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After you lied, cheated and hurt me I really don't know why I miss you and love you still. Every day I see or hear something that I want to share with but that just useless. I remember our conversations, our jokes, our special bond that I know that you clearly know that you are not going to have with anyone else. I know that you believe that I'm the love of your life but why you treated me like you did? Why you still write to me about stuff like nothing happened? Do you don't understand how much you hurt me? I don't know how you can wake up in the morning without feeling guilty of your lies, mistakes and how much you hurt me.

 

I really wished that you come back to me, but my mind knows that is for the best that you don't come back. I could never trust you again and I couldn't forget about the stuff you did with her in my face. I also want to tell you that I'm moving from this country, so I can have a better life, better education and go to a place to have a fresh start. Nothing and no one can reminded me of you.

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I don't want to call you my ex, its been 3 days, you said we could have a week or so to see!! I love you with all my heart & thought you were the 1!! We could tell each other anything, do anything, say anything! I feel torn apart, my heart is broken so much!!

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SimonSerenade

Dear Samantha

 

So I'm writing you something after all of this time, Life's no good now you've been gone all this time.

I don't quite know what to do, all this advice I'm given dosen't get me any closer to holding you.

Life was simple back then, It was all I really knew, I'd give up everything if you wanted me too.

I try to get you back, I try all that I can, I fail every time and die a little as a man.

Now were not talking and it hurts so bad, Reading your email's in the morning were all that I had.

I faked all those smiles that I did when I was confronted with you, Truth is I got outside and cried, Knowing there was nothing I could do.

 

I made some mistakes, Mistakes I can't take back, I long to be forgiven and given back all that I had.

I wish to make up, Make up all I did to you, I want the good times back, Where I held you and you held on to me too.

Those times are gone but there not dead and buried, I hold no resentment to you now, Now that I've forgiven you completely.

 

I don't know what your doing, I don't know where you are, I hope and pray something reminds you just why we shouldn't be apart.

Your everything to me, You gave me all that you could, I always asked for more, Now I'd kill just for a hug.

I was your first to make love and the first on your heart, You used to say "Baby, We'll never be apart".

I believed those words and I took them for granted, Somebody else will hear them now, Someone who'll hold you high without panting.

 

Though this pain is agonising It was all very worth it, You gave me my beautiful boy, I'm so glad we planned him.

The best time's of my life where always at home with you, The best quality we had is that we stuck together like glue.

Now you've walked and it's been 3 months, I don't think your coming back now, No more chances, Your done.

 

I envy everyone now as I'm walking down the street, I look at people holding hands and kissing and dream your loving me.

I'll never have my family now, That life is out the window, I have to accept that and move on and hope one day you'll come home.

 

Though I'm not in your life and your not in mine, Feel free to come and visit me, My heart and friendship's open for business all of the time.

I'll always be here for you, Night and day, Even if the one in your heart just isn't me.

Your the mother of my child and for that I love you dearly but as my soul mate and friend I'll respect your wishes and leave you be, Please don't ever forget all that you mean to me.

 

I was born to tell you I love you <3

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Dear Meg,

 

Well I can honestly say.

 

I hate you.

 

You quit on me in the most cowardly way, you lied to me, you replaced me so quickly, and tried to string me along. Your lack of empathy is the reason why we cannot be friends. Stay away from my family and always know that you ruined my summer and my life. **** you

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I'm sorry I responded to your texts today.

You got me with your reference to Up.

That tore right into my heart.

 

You caught me at an emotional time. I was in a not good place when I answered your question of "Do you think you'll ever be happy again?" Man, how I regret my answers!

 

So what did we establish? That I don't feel anyone's loved me the way I've loved them; that I'm not hopeful I'll find happiness anytime soon; and that I bawled my eyes out at parts of Toy Story 3. Oh...AND THAT I'M AN IDIOT FOR ANSWERING YOUR TEXTS!

 

STOP TEXTING ME!

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J-

 

What is there to say? When I think about that day, disbelief still creeps into my mind. I hope I will forget you the way you have forgotten me.

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Scott Clifford

Dear X

 

Today I woke up, I had another nightmare, about us. When I woke I realised its the same in real.

 

I immediatly checked FB, my mail, my mobile. But nothing, I wished I didnt give myself this (false) hope but you still mean the world for me.

 

Today could be the day you restart working. I hope it will open your eyes so you'll see I wasnt a bad thing in your life, but the best what ever happened to you. As you are to me.

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collegeguy_24

Well Jen, its almost Thanksgiving. I remember when we were together, you said you were going to spend it with either your mother or your grandparents, but we would chat on the phone as well so you could avoid people.

