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[chloe56]

You are an a$$, I mean really. Why the hell would you decide to get engaged, plan a wedding then walk off???? How bad am I as a person? What was it really that made you decide that no, you did not want to be with me?

 

Can you at least let me know? I mean, I don't know where I went wrong. I don't even know what to think. Everything is just seriously crap now. Was a lifetime with me that repulsive to you? Why am I thinking of you so much again?

[alimpo83]

I wanted to get married, you know. I was planning to give you an engagement ring real soon, you don't know that. But you ran away, and left me in dispair.

 

 

I wish I could go back in time. But I can't.

 

Miss you K!

[tobydog1]

Dear A,

How could you be so so very cruel? Yoy have given us some hope in the last few days and now I have just got to accept it as all lies. Because you thought you were moving to Scotland you needed somewhere to store your stuff. So you threw me a few crumbs, now she is not going you have backed off. I know I made it worse the other night but now I have seen her and how disgusting she is; I know you have been with her. And she is so revolting that I could never touch you again. Nor ever trust you, it could never go back and be Ok. I know that now even tho I am heartbroken again. Why did you say you were going to your mum's and we could talk from there as you wanted to save this marriage, sort it all out? No nothing. Well I am in strict NC now and will never, even tho it will kill me, contact you again and ever let you do to this to me again. After 4 months I was doing Ok, now I have another knife in my back and feel like dying. Well I am going to be strong now and not let you near me again. I will never believe a word you say till the day I die.

 

However I would like the answers to these questions....Why did you say you were going? Now she is not you are not Why say you were going to your mums? Why did you want to find out if I would have you back? Why do you not want a divorce? What the heck is going on? Do I not deserve some answers and truth? I am so worthless to you? I must be and am sad by this. I'll always love you and want you to heal. I know I played a big part in the failure of this but I am getting fixed.

 

IMy heart would love you back but my head just says no, it would never work now after 4 and a half months. How could you come back here? How could I touch you again? I still and always will love you with all my heart x

[alimpo83]

Living by some of the worst days of my life!

 

I miss you K, do you miss me too? I know you don't...

 

I wish you would!

[0hpenelope]

You know, your own friends thought I was too good for you.

[SophiaL]

Hi B, you said you are moving out from the place we used to live together. It gives me a funny feeling inside, is like i've lost you and this is the final step for me to understand it...i wonder when you get a new place are you gonna erase me completely out of your life, will all the memories be gone?...would you give the new place's key to that girl you are seeing now? i was hoping you would go travelling for a bit to cut off any relationship you might have started with her, but i guess is not what is meant to be. I know I should stop having contact with you, but i really need to hear your voice even is all it says is lies...

It was good while it lasted, but replacing me so fast? why on earth?

well, well...situations do turn around...i don't wish for you what i'm going through now, all i really want is for you to be in my position just to understand how much honesty from your part would help me heal.

we haven't spoken for 2 days now, and i don't plan to contact you even though i really want to, but i'm not strong enough to ask you not to contact me or to not reply to your texts. You always drag me back because i allow you to. But, i'm looking forward to meeting new people and hopefully then shift my focus on to a new person that would be able to give me what i need. When we broke up, i've lost more than a boyfriend, i've lost everything i used to be and used to have, a house, a job, a partner, myself. But, nobody dies of a broken heart i'll turn my life around and will be able to look at you and think of our moments with a smile for knowing once i had them and not with a tear for they have gone.

Honesty is all i need from you at this time, and I believe we will be able to get it from one another, so then i'll be able to have answers to my questions and closure from it as well. If you really care for me, then work with me. You are in a good position, i'm not and i need to move on from that.

bloody hell...things have got to change...

