confusedguy2 Posted April 11, 2012 Share Posted April 11, 2012 I would wish not to go to California to see your ex from 5 years , get drunk, have sex and be pregnant from him, while I was in Europa to see my parents and getting help from my mum to buy and bring you a special gift on my back. I would wish to focus on me only and be sincere with your sweet words. Now I got my green card and I won the fight I gave for you for 2 years in order to stay in the USA beside you and have a life together. If you would not destroy our happiness 9 months ago, I was gonna propose you this June. But in 2 weeks you are going to give the birth of a baby you are having from ex,who abandoned him and run away from country. Now you are going to raise him by yourself and without a father Was it really worth? I hope you really one day learn to say sorry,be a responsible and caring person. I hope you learn not to hurt good people around you just to satisfy your own self desires. Link to post Share on other sites
xenomorph Posted April 11, 2012 Share Posted April 11, 2012 Dear darkness, You are rotting away and the memory of you is stinking up the place. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Sophie99 Posted April 11, 2012 Share Posted April 11, 2012 Just stop contacting me, ok? You wanted out, so get out. I wasn't everything to you so now you're nothing to me - k? Glad we cleared that up 'mate' 2 Link to post Share on other sites
worldgonewrong Posted April 11, 2012 Share Posted April 11, 2012 You have no idea how far I've moved on from you. If you knew, you'd probably be shocked. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
jennisfora Posted April 11, 2012 Share Posted April 11, 2012 cant help thinking of you today. so many little things id love to tell you about, and talk to you about. i keep wondering how you are filling the void of us, who are you confiding in now, how are you handling things? i hope you are doing well, and i hope you still think of the times we had. i hope someday we can talk again and not have it be about the breakup, or the loss, but just talk like two human beings. i miss you. *hugs & kisses* Link to post Share on other sites
xxSRMxx Posted April 11, 2012 Share Posted April 11, 2012 just wondering what your watching on the tv, id have just been finishing work now and getting ready to drive to yours to get snuggled with you on the sofa, i hated those sofas btw, id kill to sit on them now though. I cry like a little baby and it scares me and i know you feel guilty because youve hurt me but this is so hard. Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 I want to check out of this. I really don't know where this came from..... The contractors are finished painting, the carpet guys will be here Friday, and my furniture will be delivered Friday as well. Hopefully the house will be live in worthy by the middle of next week. I have to much going on to climb back into this hole, FML. Link to post Share on other sites
Itsonlyme66 Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 Another anxiety attack, thanks to you. Wish you were going through 1/4 of what I am. Self-centered, selfish, self-absorbed, self-indulgent JERK. Karma, please!!!!!!!! And powers that be, when am I going to stop wanting him back ?? ARGH! Link to post Share on other sites
Itsonlyme66 Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 OMG I just saw a video of Tony Soprano. Not only do you look remarkably like him, carry yourself so like him as well, everything, but just watching him on TV literally caused the start of a panic attack within me. Do you suppose Tony was a psychopath like you? Link to post Share on other sites
Forevergreen Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 (edited) Baby, I hope you are well? Today has been a rollercoaster day for me. Not only having to deal with the pain of you been out of my life, but the realisation today that all my memories of you/us I now have to forget, let go of. Your laugh Your beautiful smile The passing scent of your Chanel perfume Your sweet tender kisses Our hugs & caresses. I promised myself 3 things when I got together with you 1) To let you know every day that I loved you. 2) To never take you for granted. 3) To hold you in my arms every night we where together. 3 promises that I kept, 3 promises that now seem pointless. I really do hope that one day at some point in the future even if for a fleeting moment, you to remember some memories, memories of us and can shed a tear, even a single solitary tear against my ocean of tears that I really did love and care for you. Love you always KYAB xxx Edited April 12, 2012 by Forevergreen spelling mistake Link to post Share on other sites
