Ro2 Posted August 14, 2012 Share Posted August 14, 2012 Its been two weeks since I last saw you and spoke to you; these two weeks really have gone by kind of fast, but I still miss you like crazy - even after you did me like complete ****, and I know I deserve better than that. I've told myself many times over these past two weeks that I've moved on. I don't really know how to explain the feeling. I'm not aching and crying as much as I have in the past with others, but I miss you more than I have ever missed another. All I want(ed) from you is answers. Why? I know I will never get them, though, and that kills me. Who you were that night isn't the person you really are - at least not the person I thought I knew the past few months. What came over you? I really hope you're back to seeing your psychiatrist, because I think you really need it at this point. You should have never stopped going for those few months - that was probably the biggest mistake. I have isolated myself from the online community, for the most part. Deactivated Facebook, deleted my account on the forum we met on, etc. Every time I tell myself I am over you, there is a reminder; most recently, it was friends on my Facebook talking about their trip to your state. What the heck? Nobody ever went to Oregon before, and now they're all there when I'm trying to forget about it. I wish you actually gave two ****s about the fact that you hurt me more than anybody has ever hurt me. I wish you gave a **** that I cared for you so much, and all I wanted was to be there for you - to be a friend. A relationship would have just been icing on the cake; being there for you was always my main goal, though. Why didn't you want the friendship? Why did you hurt me so bad and not seem to care at all? The answers I'll never have. Link to post Share on other sites
Garfish Posted August 14, 2012 Share Posted August 14, 2012 I love you, please get some help. I tried, I really, really tried. You know in your heart that I was the best one; far and above the others. I would never have hurt you like they did. I've owned up to my part. You need to accept some of the blame. You are no angel. I can't keep destroying my health and sanity for you. Realize that there is someone in the world besides yourself. I can't do this anymore, I can't keep going through this pain. I have to start living my life for myself again. Love is not enough. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
SeventhFloor Posted August 14, 2012 Share Posted August 14, 2012 I know its weak of me to say this. Especially after all you have put me through. But I miss you. I'm sorry that I didn't say happy birthday to you on your birthday. I miss you a lot, and I just want to come home and cuddle. With you. Hold you in my arms, and whisper into your ear how I love you and everything about you. Your quirks, and your humor. And it hurts so bad that now, someone else is there holding you, telling you those things and enjoying those things about you. I miss you and I wish I could come home to your bed, wrap my arms around you and bury my face in the back of your neck, enjoying the wonderful scent of your hair - like I've never experienced before. I loved the way my face fit in between your shoulder blades so perfectly, and I loved that when I turned away, you weren't afraid to bury your face right into my back. I would love the feel of your warm breath on my back and it helped me fall asleep on so many rough nights... I'm sorry I didn't say happy birthday, and I'm sorry It didn't work out, even though you were the one who ****ed up so many times. I wrote this last night. Link to post Share on other sites
Ang.gg Posted August 14, 2012 Share Posted August 14, 2012 So we had a family get together last night for my birthday. It still hurt knowing you weren't going to be there. I missed you so much yesterday and today I still miss you. If I hadn't deleted your number from my phone I would have texted you this morning that we missed you last night. I know its a good thing I don't have it because I haven't heard from you and why would I. Everytime I reached out to you you ignored me or shot me down. I don't have tears left to cry for you anymore but I can tell you this, I have this sinking feeling deep inside me that I meant so little to you and you showed it yet somehow I always made it clear how much you meant to me and that everytime you called I came. You only recriprocated once and after that came up with a reason not to meet me half way. If you had made just a little effort I would have made up the difference and met you all the way. I put myself out there for you to see what I was willing to do for you but it never mattered and you made it clear. I still want to crawl into a hole and cry my eyes out. I can't believe how you trampled all over my feelings. *sigh* I can't wait to be fully over you. Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 I'm sorry. I love you. Goodbye. Link to post Share on other sites
Garfish Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 (edited) Well you can probably see where I blocked your messages, not that you were going to send any anyway, but at this point I just don't give a ****. You said you would reconcile and start over but now it's back to no contact. I offered you something which you didn't want. I got the message. That's fine, I have begun the work of setting myself free. You still need to get yourself some help, before you destroy somebody else's life. Goodbye. Edited August 15, 2012 by Garfish Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 Take care wherever you are. If in the future our paths cross again, I pray that we've both been healed and have become stronger, more matured, braver than we were. I don't know when that will happen or if it will even happen for us but I'm leaving everything to fate. PS. I know you were giving me the cold treatment on purpose. It's okay. That's who you are now. You have changed, and I am still the same. Link to post Share on other sites
