shayla Posted May 26, 2012 Share Posted May 26, 2012 I'm in love, and I have you to thank for that. Who knew that night at that game that the "friend" you tried to avoid introducing me to would walk right up to you and catch you off guard? You had no choice but to introduce us. Once you left me, a year later, whew knew that man would approach me months later and ask me out? That grumbling introduction was the root that grew the best relationship I've ever been in. Thank you. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 26, 2012 Share Posted May 26, 2012 My birthday came and went with no message from you. That seems normal. After everything you did to me, why would I expect you to try to contact me or even remember my birthday? You wouldn't even celebrate it except once when we were together. Besides, you replaced me while we were dating, what kind of man would do that and still remember his ex's birthday? I said I wasn't going to be depressed, but I was...very depressed. But my housemate is so wonderful. He suggested we watch Bugs Bunny cartoons last night and that helped a lot. Now today he's taking me out and treating me. I couldn't ask for a better friend. Lately, since my last catharsis, I've been feeling better about you...overall, I'm more accepting regarding what you did to me. Overall, I'm more accepting that you are a very sick person, mentally, and of course, physically as well. The pity I feel for you comes and goes...sometimes it just leaves...sometimes it turns into anger. Today I feel lucky because my housemate is soooo good to me and because I have such good things in my life. I know that one of the best things I have going for me is that you are no longer in my life on any level. This time next year, I will feel so much better about you. Link to post Share on other sites
Frank13 Posted May 26, 2012 Share Posted May 26, 2012 Why is it just when you're moved on from someone/thing, they pop back up in your life? GRRRRRRRRR!!! What happened? Link to post Share on other sites
Squishy_Belle Posted May 26, 2012 Share Posted May 26, 2012 So yesterday i heared your stupid @$$ got put in jail for a couple of hours because you were fighting with the pizza guy because he took to long When will you ever grow the hell up? It reminds me off 4th July last year when you totalled my jeep with your truck and then called the cops on me for breaking into my own house and stealing ''your'' bed duvet because i went to sleep somewhere else because i was scared you were gonna kill me... At first i was hurt that your moved on to your new skank right after i had just left because we were both unhappy in our marriage but by the sounds of it you 2 make the perfect couple and all these wonderful things i hear through the grapevine remind me over and over again that i made the right choice when i left. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 26, 2012 Share Posted May 26, 2012 I'm sitting here right now, calm and quiet...feeling pretty darn lucky that you are out of my life for good. I never again have to be hurt by you or suffer from your psychological abuse...it's a calming effect knowing that you will never inflict your abuse on me again. I'm feeling pretty good right now...accepting of the sick and twisted person that you are and feeling really lucky that I never, ever have to deal with your nonsense again. Thanks for not calling me on my birthday. After the stalking episodes that ended in December, I didn't need you to contact me. Just knowing how much of a pathetic skank you are makes me feel lucky that I am rid of you. Your are one of the meanest, most manipulative, and stupidest men I have ever met. Thank you for staying out of my life and being somebody else's problem. Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted May 26, 2012 Share Posted May 26, 2012 Day after day, I send out tiny vibrations to you... blaming you for what you put me through. Yes, I blame you... and you alone. As far as I know, I did nothing wrong.. and if you think I ever did, you knew I'd be willing to work on my shortcomings. So, again, I have done nothing wrong. This is all your fault. But I got to thinking and realized that, hey, you must be miserable too. A grown man acting like a f*cking teenager can't be okay. You're acting like you're in the middle of a mid-life crisis... at only 29, you think that's cute? But hey... for now, you may enjoy running around like you're going to run out of women, and I will not contest that, but you will come to your senses. I am 100% sure of it. And when you do, you will remember me, but please do not expect me to be waiting around welcoming you back with open arms. So, I do not blame you now for what you put me through... rather I blame you for what you put US through. You might not be aware of it, but you are suffering too... and by your own doing. -------------------- My mixed emotions are driving me crazy now. Link to post Share on other sites
euterope Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 Polywog, you are a GENIUS. D, You're leaving soon for your trip. You're getting all excited for it. You just admitted to me that the conversation in your head goes something like, "You could spend another day with [euterope], or you can make sure you've made enough money for this trip." OK, I get that. But is there some reason that you can't admit that this really really sucks??? That you are just as in love with me as I am with you, that we could both see spending years if not the rest of our lives together, but you are going to walk away from all that? You joked the other day that maybe after your trip you'll be standing outside my apartment yelling, "I never should have left you!" I am so scared that we are both going to live to regret this decision of yours. And I kind of hate you for not choosing me. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 I had a nice day today. I'm celebrating my birthday throughout the weekend. Tomorrow I get cake and ice cream. I'm having a really nice birthday. Thanks for showing me that you are a worthless slut. I appreciate that. Thanks for staying out of my life. I know it is your dream to be the town whore. I think with effort you can achieve your goal. Good luck. Link to post Share on other sites