[Bluesnow34]

You said you liked the idea of being friends, but after some time, which I agreed was best. I sent you a text saying "Hi Joe, I know it's been a while but I just wanted to say hi. Hope all is well." nothing to much, just extending an olive branch to you. After all of your talk and how much I meant to you, I really thought that you would have responded. But..nothing. No, Hi everything is going well..hope the same for you. Just nothing. I understand why we can't be together...I get that you don't like long distance but I don't understand how you can act as if I never existed as if we never happened. I know I'm not ready to be friends with you, but over time I know that we could. Before we decided to take the step from friends to dating, we knew we had a strong connection and didn't act on it. I liked you but I was still able to be your friend at the same time. I miss my friend. I miss how we told each other everything. I miss how we understood each other. I miss your voice. I miss your advice. I miss your stories and your laugh. I miss you a lot. It hurts like hell to feel like I never happened. How could you treat someone who you supposedly cared so much for like this? Why would you do this to me?

 

You know what Joe? I'm kidding myself....I don't understand why we can't be together. I don't see the big issue cause it wouldn't have been forever. You said you were strong and that you would carry the burden when I was having a hard time with being away from you. You are weak. Not only did you leave me carrying my own burden, you left me with yours too. You are not strong, strong would have been to talk to me, work through it. Geeze we live in the same country...it's not the end of the world. I told you I was not as strong as you, I think I shortchanged myself. I am much stronger than you. I wouldn't have just left you like that. I'm actually starting to get mad at times with you. Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it's a good thing you haven't responded and I just don't realize it yet.

 

I wish I could turn back time and have kept pushing away from you. I would still have you as my friend. I love you lots. I wish you missed me too.

[broken-and-lost]

Hey L,

 

I know i promised i wouldn't write or contact you and give you the space you wanted to heal and move on, i know how hurt you feel and that i let you down and you think i made a fool out of you. i never intentionally did any of that to hurt you, i wasn't well at the time and had a lot of issues i did explain all these things to you at the very start in the hope you would be more understanding and be in a better position to cope with things when they blew up.

 

i'm sorry it took me so long to finally seek the help i needed to fix things but i had been carrying the burden for 15 years and it was not easy to finally face it but i know i pushed you away a lot and pretended i didn't care at times, but it was only so i could cope with the pain. i have you to thank for finally making me realise that the world can be a beautiful place and not everything in it is out to hurt you.

 

Which is why this is so hard now because just as i finally sorted myself out you left and it hurts like a knife through my soul. i'm in soo much pain because i morn your loss and can not get over you why did you leave when i finally was ready to move forward together? i spent a year fixing a 15 year problem i thought you would understand and stick by me, i know i hurt you but not intentionally I know your never coming back and i'm stuck with NC knowing that is is going to make no difference to how i feel and i'll have to carry the loss of you like a death of a loved one

 

i feel totally lost and not a day goes by that i do not think about you:sick:

 

b

[K.K.]

So whats it like now... almost a month and a half of no contact? I keep thinking I should respond to your random texts and calls and e-mails. But I don't. I don't speak a word. What can I really say that would change even one thing?

 

If you were in front of me right now, I'd tell you how you ****ing destroyed me. I sat there sobbing hysterically on the phone begging like a loser while you casually brushed me off. 3 years together and that's what I get.

 

Shock doesn't even begin to describe it. You don't even know that I know this but You-little country boy romeo wannabee- that always dogged everybody else and called them losers for it - actually signed up to an adult dating site and every other dating site 2 days afterwards. When you told ME that I was so goddammed important to you that you could not bear to be with anyone else. You signed up for facebook to reconnect with your 'friends' and looked like a desperate fool trying to hit on everything and anything. It was so embarrassing. Hurt so bad you made me wish I was dead. YOU KNOW THAT??!!

 

WHY BOTHER calling me now?! WHY BOTHER??!! Whatsa matter the grass wasn't greener?!!

 

I carried your ass and took care of you for 3 ****ing years!!! And what did you do?!! You BEAT on me again and again! SPIT IN MY ****ING FACE. CAlled me OLD and UGLY and RETARDED. THEN you call me back the next day CRYING your eyes out how you didn't mean it!! LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID.

 

You always got me with the tears.

 

You sit there on your ****ing dating site while nobody contacts you with your profile pic of you smiling sweetly. Like a little ****ing angel. BUT I KNOW. I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE. I will ALWAYS know. You pathological evil piece of ****.

