leannesagoodman Posted July 12, 2012 Share Posted July 12, 2012 I was getting better, properly better finally. I've started really liking someone, and while they can never love me back, it was helping me a bit. And now, while it isn't your fault, your name came up on my twitter again. The iPod thing. Now it's all come back. I blame myself but it's not enough. Congratulations. At least I told you the truth. I don't know. Link to post Share on other sites
Blastoplast Posted July 12, 2012 Share Posted July 12, 2012 3 days ago I hated you and never wanted to hear from you again. Then 2 days ago you called me and we had a long conversation. It gave me some hope for our future, but I know that I can't dwell on it and expect it. I pity you and the situation you're in and I hope you ALL the best. If we don't end up together, I hope you find a man that will treat you at least half as good as I treated you. I hope you find your spirit again. I hope you don't let your financial burden crush you anymore that it has. I hope you find happiness! Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 12, 2012 Share Posted July 12, 2012 I'm glad you didn't kill me. I'm glad you didn't rape me. I'm glad you didn't steal from me. But you did everything else to me. It must be very, very hard for your son to have TWO dysfunctional people as parents. Thank goodness you no longer have custody of him. Hopefully he won't grow up to be like you. It will be one less monster in the world. Link to post Share on other sites
leannesagoodman Posted July 12, 2012 Share Posted July 12, 2012 I feel so bad about trying to love myself just because of what you'd think of me. And again, like with anything I write regarding you, I have to emphasise that this isn't your fault. It's very confusing knowing that you aren't to blame for what I now feel, even if you're at the root of it. Does that even make sense? Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 13, 2012 Share Posted July 13, 2012 I feel bad for you. It must be hard living a life so pathetic. Link to post Share on other sites
BigBear Posted July 13, 2012 Share Posted July 13, 2012 Just numb today. Don't know what to think of you. Link to post Share on other sites
TooHonest123 Posted July 13, 2012 Share Posted July 13, 2012 i broke no contact. i feel so weak, I want to able to proove to you that i can be strong and independednt....i want you but i dont need you Link to post Share on other sites
BigBear Posted July 13, 2012 Share Posted July 13, 2012 This is too frigging hard. You want to be friends and you want us to hang out as a family for Xxxxxxxxx's sake, but you don't want me in your life. I feel like I am being toyed with. You never gave me a chance to fix it, you just walked out before I even knew things were at this stage. And now just 3 months in, we've sold the house and my life is upside down and you want us to be friends. I hate you. You selfish b!tch, I hate you so much. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 14, 2012 Share Posted July 14, 2012 You wanted to lead me on for three years. You got what you wanted. You wanted to play head games with me and play tricks on my behind my back. You got what you wanted. You wanted to throw other women in my face all the time. You got what you wanted. You wanted to go after other women. You got what you wanted. You wanted to cheat on me. You got what you wanted. You wanted to rip me up inside. You got what you wanted. You wanted to destroy me. You did NOT get what you wanted. F-you 1 Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 14, 2012 Share Posted July 14, 2012 Thought about you some more. Again, I remembered the therapist telling me you had too many problems to mention. I really pity you. Link to post Share on other sites
BrokenAnna Posted July 14, 2012 Share Posted July 14, 2012 I am so glad you are back in my life, even if it's just as a friend...but it crushes my heart looking at your facebook profile knowing there was a time you held me in your arms and would whisper against my lips how I meant the world to you before sealing it with a kiss on my lips. Hurting you and judging you was and will always be the biggest mistake of my life, there is not a day that I regret for my action and wish I could go back in time to save our relationship. I love you with all my heart Wayne Link to post Share on other sites
Bumpin in My Trunk Posted July 15, 2012 Share Posted July 15, 2012 you ****ing bitch Ditto, you 4-timing whore Link to post Share on other sites
Shohane Posted July 15, 2012 Share Posted July 15, 2012 (edited) Instead of listening to ME, instead of working with ME to figure out a solution to our problem, you chose to listen to a psycho bitch named Zoe Clegg. Just because of that Italian girl, you had learnt to lie to me, go behind my back, betray and confuse. I was holding on while you were letting go. I was trying to trust you while you were kissing Zoe's ass. I was trying to love you while you were holding onto grudge. "This is a happy end"? lol Oh **** mother****er, I've got tears in my eyes from laughing at assclown ****tard with the sad ending gloating over "winning" an argument, Jesus! Anyone who ****s with people's feelings are cowards who can't face their own. Edited July 15, 2012 by Shohane Link to post Share on other sites
Kathyy28 Posted July 15, 2012 Share Posted July 15, 2012 Dear J.M, I miss you... I wish I didn't break up with you... but I wish even more that you wouldn't have given me a reason to have ended things with you. Neither of us are perfect. But in some weird way, our imperfection were pretty perfect for one another. I love you more then yesterday... but less than tomorrow. Link to post Share on other sites
