Sonolumino Posted December 16, 2010 Share Posted December 16, 2010 Saw your mom today at the gym, she didn't see me though. Ran into your friends a few days ago and they all said how you never hang out with them anymore because you're too busy with "your old as **** boyfriend". Not gonna lie, it made me feel better when they said that, and how they'd prefer if you were dating me still. I wouldn't prefer it though. You say you're in "love" with him too, after 2 months. The first guy that gave you a second look. You truly are THAT pathetic and I feel nothing but pity for you. My emptiness is slowly going away, and I'm remembering that it's good to be single again. Too many women who actually treat me like a human being out there then to be angry about the one who won't. You played me very well though, flawless performance. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted December 16, 2010 Share Posted December 16, 2010 Hey Tonya, You won't understand what I did or the reasons why. Yes, I stand by what I wrote to you - you did replace me in a New York minute and I'm very saddened by that. However, I did not have to include you were a "crappy lay," but understand I am hurt. I have met a girl from OC (yes, California native, believe that??) that has a heart of gold and it shines in contrast to your heart which you never really gave me. Oh, and the sex is phenomenal - I didn't expect it, but I feel somewhat liberated that I have met someone that *actually loves sex* and keeps an open mind as well. Go figure - I suppose I wasn't the selfish bastard you made me out to be in our piss poor attempt at counseling. Remember how you showed lackluster interest in actually fixing problems (it's a precursor to your future relationships and how they may turn out, I believe)? As much as I hurt, I realize now that the age your at, you will have an extremely tough time replacing me. Why do I know this? I've done plenty of dating since we've been broken up and I now know that men have the advantage in our fourties. In other words, you really fuc*ed up and you'll be having sex whether you like it or not just to keep a man around. Sucks for you I suppose (perhaps, in the literal sense - hahaha). Oh, and get used to fellatio - "don't be an obsolete betamax model." Any man worth his salt will gladly trade you in for a new bluray model. Either way, when you become exhausted trying to keep a man, I'll be here. I can't guarantee I'll be here forever, but I can guarantee that I will always love you, even if you don't deserve it. Jordan Link to post Share on other sites
vandelay Posted December 16, 2010 Share Posted December 16, 2010 So here's my deal. I really cannot be "just friends" with you. I have created a bad situation for myself. You have dumped me and I acted like a fool, begging and bargaining, and now I feel like a doormat. This is not how I feel about myself in general, but it is how I feel in our relationship right now. I may be a sensitive guy, but I am not a pushover. I may be shy, but I'm not a child. I feel pitied, and allowing myself to feel that way is demeaning. There was so much time in our relationship where we treated each other as equals, friends, and lovers. Right now the balance is so uneven that it would be unfair to myself to continue seeing or talking to you. Not a day has gone by in 2 1/2 years that the sight of your face has not caused my heart to skip a beat. But I don't need to deal with unrequited love anymore. You and I are obviously approaching this situation from vastly different perspectives. This is not something that I will get over quickly. It is unrealistic of me to think that I can see you anytime soon and not feel the loss. If I see you and walk away, it is only to protect myself. If I have to delete you from Facebook, it is only to protect myself. I really don't need the reminders of how happy you are now that I am out of your life, and as long as I care about you there will always be the possibility that I see something which puts me back to square one. I'm not doing this so that I can slink away and feel sorry for myself. This is me making a tough decision for my own good. You know exactly how I feel and you know the types of interactions I would like to have with you. Friendly chit-chat is not one of them, and acting as if nothing happened is completely unrealistic. Maybe someday we can see eye-to-eye and treat each other as equals again, but until that time, I have to remove myself from situations that only lead to frustration. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 16, 2010 Share Posted December 16, 2010 Dear Samantha It's night's and time's like this I look back on the relationship and where my life is now and I just find it so hard to move on, Just knowing we were everything to eachother and all of a sudden I'm nothing to you, Nothing what so ever, If I was then maybe you'd of contacted me by now, Hard to believe I was the first and last person you called day by day and now somebody else gets that call, We had a great family life to look forward to, It was everything I ever wanted, Hard to believe somebody else will take my place now and look forward to all that. Ever since I met you I just knew we were meant for eachother, Maybe somewhere down the line you forgot that, You meant everything to me, I was your first love, Your first proper boyfriend, Your first time at intimacy, I was your first for everything and that was unbelievably special, I always wanted to be your last, I geuss the chances of that in the future are pretty damn slim now, We'll always be bonded by the beautiful child we created and rest assured I will be in your life one day and I may not be able to treat you like a queen anymore but damn you'll always that way to me, I geuss