eles83 Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 Oh, you. I didn't even want to call you today. I didn't even want to call you yesterday. Ha - I'm moving on. So, yeah, there's a you-shaped hole in my heart (yeah, I'm all about the cliches these days). And sometimes I think of something hilariously funny and there is no one who gets the joke. Sometimes I get nervous or upset and instinctively reach out for you - reach out for the sound of your voice and the feel of your hand at my back and that perfect warmth I only ever felt in your arms. There's no one to pull me away from myself when I get too serious or too worried or too anxious. There's no one to kill spiders for me anymore! But... oh, well. I didn't choose to give you up, I fought with everything inside of me to keep you. And you knew that I loved you. You knew I would have done anything and everything I could to make you happy. I was exactly what you need. You turned me away, anyway. You made the choice to love other things and other people more than me. So when you call or text? I'm not going to answer. I don't want to be your friend, I want to be your wife and everything less than that is insufficient. Don't tell me I ruined our chance at friendship when you've already ruined my heart. And don't seek me out so you can see my sadness and prove to your ego that yes, I'm still pining for you. Because of course I love you, but I am done boosting your ego with rivers of tears and silent screams that leave my throat raw and ignoring everyone else in my life. You broke that wall down, piece by piece, but hey, I have a lot of spare time now that I don't watch the phone in hopes that you will call, so I've been building it back up. So get used to me being okay. Link to post Share on other sites
esteem-jam Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 Just post already, on your page, a pic of you and somebody else, together - so that my mind can be free of you. It is about time now. Link to post Share on other sites
Exit Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 Been surviving lately but for some reason tonight felt like it was day 1 all over again. Flashbacks of the arguments I caused and blaming myself for everything that happened. Guess I still haven't forgiven myself. Close to 7 months now, I still miss you, but I'm not sure why. There were so many bad things about you. But I guess it didn't matter to me. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 Today is day three of my birthday celebration. The other day when I released such anger here, it helped so much and I was able to finally start concentrating on the positive things in life. I'm finding my way back to what I was like before I saw that terrible posting on facebook. I thought you had sent me something yesterday. I got a letter from your city with no return address on it. I got really nervous and didn't know what to do about it. I turned the envelope over and saw the name of an organization. I knew it wasn't from you. I felt relief...and disappointment. But today, mostly relief. Contact with you would just set me up for an even bigger fall than I had before. The good thing is that if I am ever in a relationship that mimics this one, I know to get out and get out fast. I realize how unhappy you must have been in the relationship. I'm sure it took a considerable amount of effort to lie, keep track of all of your lies, pretend to want to see me and then lie about why you couldn't come, when you really didn't want to see me at all, and use your autistic son in all of your lies...while all the while telling me that you are an honest person...WOW! It takes a special kind of monster to lead a gal on for three years. The therapist told me not to be jealous of your new relationships because I do not know your agenda...you having sociopathic tendencies...you have an agenda for the women you are with. There's a certain calm that I am feeling while typing this...maybe because I feel sorry for you. I suspect by this time you are homeless again or have moved...you poor thing. You invite chaos into your life. Women leave you because of it. I was the one who stayed and tried to understand you and show you patience. You must have had some pushed down anger towards me to treat me the way you did. Sources (ex: Antisocial Personality Disorder | BehaveNet) say that people with your personality are aggressive. I thought that you were not. But now I realize that you were very, very aggressive towards me, but always in a passive way. I don't blame myself for anything at all, except for staying with you and always taking you back. You took advantage of my kindness and patience. You took and you took and you took and gave very little. It was so hard for you to give. It was painful seeing how hard it was to help me buy simple things like toilet paper. It was so painful for you to do that...not because you didn't have the money, but because it's just so hard for you to be giving. You have a really small heart and most of it is full of you. I know