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[AwptiK]

Hey.. even though we were just texting, about everything, I need to get some feelings typed out.

 

I actually expected things to go reasonably well. I didn't quite expect the swift no. I said everything I could say and did all I could do. I told myself i'd be okay with the outcome and that it probably wasn't going to be in my favor.

 

I've done so much and cared so much for you. It is, your loss dear. I'd love to ever have someone try this hard for me to be in their lives.

 

Farewell.

 

Actually editing my note lol.

 

After you said no, and I poured out all I had left to say, I really didn't expect a reply. I definitely didn't expect you to say you'd call later. There's a lot I can make of this, so i'll have to see what ends up happening.

 

Unless I said some golden sentence, I bet you just want closure. I appreciate that, but it isn't what I want :/

 

We'll have to see

Edited November 30, 2011 by AwptiK

[Kamila]

This is the acceptance and 'I have the blues for you' phase.

 

And the 'Are you thinking about me too' ?

 

I must admit, I've been staring like crazy at my phone, like trying to make it appear a text message coming from you.

 

"I know i've hurt you, and you probably know I've been dating now, but I still can't stop thinking about you..."

 

I'm still here where you've left me.

 

Your name has appeared like 10 times this week, and I don't understand why it's like that.

Is someone, something trying to make me understand something ?

Why is this happening to me ? Why can't I slip out of this stupid daze ?

 

And I remember so much how you've hurt me:

- name calling

- indifference

- arrogance

- mister know it all

- mister i won't commit ever

- even pushing me one day

 

You abused me, you wanted me out of your life, you made me break-up with you.

I couldn't stand a chance, my love for you wasn't enough.

You wanted fame and money, the dominance, you wanted to dominate all the people around you.

And I was the one that didn't want to comply, that's why you went ballistic with me.

 

"Was I no good for you, did I ever treat you badly ?" I asked you during our last fight. You sighed with "No..."

 

Than what is the f***ing problem ???

 

What was wrong with me ???

 

I want you back when you were all nice in the beginning, that's what I want.

 

How could you just forget about us ? You just make me cry.

[Coupedriver]

Not anymore....all of the f*cking lies you told.Your such a f*cking bitch.I hope, if there is a HELL, you go straight to it..!! I wish you would walk by me again in the store because I will reach out and smack the f*ck out of you..YOU deserve it.YOUR fu*king family is SO f*cked up,with YOU at the top.!!!!! I hope he fu*cks you over good,your both good for each other...BOTH of you are useless.People like you need to get kicked off of this planet..you fu*k up everything you touch.I pray to GOD to let you come back to me..just one more time...just one more..so I can slap your face and laugh at you.I found someone...she is NOTHING like you..she has a HEART..shes HONEST...loving and cares about me in a way you could never understand.Shes a woman...unlike the filth you are.I have something with her I never had with you..SO MANY things I never had with you.Your nothing but a wh*re...Karma will come for you.I just hope I can watch it and just laugh.

[Lis007]

Darling,

 

I have loved seeing you so much these last few weeks... sharing family times... meals... i know you are still hurting we both are... we have both grown and changed so much in the last two years.

 

I just want you to be happy and for us to be happy and for us to find a way forward. We are both going to be protecting ourselves from emotional heartbreak but we have to open up enough to try.. let me love you... you need to let me show you - take the guard down just enough...

 

We have an amazing future ahead if we try and we have to look forward... we share so many dreams that we can make happen together.

 

So I hope you will say yes to a day on a cruise ship with me.... I have booked the tickets and hope I won't be sitting at the most romantic table for two on my own.

 

Love you now and always

 

Me xxx

 

I love you - have for 25 years.

[LostJustLost]

Hey baby.. I hope you're doing ok, hopefully black Friday wasnt too hard on ya.

 

I came here instead of leaving another message, today is the 3rd month to the day that I last heard from you. Such a normal message, one that gave no hint of what was on the horizon. I wonder.. if I were the one who did such a thing to you, would you think it was fair? The man I knew would never treat another person like this. When did your heart turn to ice, when did your mind decide cruelty was in order, when did I become a casualty of lost love?