 

And STILL I sit here not being able to get you out of my mind since you send me emails and texts about how you are SOOOOo lonely and in pain. You always did try to appeal to my compassionate nature.

 

I remember when it was good between us. Oh my god I loved you. You have no clue.

 

Sometimes I go from crying to hating you to loving you to actually wanting to be your friend! I miss us so bad that I see you everywhere!

 

You have completely destroyed me. ****ed my mind up so hard that all I do is sit at my house and hide. I have NO self esteem. Cannot fathom the thought of sex with anybody ever again.

 

But you know what? ! I learned something about myself as well. I learned that I can take a whole lot more pain than I thought I could. And that I am a GOOD PERSON. I took the high road. I didn't hurt you or cheat on you to get even. I didnt sign up for dating sites. I didn't call for a restraining order. I didn't get you into trouble for a whole lot of things when I COULD'VE. I figure karma will get you one day. Hopefully I'm around to see it.

 

If I don't kill myself first - you bastard!!

[broken-and-lost]

So whats it like now... almost a month and a half of no contact? I keep thinking I should respond to your random texts and calls and e-mails. But I don't. I don't speak a word. What can I really say that would change even one thing?

 

If you were in front of me right now, I'd tell you how you ****ing destroyed me. I sat there sobbing hysterically on the phone begging like a loser while you casually brushed me off. 3 years together and that's what I get.

 

Shock doesn't even begin to describe it. You don't even know that I know this but You-little country boy romeo wannabee- that always dogged everybody else and called them losers for it - actually signed up to an adult dating site and every other dating site 2 days afterwards. When you told ME that I was so goddammed important to you that you could not bear to be with anyone else. You signed up for facebook to reconnect with your 'friends' and looked like a desperate fool trying to hit on everything and anything. It was so embarrassing. Hurt so bad you made me wish I was dead. YOU KNOW THAT??!!

 

WHY BOTHER calling me now?! WHY BOTHER??!! Whatsa matter the grass wasn't greener?!!

 

I carried your ass and took care of you for 3 ****ing years!!! And what did you do?!! You BEAT on me again and again! SPIT IN MY ****ING FACE. CAlled me OLD and UGLY and RETARDED. THEN you call me back the next day CRYING your eyes out how you didn't mean it!! LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID.

 

You always got me with the tears.

 

You sit there on your ****ing dating site while nobody contacts you with your profile pic of you smiling sweetly. Like a little ****ing angel. BUT I KNOW. I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE. I will ALWAYS know. You pathological evil piece of ****.

 

And STILL I sit here not being able to get you out of my mind since you send me emails and texts about how you are SOOOOo lonely and in pain. You always did try to appeal to my compassionate nature.

 

I remember when it was good between us. Oh my god I loved you. You have no clue.

 

Sometimes I go from crying to hating you to loving you to actually wanting to be your friend! I miss us so bad that I see you everywhere!

 

You have completely destroyed me. ****ed my mind up so hard that all I do is sit at my house and hide. I have NO self esteem. Cannot fathom the thought of sex with anybody ever again.

 

But you know what? ! I learned something about myself as well. I learned that I can take a whole lot more pain than I thought I could. And that I am a GOOD PERSON. I took the high road. I didn't hurt you or cheat on you to get even. I didnt sign up for dating sites. I didn't call for a restraining order. I didn't get you into trouble for a whole lot of things when I COULD'VE. I figure karma will get you one day. Hopefully I'm around to see it.

 

If I don't kill myself first - you bastard!!

 

don't hurt yourself sometimes people do horrible things to the people they love without even knowing how much pain they are causing YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON and you will find peace in your heart again

[luvloss]

I can't believe its over. You really never cared about me. You set out to hurt me and use me.

Why would you seek me out if you had a girlfriend. You are a liar and a pig. I hope you have to pay for this in some way and that you will feel my pain 100X's worse than I am feeling.

You left me crying and a mess and didn't even have the deceny to give me answers or an apology.

 

You are not a man...i don't even know if you are human.

[vtbrokenhearted]

All I can say, is you are such a selfish bastard! Grow up.