 

Nice to know you asked me to do all these things for you, make plans for us, hell even arrange my schedule around you only to have you leave for another man.

 

I still miss you, and right now I am in a mess. A really nice woman is dating me, and I have some feelings for her, but I also still have feelings for you. I just can't let go like you did. I miss you terribly.

 

I saw you driving behind me last week, down the whole of 8th street. I saw you look at my license plate and I saw the look on your face and in your eyes.

 

You looked sad and uncomfortable, like you were tempted to do something, like possibly contact me? I wish you would, I miss you.

 

Even the person I am dating knows all this. But she is patient, and willing to work with me on this.

 

She even knows that if you came back, I would not be able to choose, i would be hard.

 

I don't know what else to say right now, I honestly don't.

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Scott Clifford

Dear

 

I tried not to contact you. Its been almost a week and I still manage to do so. Its hard, I've no idea how you are able to hold on.

You probably have bigger worries than me.

 

I miss you, I want to know how you are. If you're still in pain yourself, why dont we call then?

It seemed so great between us, it still could be. I really wanted to jump in life with you, please dont let me jump alone.

 

You need some more time I guess, I hope you're suffering as much as I am but clearly you don't.

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Dear Q,

 

There's a lot of things I want to tell but at same time I know nothing is worth it. In my head i know that we can't be together. You lied to me, you manipulated me, cheated on me with a girl that you insisted that she was only your friend and wanted me to be her friend too. I just realized that you are the guy I fell for and the guy you showed to everyone. If I was the love of your life, the woman you wanted to spend your life with, why the hell you did all those things and blamed it all on me? I just can't understand why suddenly after you broke up with me you started to be nicer to me? You started contacting me more and be more open? Sorry, but I just can respond to your approach after all the things that you did and don't admit doing. I can admit my flaws but it's very hard for me to talk to you when you haven't apologize, haven't said sorry for treating me bad. Yes, there's a lot of things I would like to share to you but I just can't. I have to tell you that I like to you write me almost every week about anything because that tells that at least in 5 minutes of your week you think of me, but I must tell you that there's no minute that passes that I think of you. Now I'm facing the fact that you are writing less and less, and I can understand it because I don't respond. But you deserve anything from me...

I'm going to move to another country, yes I'm going to study and work. I know that you would be happy for me and proud for everything I have accomplished. I would like to tell you that i'm proud that you are in a job that you really like and that you are getting exposure. But what I would really liked if we were together sharing all the good stuff that has happened to us.

 

Bye Q, I love you so much, and I miss you like hell even when you don't deserve any of my love, thoughts, and time.

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I told you everything I felt. I know you didn't really want to know or talk about it all. I know you told me you wanted me to just forget about you. Then we ended up having fun and you said you want to hang out again. But now I have not heard from you and an wondering if you give a ****. Part of me thinks you are gross and part of me wants our love back. It takes two to tango and right now I feel like I'm the only once willing to take the chance!!!!!!!

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I had tender feelings towards you the last few days then I remembered you "can't be trusted". You never apologized for wronging me. I apologized over and over and let you mistreat me because i felt guilty. I let you hurt me, keep me in the dark, keep me guessing about where you stood. All because I felt bad. But, you never gave me any apologies at the end for your mistakes. You felt I was a hypocrite. I feel like you're a cheating jerk.

 

Bye tender feelings.

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should have started NC so long ago... finally today my first day of NC after 1 month plus of holding on, contacting him and ended up him lashing out on me that I never give him space and break.. Screw it.

 

I rather think of myself than him now..

 

What I will to say if I contact him,

Thanks for giving me up so easily and smashing my heart like an egg.

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Im so angry. I'm angry that you pushed me away when all I wanted to do was love you. I'm angry because you let me believe everything was ok, you let me feel safe, you let me so so loved. I feel completely let down by your lack of faith in me. You don't believe that I can help you and you won't even try. I hate that you won't pull yourself together just long enough for me to show you how much you mean to me. I'm frustrated that you seem so fine, you're not upset and devastated that you are not with me. I feel lost without you. You consumed all my time, my every thought was and still is about you. you are so selfish to leave because you are depressed. Can you not see that you have torn me apart. I'm half my former self. I have no confidence in love any more, I was invincible with you. Now I know the true hurt that can come from loving someone with your entire being and I won't be able to ignore that in future. All my future relationships will be tainted with my insecurities as you loved me and drop me so easily. I trusted you with everything and you gave no warning that we would end. I offered you everything I possibly could and you made me feel like it's not enough.