now that it is impossible for me to date a self-centered, insensitive person. I kept telling myself to understand you, to be patient with you. But I can't do that again. I don't want to be judgmental, but I can never date someone who is self-centered, selfish, and insensitive. It's just not who I am. When I think about what a life would have been with you if we got even deeper, it almost makes me cringe. You told me we could talk about living together. How would that have been? Me living with you and you cheating on me 3 days a week? Wow, that sounds like a wonderful life. I can't believe I could have gotten stuck with someone who has sociopathic behavior patterns. That really scares me. It's been said by our therapist that you have no conscience. That makes you a very, very dangerous person. I've often wondered how far would you go to get what you want. That is very, very scary. So as I continue to celebrate my birthday on this birthday weekend....I'm going to rejoice in the fact that you are not a part of my life in any way. I want to thank you for being such a complete loser. It makes it easier to stay away from you. I feel safe and warm inside...protected from your nonsensical, hurtful behavior...content that I will never ever have to deal with your insensitivity again. -S Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 (edited) Damn I couldn't help it. I'm hating you more and more now. You're hurting me on purpose. Wasn't it enough that you pulled the rug right under me? Bastard. Wish I never met you. I hate your guts. Edited May 27, 2012 by kindest Link to post Share on other sites
confused2385 Posted May 27, 2012 Share Posted May 27, 2012 Why would you do this to me? I miss you so much. Just come over Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 It's been over 7 weeks since I contacted you. Feeling better. Feeling better...as long as you stay away from me. Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 Laying on my new couch at my new house, sometimes I wish you where here to cherish this moment. Sadly it will never be.... But it with someone else!! Link to post Share on other sites
jennisfora Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 i couldve met you today, but it didnt happen because i freaked out. odd that you still havent found time to call. fancy that. someday i wont care that you dont care, and i will be better off. but for now, i still miss you. still dont understand why you left. my son still asks for you. wish i could be happy for you, but i can't. you abandoned us plain and simple, and if you had tried to make it work, told me what was bothering you, maybe i would have been more okay with things. but the suddeness, lack of warning, lack of discussion, immediate decision on your part hurts. i am trying to not care. i'll be strong and not contact you. you have to make an effort, i deserve that much. no effort, you can go eff yourself. seriously. Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 Thank you for loving me... Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 You might say that it's over... You might say that you don't care... You might say you don't miss me... You don't need me... But I know that you do... And I feel that you do inside! Link to post Share on other sites
Moonlight2012 Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 I wish you never emailed me asking how I was. After all the talks we had about what it be like once it's over, you still contacted me and messed with my head. How can you tell someone that you dumped that you miss them a lot and that you still care? How can you care and miss me, when you broke my heart and told me you weren't attracted to me? TWO years, you made me open up and be close to you and for what? I could have saved myself for someone who was actually worthy of me and deserved it. You changed so much after you became a "Dr" and now think the world is your oyster and that you need a hot slim chick to match that "success". You think like a immature boy still. Don't matter how successful you are. You need to strike a balance when you want to find that ideal wife. I'm not saying I am the perfect person in the world, but we had so much in common, I understood you and got your humour. We had a bond. That bond is hard to find. You should have appreciated that you had a good woman on your hands and you threw it away because you want sexual pleasure only. A model looking woman with bags of personality. Good luck with that. You will regret it. I'll be gone by then. You stay happy with your short term happiness. I'm going to find and be with someone who wants to have long term happiness. I cared for you so much. It was real. Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 Two months This made me laugh. :lmao: I did some face dance, following all the emoticons you used, in order. Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 To my first ex... If I treated you the way you treated me... You'd f-ckin hate me... Can you just please leave me alone!? I had some better exes to think than you! Link to post Share on other sites
Gridlock23 Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 I once thought that you were mine Here to stay and never go astray I locked you in my heart, and there you'll stay The memories are forever mine, but you've gone away.. Link to post Share on other sites
sam2012 Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 I wanna repy to you. I soooooo do but I know it will just start the whole circle again.. God I wish we were together..I hate that we are not. Link to post Share on other sites
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