Lis007 Posted September 15, 2011 Share Posted September 15, 2011 Dear M, It was so nice having you here last night when we talked with our son. The cute smile you gave me when I gave our daughter the gift. I will never stop loving you and keep praying for our marriage reconciliation. Slowly we seem to be smiling more and I just want you to hold me tight and work through whats happened. I have to hold on to the belief that true love overcomes all. Waiting for the day we are truly together again.... Yours always and forever, I Love you xxxxxxx Link to post Share on other sites
IfiKnewThen Posted September 15, 2011 Share Posted September 15, 2011 just speechless. God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change. The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. And please Lord, continue to get me out of this. and to get my things back and have my heart and mind live in peace. May there be brotherhood of some sort also. amen. Thank you lord. \ Link to post Share on other sites
visualbasicide Posted September 16, 2011 Share Posted September 16, 2011 Tinker away MAN..!!!!!!!!!! Hell I will even start a fund for you...!!!!!! Evil genius scientists don't get where they are by advertising...so I digress. Link to post Share on other sites
Way2blue Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 Hello, M. I want to tell you how much I miss you. I want to know why you told me you werent ready for a relationship but went back to the ex who dumped you. I want to know how you couldn't love me when we had so much fun together. I want to know if you miss talking with me and singing with me? Do you miss the hours of snuggling and back rubs? Do you miss how I felt in your arms or the gentle way you and I kissed? Do you miss my hair that you described as "beautiful golden curls"? I still cry everyday for you: my lover and best friend. But I can't tell you this. I wish I could be angry with you and remember all the times you made me feel rotten. Are you happy now? What would I do if I found you wanted me instead of the one who treated you badly before? I know you cared but didn't love me. That's why it hurt me and I let you go. And because you were hurting me you "ripped the bandaid off" as you put it. I cry as I write this. You will never know because I will never tell you. I will never ask you to come back to me. I know that you are a rebounder and I would never completely have you. Someday my wounds will heal but yours never will because you don't give it time. You just can't be alone for five minutes. I am praying for you because I love you and I hope someday you can love yourself and realize that you deserve to be loved like I loved you. And it's ok to put aside your fears. Because perfect love has no fear. God bless you. Link to post Share on other sites
Almond_Joy Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 The sensory memories are the most vivid. 9 months since I've seen you, and I still remember your scent, the feel of your skin, the pitch of your voice. I fantasize about running into you often. Irrationally wishing you'd pop up at my door, or I'll see you strolling down the street. Pffffft.....As if you'd come within a 10 mile radius of where I live. Despite all the anger and pain and confusion.....all I want is to tell you I miss you. ......I miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
Buttercup84 Posted September 17, 2011 Share Posted September 17, 2011 I miss our house . I miss being in bed with you and having your arms around me in the morning . You took all this away from me and are probably giving it to another girl . How dare she lie in our bed ? Use the shower I used and kiss your lips ? Why did you move with me again only to dump me 6 months later ? I got kicked out of the place I lived in . You treated me so badly one minute , the next you got me presents , have me your coat so I wasn't cold . You said you worked hard to save us , but you didn't . You ignored me , said I was being clingy , distant and nagging . You never sat down with me once to just discuss things in a calm matter . You never asked me how I felt after my abortion . It was just about you . I'm so sorry I was difficult at times and cold to you at the beginning . I'm so so sorry . I can't believe I lost you for good . I just think we are soulmates and we are meant to be . Please give us another chance . God I wish I could turn back time and make things better . I love you so much baby . No one will be as good as you . Link to post Share on other sites
