the dads pick up their daughters it breaks my heart knowing you will be doing this , but with someone else. Today a cute guy on the bus smiled at me and I had to smile , but I still think of you and how much I want to have you. I do not know if you're dating , from what you say you are not.But one day that will end and you will be falling in love and experiencing all these things with this girl.It kills me. I wonder if you were repulsed by me at the end , did I let myself go ? God I miss you so damn much. Link to post Share on other sites
ScienceGal Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 (edited) Dear M, I must say that the way you left me is something I had never experienced before. I had never had someone tell me they love me and then do a complete 180 and give up over a drunken argument. Your need to ignore me now and treat me as though I do not exist is really quite textbook though. I "hurt" you, as you said, and your way of dealing with that is acting as though I am dead to you. Being mean to me at the pub the other night only served your need to show off and to feel superior and in control. wonder if at the end of the day that really makes you feel good. I remember how you struggled before, and I wonder how your stress level is and how you're sleeping these days. It makes me sad to see that's how you need to have things. I imagine what a great lover you could be if you would just take your walls down. I will remember you from the first few months we dated. You were so much fun and so loving. I refuse to believe all that exists in you is ego, but I understand that is a hard battle to win. I challenge you to be honest with yourself though. For one night, sit alone at home and resist shutting everything out. What kind of life do you really want to have? Are you ok that you get angry so easily? Are you content to trade one woman in for the next because it's easier than working on a relationship? What does love mean to you and have you ever felt fulfilled by it? What do you really want, and can you accept that it is going to take some level of work on your part to get there? I am not perfect, and all of the questions I posed above, I have asked and continue to ask myself. When I said I loved you, I meant it and I knew what it entailed. I knew it meant patience and effort. I know there is a wonderful man in you, and it pains me to let the last bit of you go. I really do wish the best for you M. I hope you figure out what you want, and I hope you get it. Love, me. Edited August 30, 2011 by ScienceGal Link to post Share on other sites
Ally-65 Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 So we are trying to be friends. You have no idea that I am not over you. Also, it still seems like I am making all the effort. It was an award winning performance that I put on when we went to the theatre. But I cried after for two days. We are due to go again soon.... thanks to me buying the tickets to something we have always wanted to see together. But between now and then (and I'm not sure if we will go together) I will not make any contact with you. I have always wondered why you dont have any close friends but if you dont make any effort to make them or keep them then I have my answer. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 Dear L, Kiss my ass. Link to post Share on other sites
Viv Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 I will never let you know how I truly feel ever again. I so wanted to react to your stories today about everything you will be doing this week that means you can no longer give me an hour of your time. But I wont, I wont ask you how you can be out having so much fun, while i'm here, grieving over the end of our marriage. You know how much you hurt me when you left so suddenly, and the fact that you have to tell me everything that you are doing without me, I will never understand. But it confirms that you now feel about me the same way that you feel about your other exes that you left. I am nothing, the only purpose i have left in your life now is to make you feel better about yourself. Either by showing I am hurt by you, or getting angry and 'proving' that you are right about me. So I wont do that anymore. I will never show you the real me again, you don't deserve my kindness and compassion, and because I can't be cruel like you I must stay away. I just want to get to the point where I stop looking for the goodness in you, that i always thought was there, because that it causing me so much pain. I want to accept that 'you' don't exist anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
1Dunno Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 I don't know why I keep thinking that there still might be a chance. You're an insensitive bitch who doesn't care about anyone except herself. You've had more guys than I've had hot dinners. I'm pissed off with myself for losing sleep over you. You should really just **** off and get out of my life. Link to post Share on other sites
The_Good_Me Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 Had my first really bad day at work today in a long time. Normally I would have you to speak to about this and you'd give me a kiss & a cuddle... I could really do with one of them right now. Miss you babe x Link to post Share on other sites
Viv Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 I'm tired of hurting Link to post Share on other sites
Dblock10 Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 i wish i had started this thread.... Link to post Share on other sites