jennisfora Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 i have come to terms with the fact that for me, i was happy with our relationship, and happy with you and how things were going. i would change very little,if anything at all,but i have accepted that that was how i felt. and you werent happy, and didnt feel able to tell me your misgivings or concerns, but pretended things were okay and went along with me because you didnt want to hurt me, or werent sure what you were going to do. i wish you had told me what things were like for you. you said you were a curmudgeon, and that i neednt be concerned because that was who you are, so i didnt let it bother me, and i didnt worry about it. you told me it was okay, and i believed you. i wish, you had felt confident enough in us to confide how you really felt, what was going on with you. i did notice some anxiety around your birthday. i know you are worried about getting old. i wish i could be there for you, tell you i would love you no matter what, but i did, and it wasnt enough. i miss you babe. im sorry you didnt trust me. im sorry you had concerns about settling down. my only hope is that you find out with time that the journey is better traveled with a partner, and that you contact me down the road when you have figured out who you are, and what you want in life. i would have tried to fix any problems, i wouldnt have bailed on you. you were so worried about me leaving you. and yet, i am the one left, the one trying to pick up the pieces and wondering where my love went. follow your dreams, and do what you have to do, just know, that i love you. *hugs & kisses* Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 Today I hit a stage where I don't know if you're an evil person who never loved me and used me for 8yrs, or a saint of a woman to put up with me for 8yrs. I have no idea. I guess it really doesn't matter, does it. Link to post Share on other sites
xxSRMxx Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 Today I became so inconsolable over what had happened i was hospitalised. What a very dark place I have found myself in Todays my turning point now... Link to post Share on other sites
humanfly Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 Dear K, Hey dude. So that last time you threatened to leave me because I wouldn't give you all that cash to pay your silly little expenses (including your phone bill, which would only perpetuate your lying, cheating behavior), I decided to end it with you. Yes, I changed my number and my email without a word because I realize that I have nothing to gain by being honest and forthright with you. Your treatment of me these past 4 months has been truly despicable. You've treated me like a rag doll, acting cold and distant when your bills were all paid up and everything was convenient for you, than pouring on the honey and acting all sweet and loving when you needed something. And all the while you were lying to me and giving your affections and your body to another man who doesn't give a damn about you other than for the sex. Or maybe that's how you prefer it. Even with all this, I can't help but love you still. I saw a side of you that was truly special. I saw you evolve before my very eyes from a pretty, smart young girl to a gorgeous, cramped goddess with more sociological awareness than most people could handle. You were a shining light to my eyes. Every time I looked at you my heart would feel weighed down with love and my body would involuntarily cringe with longing. You were my soul mate. My best friend. Losing you feels like losing a vital part of myself. It's indescribable, this feeling of loss and betrayal. I'll probably never fully understand the reasons for you turning away from me. I miss you a great deal. I love you sweetheart. Always. Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted April 12, 2012 Share Posted April 12, 2012 I really, really have to wonder if there is anyway you could humiliate me more and cause more distress and confusion on our son. I honestly don't think its possible. I've never heard ANYONE getting f-ed over the way you've done me. Ever. Link to post Share on other sites
Follower Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 Wow how pathetic you must think i am.. get overself darling, im over you, you pathetic cheating lying fool. I would have given you anything in the world and you spat on me from a great f*cking height, but you know what, im not that fool anymore so your little mind games dont wont and never will effect me. Peace poo face. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 (edited) I need comfort. I want to call you. But why? You can't deliver. Worthless bastards make terrible bfs and you, my dear, are a worthless bastard. You're a waste of skin, a waste of good oxygen. You're nothing. You are a worthless bastard, you live the life of a worthless bastard, you talk like a worthless bastard, you walk like a worthless bastard, you whine like a worthless bastard, you steal like a worthless bastard, you crap like a worthless bastard, you stink like a worthless bastard, you even sneeze like a worthless bastard. Do you understand me? You are a WORTHLESS BASTARD! Let me say it again in case you still don't get it: You are a.....W O R T H L E S S...B A S T A R D ! ! ! Edited April 13, 2012 by CopingGal Link to post Share on other sites
worldgonewrong Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 Today I hit a stage where I don't know if you're an evil person who never loved me and used me for 8yrs, or a saint of a woman to put up with me for 8yrs. I have no idea. I guess it really doesn't matter, does it. The truth always lies somewhere in the middle. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer and these the last verses I write for her 1 Link to post Share on other sites