Shtubes Posted September 18, 2011 Share Posted September 18, 2011 (edited) Feeling angry at her for giving up...after such decalarations of love...months and months of emails and poems and love letters on special paper. feel so betrayed and hurt...I had to do all the muther***ing giving and when it came time for her to give...she couldn't. Cuz she is too dam afraid and only wants things her own way like the control freak that she is...there is a few other emails involved here that are not shown but dont matter Here's another pie in the sky email full of bs. I still am just blown away... And this has nothing to do with me feeling masculine or in control or wanting to hurt you. It's about giving you what you deserve, telling you what you need to hear and because IM hurting. Because YOU put ME down! How does someone say these things and then give up? I cant even begin to describe how sick this is and how sick I feel for ever believing you. I could understand if I had did something wrong but, I didn't. I could understand if you didn't love me but, I know that's not true either. What did I EVER do but treat you good, LOVE you and try to make you happy? Stubborn, Cold, petty, shallow, narccistic, insensitive, heartless. Just ***ing heartless and a quitter who bails. Takes her ball and goes home like a little baby. I gave up the relationship AFTER you did. After your tantrum and subsequent storm out. "Im a great guy" __??? Is that all you got?? After all we shared, "Im a great guy"??? That is truly Pathetic. And just remember, because you didn't resolve any of these issues in this relationship, you will STILL HAVE TO address them in the next. Good luck with Mr Perfect! Adios From: __[mailto:@rocketmail.com] Sent: Saturday, July 23, 2011 2:20 PM To: Shtubes Subject: Re: I love you so very much, Even thou at times I do things that hurt, I try so hard to hope that you always see, How much you being in my life means to me, I am sorry yet again for causing you pain, that is the last thing I ever wanted to do. Even when I'm trying to look out for you and do the right thing, I mess up, and I am sorry for that too. I hope that you still know how much I love and cherish you, Like nothing else in my life gives me the thrill of being loved by you. So I hope that you listen and see it my eyes, this sincere apology that comes with tears from deep inside. I love you my dearest __, and yes I do have a soul and a heart. And they are both only for you. Edited September 18, 2011 by Shtubes Link to post Share on other sites
CarrieT Posted September 18, 2011 Share Posted September 18, 2011 Daniel, it has only been a few days since I broke up with you and I desperately want to call and ask if you are thinking of me. I did everything you asked of me with patience and true affection. Why wasn't it enough? I can still smell you and desire your kisses and touch. I have to be grateful we didn't have sex; I'm sure I would be that much more attached to you. Today is Sunday and I know you will be having dinner with your son today; have you told him about me and the fact that your job is getting in the way of having a relationship? Does Morgan know that there is a woman who wants to be with you and offer all that you asked for, but you chose to not fight for that? I wonder what he would say. I have activated my profile on several dating sites and yet I know for a while I am going to compare everyone I talk to with you. And yet, the fact that I have left the door open for you gives me hope and I probably should not have done that. How long do I give? If you haven't called in a month is it truly over? So much potential for so little effort on your part - that is what is so sad for me... You would not have had to do much to keep me. Your touch and kiss told me you wanted me and yet your actions made me believe otherwise. Why the dichotomy? I still grieve and miss you... Link to post Share on other sites
Wrigley2011 Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 I wish I could send my ex this song, and that she would understand, that even though it's coming up on a year since we separated some times it feels like it was yesterday. Link to post Share on other sites
Coupedriver Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 DAMN Wrigley2011....!!! Where and the hell did you find that SONG..!?!?!?!? DAMN I wish I could send it to her and MAKE her listen to it....!!!!!!!!!! ****..I am crying ..again.... Link to post Share on other sites
Wrigley2011 Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 Yea, I know the feeling. Being a Scorpion, I think this song expresses how I feel, and every side of my personality. Link to post Share on other sites
Wrigley2011 Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 When your further through the heeling process, this song will help. DAMN Wrigley2011....!!! Where and the hell did you find that SONG..!?!?!?!? DAMN I wish I could send it to her and MAKE her listen to it....!!!!!!!!!! ****..I am crying ..again.... Link to post Share on other sites
1Dunno Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 I'm angry at you for putting me into "friendzone". I'm even more angry myself for being so spineless and allowing you to do it. Link to post Share on other sites
