marqueemoon4 Posted December 30, 2010 Share Posted December 30, 2010 Amanda- I prayed that I would never have the misfortune of falling in love with and having a child with someone like you. Unfortunately, I made that mistake, and now I'm stuck with the pain of only seeing our son 9 days a month. I know you are seeing someone else even though we are legally still married and will be for the next 5months. You said yesterday "why can't I just let this go". I can't because you've cheated me out of being a full time father to our son. This isn't whats best for him, you think this is whats best for YOU. Stop lying to yourself! Link to post Share on other sites
make me feel better Posted December 30, 2010 Share Posted December 30, 2010 why do you have to be nice to everyone else EXCEPT me? why are you so heartless and cruel. why do you pretend i don't exist anymore. i've been friends with you longer than most of your friends. **** YOU. i'll never forgive you. Link to post Share on other sites
Mrlonelyone Posted December 30, 2010 Share Posted December 30, 2010 S The logical part of my brain wants to block you on FB... and cannot fathom why you don't block me... I can only figure... it's to allow me to see the pictures of our child. For if what was said in that email is really totally true any sane, rational, normal person would have blocked me. I forgot for a little bit you aren't totally sane rational and normal though are you? It's your loss... and our son I's loss.... You move from situation to situation looking for perfect love only to loose. Your father was the start of it all I'll bet. Then me, The your fiancee...who was picked by your father Then me .... then for a long time... and I recognized this then... our son Now another man who like me won't take your bull the difference being once he realizes your bull he won't just walk away he'll hit you. He's the type that does. He'll hit our son, he's the type that will. That's what remains to worry me now. No matter what I will never totally not care about you... and I think you will never totally not care about me. You look at our sons face every day and know what I mean. I know you can see and feel me in him... for some reason you choose to have my child and no one else's. You gave the best years of your life to my child... You just be careful...you picked a man who's obsessed with a violence prone sport who's main tool in his dealings with others is intimidation. Far from a gentle giant he will not suffer your histrionic antics well. Mark my words. If I am not mistaken I just saw your car drive by my house... WTF woman! Link to post Share on other sites
SDA Posted December 30, 2010 Share Posted December 30, 2010 You say every time you see me you wanna give me a hug and a kiss and hold my hand and not leave my side. Then why did you leave me? Link to post Share on other sites
Username37 Posted December 30, 2010 Share Posted December 30, 2010 So she was trying to KILL you then! Glad that you got out while you are still alive! JK - Sorry about your loss man... It sucks no matter how you slice it! Hahahahahahaha! Sorry, I can't help myself! The more people laugh at it, the more it's helping me move forward Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 30, 2010 Share Posted December 30, 2010 Dear Samantha I don't know why I feel like this, Why my heart wants to defy every bit of logic in my head, Why it still holds out hope for you coming back to start again with me, I just need to get over this, I just wonder how you can even look at other people and prefer them to me, How you can imagine a life without us, How you can see yourself without me forever, The thought of you doing anything with anybody but me just kills me cause thats a special bond we had right down the drain and if that's gone then I'm sorry but you'll never ever have me back. Why can't you just grow up and fast? Why can't you give in to the feelings you push down time and time again, Did you ever think about how Lucas was going to be in future about all of this? I'll answer that, No you didn't cause you only ever think of yourself just like you did when you moved out on me back then, I should of known you'd never move back no matter the promises, I was a fool but not anymore, I won't take this anymore, One day you'll be stuck in this bed you made, Here's hoping your happiness lasts. Bitch. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 I miss you Sam I know you'll one day come back and knock on my door again, I know who you really are inside, I know the person that you hide and once you figure that out and come back we'll be happy and we'll live a good life. I'll still be the first and only person you've had and you'll never want anymore than that, I love you... Please make it soon ^^ Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 Hi A, You broke my heart. You know when you told me that the reason for the breakup was that we didn't develop the deep connections you wanted, I believed you. I know your life in the past several years has been difficult, emotionally. And I thought that because of the trauma, you are probably far from being ready to be in a relationship. I wrote a letter after our breakup basically saying that I understand your situation and I don't hate you. I drove by your house last Saturday night, planning to drop off the letter as a closure. Instead I saw a pair of woman's boots along with yours at your door. And it was only three weeks since our breakup and I suppose it was not the first time the new girl spent her night at yours. Strangely, I didn't feel angry or surprised. I felt relieved and liberated, because now I know I only lost a piece of trash instead of something precious. YOU lost a good and sincere girl as me. So instead of dropping of the closure letter, I drove back home, cut up the letter. And then I brought toy cat you gave me, drove to your place and put it beside the woman's boots, just to tell you that I know what you've been doing. I don't want to have anything to do with you now. I cannot believe you are so disgusting! You just want some casual games and I want a sincere relationship. Actually you have been treating me well, but you really should have told me the truth that you only want a game. You are so disgusting. I cannot believe I liked you so much that I was falling in love and saw a future with you. I will be more cautious next time I meet anybody new. Thanks to you. Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 Hi A, I still cannot believe that you are sleeping with a new girl soooo soon after our breakup. It makes me sick and at the same time that I'm grateful you dumped me, because I want nothing to do with your kind of people. Seems that you have lined her up before you dropped me. I just hoped that you have slept with her after our breakup, you know, for my health's sake. Who know whether this girl is disease free. Looks that sex to you is only a recreational activity, but for me it is the way to express love. You really shouldn't pretend that you want a long term relationship. I don't know why in the first place you dated me, since at the very beginning that I was very clear that I'm seeking a serious relationship. Guess I'm too pretty to resist, huh:D Thanks to you, I'm losing part of my innocence--my trust to guys. I really didn't know that you could pretend to be so sincere while just playing a game. I'm actually happy that it's over. And it does make me stronger. Link to post Share on other sites
BlindRage Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 I feel like my world is over I don't know why I'm even still alive at this point. I feel so dead inside Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 End this nightmare now and see what's best for us Link to post Share on other sites
mgene15 Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 I love you with all my heart! and yet I wanna scream at you and curse you out! why....just why...... Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 (edited) I wish I never met you. And you should not have given me the illusion of a future. Edited December 31, 2010 by bluebirdsfly Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 Dear Samantha Had yet another hard night without you, I don't know why I just can't get you out of my mind, It shouldn't be this hard anymore, It was so easy for you to leave me completely in the dark with no kind words before you departed and pretty much forget about me completely, I'd of given anything for this to have worked out or to have at least been finished to my face with a last kiss. I geuss I'll always want you regardless of what you put me through, I just hope to god there's been nobody else in my place, I know I wouldn't be able to handle that, I think you could of thought more of our son in this scenario mind, You could of made a real genuine effort for us to talk so that we may be on good terms for him but I geuss you never really cared for anbody but yourself, I hope time and space can do wonders for you, More than anything I hope it changes you, I hope you grow from it and stop being so damn selfish and stuborn, I hope one day you realise what's the best for you cause none of what you can get out there will compare to what we had and the family we could of had, I wish you'd of fought for that, I fought with all I had yet when there's no effort on your side, It all goes to waste, Congratulations. Link to post Share on other sites
LoveBug1989 Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 Alex, I miss those moments when you'd wake up at 4am and put your arms around my waist and pull me in close to you because you knew I loved it. I miss waking up next to you with my hair a mess, no makeup on and sleepy eyes, rolling over to see your smile and hear you tell me "you're beautiful". In the words of John Gorka, by the way, how is my heart? I haven't seen it since you left. Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 Hi A, I'm trying to get back to myself, the girl before she met you, the girl who exercise every morning in the park, the girl who doesn't think being single is anything wrong, the girl who doesn't even have one ounce of bitterness towards life, the girl who genuinely believes in true love and a happy family...I'm not back there yet, but close. I'm making progress. Happy new year to myself and everybody on this board! Link to post Share on other sites
Anxiety Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 I mailed you the Christmas presents my family had already bought for you and your daughter, and you can't even say thank you? I don't even know if you even received them. I've heard nothing from you. You were (using your own word) "rotten" to me the last few months of our relationship, but I can't help but love you and I want you back. Why did you leave me? Why don't you love me anymore? You are my dream girl. Your the only woman I will ever love, and I'll love you forever. I miss you so much. Please...don't do this to me. Please come back. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 Dear Samantha It's only just sinking in now that your out there having a great time with your buddies and god knows who and I'm stuck indoors thinking about you wishing you all the best, One day I'll turn all this around on its head and you'll be the one thinking about all of this, You can count on that. My new years resolution will be to bounce back, To forget you and everything you put me through, To be the best dad possible to our son, To look and feel better than ever, I'm going to reinvent myself all together and show you what your missing out on and will never have ever again, I promise you that. You may never grow up and realise what you've thrown away and how this should of been, You may never know what you've done to me, How your words and actions affected me, How they made me in to the shell of a man that I am today, Well I'm fighting back, Starting now, No way will I let you ruin my year, Not this time round, I deserve better than what you did to me. The difference between you and me is I always tried and I put everything I had into the efforts I made for you, I hope one day you feel shame for how you've handeled this break up and how you treated me, I feel ashamed of myself for letting you treat me that way but no more, I feel a hell of a lot of shame for who I used to be before you came along and all the people I messed around and messed up with, For all the people I messed around and I feel a lot of shame for how I was sometimes with you, All I know is now the new year is upon me, I'm going to make the best of it and be better than ever, Let's see who you are at the end of next year. Link to post Share on other sites
GoingInsane Posted December 31, 2010 Share Posted December 31, 2010 H You've lied to me constantly for almost a year now. I don't know if you think you're somehow protecting my feelings, whether it takes away your guilt or whether you pity me, but I don't understand why you have continued to try to be my friend - texting every day, calling round, phoning - while all the time you're sleeping with the person you swore to me nothing was going on with. You let me beat myself up for all the wrongs I did in our relationship, you let me torture myself with guilt and regret. But you knew you had an affair, and knew that you were hoping to restart this (did it ever stop?) But you couldn't just tell me the truth to help me deal with my insecurities and guilt - no, you continued to lie, not wanting me to think bad of you. You've also helped break up their 15 year relationship - the person you had an affair with has had several in the past as well. Do you feel secure in this relationship? You don't think more affairs will follow? Or have you convinced yourself that your love will make it work? I hope it crashes and burns in a month and you feel some of the pain you have inflicted on me. I don't want to speak to you, text you, see you any more. You haven't tried to change my mind, so I guess I've given you what you want yet again, a clear conscience that you haven't abandoned me - so now you can happily continue shagging each other and not give me a seconds thought. You're a coward and a liar. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted January 1, 2011 Share Posted January 1, 2011 I geuss this is it, I always said to myself that I'd wait till new year was done for you to come back, The door was wide open for you but you just didn't bother, Shows what I mean to you I geuss, I'll miss you and god I'll love you, I did my best, I appreciate the happy new year text and I'm happy you didn't go out for once, I don't know if you've moved on, Maybe found another or whatever but either way I hope you have a good life and I hope you find all you feel you deserve and I hope that makes you feel complete, I'm sorry I wasn't cut for it. My days of waiting round for you and hoping you'll come to your senses and come back are now over, I don't hate you for all you put me through, I won't hold anything against you anymore, Your the mother of my child and for that I'll always respect you and try to be as nice as possible but don't come knocking on my door for anything anymore, I'm pretty much done with you. Thankyou for making last year the worst one yet, Hopefully I'll heal and time will gradually pass me by a lot faster than it did before, you meant the world to me and I would of done anything for you, Why you couldn't feel the same and felt the need to walk I'll never understand but I geuss that's just that, I hope your happy now, Goodbye Samantha... Link to post Share on other sites
cerridwen Posted January 1, 2011 Share Posted January 1, 2011 Wow, I miss you. You're definitely mad at me. I don't blame you. I'll give you space. Happy New Year. Link to post Share on other sites
bl22 Posted January 1, 2011 Share Posted January 1, 2011 stil no sign from you, i miss you like crazy. Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted January 1, 2011 Share Posted January 1, 2011 Hi A, These are my new year resolutions: 1. learn 10 terminologies about my field every weekday and review them on the weekend. 2. exercise in the park every morning to get a better health. 3. seek more career opportunities throughout the year. 4. meet people by attending some activities, i.e. volunteering, classes, etc 5. improve my tennis 6. be beautiful and love myself. Sounds pretty good! Link to post Share on other sites
Anxiety Posted January 1, 2011 Share Posted January 1, 2011 I love you. Every time my phone rings, my heart races hoping its you. You are my one and only true love. I want to be with you so bad. I love you so much. I will forever dream of being with you again. I will always be waiting for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Username37 Posted January 1, 2011 Share Posted January 1, 2011 It's new years. You spent it with your new boy and I don't care My goal? Have a year without you in it Link to post Share on other sites
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