the hardest about letting go is finding your way after the storm has passed, I know your destined for great things and great people so I needn't worry, Your good enough where it matters to make the right choices, I feel I'm going to be lost when all this finally falls into place and if it don't work out for you just know I'll foolishly always be here because truth be told I want the hurt to stop but that don't mean I'll want anyone else, I said forever and with or without you I'll carry out that promise I made to you, Forever here till the day I die. You don't know how much I'd give right now for just one bit of an apology for all of this pain, For all of this to be worth while and justified, You contact me every now and again for pointless **** and it's always cold, Not a day goes by where I don't hope you contact me for something a bit more worth while and to tell me I meant something to you but hey I won't give in and I won't contact you back cause right now you don't deserve it, I don't know what you've been up to and who you've been with, I just hope you know I've stayed alone and I've stayed faithful but worst of all the pain has stayed too. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted December 16, 2010 Share Posted December 16, 2010 (edited) Hey Tonya, I was listening to Tupac maybe 14 years too late, but stumbled across "All Bout U," especially this line: "Every other city we go, ... No matter where I go, I see the same hoe" You always seem to have problems with metaphors, so I thought I'd help you with this thinly veiled metaphor that Tupac is trying to get across: The same chick that does her hair for an hour straight in order to get ready to go out, sipping on her caramel machiatto while wearing her riding boots does not necessarily make her the hottest thing out there. Given that you latched on to someone else, what, a month maybe (that's being generous) after we broke up, provides evidence that despite the feminine fluidity and beauty you possess, you are just a hoe after all. I suppose I can find that in San Francisco as well as Chesapeake. Really, don't be so impressed with yourself. You aren't all that unique. Jordan Edited December 16, 2010 by poopierabbit Link to post Share on other sites
poorguy Posted December 16, 2010 Share Posted December 16, 2010 See I don't know why I like you so much I gave you all of my trust I told you, I loved you, now that's all the the drain Ya put me through pain, I wanna let you know how I feel F_ck what I said it don't mean sh_t now F_ck the presents might as well throw them out F-ch all thoses kisses, they didn't mean jack F_ck you you hoe I don't want you back You thought, you could play me Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story Ya played me, ya even gave him head Now ya asking for me back Ya just another act, look elsewhere Cuz ya done with me Link to post Share on other sites
BlindRage Posted December 17, 2010 Share Posted December 17, 2010 Why do I miss you even though you already moved on and told me never to contact you Why am I weak for you. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted December 17, 2010 Share Posted December 17, 2010 Hey Tonya, I think I've had somewhat of an epiphany. There are certain qualities that I absolutely love about you, however, those same qualities are "transferable" and theoretically if another woman possessed those same qualities, I may love her. In other words, it's becoming evident that perhaps I didn't love you for the woman you were, but rather for the qualities you have. I found you to be a bitch for the most part, but your passion for nursing, intelligence, beauty, and devotion to your kids made up for it. I suppose this lesson is important as it should guide me in the future to look for a woman I'm compatible with and has the qualities I'm looking for. I think it will be a rare find but I'm willing to be patient. I still love you even though it's apparent now you were wreckless with my heart and showed no regard with respect to giving me the decency of a face to face breakup - instead over the phone. Really? Add to that list - "cowardly", "selfish", "vain" and "small-minded." You weren't all that. Jordan Link to post Share on other sites
Margot Posted December 17, 2010 Share Posted December 17, 2010 Hi Q, I'm so pissed at myself right because I just can't stop thinking about you. You don't even know how much you have hurt me and how it has taken me time to heal after your departure. What really makes me sad is that I know that you are out there having fun, hanging with her, doing all the stuff we used to do together with her and others. And I'm still here hurting, sometimes crying. Believing that one day you will be apologizing of what you did and said to me or regretting your decision. Well I just have to keep reminding myself what you have done and believe that you are not going to change and that I can't erase the past from my mind. I have to keep my mind in more important things, not you. Bye... This Christmas is not going to be easy...but I can assure that I'm not going to contact you. Link to post Share on other sites