 

Every time I take a moment to myself, you're what pops into my head. When I wake up, when I go to sleep, and most of the day in-between. When I get home, the first thing I do is go to yahoo to see if you're there, if yall have decided to say something, then to FB to look at your profile, then here I sit, waiting, just in case, calling myself a fool the entire time. I need to move on, ***, but I don't know how. I miss you baby. I don't want to hurt any more. But I don't know how to stop that either.

 

I guess that's all I have to say. Be safe, be happy, take care of yourself love. ~L

[The_Good_Me]

10 years of my life, 10 years of my love, 10 years of crying together, laughing together, battling through hard times, enjoying the good times! To me you are everything and yet you cannot even be bothered to wish me a happy birthday... You must really hate me!

 

I've had so much to deal with over the last 8 months and now I have this to add to it? Thanks...

[dicky_fish]

Man it felt weird going to The Great Wall and then walking past your old flat tonight. So strange, you haven't lived there for 2 years but I still feel oddly drawn to it.

 

I still really miss you xxxxxx

[AwptiK]

K,

 

What to say, what to say.

 

I don't even know where to start after tonight. I knew that phone call would turn out like it did, I just really didn't want it to be that way. You've been everything to me, since we were first together. I have gone above and beyond for you and then everything gets taken away from me. To think, i'll never have you back...kills me. Never in my life have I felt this badly.

 

You're perfect. I don't understand you being insecure, you really have so much going for you. You're gorgeous, from your head to your feet. Everything has gone so smoothly between us. Everything fits together perfectly and flows perfectly. I don't see why everyone in the world doesn't want to know you. I really don't see how your past relationships have been as bad as you've said. What fools, those guys were.

 

What a fool, I am. I can't believe I made that comment that I did. Anger has taken you away from me.

 

I don't think anything hurt me more than you saying that my comment erased a huge part of how you felt about me. The worst part is i'm sure that's extremely true. Of all things to slip from my mouth.... it was that. I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO BE BAD. WHYYYYYYYYYYYY. It wouldn't take more than an ounce more of anger at myself, to start throwing everything around and punching pillows and my bed.

 

In the end, I said everything I could possibly say, did all I could possibly do. I just have to believe that you somehow don't deserve that, but against what everyone else tells me...I believe you do.

 

I'd STILL do anything to have you back. Anything, K...

 

I love you, but I'm going to do my best to move on. No more texting, hardly talking when I see you at work...etc.

 

Goodbye.

[sandybeaches]

For one year, you told me over and over how much you missed me and how much you loved me but you couldn't get a visa to come visit me. I spent every last dime I saved to spend two weeks with you in your country.

 

I loved being with you. You were so protective, romantic and REAL. You cried your eyes out at the airport when I was leaving. I started crying the day before my flight and never stopped .. although the reasons changed.

 

For a smart guy, you aren't smart enough to know NOT to facebook friend all the women you are playing. You had this problem once before when two women called you out - did you think I forgot that - but I was so smitten with you that I believed you when you said they were crazy and obsessed with you. But because of your carelessness, I only had ONE week of blissful happiness after my return home.

 

This other woman dedicated her Twitter feed and blog to you. Lots of photos. She even made a photo montage of you. You played it off by saying she did come to see you but it was a business trip and it isn't YOUR fault she has a crush on you. Oh come on! Do you think I'm that freaking stupid? I have EYES. Didn't matter how absurd your excuse was. You turned it around on my and said I didn't trust you. Then you split.

 

I know I should feel sorry for this woman. She has no idea what she is dealing with. But it makes me mad that she is living in the fantasy world I used to be in. When a text from you brightened my day.

 

It's also unfair that you are able to hurt people over and over again. I want you to be stopped. But it is easy for you to find victims. You just become our version of the perfect man and we are hooked.

 

I know karma is going to get you ... I just want it to happen faster.

[Lis007]

You said no when I asked if I could go for a walk with you... you wanted to run.

 

Okay you said no to the cruise - but that's okay i will take our son.

 

You also said you won't ever be free for anything I try to organise where we would be alone together.

 

You didn't get to to read the love letter I wrote - well as you said whats the point!

 

Yet we sat and ate dinner and in front of the kids you act so friendly and sweet...

 

I was so upset last night and so proud of myself for handling it!

 

I am still standing for our marriage and us - no matter what you do or say! I know the love is there after all we wouldn't have enjoyed 25 years together. Our commitment was for life!!