I'm crying my eyes out for you, and you don't care. You don't feel a thing for me. If you cared you wouldn't let me feel like this. Saying you want to be my friend just makes things worse, don't you see every time you speak to me you give me hope. I ****ing hate this hope, I want it to die I was to be hopeless. I want to get over you and move on with my life.

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This weekend was what I've wanted for a long time, even if it was just a baby step.

 

Prove to me that it was sincere and that you want this like you said you did, that this weekend wasn't just a temporary thing... so call me today like you said you would

 

i love you baby

 

it's hard not telling you that when I did everyday for years

 

happy thanksgiving

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Well tomorrow the holidays official starts. This would be our first Thanksgiving apart after all this years. I will miss you dearly and I would think of you while I eat my parents food. I know how much you loved their food. Why you had to treat me so bad and lied to me? Why haven't you apologize for your bad behavior? Do you think I will forget all the hurtful things you did and said? No, as much as I want to be with you again I know that's not possible and is not the best thing for me.

 

Soon will be my birthday, christmas, your birthday, new year's eve, and then a whole new year. I will be lying if I not say that I will be expecting some kind of message from you on my birthday. Well as now I miss that you haven't written to me this week. Even if I don't respond I like that you write to me. I know that it doesn't help me move on completely but at least I feel a little less sad. BTW I'm not going to be here for the holidays I'll be visiting my friend. I just can't deal with being alone this holidays while you are out there partying with her. That just makes me feel sad. I'm telling you that I'm not going to send you a message on your birthday. I just can't because it's too hard for me. But you now that I'll be thinking about you and that I still love after all.

 

Bye...

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Scott Clifford

I miss you. I wished you never were let in the place where you work now. I was a fool to support you!

Not really.

I know that you've made tons of sacrifices for it. But a week ago you made the biggest sacrifice ever: a happy life.

I was planning to do everything for you, leave my country, learn a new language, work my ass off, change my life almost entirely. I still want to do that, but you decide what happens.

 

I hope the doubt is killing you, that the feelings for me eat you. Every day I still wait for a call, text or email in vain. You're letting me down.

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Hey Tonya,

 

I know we'll never talk again and we will both melt into oblivion, but I really do wish you all the best even as my heart breaks. What more can a lover want than to see his love happy, even if it is with another man?

 

It doesn't put a smile on my face and tears still come to my eyes, but I'm not in bed today and I'm not drinking. Babysteps they claim "till I'm full grown," right (or maybe that was a Fergie song)?

 

Either way, I think about last Thanksgiving and how we took your kids and my son to DC and we spent a wonderful time exploring the Smithsonian and the city.

 

I love and miss you so much, your love,

 

Jordan

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Scott Clifford

Me again,

 

I still like to wish you a happy thanksgiving. I'm dissapointed you have not contacted me once after breaking up.

I try to stay strong in the outside world, but inside I feel crumbled, dead.

You can make me alive again.

 

I still don't get why you broke up, we were always so happy together.

 

Is it your busy job? The distance? Please help me with answers, I still need some.

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I still yearn to know the reason you disappeared. Was I so unimportant to you that I didn't deserve an explanation??? After all these years I wonder what I did wrong. I thought about u everyday for a year even when I saw pictures of that hideous girl you were dating. You clearly have moved on and fallen in love but I'm still here yearning for closure. You're an ******* and I should have taken you more seriously when you told me. Why did you contact me? What were your intentions? Was it to be friends or was it because you were lonely? Was it because she broke your heart and you needed to know I was still there if you needed me at some point? What did you mean when you said that this was the right time? I hope that she held your heart in her hands and squeezed everything out of it and stomped on it and laughed while she was doing it while you begged her to stop. I still miss you and I wish I didn't. You're such an *******.

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Hey K,

 

Just wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving, even though you don't deserve it!!

 

I just felt like I need to say that. You probably forgot about me, doesn't surprise me.

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I don't know what it is about tonight. Or the last couple of days. Maybe it's because I've been having very little luck dating. And am feeling listless and a little lonely. It's day 20 today, and on Sunday I was fine. Had accepted that you're moving on. But all I want to do is reach out; unblock you on FB, check your blog...but I KNOW it will only bring pain. It's the elephant in the room now, the more to tell myself to not think about you the more I do, it sucks. The things I used to do to clear my head now just devolve into me losing focus. Maybe it's just a bad night. I know there's no point. You're not thinking about me. I just want this to stop. I want to stop thinking about you, replaying the relationship over in my head, thinking about how I'll never be with you again. I need to move on. I had a wonderful time with her today. But after all I can think about is you. And not even you anymore. The abstract of you. I try to remember all the things you did to piss me off, all the things I know you won't change. It still sucks. Gah. Time to get back to work. I just want this to end.

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