TooHonest123 Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 Yesterday i was doing some late work at school....some random girl came up to me and said i looked like Enrique Iglesias...just thought i would let you know lol. Link to post Share on other sites
jmjacobs31 Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 I hate that I still love and miss you so much. Link to post Share on other sites
Blastoplast Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 I hope our talk this morning didn't sour the start of your day. I just want you to know how deeply I care about you, and I know you feel the same. What you're going through we should be able to work through TOGETHER, as a team. I hope you see what I see through this break-up -- that you excuses were bull**** and that we're still in love with each other, and if we do love each other that much, we should be able to work through it. We'll talk next week. -J Link to post Share on other sites
confusedx10 Posted August 15, 2012 Share Posted August 15, 2012 My boyfriend and I broke up and i know that happens to everyone. But he was different. I have never struggled so much and loved a guy as much as i love him. He is the one and we talked about it. However, we are going to be a part for four years and could see each other maybe twice a year. That is the sole reason we broke up. It wouldn't be healthy to only see each other twice. It's hard and we have decided not to talk for a couple of months and see where we are, but if my feelings are still there, is there still hope? We broke up once before because of distance and got back together. (we got back together because we saw each other every day for several months but now we are definitely going to be a part for four years) Our feelings aren't fading even though we say they have. It's complicated and I know life is but its so hard. I am devastated that we broke up but happy that i can go out and not wait all day for his phone call and vis versa. We are so busy now and don't have enough time for a relationship. If our paths cross again I hope we make it last. I want to let him know I love him and thats why I am okay with letting him go. The break up was mutual but a little more him. I wanted to break up but then I took it back, but he is sticking to it. It isnt that he doesnt love me but the distance and timing. How can i let him know I love him without being clingy? Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 Looks like it is one of those sometimes tonight. I really should be past posting here, but o well. At least I seem to have some emotions left.... Link to post Share on other sites
Garfish Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 Don't bother contacting me, you couldn't be troubled in all this time anyways. I know you still have some of my clothes and other stuff. I'd appreciate it if you could drop that stuff off at my friends house, behind the old place, you know where, but I'm not going to call you or anything. Oh I'm sure you'll probably just dump it in the trash, but since I'm going to be a lot richer than you (and not in such miserable debt, LOL), I can easily replace it. Oh and if you see my friends, don't worry too much about talking to them. They've been telling me for years that it wasn't a healthy relationship and that I might want to get out. Oh yes, they noticed your paranoid and bizarre behavior. Like the time my buddy and I were coming back from that trip, and out of nowhere you started screaming at me because we ran a little late. You'd fixed something and I didn't even know about it. Then you got all ticked off and threw it out and tried to blame me. Well if you wanted to waste perfectly good food, that was your choice. You remind me of my mother, she used to do stupid **** like that to my dad all the time. No wonder he left; I just wished he had waited a few years so that I would have been old enough to understand why. Instead my mom put all the blame on him and we were too young to know better. Come to think of it, you've never really accepted blame for anything. Even the other day, you deflected the hard questions and passed it all off as miscommunication. Guess what? How's about THIS for miscommunicaiton? That's right, you're not worth a call anymore. You should know there's only one person now who hasn't spoken against you. Last week it was down to only two. I don't expect him to and wouldn't want him to. You know who I'm talking about. He wouldn't say anything bad about you. He's probably going to miss you around the holidays and special times. It's OK, I'll find a better, younger, more fun and well-adjusted girl to replace you very soon, but he'll have to start all over getting used to a new person. I hope you're proud of yourself. I'm a lot like my dad. I took all your BS, crap and verbal abuse for all these years, cancelled plans and let my happiness revolve around you. I would have taken a bullet for your sorry $$$ if it had come to that. Well shame on me for making the wrong choices. I'm too old to put up with bull but too young to die. Don't worry that I'm going to kill myself for you; I wouldn't give you the **damn satisfaction. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 It's been a while, L. I imagine that you are just as dysfunctional as you were the last time I contacted you or even spoke with you. I really, really do feel sorry for you. It's not your fault you were born with an underdeveloped conscience and a streak of selfishness the size of Texas. Your heart is very, very, very ,very small. I feel so sorry for you. I pity you, you poor bastard. Link to post Share on other sites