[Stilicho]

hey J, ive been thinking alot lately, and have realized just how foolish and immature you are. you ruined what we had, and that will never change. you are but a child, who runs to whoever tells you what you wanna hear. You spit on me, hurt me, and left me broken, yet i wanted to fix things, because i made a committment to you for 2 years. But now j, i see how deplorable you are, how impressionable, and how deceitful you are. you disgust me.

 

see you soon, class in a week.

[exquisite]

hi m.

do you even give a ****? i mean, seriously, do you even care? or is it so easy for to to read my texts & just click ignore, like im trash. i wonder if you'll even read this...or if you'll just say to yourself, "just some other crap from that annoying bitch". and for the record, stop taking your bbv peoples ****ty advice. maybe it would work on them. it doesnt work on me. & this feeling in my chest is all too familiar. cant say i missed it. its kinda like heartburn, but you just feel like someone is constantly digging their hand in your chest & pulling something out. is it really so easy to stand there & watch the "love of your life" crying, huddled, shaking on the floor when you try to push her out of your way, so you could leave her life forever? is it so easy to just look at her small shaking body & be so cold, not give a rats ass at all?

ik exactly what youre going to tell people. how ****ty i was. well you know what? i wasnt. i weighted on you hand & foot, i did everything for you, everything you asked. i gave you everything. but it still wasnt enough for you. i shut down. you know what? thats who the fk i am!!! & you yelling at me & making me feel like **** wont help make me want to talk. you are a paranoid person & i dealt with it. i dealt with it like no other girl on the planet will deal with it. i dealt with the accusations & the illogical stories. & after you practically accused me of cheating every day, i'd put your head on my chest and hug you & tell you that i love you every single fkn night. & every time we'd have an argument, i'd tell you to talk, not yell, because i hate yelling at each other, that just a simple talking about our feelings will help. & i tried, god knows, i tried. i tried to put everything in perspective, to see things from your point of view. & sometimes, i would, & i would tell you that. you cant remember our arguments, but i can. you say i never apologized, what are you getting that from? from the last 3 times?? i would apologize even when i'd accidentally HURT you, hell, not even hurt you, even when i think i hurt you. remember when i forgot the tix to hp7? how profusely i was apologizing? how terrible i felt? & after all i did for you, the only thing i wanted was for you to understand that i had a life that caused me to shut down any time some sort of conflict came up. that i get hurt very easily. that i take things a whole hell of a lot harder than most people. im not iron man.

when i'd get bothered by the little things after you did something nice for me, it had nothing to do with the nice thing you did. it was like, you took me out to dinner, thank you, but you were watching the sports score on tv all night. im not mad, just bothered. hell, i even learned to love football & the packers for you. but you mocked me every time about me liking figure skating. who the fk cares? i like it, you dont have to. just dont be mean about it. i would watch movies you like with you, but you wouldnt watch chick flicks with me. ever..i dont think we actually ever even saw a chick flick. & thats not a big deal. i didnt care about that. ya, maybe it kinda bothered me, but its the stupidest little thing & it simply doesnt matter.

last week, after bills class, you told me i was bothered by something, i didnt want to tell you, then i told you about the hannah thing & some of the things you said. you immediate response was, oh, so youre not mad at me, cool, ok. & we were good, talking it out, calm. then, as soon as we got home, i made a stupid comment when you said wanna hear my opinion & is i said sure i guess. which i didnt mean that way at all. & you got mad. but then you said something to me which caused me to shut down. remember what you said? you said, if something was bothering me, you would want to know....actually nvm, you wouldnt care. & then i shut down. why say something so mean? you know youre the love of my life. you know i'd die for you. what in god's name would make you think that i wouldnt care about how you feel? but it's the mean comments like that that would make me shut down. can you blame me? if i said that to you, you'd yell at me! its how we deal with pain or accusations.

you wanna talk about changing? you made me a deal. you promised that if we got back together, you'd never break my heart again. you'd never make me cry. you'd never leave me in the place, with my heart ripped out again. where the fk is your end of the deal? you promised. you promised at raffis on his birthday last year. you promised in september. hell, you promised the entire time we were together. its nice to know what i really am to you & just how easy it is to walk away from me forever.