GabbyGirl Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 I am so angry with you...you broke my heart. You USED me for sex and told me you loved me. What a load. I hope you choke on the Wild Turkey I gave you. You are a cruel person and your wife and kids deserve so much better. Lord give me the strength to go on and build a better and happier life. I desperately want to forget all the lies and leave the pain in the past. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 I hate you. I guess you can't help it...you are just selfish and self-centered. When you treated me terribly, you were just being you. I hate you. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 I geuss it's been a long time, just over a year, it's so crazy when looking back at how much I really went through and felt over this loss and I still remember all those wonderful times we had together, it almost seemed like it would never end, we really were one of a kind back then, I feel like I've let so much go in the past year, things still remind me of you and I'll never forget those times I used to stroke your hair out of your face and kiss you before we said goodnight and layed our heads down to sleep, the best christmas I ever had was with you in our house, we were so excited, they were nice and peaceful times I thought I'd of seen many more of. I'd never hold out hope of you coming back and to be honest I wouldn't go back looking back on all the pain it caused me but I'd sure like to think you think of me every so often and went through a little bit of what you lost on your side too, I feel I've let it all go now and I'm happy because your happy, I just want the best for you and if I couldn't of been the best then I hope somebody else can be, the memories of you will live long and be cherished within me for as long as I live, I forgive you for all that was said and done, I forgive everything, you'll always be in my prayers, I hope you have a great life, maybe one day you can sit down and tell me about it. Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 I think about you everyday still, I wish i could just move on and I have in so many ways. But I am still having trouble with how you left things. I could have never done what you did to me, I should have walked before you cheated and I would still have some proud. Alas, I didn't and now I am just left to wonder.... How can a person treat another so poorly, to just throw them away like used up trash. Did I mean so little to you? these are questions that I will never receive an answer to and I have accepted that. But know that I still miss my friend, I thought you where my best friend and you totally let me down as a person. However I hope that the decisions you have made are the right ones for you. I will not ever speak to you again and that is utterly and total on your shoulders. But know that I did and still care, but you will never know there is anything in my heart but contempt. Not hatred or disrespect, just contempt for you. Soon it will be indifference and I look forward to the day that you don't cross my mind and evoke a feeling. Link to post Share on other sites
solobeary Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 I miss you so much. I'm studying like usual, I'm sick of it, I'm sick of everyone, but I'm not sick of you. I would give anything for you to be holding me tonight when I go to sleep. Except that it's not you that I want, you've changed so much, I'd give anything for the you I used to know. Link to post Share on other sites
Buttercup84 Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 Goodnight my sweetheart. I love you. I would do anything to have you kiss me good night again and knowing you are next to me. I love you so much baby. Link to post Share on other sites
Niaka44 Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 Four weeks of absolutely no contact. Way longer than I've ever gone without talking to you since sophomore year of high school. Can you believe it? That was four years ago. You started becoming an important part of my life four years ago, and now...this. If someone had told me on June 17th, 2008, that two years from that day you would ask me to be your girlfriend and I would accept, I would have laughed my head off. Same thing the next year in 2009. On that day, both of those years, I was with someone else and I was very happy. But then it did happen. June 17th, 2010 happened. After all the weeks of waiting and hoping, you finally asked. And I never regretted my decision; I've just wondered what would have happened if I said no. I think I'd be worse off in a lot of ways. You were my best friend and that will never change. No one can take that away from me. I think you just lost track of what it means to be a good friend, and it's okay. We all do that sometimes. But when you're also acting like a not-so-good boyfriend too, that's kind of another story. If I hadn't walked away, I'd likely be miserable right now. As it is, I'm sad, but I AM coping. I've gone over every possibility, every choice I could have made differently, but I think it would have ended somewhere, no matter what. I firmly believe that our love was and always has been real, but it just wasn't meant to last. And that's okay too, it really is. I just want you to be happy, and I want to be happy too. I wish we could share our happiness, but I think it's going to have to be something we keep to ourselves. I don't know if we'll talk again in the future. Part of me desperately hopes so, but I'm still hurting in little ways so I can't really even begin to conceptualize it yet. For now, I just hope everything is going well, and I hope you think of me fondly from time to time. And I'm still sorry. Link to post Share on other sites