forgottenangel99 Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 Why can't I just strangle him and be over this!?!! Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 Now our friends just got engaged. I want to be happy for them, I do... but I just feel miserable. And you have the audacity to say, 'love conquers all'? F*CK YOU. Man, that felt good. Link to post Share on other sites
confusedx10 Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 hey baby, im missing you like crazy. i wish i told you how i felt sooner. i have regrets. like your regret with hannah. i too will make it right. what ever happens, happens. but i hope fate brings us back together. i cant contact you but i miss the sound of your voice. i miss staying up and vidchatting. you picking me up and making out in your arms. snuggling in your bed. good morning kisses and kisses on my forehead. your determination. your passion. your love. your big hear. i miss you. im giving you space but i am not moving on anytime soon. i am letting the process take as long as it has to. i hope we can be friends if we dont get back together, you suggested it too. life is complicated but i can get through anything with you. im glad we broke up because we wouldnt have worked. i know, i wouldve take you for granted and as much as i dont want it, i need this space. you broke it off tho. i hope youll take me back in the future. fate will bring us back. i love you so much. its been a little more than a day which is pathetic. but the distance you wanted for the past two weeks is what killed me. i had you but i knew i was losing you. it put a new perspective on everything. chicago too, i cant believe how much fun i had. i cant even describe it. i miss you. i love you. i hope my love doesnt fade and yours doesnt either. the distance will be hard no doubt but well find a way back to each other. i want to win you back. you have been so good at that and given me everything. you deserve more and im willing to give it to you now. i was stupid. now all i can do is wait and see where our emotions take us. i know i cannot jump right back into your life and vis versa but in time i hope it happens. i want to start by being friends, you said you'd like that too. i guess part of me wants to be friends to stay connected and eventually be more but i just want to support you and see you happy, whether i am a friend or more. its going to be hard. im struggling but in time itll get easier. i miss you so much. i even miss your flaws. hope youre doing well. i love you. in two months we will talk again. thats getting me through this. not as a couple but as friends. i love you and i hope you can put aside your stubbornness and pride and be with me again. we can do it. we can get through anything. i want you to follow your dreams and i dont want to hinder any of them. i want to support you. right now i wouldnt help no matter how hard i try so space is what we need. in time baby, in time. just dont forget what love feels like, dont let me fully fade. i know you convince yourself otherwise and wanna follow in your dads footsteps but love conquers all. youre mine and I'm yours, just like youve always told me (: i love you 1 Link to post Share on other sites
SoConfusedAndInShock Posted August 16, 2012 Share Posted August 16, 2012 i wish i would get that one call or text every ex gets over time. i miss you a great deal and i just want to hear your voice again. i pray that you call soon because i cant stand this misery anymore. i really do love you more than anything in this world even if you've manage to toss me like a peace of trash please pick up the phone and end this pain for once and for all. Link to post Share on other sites
broken77 Posted August 17, 2012 Share Posted August 17, 2012 Wow. What a tear jerker! Link to post Share on other sites
Follower Posted August 17, 2012 Share Posted August 17, 2012 Get out of my ****ing head 5 Link to post Share on other sites
jennisfora Posted August 17, 2012 Share Posted August 17, 2012 i still miss you. i refuse to believe what we had was a big charade. maybe part of me wants it to be real so i dont feel like i wasted a year of my life, and gave my heart to a conman. my son still asks for you too, he has the memory of an elephant. shame on you for saying he would forget. i cannot understand how you can walk out of his life after taking on the father like role voluntarily. is it a game to you? you can play until you get bored? his emotions are real, as are mine. you did a lot of damage, and i am not sure i will ever understand why you bonded with us so much if you werent' serious, and if you were serious, how you could walk away without trying to fix or discuss the issues, or try to work around your misgivings. i hate the fact i was wrong about you. *hugs & kisses* Link to post Share on other sites
not-a-drive-by Posted August 17, 2012 Share Posted August 17, 2012 When will you come back to me? If ever? . I miss you. I'm feeling really lonely right now. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 18, 2012 Share Posted August 18, 2012 You are a menance to all women and society in general. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted August 18, 2012 Share Posted August 18, 2012 Where is the girl I knew???? I sure miss her......... Link to post Share on other sites
MyHeartTakesOver Posted August 18, 2012 Share Posted August 18, 2012 You absolute fool. You traded me, me who could have made you experience such wonderful, deep things, for the first fool who paid you a bit of attention. Good look with her. You'll need it. As will she. You took, three years of love and loyalty and played me for a fool. The thing that hurts me even more is that you did this, knowing, what you were doing. You'd better hope that karma aint real... Link to post Share on other sites
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