you are the love of my life. i never lied about that. i saved every text. every word you sent me. just because i didnt know what was gonna happen when you leave for basic. i didnt know if i'd ever see you again when you get deployed. & even when you would leave, having little pieces of you would give me comfort. but for the record, last time, it was THE SAME THING. i read the texts. anything i would tell you, you'd get mad at me for. you'd yell at me & turn it into a fight. i may have a hard time changing who i've been, but you never changed. & my things to get bothered by may have been stupid. but you accused me of cheating on you every single day and i dealt with it, for you. tell yeela or jessy to "move your fat ass". i guarantee you will either get punched by tepper or slapped by them. i never made fun of you. or teased you about the things you were insecure about. i would rather get hit by a car then hurt your feelings. but hey, i dont expect you to care. you know, your defense mechanism was to yell at me. my defense mechanism was shutting down. we work perfectly together, you just have to let it. & you didnt. you let something so meaningless tear us apart.

i know youre probably already partying...already doing the same thing you were...& i wont say that doesnt hurt. that you choose to ignore me completely, while my heart or lack of, by now, is breaking...again. & you choose to ignore me with alcohol & girls.

i never attacked you when i told you what bothered me. heh i talked to agnes & she explained to me how you must've felt about it, your side. & hey, like always, agnes, the love guru, makes sense. its too bad she didnt come in my room 2 nights ago. i never attacked you. i just told you the things you were asking me to tell you. & i didnt mean for it to get translated like that by you. i just thought you'd care to know what hurt me.

its so empty here without you. its so quiet...but not a good quiet. like a house of horrors quiet. it still smells like you. so forgive me if thats a little bit hard to take. that after spending practically every second with you for the last 4 months, you leave just like that. that after spending every single night with you, now i have to sleep alone for the first time, without someone to cuddle with. i cant believe that something so small, so stupid actually made you walk away.

youre gonna go away to the army & by then it wont matter to you. if it doesnt already. just remember, i was ready to follow you to the edge of the earth & back. i was ready to support you in any decision you had, to help you get to the army. to tell you, that when youre in the gas chamber & you get up at 4am every day & life sucks, you'll always have me here, loving you, waiting for you. i was ready to make a commitment to you for the rest of my life. only you. & if that isnt enough for you, then just like last time, i'll never be good enough.

i swear its like you blew a psychotic fuse. one minute youre fine, the next minute you dont even love me anymore.

i never wanted anything more than to spend your last night here before getting shipped out with me. but i guess i wont get even than, plus a lot more. & after you leave for the army, i'll never hear from you, i'll never see you again for the rest of my life. im sorry if i cannot accept that.

[Nkognito]

Happy birthday gorgeous.

 

It would have been nicer to see you across the bed and say this to your face.

[Biker2007]

A,

 

There have been so many days that have passed since we were together. All feel like lost opportunities. As I learned recently from our phone conversation, you have found another to share that honor with you.

 

A week has passed since that last talk. That night, I logically came to understand that you will become a girl I once knew. I will never see or hear from you again. This is not a comforting thought, nor are the thoughts of how I ruined a good relationship with my insecurities. My heart wants to hear from you so badly. To hear that you also recognize your mistakes would mean I am not the POC that I currently feel like. I should have convinced you to talk more about the misunderstanding as you would have seen there really was no reason to get so angry. Our differences were pretty minor. I know with better communication things would be much difference between us now.

 

After the long time that we were apart, I am pleased that you have moved on with your life. I have only myself to blame as I waited far too long to reach out to you. I was hurt and frustrated by your last words to me. I had two options during our last days together: disarm the situation or add fuel to the fire. My insecurities lead me down the latter path. Then I let my frustration and pride keep me away from you for far too long.

 

My lack of action gave another the opportunity of a lifetime. Now you are in a happy place in your life without me. This hurts more than you will ever know, but the fact you are happy should provide me some solace.

 

I wish you all the best!