A7X Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 Just get out of my head already please.. Yes I love and miss you even though I totally hate your actions and even though I know we'll never be together again I somehow still hope for it some days.. I truely always loved you with all my heart even though I took us for granted sometimes.. Now that I see life without you, I miss our talks about our future together and everything we wanted so much to have.. We were the best lovers and got lost in miss communication.. Having a hard time today, wish I would hear from you, but I know you well enough that I never will. Link to post Share on other sites
Kageytn Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 I want to contact you and I am not going to do it. My child is sick and I'm exhausted. I would love to lean on you but I couldn't even do that when were dating. You drive me insane w your possessiveness and questioning and leaning. I'm done. It's my gift to myself. Done. No contact. Link to post Share on other sites
LuluinAZ Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 S, I'm trying to cope and stop wondering how you are doing or feeling, or what you will do, etc. Lt. Colombo retired and so should I. Whatever happens is about what is best for YOU now, and that's as it should be. Don't worry about me or her, what is best for you. I realize that's none of my business and if you want me to know you will. I have gotten busy, the last thing to tackle is to quit looking for an email or a text or phone call from you. Now that I've worked on not crying successfully, I think it's doable. You are so lovable! L:cool: Link to post Share on other sites
Lis007 Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 Dear M, We had so much fun last night laughing with the kids, talking and catching that moment when we stared into each others eyes and we were smiling. I Love you so much xxxx Link to post Share on other sites
keepdancin Posted September 21, 2011 Share Posted September 21, 2011 (edited) Where are you? Why aren't you rushing back to me? Are you playing the NC game too? I'm better at it than you are though. I wait. I hold the phone and I think I'm going to dial or text, and I don't. I start to compose an email or an IM and eventually hit the delete button til it's all gone. I look at my keys and freeway exits and think about showing up on your doorstep, but I don't. I go home. It takes all of my being, and I have sobbed for hours for wanting it. You have called me though. You've written emails and have admitted how this is hard, and you miss me and feel like a fool, and you wake up in the middle of the night and imagine I am there next to you; and then you tell me that "we must do this" that you are "not right to be with me now" that you "only wish me happiness and success"? WTF? Which is it? Can it be both? Is this the textbook definition of stringing someone along? Are you really THAT confused and feel you must make me experience it too? I am sorry you are confused, because I am not. Get right. Figure your **** out! Come back to me and have an amazing relationship and life partner. But, you must love me the way you know I deserve to be loved, or you must leave me alone. (Can I be strong enough to sustain these boundaries if he pushes them?) I know I want you, and the next person that I love will love me back fully and without hesitation, whether it is you or not. You didn't expect this, did you? You didn't expect me to completely move out every last thing of mine and not return your phone calls right away, did you? I bet you thought I would linger. I bet you thought I would cry and beg for you, stalk you even. No, my friend. Calm your ego. You will not see me that way. My integrity and dignity have taken enough blows from you. I was not deaf to the things you said to me nor blind to the words you wrote me during our fabulous breakup week. (Yes, it was more like a whole week rather than a breakup day.) They were extremely painful, and when I have my angry days, it is because I am remembering those things you said, oh the rejection. This is so hard. I love you so much. You are my buddy, my partner, my soul, my heart. I've learned so much from you and I don't want to stop learning. I wanted to travel the world with you. I wanted a beautiful wedding with all of our friends. I wanted to make a baby with you. I miss your family and my mom misses you too. Your friends all think I'm a catch. Why don't you fight for me? I don't want to move on. I just want you back. I want to make blueberry pancakes for you on Sunday morning after making love all night again. When will the tears stop? You say you want to see me, but is it because you want me back, or because you want to try to sleep with me until you find someone new, or because you just want to be friends. And, I'm afraid that if it is anything but the first, I will end up getting hurt even worse than now, because I will be trying to be with you again. Especially when the last thing you said on the phone, when last we spoke was "I love you". Albeit very quietly, you said it. Only the cruelest of people would do that unless they wanted their love back. You are not cruel, are you? Edited September 21, 2011 by keepdancin Link to post Share on other sites
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