Butterfly5525 Posted January 29, 2011 Share Posted January 29, 2011 Feeling really sad tonight yet also p*ssed off that you apparently think I'm only good enough to be your f*** buddy but not good enough to be your girlfriend. Also, have a sinking feeling that you're probably out on a date right now (or maybe even screwing someone) but trying my best not to think about it. Easier said than done... Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted January 29, 2011 Share Posted January 29, 2011 I've felt so much better today, I hope you know your not getting anything out of me, I think after all you've done and the mess you've put me in, Well.. I think your going to have to give me a pass and by think I mean YOU ARE going to give me a pass , I did my best to save us so I got no regrets, Apart from the one where I got with you and let you smash my dreams, I deserve so much better than you, Thank god I've finally realised it, As for what you deserve, I really don't know, Getting hit by a truck maybe, You certainly don't deserve my friendship and you certainly don't deserve me in your life, I hope you one day you regret throwing me away, Just so there's a sign of life in that cold dried up heart of yours but hey it's probably best you don't cause you are never getting me back after all this pain you caused, Hope it hits you hard when you realise the family you could of had was sabotaged by you and you alone. Have fun stuck in your heartless ways cause I promise that from now on the only side of me you'll see if you ever do choose to contact is a cold shoulder and a foul attitude towards you, You deserve nothing more than that, I'd say go to hell but by the sounds of it even Satan thinks your too evil for that place. Link to post Share on other sites
vtbrokenhearted Posted January 29, 2011 Share Posted January 29, 2011 How is it so easy for you to walk away from everything? Do you feel any remorse or bad feelings knowing that I am taking care of everything? How can you just live at a strangers house, lie to to them, eat their food, sleep in their bed, walk to work knowing that I'm killing myself taking care of everything we took on together? Where is your heart? What is going on in your mind? Why are you so selfish? I can't seem to stop these thoughts because I'm the one here reminded every day. Yes, reminded because I'm living here. I was going t pack up some things and just leave the other day. I was just going to walk away like you did because I just felt so overwhelmed, but then after I thought about it for a bit, I realized that I would be acting like you. And I can't lower myself to what you've become. I know who I am, I know my strength, I know my beauty, andif I were to walk away, I'd be showing myself that I was giving up. I'm much stronger than that. What is making you so weak right now? I've always thought of myself as a person who could talk about things, and I know you've always had a hard time with it. I thought throughout the past four months you might recognize how to talk, be able to do it, I kept believing in you, but nothing has changed. I hope something does change in you because your anger is like a cancer. Whoever hears it, it infects them. If only for a minute or two, but it does. I wish you could recognize that because the world is not just about you. You are making a deep imprint on everyone you talk with, on everyone you infect. Break it, look into yourself. Yeah, it's going to hurt, but you can do it. I did. I know I've said this to you so many times in the past four months, and I felt like I was done saying it last week, but I still believe in you. Show yourself that you are truly a good person. Does it hurt that after you told me what you did, I made the choice to say I didn't want to continue our relationship? Did it hurt that I didn't want to work on everything? It hurt me, but I realize that what we've had for the past nine years was not healthy. I want a healthy friendship and love. Was it selfish of me to just come to that conclusion? I don't know, but it's what I chose to do. I don't want to feel controlled anymore. I want to be who I am and not be told what I'm doing isn't the way I should be doing it. I like who I am. I hope that someday you'll like who you are. I hope it happens soon for you and you can actually talk with me like a normal human being. Link to post Share on other sites
lululucy Posted January 29, 2011 Share Posted January 29, 2011 Why did you phone me at 12:45 last night? Were you drunk and wanting to get laid? Were you with her but thinking about me? Were you worried that I was still crying over you? -- Don't worry, I'm done crying. Were you just trying to gauge my feelings, keep me wound around your little finger? I'm not your ego trip, not anymore. I'm just going to let you go to voicemail. You're always going to go to voicemail. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted January 29, 2011 Share Posted January 29, 2011 I still find it so hard to grasp that you couldn't give a rats ass any more, I wanted to be your first and only for everything all your life but looks like you've pretty much flushed that down the toilet, I hope you know you are never getting me back after all of this, I don't love you any more, I hate you, You are selfish and you never once considered me and Lucas's feelings in what you did, For both our sake's I hope you die and I hope you die some day soon, Both of our lives would be much better off that way. Link to post Share on other sites