[alittlejaded]

I am slowly beginning to realize that you used me. It meant nothing to you but it meant everything to me. I have no regrets, though, because my heart was always in the right place-- it is sad that I can't say the same for you.

[Bluesnow34]

Remember when we used to send each other videos through Skype? Just to let the other know how we were feeling? This one's for you love:

 

 

and because i know you probably don't have the internet right now:

 

Stevie B When I Dream About you Lyrics: (changed girl to boy...obviously for you love lol)

There was a time in my life

When I opened my eyes

and there you are.

You were more than a dream,

I could reach out and touch you,

Boy that was long ago.

There are some things that I

guess I’ll never know.

When you love someone

You got to learn to let them go.

 

When I dream about you,

That’s when everything’s all right.

You're in my arms

Here next to me, forever.

When I dream about you,

Boy you never go away,

Just close my eyes

Wait for my dreams

Cause I still love, loving you.

 

How can I get you to see

That I’m falling apart

Since you’ve been gone.

I can never be sure

I could ever let go

Your love is much too strong,

There are some things that I

guess I’ll never know.

When you love someone

You got to learn to let them go.

 

When I dream about you,

That’s when everything’s all right.

You're in my arms

Here next to me, forever.

When I dream about you,

Boy you never go away,

Just close my eyes

Wait for my dreams,

Cause I still love, loving you.

[Stilicho]

hey "babe", ur an idiot. a child, and a selfish, immature little girl. its your turn now j. your urn to sit back and watch. to watch where ill go, and the life we could have had together. remember how you used to say that you felt that i was better than you and how i was out of your league? i used to tell you that was crazy, and was not true. thing is though, i was lying, you were right. compared to me you are nothing. enjoy your ****ed up life rife with mediocrity.

[radiodarcy]

bleahhh! i was doing so well but these past few weeks. actually thought i was over you. but for some reason, these last few days i've found myself regressing into the same old toxic thought patterns - - lamenting about how i wish you would have given me a chance; loved me as much as i love you; putting myself down for not being pretty enough, interesting enough, good enough for you to do so. i can't want for this feeling to go away so i can go back to feeling indifferent about you... *sigh*

[rebeccajones]

I'm missing you so completely today. I'm wishing I could hold and kiss you, feel your warmth once again. What's the use of missing and loving someone who does not feel the same? It sucks. Sometimes I just don't understand why we are not together. I just don't. I love you. If I would share this with you I'd be met with a cold heart, no emotion. I can think of the bad things you have done and part of me knows you are not good for me, you have hurt me by not respecting me and I have hurt myself by letting you. You think you are great and there is something better out there. I hope you find it. I hope I find good love too. I deserve it. Bye again. One day I hope to have NO feeling for you. One day I hope I hope I hope.

[Stilicho]

hey, i wonder how you have been lately? why, im not sure. im doing better everyday, and no longer pine for what we had. it has become a closed chapter in our lives, and i now accept that. well be seeing each other in less than a week from now... kinda curious to see how that will go.

[Nick71]

Could you for once not lie & just tell me why it's over? I love you & I want to share my life with you. You felt the same but now you do not. Wouldn't it be fair to tell me why?

[rebeccajones]

You know how or why do I miss someone who can not appreciate me? Who does not value me or my love? I do not need that kind of person in my life. You are not the type of man I am looking for anyway at this point in my life, we are/were at very different stages in our lives. You did not want what I did. For whatever reason I am glad to have left when I did rather than stay and be miserable.

[Rainboww]

Okie dokie Ima give this a shot!

 

Look I really miss you, even though your with some blond chavvy clingy bimbo right now.. I miss your deep brown eyes, your fuzzy hair, freckles and playing Play Station together till late on a work night. We were like two peas in a pod.

 

You told me to move on, leave you alone.. Your wish was my command. I vanished. But there's not been a day I don't think about the laughs we shared. You brought out a new me. A new Rainbow.

 

I feel like breaking NC.. just to say hi.. although i'm terrified I won't hear nothing back. Do you think about me like I think about you? Do you see things that remind you of me? Probably not!

 

Hope one day you do.. Hm.