Graceful Posted February 7, 2011 Share Posted February 7, 2011 I feel like I turned a corner today. I feel better. Look, dude, barring that something serious has happened, or that I said something that caused this, which is doubtful and even if that's the case, you could have just told me, but seriously, if you don't want to be my friend, then you don't have to. Cheesh. Man, if you want to pass up my friendship, that is your decision to make, but let me tell you something, my friendship is sterling, as I have a lot to offer and there are people who treasure me and my friendship. If you want to throw it away, I am not going to fret over it. Your loss, buddy. Link to post Share on other sites
oldSOULe Posted February 7, 2011 Share Posted February 7, 2011 i miss you so much it literally hurts every second of the day. Do you miss me at all? I dont know, i hope so. I feel completely empty inside knowing that im not going to kiss you or hold you ever again. I wish i was dead right now, that would be so much easier for me. I love you Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted February 7, 2011 Share Posted February 7, 2011 seriously, you will never be anything to me again. i will not forget how you are treating me right now, and I don't care if its 5-10yrs down the road I will remember. Link to post Share on other sites
timchambo Posted February 7, 2011 Share Posted February 7, 2011 The last couple days I have regretted telling you not to contact me ever again. In truth I said it to let me heal. Another part of me wants you to realize what you did. You were my best friend. You left me for another man wether you realize that today or not. I think it's unfair for you to say I was your teenage dream. Your in your mid 20s now. Far from a teenager. I think you are probably reaching for excuses because you know you hurt me and you never wanted to do that. This is similar to how I am handling the pain. When I start to think of all the good times I force myself to remember the last week of or relationship. The part where you betrayed me. Maybe one day we can be friends again, but it would take a very sincere apology and acknowledgement of your actions for me to be a friend again. As much as I hate you during parts of my day, it would bring me to tears to see you go through the type of pain I've been through. My heart still wants to be your man one day. But based on your words and actions my brain knows better. You say to move on so that's what I've done. Take care of yourself I know you'll need it. Love you always. "Tim" Link to post Share on other sites
Winterborn Posted February 7, 2011 Share Posted February 7, 2011 Dear XYZ, I'm soo sick of how you turn everything to your advantage, how you change the rules whenever you feel you're proven wrong... and it's exactly what you blamed me of when we argued once! you hated it... and now you want to end it because "I" do the things that you actually do.... are you blind or hypocrite?! well, i don't think you're a hypocrite because even today you do your best to be honest with me... Then, I just think you're lying to yourself. You're hiding from something... I think you have no clue of what to do with a woman when you find her... especially when she is a strong one... And hey, you admitted I was stronger than you. But now you hate it! Damn your stupid pride! I told you it would get you down one day and look, it's messing with your life and you can't even see it!.... Kill your pride... kill your ego.... Link to post Share on other sites
cerridwen Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 Lord have mercy!! I can't wait until you start dating. Good luck finding anyone like me!!! :D:D:D:p Link to post Share on other sites
starryeyed12 Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 Who am I fighting in my head anymore?? Who am I fighting? You or me? You are gone, but I am still angry, hurt, bruised. I'm fighting against my bruised ego. You bruised it, you've ****ed with my head. Just get the *** out of my head. I want you out of my thoughts so I can be happy again. Link to post Share on other sites
brneyedgrl Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 So this was not what I expected. Here I was thinking you were having the time of your life because you said you just "couldn't do us" anymore. But you are actually miserable. You sleep at work on a couch, you put all your things in storage and you dont' even go out anymore because business is slow and you don't have income. Unlike some on here you already realize what you've lost. You say you screwed everything up and you can't simply be happy without pain, You always ALWAYS have to find something to be unhappy about. I knew this was coming as I've seen it before. After spending so much of my life with you I knew what this looked like but a part of me though "not this time, please just stay happy with me, don't let your depression get the best of you, please not this time". Too good to be true. When you held me for the last time tonight I melted. You were the one. You were it for me and now you're gone. Once again you waited til the last minute to let me in on your feelings. I so badly wish I could say never again but "you and me" are just good. And a small part of me hopes that someday we can be together, but another says goodbye forever. Link to post Share on other sites