valdeetz1 Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 Hey M, Hows it going- heard you moved in with her. Mooching as always it seems. I bet she wont be happy when she realizes your half of the money is always ****ing late. Has she called you your brother's name yet when she's sleeping with you? I actually need her number- need to ask who whose bigger and whose better in the sack. Bet its him. You were always a selfish lover. Can't beleive you've changed so much. Her I was, unable to have guy friends call me without getting into a fight, and here she is, a known cheater and ex of your bro and you're totally cool with that. Been together almost 6 weeks now, huh?Have fun at those strip clubs you guys keep going too. Here's hoping you catch something. Heard about how she bitches you out in front of your mom and dad. Hope your happy that you've torn your family to pieces for someone whose using you. What? she isnt? well only time will tell. But I'm glad you answered. Just wanted to tell you that you two DESERVE eachother. I mean a cheater and a liar- who knew. I was the love of your life 6.5 weeks ago- remember that? Look at the engagement ring if you dont beleive me. Link to post Share on other sites
bluebirdsfly Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 People grow apart. Life goes on. Link to post Share on other sites
lululucy Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 I still sleep on the left side of the bed, you know. Just in case you want to come home. Your side is still there. I hope your dad doesn't like her as much as he likes me. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 I don't know why I'm still thinking of you after all you've done, After all, Your over me completely while I'm still wasting my days pinning for you, I really hope you one day regret this, I didn't deserve this, Not one bit. Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 Your ex can have you. I never believed that the two of you will always remain just friends. You don't believe me, I cannot wait until the day you get a new girl and she will fling at you the exact words I told you. Darcy, you've always had him. Always. He's yours. Link to post Share on other sites
Kansas Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 Saw your profile on POF ... well at least you're not selling yourself as someone who is honest and trustworthy. Life will take care of you. Everything you have done will come back at you. Link to post Share on other sites
lululucy Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 One day I'm not going to wake up thinking about you. One day I'm just going to wake up, think "What a beautiful day" and get out of bed. I won't lay here thinking about how you're going to wake up, who is going to be on your shoulder and what you're going to say to her. I'll just get up. Link to post Share on other sites
Bluesnow34 Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 you said there was no one like you, that you were unique...truth is I really never did meet a guy like you before. You were sweet, patient, kind, strong (or so I thought), funny, smart, motivated, deep thinker, among other stuff....you didn't just want me for one thing only...we understood each other. You were everything I wanted. So if there is no one like you and you is what I wanted, does that mean I will be alone forever? Will I just end up settling? Would it hurt you to know that I had started talking to someone? Sucks though, because I am not even remotely interested. I told this guy that I am still heartbroken and not over you. He said he feels it's his place to mend me. I told him it's not...it's for me to mend myself. I wish that would happen soon...I'm trying. I miss you and love you still, I wish I could stop, I want to stop. I wish I never met you. Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 One day I'm not going to wake up thinking about you. One day I'm just going to wake up, think "What a beautiful day" and get out of bed. I won't lay here thinking about how you're going to wake up, who is going to be on your shoulder and what you're going to say to her. I'll just get up. I cannot wait until I get there, too! Link to post Share on other sites
Anxiety Posted January 30, 2011 Share Posted January 30, 2011 C You are my one and only true love. I love you just as much today as yesterday and I will love you just as much tomorrow. The love I feel for you will last forever. No one ever made me feel the way you do. I look at your pictures everyday wishing I was with you. Your the only woman I have ever loved...Your my dream girl and I will forever dream of being with you again. I want you back and I'll always be here waiting for you. You said you would never hurt me....but being without you is the worse pain I've ever felt. Why don't you love me anymore? I'd do anything to hold you again. I miss you Love you forever Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 You really know how to mess me up don't you?, At first I thought you were just hiding your feelings but to be over me completely already?, I thought I meant more to you than that, I don't know what I feel more, Hurt, Disappointment, Insulted, I really don't know any more but one thing I know for sure is that I'm still standing strong and from now on you won't get a damn thing from me cause you don't deserve it, You ran the risk of having nothing more to do with me ever again