TooHonest123 Posted July 15, 2012 Share Posted July 15, 2012 Last night I had an Emotional break down. My life started falling apart the day you left me for the other guy. I was therr for you until the last day when you asked me for help. Last night when i was breaking dow. I texted you. Begging you that i needed someone to talk to...that i was not joking and it was very serious.....you did not reply back. What kind of cold hearted monster does this? You know i have no friends, very distant family members...you are the only person i ever trusted 100%...through out tge relationship i NEVER asked for help. I cant find a private loan to go to schoop next year, i rejected my intrrnship at virginia tech to spend the summer with you, i lost all my friends because you didnt want me to hang out with them...you left me alone. Yes our relationship was stressful at times but why couldnt we work it out? The day you slept with that other man was the day you cut me off...and i found yesterday that you were flirting with you personal trainer while we were in the relationship. Why did this have to happend to me? That guy is my complete oposite I never swore at you, i never touched you...i treated you with so much Love and respect. I left you love notes in your car, waited for you outside of work with hot chocolate, cleaned your car in the snow, i told you everyday how beautiful you looked, my family loved you. It sucks you never introduced me to your family because of my ethnicity... you left me for a player...a drug dealer...a guy with a court record...doesnt go to school...has a part time job....lives at his parents house still....his last ex ended with drug problems....I always protected you from using drugs Why couldnt you give me 1 more year....i would have graduated witg my engineering major...we would have been the happiest couple... Why throw it all away when we werr so close? Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 15, 2012 Share Posted July 15, 2012 Hi L, Well today is finally here- the one year anniversary of me leaving you. My roommate and I just got back. He took me out to lunch to celebrate me dumping your pathetic a$$. I'm so glad today is here. I've been by myself since, by choice. As I told you before...I'm not like you. I don't hop from bed to bed. What is this, girlfriend number 4, 5, or 6 since I dumped you? Obviously you are afraid to be alone. The first time we broke up you had a new girlfriend in 7 days. The other time, you had a girlfriend immediately after because you were cheating on me with her. Thank God I never had to deal with your nonsense ever, EVER again. Hurry for me. I left you and NEVER asked you back. I didn't cave. I didn't give in. I wasn't swayed by any more of your lies. I stold up for myself and stayed strong while you jumped from woman to woman and bed to bed and semi-stalked me while you were doing it. Hurray for me. Hurray for me. Hurray for me. :bunny::bunny: 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Shosh Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 I miss you! I know it is important for my peace of mind to stay away from you, but it is tough. All I want to do is call you and talk to you and ask you to hang out. I feel like an addict who is fighting her addiction all by herself and without the help of any meds. And every day it gets harder. Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 So you came back to me saying you wanted to work it out. saying this is what you wanted. saying you wanted to make this work. but you didn't try. you just hurt me again. I was stupid enough to let you come back. stupid enough to let my guard down again. something inside told me not to. my instinct told me to just say no. but my heart told me to give it a shot. at first i thought we would work on this together. but as time went on i saw you didn't care.didn't try. didn't even want to. How miserable do i have to be before you are happy? I wish i could contact you to tell you how mad i am that after you came back to me and just left me like you did before. but the other part of me wants to just hear you laugh like we used to before. I guess i am the fool though. I should have realize that since you first wanted a break, it wasn't because you didn't know what you wanted. You wanted out. I lost you then, and not months later. After 8 years i thought it was always love, but i guess it wasnt ever really if you wouldn't even give me and us a fighting chance to work on it. You just gave up on the first sign of trouble. I really wish you the best. To find whoever and whatever makes you happy. I don't wish you ill will. I just wish that you regret what you did to us once. Maybe an week, or day, or hour, or at least five minutes anything Just so you can feel what i feel for a bit. I know i will always wonder what if this or what if that, but I at least know i gave it a fighting chance. You never did. I miss you. The old you. Not this new person. Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 Sometimes, sometimes........ Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 Ditto, you 4-timing whore 4 timing? GEEZ:eek: Sorry that happen. Link to post Share on other sites
Viv Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 Hi I wanted to write to you because things have changed a bit. It's been a year and the pain that I thought would never go away is leaving me. I still have hard days, our anniversary, xmas, new year, my birthday, but you don't dominate my thoughts anymore, and it seemed for a long time that you always would. I still look at pictures of you sometimes, but the love I felt is gone. I can see a man who lied to me, and doesn't contain much compassion or empathy. With distance I can see that the way you acted isn't about me. I couldn't make you do those things, I had my faults (lots of them) but the things you did and said were cruel. They mean that you are a man that I don't want in my life and I am lucky that you are not in it. In many ways I wish I had not met you, and I think my life would have been better for it, but through you I learnt about what I want and don't want in a person. I hope I am a better person now. I'm still struggling a lot in my life, I have been around a lot of abusive people in my life, but now I have awareness, and hope. I want to be independent and positive, to surround myself with good people and make a positive difference in other people's lives. I haven't been able to forgive you, because you have never shown any remorse. Maybe in a another year I will be there! But I feel like Im getting my freedom back from the pain I've been in, and wanted to share! There is hope. All my love for the person I thought you were, and (slim) hope that you will one day become him. xxx ps please don't hurt anyone else so much. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 Hi I wanted to write to you because things have changed a bit. It's been a year and the pain that I thought would never go away is leaving me. I still have hard days, our anniversary, xmas, new year, my birthday, but you don't dominate my thoughts anymore, and it seemed for a long time that you always would. I still look at pictures of you sometimes, but the love I felt is gone. I can see a man who lied to me, and doesn't contain much compassion or empathy. With distance I can see that the way you acted isn't about me. I couldn't make you do those things, I had my faults (lots of them) but the things you did and said were cruel. They mean that you are a man that I don't want in my life and I am lucky that you are not in it. In many ways I wish I had not met you, and I think my life would have been better for it, but through you I learnt about what I want and don't want in a person. I hope I am a better person now. I'm still struggling a lot in my life, I have been around a lot of abusive people in my life, but now I have awareness, and hope. I want to be independent and positive, to surround myself with good people and make a positive difference in other people's lives. I haven't been able to forgive you, because you have never shown any remorse. Maybe in a another year I will be there! But I feel like Im getting my freedom back from the pain I've been in, and wanted to share! There is hope. All my love for the person I thought you were, and (slim) hope that you will one day become him. xxx ps please don't hurt anyone else so much. My gosh, when I read this, I felt like I was reading about myself and what happened to me. Stay strong, sista! Link to post Share on other sites
Mariana345 Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 I woke up today and looked at some of our prictures, maybe from 2 years ago? I didn't feel sad, or angry, just disappointment. I remembered our last months. It was true that we fell in routine, that sometimes I missed you but when I was with you my mind went somewhere else, wishing for things that I didn't have. i wasn't happy either, but I loved you so much that didn't care... or at least I thought that, cause I was being so rude to you! Also you seemed different, you were changing and losing yourself... We both loose ourselves. I still think that it wasn't fair, you just left some friends and parties. On the other hand I left my dreams, built my life around you, and now I'm struggling to have it back, since its been a long time for some things. I'm so disappointed at you. For you to left me because our RS wasn't working I understand, but... for another girl?! It was the last thing I could think of you. Its what hurt the most. I still have the feeling that you will want to come back, but I can't think of accepting you. I love you, I care about you and I miss what we had years ago, But you are no longer the man I fell in love. I think this is really our good-bye. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
jdids247 Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 Well SRG, I saw you the other night. I was pretty full, but I kept my composure and acted like I didn't even see you, hell, I didn't even know you were there until I saw your old shirt you always used to wear. I noticed you out of the corner of my eye and I saw you staring right at me, acting like you were looking for some people to talk to. Your buddy pointed right at me while he was talking to you. I was having the time of my life and I'm glad you got to see that, because I wanted the initial shock of seeing me make your heart skip a beat, knowing I'm having the time of my life without you. All the dumb things you said after the breakup were daggers, so hopefully seeing me in the flesh having fun hurt. Just like you hurt me by putting on a show like your life was great on Facebook after we ended things. Link to post Share on other sites
iambookworm Posted July 16, 2012 Share Posted July 16, 2012 Well it's been a month now since you broke up with me. I have to say, I am feeling better by the day. I was fortunate because I was able to surround myself with people who helped me, people who love and care for me. Something you didn't really do. During our "relationship", I thought you were the perfect bf. We never argued, you were charming, considerate, and we seemed to get along so well. We clicked so much. We had a lot of things in common. You said you read the bible cover to cover twice. You said you are a religious man. You said you pray a lot. Yeah right. You turned me into a mistress and it hurts. This goes against my principles. I am Catholic and coveting thy neighbors wife/husband is part of the commandments. I broke that, albeit unwittingly. You mentioned that your kids would "love me" (they are all taller than I am). You told me about your family, your kids, everything (or I thought so). I told you that when you back home, you made me feel like a mistress. I guess I should have listened to my instincts then. When I asked you for your address, you gave me a fake one. When you came back from your quarterly voyage home, I asked you about it. You dropped the call and that was it. I felt so bad as I thought it was me. I blamed myself. Why did I ask too many questions, etc etc. Maybe we can work things out. I can only be thankful for my friends. If they had not investigated, I would still be blaming myself and mourning the relationship. As it is, except for one contact, I have not communicated with you. Now, it is almost a month. I am almost back to normal. Yes, I have issues. Yes, I still miss you. But it gets better as the day goes on. This I do know. God knows you are not the one for me. He knows you are not the one who will make me happy and vice versa. And I am much better without you. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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