D78 Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 Dear JH, You gave me everything I didn't ask for, and did everything I had learned not to expect. I gave you all of me. When you fell out of love with me, I'll never know. I'll never understand why we had to end so badly. I don't understand why you didn't tell me (or even better, break up with me) when you fell out of love. You made us miserable instead. I don't understand how you lied to me when I asked you what was wrong. You looked me in my eyes, like an honest man would. I don't understand why you decided to quit trying. I agree, I deserve much better. I don't understand when you became so weak. I grew so much during our time together; you seem like you shrank. I don't understand why you projected all of your insecurities onto me when you said goodbye. Your accusations were so off I chuckled behind your back. It wasn't funny that you tried to blame me for the end, when you did so much to hide the fact that it was upon us. You extinguished the positive light that used to surround me and blur my vision when I thought of you. Now I see much more than I ever have. I now understand why you became a "historian." You focus on the minutiae of lives long gone so you don't have to find yourself today. I now understand why you chose the music you play. With enough practice, anyone can copy. Old artists proved it's possible, so you don't have to worry about failing. It's hard to create; to present to the world a physical manifestation of your soul. What if you're forced to see your own insignificance? You have to be brave and do it, or you will remain nothing more than a convenient repository for facts the world already has. I now understand that I'm better off without you. At one time, you fit me like a glove and I couldn't imagine life without you. Now I pity you for being so uncomfortable with your emotions and so comfortable with deception. Seeing you in this new absence of light makes it much easier to say goodbye. Maybe you left to examine your life, to become creative, to fix your flaws... I'll never know. I doubt all of the above, because you've never been one to admit you have nicks and bumps like all the rest of us. My heart is finally catching up. Now, I wake up not longing to be in your arms. Now, I don't wish you were here. Now, I'm not in love with you, and **** that feels good. As soon as I make peace with solitude and with me, I'll find someone who fits me better than you. That's right - better than a glove. Until then, I'm finding the joy in the little things, like the tulips and daffodils sprouting through the snow in my garden; and the big things, like new friends with open hearts and old friends found again. I half-heartedly wish you the very best. I hope someday you become as strong as you pretend to be and as honest as you say you are. I hope someday you justify your feelings of superiority by doing something unbelievable. I won't be there, so I can't say I care much. Thanks for the good times. Goodbye, DR Link to post Share on other sites
Blueberry7691 Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 I don't understand why I keep thinking about you or at least, why you keep popping into my head. I don't want you any longer.. you have NOTHING to offer me. Sometimes I feel I miss you but I'm not sure what it is, I'm missing. Today, I got mad to think you're such a jerk! I gave you sooo much. You're an idiot! And you will NEVER EVER, E-V-E-R have me again!! June 12th... It's gonna be a good day for me. All I want is to figure out a way to stop thinking about you because there's no point. Link to post Share on other sites
GreenPolicy Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 I still can't wrap my head around why you quit on me and our relationship. I know you did not wake up that morning and decide to break up with me, but I also know you didn't plan this for months. You made your decision in a matter of weeks. You will never find another man who treats you better than I did. If you're lucky, you'll find somebody who treats you as well, but you will never find somebody who treats you better. You will never find another man who loves you more than I did. If you're lucky, you'll find somebody who loves you as much, but you will never find somebody who loves you more. You will never find another man who brings more joy to your life than I did. If you're lucky, you'll find somebody who brings you as much joy, but you will never find somebody who brings you more. You might be with a man who drives a nicer car, makes more money than I do, or has a fuller head of hair, but you will NEVER experience something better than what you had with me. You might experience something as good if you're lucky, but the love that we shared and would have continued to share, you will not surpass. You gave up on so, so much, and if you're lucky, one day you'll make a lateral trade. Doesn't seem worth the risk to me. Link to post Share on other sites
0hpenelope Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 I entertained the thought of breaking NC for you. I'm so happy that I didn't go through with it because I thought about my intentions and why I'm thinking of doing that. BLECH! Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 I geuss there's nothing left to say except "your an idiot >.>" Link to post Share on other sites
Free spirit86 Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 It has been a week since you broke up with me. We talked on Saturday-I guess for purposes of closure, then you texted me Monday, and I didn't respond. I am having a bit of a hard time with this no contact situation because I really enjoy talking to you. I am so much stronger than a few days ago that is for certain. Today, I really want to talk to you, and share a laugh, is that crazy? I am still having trouble sleeping past 6am!!! I wake up with frustrated thoughts about this ending. I suppose I am still between bargaining and accepting. It's weird not talking to you, you know? Anways, I hope you are having a good evening...bisous Link to post Share on other sites