 

I am still standing.... and I still love you with all my heart xxx

[LostJustLost]

Again, I come here instead of getting ahold of you because this is the only way I can break free of the pain. And I MUST break free because you walking away without a second glance is killing everything good in me. I will not act on the constant urge to try and get ahold of you, no matter how hard it is not to. I have to let the train wreck inside me get cleared off the tracks, and to do that, I can not talk to you. That is something I never thought I would say, never thought I would feel but people here are right.

 

I miss you babe. From the moment I open my eyes in the morning until they finally close and sleep takes me, I miss you. I hope God helps you find whatever it is you're looking for. I hope he helps me find peace.

 

I love you. Be safe. ~L

[Bazamu]

Hey babe, I just wanted to let you know the guy you are f***ing right now probably has something, since he has a girlfriend and you're just left overs to him. I wish you would come to the realization that you're not in a fairy land and you run whenever it gets tough. Grow the f*** up and start taking some action. I would love to call you and say how much I miss you, but you are probably getting it on right now, so their is no point. Thanks again for what you have done for me, other than ripping out heartss, putting them in a jar then lighting it on fire. Karma is true, I hope you get to see the short end of the stick soon.

[Bazamu]

Damn this thread! I don't think there is anything in the world that can stop me from trying to talk to her. I will put it on here, but in the back of my mind, I want to unblacklist her number and call and listen to her say the same crap I always do. "give me space or maybe some time so I can actually miss you" all this bulls*** that is going through my head. Its only been 3 weeks and I should be able to make this go away by now, but no matter how hard I try, it doesn't, it gets worse. Pulling the trigger would maybe do it, but I'm not going to satisfy your needs. You lie to my face and turned your whole life upside down. I write poems and notes and that don't mean S*** to you, so why do you read them?!? God please give me strength!

[SelfCentered]

Hello

 

It's been hard, this break up. It shouldn't be, given how long we were together.

 

I miss you a lot. You made me so happy. Your smile, the way you held my arm when you held my hand. The way you squeeked when you were really happy!

 

I miss it.

 

Even when I escaped to one of the most isolated and beautiful places in the world, my only thought was of you. Perhaps you don't feel the same way. That might show how different this relationship was to the both of us.

 

My last break up, it was easy to hate her. But I can't hate you. I can't think a bad word about you. Maybe I've just grown as a person?

 

We never really stop growing, I think. Really. There's always a new lesson to be learnt.

 

We're both at those stages in our lives where everything is spiralling out of control. Maybe in anoather life we would still be together. But it's not to be. The hardest part is acceptin that. Even though I've been emotionally beaten and battered, I'm feeling a resurgence of strength that tells me I will get through this, and I will develop as a person.

 

My message to you, is to make sure you grow as a person too and tackle all those inner demons we both know you have.. You'll never be truly happy with them.

 

Thank you.

 

And all the best.

[sandybeaches]

S-

 

I know you are telling that ugly, desperate chick all sorts of lies about me. You are saying I am crazy and obsessed with you. But you know, the truth is the truth no matter how you twist it.

 

You never owe up to the part you play in your relationships failing. It's always someone else's fault. You had three fiancees and who knows how many girlfriends, and somehow they are all crazy. You want everyone to believe you are so f****** special that you can make women lose their minds.

 

I think with this new chick you might be in over your head. Anyone who plays a relationship out in public like she does is not going to take it well when you pull the rug out from under her. Oh and you will because you are still trolling for dates on the internet while she is dedicating "Everlasting Love" to you on her Facebook wall. When that happens, she is going to do something desperate to get you back or get back at you.

 

If I'm lucky, God will give me a front row seat to your undoing.

[Lis007]

The day before these concert tickets went on sale I was so excited my favorite band!! One of yours as well!!

 

I rang you asked if you would go with me..... nahhh you said!!

 

Then tonight I find out not only are you going but you are are going with one of my old girlfriends!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I cant believe that 2 days ago I poured my heart out to you in a love letter and then you smuggly flaunt this in my face tonight!!!

 

I am trying so damn hard but tonight I just have to say

 

F YOU!!!! I wish I could put MUD all over your car and scream and yell at you!!!!

 

Grrrr!!!! and I am not even angry I am crying at the bastard that you have become!!