SilverBlueAndGold Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 I know those "anonymous" emails are from you. It makes me a little sad for you, that you would stoop to the same measures that you claim one of your ex-boyfriends did to you. In fact it makes me wonder if that really happened, maybe it was you that was doing the stalking instead? As much as I loved you and cared about you and wanted to be with you, your actions over the past few weeks have made me wonder if I ever knew the real you. Please prove me wrong. Move on with your life and let me move on with mine. Link to post Share on other sites
fucpcg Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 Today I hit a stage where I don't know if you're an evil person who never loved me and used me for 8yrs, or a saint of a woman to put up with me for 8yrs. I have no idea. I guess it really doesn't matter, does it. Change the 8 to a 1, and we can share that quote. Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted April 13, 2012 Share Posted April 13, 2012 I am feeling so very much alone today. Yesterday and last night felt so good and I felt so strong. Now I just feel sad, lonely, empty... unloved, nonfunctional, drained. Why couldn’t you keep just keep loving me? When you said you loved me I was on the top off the world, invincible, But then you lost it, got scared, ran away whatever. Why can't you love me? I would do anything for you. I miss your smell, your touch, your beautiful skin, your beautiful naked body against me. I miss your voice, your ideas, your thoughts. I just want to hear your pretty voice so badly, so very badly. Link to post Share on other sites
LasVegasGuy Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 (edited) This thread is like a BLAST from the PAST, I still remember the very first day it was posted,, im shocked to see that it is still going till this day. Im sure that I can look back on some of my past post here, (I don't miss that time in my life) I do find myself missing that HEAD over HILLS love that I had when I originally posted her 4-5 years ago. Edited April 14, 2012 by LasVegasGuy Link to post Share on other sites
shayla Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Thank you for all the lessons I learned from 3 years with you. 1. Just because you are 60 years old, it didn't make you mature. 2. Trust my inner self always. 3. Love myself more than anyone else, always. Your lies, manipulation, abuse, then ultimately leaving me and immediately marrying another woman taught me that I should have been my own best friend first, should have been the best me first, before ever trying to persue any kind of relationship. A whole person would have never put up with 3 years of you. May your 4th wife put up with your foolishness the rest of her life. Thank you for introducing me to Curtis. I know you never intended on doing that, and that he caught you unaware while we were out together. Who knew that a year later, I'd run into him again and begin the best relationship I've ever been in. Curtis took me to Las Vegas for my birthday this week, and I've had the time of my life. No man has ever done anything that nice for me ever...and I have you to thank for that. Link to post Share on other sites
msfreebyme Posted April 14, 2012 Share Posted April 14, 2012 Welp here I am again bored to tears. I have picked up the hobby of art =). I never knew I was good at it but it makes me happy to spend hours painting. When I paint and exercise it makes me stop thinking about you or your small pitiful world. Monster....I've grown to actually feel sorry for you. The old nurturing side in me wants to shake you and tell you to take the time to heal yourself and love yourself... alone without a rebound....like I am. But I guess you can't really live very long without sex can you. I could never live up to your constant beggings of "sexy time". I believe you probably will never understand what it's like to be fully happy because thats just the way your life is going. I believe monster I was only in love with the potential of what you could have been as a person....which that version of Monster was only in my head. But you know what most people say...you can't change people...they have to change themselves. Strangely at slight moments I'll miss your ass. But anyways I still want to thank you...I want to thank you for carrying me through the tough times of high school and caring for me when I felt that no one did. As crazy as it is you have taught me alot of things and brought me into my own. Now I can stand up for myself and actually love people. I am not scared of just about anything anymore. I talk to people I otherwise would never talk to. Even though the relationship ended terribly and a good amount of time you were a complete jerk. Without you...my heart has opened up. I have seen that my life is worth so much and there is no time to lose. Just to let you know Moster....even though you're a total *******....I will always have a love for you....but I know out there someone is waiting to have total complete devotion and love for me as I will for him. Have a.....life? Or break a leg =P Link to post Share on other sites
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