amythan Posted December 17, 2010 Share Posted December 17, 2010 Hey silly, I would like so much to be with you now. Really. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted December 17, 2010 Share Posted December 17, 2010 (edited) Hey Tonya, Yes, a "blast from the past" contacted me via text today wondering if we could be friends. My answer is "no" because it is pointless. It serves no purpose I can see. The pointed language you used such as "civil and respectful" doesn't reflect the comaraderie I have with my friends - I certainly wouldn't describe our dynamic by "civil and respectful." No, instead we have a good time! Also, the mantra of the 60s revolution was "don't trust anyone over 30." Mine is "don't trust any woman that only knows two positions in bed." Am I going to be your friend? Hell no! I made that pretty evident. Oh, and I love how you threw in "if you love me, then you wouldn't treat me this way." That would be true under normal circumstances, but these are not normal circumstances. Oh, and is wittle Tonya hurt, oh no! "You are a mean man"? Really? Go f*ck yourself, bitch! Like I said in my text back to you - "Learn fellatio or the man that you cheated on me with is going to leave your sorry ass!" Jordan Edited December 17, 2010 by poopierabbit Link to post Share on other sites
goldenrainbow Posted December 18, 2010 Share Posted December 18, 2010 V, you were the love of my life. I want to be with you so badly and I know that you want the same, but we both know this doesn't work and we do have to move on. You've called me today and it was so great to hear your voice. That warm, cosy voice I have fallen in love with. You still want to marry me. I really want to break free and stay with you at the same time. It doesn't work I love you, I love you, I love you so much... Love of my life... For one year you have been the world to me. My world is still black and white right now, but I will slowly start to see some colour. A blue wave here, a red rose there... There is life out there, Amo-te Link to post Share on other sites
cerridwen Posted December 18, 2010 Share Posted December 18, 2010 This is amazing. I know it can't work. Throughout the day, I get furious at you for lying to me. I get disgusted thinking of your sexual exploits. Ugh, some really turn my stomach. What a hoe you are. I get mad at myself for sending those emails before we broke up. You know the ones; those that asked if you could work on your issues, the emails you chose to ignore until I kept bringing them up? How embarrassing. I kept trying to salvage something painful with a liar and cheat. I kept asking for your participation. I kept ignoring the increasingly bad treatment. Then after we break up you text "I don't know if I'm happier with you or without you". Well, I may not be happy right now. But I'll get there and I know it'll be a kind of happy I couldn't have achieved WITH you. Link to post Share on other sites
Mrlonelyone Posted December 19, 2010 Share Posted December 19, 2010 S_____ Even after all these years and all I have done...having thought I had moved on...having had a good relationship... there is a part of me that feels for you. I wish it didn't but it does. I feel for you something so deep so abiding so maddending that no single word captures it's totality. We are different people in many ways now. What I feel is for a memory, for a person I know now only from rare messages. Is it for you or the idea of you...I don't know. I want to know. I just know that if I said this to you in person...I know how we were. We both played these little games, even when we said we did not want to . One chasing the other to and fro like children playing tag in beautiful gardens...Letting the other know they were it... and enjoying being caught. Yet we would hurt eachother with a look, with a word, to withhold our affections... Only you could do that to me, about only you have I cared so much. So I will just play and enjoy playing our games and hope you know me well enough by now that I don't have to say it. You once told me that love exist only in books and movies...if this isn't it then you must be right. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 19, 2010 Share Posted December 19, 2010 Dear Samantha I really wish I understood your intensions, Why you would buy me christmas presents when you bought me nothing for my birthday, Why you insist on asking why I'm okay, I haven't seen or talked to you in so long I wouldn't even know what to say to you anymore, Your a stranger to me now and thats your doing alone for leaving the love that we shared, Something I never thought you'd do. I sincerely hope that you one day do regret it, Right now I'm fine without you despite my moments of weakness, I just wish I could move on without looking back in hope we'll one day be again, Thing is I'd always have you back no matter what you did or said to me cause I love you with all my heart and want nothing more than the little family we had planned, I miss you more than you know and more than I'd ever let you know, It's hard knowing I'm not a part of your life anymore and I'll likely one day be replaced but if there's been nobody else on your side like there hasn't on my side then I'd always try again. I love you Samantha... Here's hoping you have a merry Christmas. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted December 19, 2010 Share Posted December 19, 2010 (edited) Hey Tonya, I think back to the blowout we had yesterday. You wanted something from me, something that I couldn't offer to you -- friendship. Understand that lovers must be honest with each other. If you couldn't be honest as a lover, what in the world makes you believe you can be honest with me as a friend? After all, lovers are friends (or should be). Honesty is a prerequisite for any friendships I maintain. Secondly, the relationship tended to be lopsided where it seemed everything was on your terms. Why would I start out a friendship with someone when even that is decided on their terms? I'd rather poke my finger into my eye and swirl my brain around than to have anything to do with you. You were reckless with my heart and weren't even present in the relationship! So screw you! I stand by what I said. By the way, Tonya, California women rock! I'm so much better off. Jordan Edited December 19, 2010 by poopierabbit Link to post Share on other sites