 

A...hole!!!!

 

Well I hope you have fun with that slut!!

[sadpanda87]

if the sky we look upon should tumble and fall, or the mountain should crumble into the sea. i wont cry or shed a tear, as long as you stand by me.

 

but you wont.

Edited December 3, 2011 by sadpanda87

[sandybeaches]

I spoke to the woman your former best friend/fiancee. She is really messed up and after all this time can't wrap her mind around someone she thought was such a good guy turned out to be such a cruel jerk. None of us saw it coming. Usually someone can snuff out a wolf disguised as a sheep but you had everyone fooled.

 

Did something happen to you? You could have had it all. Why did you throw it away?

[LostJustLost]

Hey Baby. Not a good day for me, so to help make it thru the hell that always happens at night I've got the babies for the weekend. They bring laughter and noise with them, lighting up the room every time they bound thru the door. Tonight it's not helping. I need to talk to you.

 

**** was diagnosed with cancer yesterday. It took everyone by surprise, none of us know what to do, what to say, how to act. They don't know if they can do anything, and anything they do will not help for long. The only guarantee is if they somehow manage to get rid of it, it will come back.

 

My heart is on the ground.

 

God I need to talk to you, I want y'all to tell me how to sort out my thoughts so I can talk to her without getting emotional, so she knows she can talk to me. I don't know how to handle this, how to tell the kids, how to explain to them and to myself how something so evil can happen to someone so good.

 

Instead, here I am, pouring out my thoughts to a group of strangers, because I know how crushed I would be from your ignoring my message. This NC thing is SO damn hard. How do you do it? I wish I could be more like you and less like me.

 

I miss you ***. My heart has not changed, my way of thinking has tho, which is a good thing. I hope everythings going alright. Thinking of you, as usual.. ~L

[punkinless]

oh hey. when he starts being a dik and cheats on you again (which he will) don't you even think for a SECOND that you can come crying to me. i'm NOT gunna save you from him AGAIN. you would think that you would learn. after not talkin to him for a year and a half you tell him you love him 10 days after you broke up with me? just think about that. tell someone you love them, then 10 days later tell it to someone else. oh wait i forgot. your still in ***in highschool. i thought i left all that drama behind. i thought you were different. you had me fooled. hell you had us all fooled. your family ***in hates him and they love me. hows that feel? lol. even your own mother still loves me. i miss you like crazy and idk why cuz its been over 2 months and you havn't talked to me ONCE sense you broke my heart. i'm 1000x better than this ahole. and everybody knows it. hell you will prolly realize it soon enough. but it'll be too late for you. you will never have the trust and respect i had for back. ever again. i gave you my whole heart and you took it with you when you left. and it would be some sort of mirical for you to repair what you did to me. when you come crawlin back to me here within the next few months. which you will cause he'll *** some other chick and you're too weak to be alone. you better believe that you'll have to work your aass off to win even a little trust from me. yeah i'd let you come back. i can't turn you down. but i'm gunna be mean and cold cause i don't need you to live my life. so until then, keep pretending i don't exist till its convienent for you and take care. i'll be waiting for you to start begging.

[SelfCentered]

You were my little girl, my sweet, innocent, little girl who was shy and needed guidance. My guidance. And you loved me for that. And I loved the loved. I felt like we were happy.

 

Everyone told me to make sure I didn't break your heart as you were the younger, inexperienced one.

 

Two weeks after a breakup instigated by YOU, I'm the one who feels like a wreck.

 

I'm sick of trying to act so noble and "oh, it's best for her, she's just started uni" holier than thou attitude. Why can't i just say "**** it", go out and have some fun and try to get over you!!!

 

I hate what you've done to me but I can't hate you. I can still see your sweet innocence. I imagine you lonely, crushed and wanting help and I rush in to save the day.

 

All the girls I saw out last night were loud, drunk, obnoxious... Guess that doesn't do it for me anymore like it used to. What upset me was that I fear you will become that too.

 

Thanks for making me a wreck. Who's the less inexperienced now now I wonder?

[Butterfly21]

Thank you for your phone call yesterday. You showed me that i made the right choice leaving you! I'm finally starting to realize that you will NEVER change no matter how much i wish you would. I'm also thankful you told me about the ''classy chicks'' you have been giving out your number too that text you saying they want to get drunk and f*ck you..sounds very promising. Bet when they figure out what a psyco you are they won't even wanna do that with you no more.