after finishing me and now I've finally got the confidence and motivation to never ever speak to you again, I don't want you any more, I hope your proud of the changes you've made to yourself because I'm not, I see nothing good in you any more, Only evil and coldness, You may think you have reasons to justify all of this but fact is you don't, You need to grow up, Maybe you'll never get that wake up call because your a spoilt brat, I hope for our son's sake you do. I know you'll one day contact me and possibly try to make me feel bad for the fact that were not friends or even talking but that was your fault and your's alone for not ending this better and making sure friendship was an option, You threw me away and talked to me like I was somebody who wronged you, I was never that guy, I didn't deserve any of this, I'm a good guy who would of done anything for you and stood by you no matter what, Perhaps that's where I went wrong, I gave you all your own way time and time again and let you walk all over me, Treat me badly and pretty much put me at the bottom of your pile in life, I only ever wanted to be everything to you, I know my place now and I'm nothing to you, You should be ashamed for how you've handled this, I have no regrets because although I've been hurt by all of this, At least I held it in and helped you out after it all, Did everything I could to get our family back to how it should be but there's just no convincing you, Don't come back now because there's no way in hell I'll ever want you again, I hope you live to regret this mistake because that's exactly what it is. Link to post Share on other sites
lululucy Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 Today, you weren't the first thing I thought of -- and then I realised it and thought of you. But I did not cry! I still have not cried today. My heart still aches and my ribs feel like they're broken but I have not cried. I cannot wait until I get there, too! I hope it will be soon! Link to post Share on other sites
crimsonskies Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 Everytime I go on facebook I get scared incase you have a new status that seems like you're over me, and it will break my heart even more. I get jealous when other girls write on you're wall and all I can think is how much I miss you. I didn't realise until I lost you how happy and content I had really been and I know I sabotaged it with my depression and couldn't see what was staring me in the face. Now you're gone because you weren't happy and I messed up the one thing that meant more to me. I wish I could turn back time and make things right, I wished I had listened to you more and supported you instead of drowning in my own self pity. I wish there was a way I could make you come back, but I don't even know the answers to why you left, and I'm left hanging waiting for a sign of hope. But eventually you will find someone else, and I will be stuck in the same town as you watching you leave me behind in a memory. I really wished we could've talked it out, but we both lack the communications skills and were both too afraid of confrontation and didn't want to hurt each other i guess,and so we both suffered, I was afraid to open up to you and let you in incase you would leave me like past boyfriends. Instead i didnt and i still lost you. Link to post Share on other sites
errlack Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 Were all the things you said to me lies? How could you feel the way you claimed to and not even give me a chance to try and solve our issues? Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 i suck at NC Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 I need to stop focusing on missing you. I need more distractions. I do not want to miss you anymore. This is it. This is the only thing I need to get rid of to be 100% okay. Link to post Share on other sites
IfiKnewThen Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 bluebell ............what happened to our posts? did you have LS remove them??? wow i thought it would be good for others to see. sighs. wow took me time to write with a disability and all................... Link to post Share on other sites
IfiKnewThen Posted January 31, 2011 Share Posted January 31, 2011 wow you took that all wrong Link to post Share on other sites
IfiKnewThen Posted February 1, 2011 Share Posted February 1, 2011 simon....did you see the eariler post from blue bell. i hope you did. looks like its been removed and shes gone Link to post Share on other sites
cerridwen Posted February 1, 2011 Share Posted February 1, 2011 You are a liar. No doubt. And you're admittedly not trust-worthy. I've hated you for a few months now. I've railed against your dishonesty and general sh*ttiness. But let's be real. I screwed you over bad. You have every reason to hate me--and you do. You hate me Will. But you also care. That makes it even more torturous for you. You loved me (to the best of your ability) and I blew your trust out of the water. Yet, here I am blasting your behavior to the high heavens. Boo hoo...poor me. Boo hoo...you don't want to work on our problems. I justified lying because you were always so dishonest along the way. Just when I thought I could trust you, you lied. I was exacting revenge, brutally one-upping you with my lies. What a fairytale romance! I'm sorry I hurt my best friend. Link to post Share on other sites
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