9Lives Posted December 19, 2010 Share Posted December 19, 2010 you full of class and the jack ass lost! I feel you Link to post Share on other sites
LikeCharlotte Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 I almost sent you a holiday card and then I remembered that I "infuriate" your girlfriend (and you). Why did I waste time making you into a friend? I am not sending it and I am angry with you for not ever really being my friend. You used me to not feel alone. I'm hurt and I have no idea what to do about it except never speak to you again. You suck. This sucks. Link to post Share on other sites
bl22 Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 I hope you have a nice Christmas, and i hope you and your family are okay. Miss you sweet x Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 Dear Samantha You will not have control over me anymore, You will not manipulate my feelings, I won't be your friend, When you left you ran the risk of me not being there at all and that's just what I'm going to do, I'll show you how strong I can be and how wrong you were to just walk out and leave. Link to post Share on other sites
i made a mess Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 C - I know I screwed up. I know that I let my own fear and insecurities push you away. I'm dying inside. I realize the damage my actions have caused. I have obviously hurt you so much that you changed your number without warning, without telling me you didn't want to talk anymore. My hot/cold, non-communicative, idiot behavior cost me something so amazingly beautiful. If I could tell you how I feel, I'd tell you that you are the most amazing man I had ever met. I love the way you talk in your sleep, sometimes in english, sometimes in portugese. I love the way you walk a little stiff legged and say "mmm" through an entire meal when you are eating something delicious. I love the way you smile. I love the way you make me happy by being happy. I love the way you think I am enough. I love hearing you tell stories, talk about your job as a police officer, and how close you are with your family and friends. Your passion inspires me to want to be a better person. You get me, you truly listen when I talk, and you're supportive - you're everything I've ever wanted. You are enough for me. I wish I had been able to open up, to share these things with you. If I could, I'd do everything I could to make you as happy as you made me. I'm so worried that I won't have you in my life ever again and it crushes me. When I hear police sirens I worry that it may be a bad call and that your safety may be compromised when you get there. 2 LEO's in the last 2 months have lost their lives. To not know that you've made it home safe, or that I can't call just to hear your voice and be reassured is torture I deserve. I wake up in a panic worried that something has happened and I have no way to reach you. I cannot stop thinking about you. I miss the way you touch me, the way you hold me, the way you would serenade me in the car with that beautiful voice of yours. I truly long for you, my heart aches just as much now for you as when we were together. I truly hope that you are happy. I want that for you. I want to be able to contribute to that happiness, to be there when you come home from work, to love you, to ease your stress and frustrations away. But even if I never get another chance, just knowing that you have happiness, love, and contentment in your life would be enough for me. I love you with every part of my being. Link to post Share on other sites
GraceNote Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 Dearest _______, I just want to wish you a Merry Christmas. Hope you and your family have a day filled with love and laughter. I wish I could tell you that I think of you and I miss you every day. I wish I knew if you think about me too. I still hold out hope that some day things may work out so that we can be together. Stranger things have happened. No one knows what the future holds. Please... Take good care of yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
The Crow Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 Dear Annie. **** you. Link to post Share on other sites
goldenrainbow Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 Dear V, I love you too...so much. But I am starting to slowly realize that I am so much better off without you. I am going to get back the self-esteem you stole away from me. I am not the s*** you said I was. Thank goodness there are men who would cut off a toe to be with me, so I am really not s***. I am a hardworking, bright, attractive woman with her flaws. But YOUR flaws are little monsters and I really just want to run away before they jump on me again. Link to post Share on other sites
bonpaw2008 Posted December 21, 2010 Share Posted December 21, 2010 I can't believe I let you suck me in again, even just a little. You are such a selfish gd prick, I am embarrassed that I ever let you in at all. I never saved your name in my phone after the last time you crushed me, I am so better off without you, you are a user, a loser, just an all-around ****ing dick. NC STARTS AGAIN TODAY AND WILL LAST FOREVER!!!! You missed me, you made a big mistake, you f'd up bad. You will know that now, you will realize that you f'd up your only chance at happiness because you are all about you, no one else matters. You just make me f'ing sick that I wasted so much time, so many tears on you. I felt sorry for you and the way you grew up, the things that you made you the ****ing freak that you are now. Enjoy yourself you stupid douce bag, I know that I will be fine and I know your life will be nothing but ****. Link to post Share on other sites
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