Lis007 Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 My Darling M I Love you and I will always love you even if you don't love me back. Love Always, xxxxxxxx Link to post Share on other sites
collegeguy_24 Posted September 1, 2011 Share Posted September 1, 2011 Dear Jen I do miss you, and I would really like to try and make a friendship work. You were so willing to try when out of no where you just blocked me and ignored me. I am not pursuing you romantically, and I will live by my agreement to not contact you unless you contact me. I just want to open communication again, that's it. I know I've made mistakes in the post break up period, and I regret it. I was immature and an emotional wreck. I am done with that though, I have moved on enough to pursue a friendship. I have a GF now, and while I don't know how long my current relationship will last, I have no intention of giving up on it to pursue you, because I know it would be a fruitless attempt. Please, just send me a message, lets have some tea and try to open communication again, its as simple as that. We have what it takes to be friends, lets just give it a shot. Link to post Share on other sites
Niaka44 Posted September 4, 2011 Share Posted September 4, 2011 Saw your new profile picture today. I deleted you on Facebook but your privacy settings are nonexistent so I can see just about everything. I'm regretting deleting you at all, because it was just a dramatic move in a moment of anger, but I can't do anything about it now. Anyway, you looked...different. Your hair is shorter, and it looks like you even have something of a beard, though I've never seen one quite like that before... I'm not sure how I felt when I looked at the picture. You didn't look like the you I've been picturing for the past 5 weeks, the you that you were when I last saw you. I mean, you didn't look THAT different, but I know things aren't quite the same. I keep asking myself if I still love you, and I think the answer is yes, I will always love you. You've been my best friend for a long time. I don't want to ever forget all the good times we've had. I guess breakups make sense when a relationship isn't working, but best friends don't just break up. It hurts not having your support anymore. It hurts that I'm going back to school in two days and I won't have you to talk to every day like I did last year. So much has changed and I hate it, but I know this is how it has to be. Today I don't want to be angry. Today I want to be grateful to you, for loving me and being there for me and making me feel so wanted. Whatever you've done since I left you, whoever you've been with and whatever you've said to them, I still know that you did love me. There was nothing meaningless about it. You did and are doing what you have to do to move on and move past this, just like me. I just wish we hadn't had to turn into an obstacle like this, when we were always something wonderful. Maybe we'll speak again someday, and maybe we won't, but I want you to know that I never doubted your love for me. You gave me so much, even if I lost sight of that after awhile. So thank you. Thank you for everything. Link to post Share on other sites
Queen of Hearts 10 Posted September 4, 2011 Share Posted September 4, 2011 I was pulled from the wreckage. I still contact you and there is an answer and then you pull away again to be with her. No answer ! I love you, I want to be with you, I plead and then, I bleed ! ! ! ! Every day Every Day Every Day Every Day Every Day I THINK OF YOU and MISS YOU !! Every Day Every Day Every Day I Want YOU BACK !!! Every Day Every Day Every Day Every Day Every Day I HURT ! ! ! One year and one month you left. I last saw you - August 16, 2011. Queen of Broken Hearts 10 Link to post Share on other sites
Viv Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 Hey I'm trying so hard to let you go, and help myself to move on. I've managed 5 days so far, and everytime I think about contacting you, I remember your last email and think 'why put myself through more pain'. Thing is, I think I would prefer that pain to the fear I'm feeling at the moment. I can't really see the point in anything, and i'm so scared about the future now that every plan we had is gone, and I can't talk to anyone about it, because the only person who can help me, is me. I hope that I can look back at this one day, and think thank goodness I feel better now, but right now the future looks really black, while yours hasn't changed at all, apart from you'll replace me with someone else... Link to post Share on other sites
RodG Posted September 6, 2011 Share Posted September 6, 2011 You're a piece of trash. I truly hope somebody screws you the way you screwed me. Go to hell you rotten, cowardly and selfish piece of human excrement. Who knows why I spend my free time obsessing over losing you, I know in my head, you're not and never were, worth it. It just hurts being rejected by an ugly, fat slob like you. I know I can do better. I would've done anything for you. It wasn't all my fault that we were screwed up. It wasn't my fault that your life was in a 'perpetual state of suckiness'. I hope you grow up and realise some day how crappy a person you are. Thanks for ending it over text. I've known you since 2007, spent so many nights there for you. End it over text. Go to hell you piece of crap. Forever hating you, R. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted September 6, 2011 Share Posted September 6, 2011 I don't know were you get off stopping to talk to my grandad at your caravan park, it's been a long time without you sure but do you really feel a need to just pop up out of nowhere on a consistent basis?, what bothers me is how you couldn't care less anymore and never have cared less since this ended, I just can't seem the get the memories of you out of my head, the memories you probably never look back on, we shared so much but it seems I'm the only one who took something special from them. Either way I hope your happy but more than anything I hope you one day at least apologise for all of this, it would put an end to all ill feeling at least. Link to post Share on other sites