I hope you realize one day what you lost. I gave up my dreams, moved to a different country, gave up my whole life, just everything i had to be with YOU and you ruined everything. I loved you with everything i had, but it was never good enough for you. It took me a while to get away from your abusive controling ass but i promise you i am going to show you that i CAN be something and that i am not a worthless piece of ****.

I know you think that your threats to make mine and my familys life hell through this divorce will scare me but you are wrong!! Your an immature pathetic loser and as much as i still love your stupid a$s i can not wait for this to be down with.

 

Good Luck finding a new wife..hope she won't be as stupid as me to stick around and put up with your crap!

[LostJustLost]

I went to your wall tonight. I saw the link and I know it's meant for me. I didnt cry, almost, but Im stronger now and learning how to stand on my own, without you at my side. You would be proud of me, ***.

 

I never did believe you were a bad person, I get angry when I talk about how you left me but that's because it was so cowardly. You should have said goodbye. But a bad person, no. Not you. And neither am I.

 

I will always love you. But for tonight, I'm ok. I hope you are too. ~L

[sandybeaches]

Today your IM status said you had new hopes for the new year. So I guess you think you will just be skating through life and all these wonderful things will be coming your way.

 

You think you can mess with people all you want and it will never catch up with you? You will never find happiness until you right all the wrongs you've done. You've hurt many kind, caring and deserving women, and never lost a second of sleep. But I really think you've met your match this time.

[ayanocano]

#,

 

I don't understand what went wrong. I really wanted us to work out and to at least try. Your version of "try" has been the most half-assed attempt at trying I had ever experienced. I left my ex-bf thinking that I was in love with you and for a brief ****ing moment, I was in love with you. I thought of you all the time, I wanted the best for you, I wanted to comfort you when you were sad, when you were having a ****ty day at work, or when I thought you needed a hug.

 

All those times, all those times, I told you I wanted nothing more than sex was a god damn lie. I lied to myself in order to please you because I thought that you would then fall for me. You know, I would go to a bar, drink myself silly and play that song that reminded me of you and think, "why wasn't it me? why did you leave me alone?"

 

I loved you...and you couldn't do the god damn same. I had NEVER felt that way for someone. Where I felt elated, happy, worried, jumpy, lustful, and terror, all in the same damn contained feeling. I had taken such a big risk, because I thought that you may have felt the same. I was wrong, and now, you act so cool, so collected--how can you? You told me that no matter what, you were going to come back--and what you changed your mind? You changed your god damn mind because you realized that you weren't that attracted to me in that way. LIAR! How can you lie like that when you flirted, you made every god damn indication that you wanted me as more than a friend.

 

I lost my god damn best friend because I couldn't make a decision for myself, because I was too damn pussy **** to man up and break up with a person on my own. I had to meet you and take a leap of faith and broke up with a person who didn't deserve my ****--all for you. Because I was naive and a stupid person who got emotional too fast over NOTHING. No one...someone who got me, had me intimately when I value intimacy as a way of showing my appreciation and my true agape love for someone has affected me this way. I'm not talking about ****ing, I'm talking about how I shared myself--my soul with you. I was a god damn fool. A FOOL for thinking that we would be right for each other.

 

But the universe is apparently keeping us apart for a reason. It sucks, cause damn you are funny, intelligent, cunning, handsome as ****, decisive, and we meshed for that small period. I had never wanted a male as much as I wanted you. And what happened? Now we are friends. FRIENDS? Friends who barely talk and see each other. You will do things that confuse the **** out of me--like how we can share drinks like intimate friends, how you can look at me and say things about me that have more meaning with a smile because you were intimate with me. Even worse? You can hug me and tell me, "Have a good night" in my ear as if that won't **** with me.

 

Why did I fall for you and why were you able to move on so quickly? Why? Why do I still have lingering feelings for you?

 

Answer me! Tell me the truth--all of it! You never wanted me in that way--you wanted me to suffer with you!! And now? Now I feel guilt for what I did to a person who was innocent, and now I cannot profess my love for a man whom I was able to meet.

 

I don't regret meeting you at all. I just--things should have been different.