A7X Posted September 6, 2011 Share Posted September 6, 2011 I hate that you broke up with me, kept talking with me, spoke of how you think we could never be apart for ever. Planning vacations together when we got back together. Telling me that you miss me, that you love me, all for what?? To just leave me in the dust after giving me so much hope. I gave you my everything, you asked I did it all, I opened my heart to you and you just dragged it in the mud. Now I keep randomly crying everyday not knowing where to turn. I thought I deserved better then this after a year of being together, I always treated you right, you're unbelivable for doing this to me... Link to post Share on other sites
Almond_Joy Posted September 6, 2011 Share Posted September 6, 2011 (edited) I will never let you know how I truly feel ever again....You know how much you hurt me when you left so suddenly....But it confirms that you now feel about me the same way that you feel about your other exes that you left. I am nothing, the only purpose i have left in your life now is to make you feel better about yourself. Either by showing I am hurt by you, or getting angry and 'proving' that you are right about me. So I wont do that anymore. I will never show you the real me again, you don't deserve my kindness and compassion, and because I can't be cruel like you I must stay away. I just want to get to the point where I stop looking for the goodness in you, that i always thought was there, because that it causing me so much pain. I want to accept that 'you' don't exist anymore. ^^^This. My thoughts exactly. I'm thoroughly convinced this is the only reason I would ever hear from you again, Nibbler - is because you're seeking self-gratification. Well you, sir, can kiss my a** if you think I'm gonna jump at the chance to be your doormat. Screw that. You could have had so much more if you chose to be the man you CLAIMED to be and stuck with it, and trusted me and our love the way I did. Instead, you took the coward's way out. We hit a rough patch, and you fled. F*****g chickens**t. There's no excuse, and if you can't handle the responsibility that comes with a long term committed relationship, then do all the other trusting, compassionate, supportive, loyal women in this world a huge favor and REMAIN ALONE ....or just have casual sex with a string a vapid women who want nothing more than a nice c*** and some money. At least then there's no disillusion, and you can stew comfortably in your emotional immaturity. I can only image the emotional carnage you're creating with your new lover if you gave her the same rap you gave me. I hope she has the foresight and intuition to either set you straight or run while she can. I wouldn't wish you on my worst enemy. A**hole. MAN this anger feels good! Haven't been this pissed at you in months. And yeah, you totally deserve every ounce of it. With all that out of my system, it's gonna be a GREAT day today. Edited September 6, 2011 by Almond_Joy Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted September 6, 2011 Share Posted September 6, 2011 I hate you. I'm trying to get over you and you move to my small town. It's bad enough you pushed your woman in my face 6 times. Now I have to see you two together. You didn't make time for me, but now you see her all the time? You look like her grandson instead of her boyfriend. I hate you. I hate you that you hurt me so badly toward the end of our relationship and told me you have nothing to be sorry for. I hate that you are here. I hate that you told me you loved me in June and in August took up with her. You disgust me. Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted September 7, 2011 Share Posted September 7, 2011 well you suck in bed. the reason is because you only care about yourself. i might not find another one who like me more than you, but well hey i dont even like myself. at least i am not with somebody who doesnt love me. Link to post Share on other sites
shayla Posted September 7, 2011 Share Posted September 7, 2011 You married a widow so you would not have to buy a house, get a real job, and be taken care of, with your old a*ss. Welp, it must not be working out as well as you expected since you are now driving a cab. I bet she calls you 20 times a day while you are working. She knows that you cheated on me with her, did you really think she was going to let you sit your fat a*s at home while she went to work? Oh, and how is that Levietra working for you? When she is giving you a BJ and your fat belly is resting on her head, your a*s is tingling for me. You took that strap on like a man, and you will always be my bit*ch. Okay I have officially left the rachet zone, you all may carry on. Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted September 7, 2011 Share Posted September 7, 2011 well you suck in bed. the reason is because you only care about yourself. i might not find another one who like me more than you, but well hey i dont even like myself. at least i am not with somebody who doesnt love me. I like this, rei! Link to post Share on other sites
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