chloe56 Posted February 8, 2011 Share Posted February 8, 2011 I can not believe, that after all this time you send a text asking about your mail only!! Seriously, you flipping tw#t, after everything, that's all you can think of? Not even a hi, hope you are fine... Just have a nice life, I shall enjoy burning every last piece of mail. Can't believe I am getting worked up over you again. Link to post Share on other sites
cerridwen Posted February 9, 2011 Share Posted February 9, 2011 You haven't texted in awhile. That's ok because I'm doing well. No more thinking about you at length. My guilt remains but is thankfully compartmentalized, active but compartmentalized. If you text or call, Will, I'll answer. Want to reconcile? No way. Your issues have issues. I'm not down for the drama. But... I care about your well-being. So, I will answer but won't stop moving on. Take care, pal. Sorry and you're welcome. Link to post Share on other sites
chloe56 Posted February 10, 2011 Share Posted February 10, 2011 Hi, don't know why but I feel so down lately. Wish you would call, show you are interested in how I am doing. I just need your strength. Work is horrible, I just can't deal with the bitchiness there any more, it feels like I need to walk on egg shells everywhere. Mich is fine, misses you alot. Link to post Share on other sites
timchambo Posted February 10, 2011 Share Posted February 10, 2011 So I am just your teenage sweetheart? How is that ****n possible? Your 24 now! you haven't been a teenager in 4 f'n years. You are more than capable of knowing what you did. You can try to explain it away, but everyone knows what you did. I hope that trade up works well for you. You have free'd me to focus on myself now. If it wasn't for me you would be waiting tables somewhere or worse. You are an ungrateful bitch. I have a feeling you will only realize this when there is nobody left to take care of your parents and they have no where to live because they are so far in debt supporting your ass. You are worthless, your love is worthless, your word is worthless. Do you remember just 2 weeks before you left me you felt like a "joke"? You didn't think you had what it took to do your job. Who was there for you to pick you up? Who was there for you every time you got fired from a job to show you love and let you know you were not a piece of ****? Was all that "love" you showed me just an act? You say you don't regret any of the last 7 years? **** I wouldn't either if I got a free ride from a good partner. I wish I didn't have any regrets... but I do. The last 7 years turned out to be a giant regret. 7 years I will never get back. Lets hope for your sake this new adventure doesn't turn out like the last one about 6 months ago. Oh ya, who was it that rescued you that time? Thanks for nothing. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted February 10, 2011 Share Posted February 10, 2011 Not thought about you all day, Life's good that way and now that I am thinking about you, I really don't care any more, I deserve better than this, Always have always will, You did this to us and messed us around, Would never ever stand for that again, Hope you find happiness again one day though and maybe just maybe you'll find somebody as good as me but I doubt it, Not with the way you are now, You need to grow up and fast, Not for my sake or yours but for our son's sake. Link to post Share on other sites
SDA Posted February 12, 2011 Share Posted February 12, 2011 Tempted to call you. Missing you. I won't call/text. Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted February 12, 2011 Share Posted February 12, 2011 Hey Tonya, Well, Valentine's Day is coming up. I'm certain by now you've probably moved on to a local guy somewhere in Chesapeake. I hope it works out for you. In the event it does (and because I'd love to sabotage anything you may have) I felt the need to send you a bouquet of flowers for Valentines Day. Don't worry, it will be delivered to your work - my name isn't anywhere on it so you can trash them quickly if compelled to do so. In the event you don't have anyone, at least there is someone that loves you. On that note, I am absolutely crazy about this girl I met in SF. She's gorgeous! She has everything you don't have - she has her PhD, oh, did I mention she was gorgeous? So, I guess I have this love/hate thing going on with you. Would I reconcile with you? Perhaps - if things changed, where I felt as if you actually considered me once and a while. Love you, Jordan Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted February 12, 2011 Share Posted February 12, 2011 Thinking about you this morning, I gotta hand it to you, You were right, I'm feeling much better, Probably cause your not in my life any more and not in contact with me, I thought I was special to you, I honestly thought you'd never ever let me go, I was a fool back then to think anybody is that great of a person, I was a weak pathetic man who let you trample all over him, Well not any more darling, I'm a million times the person you'll ever be, I've regained something I lost a long long time a go, My confidence is here to stay. You missed out on somebody you'll never be able to replace, I hope you know now that you'll never ever get me back Link to post Share on other sites
alimpo83 Posted February 12, 2011 Share Posted February 12, 2011 I miss you Kelly, I miss you. I hope you come back, but I know that won't happen. I'm still shocked by the fact you didn't want to give us a second chance, that you destroyed our life together and our plans. I dream about you almost everyday, you are still destroying my life after these months. I'm reaching new low points everyday, I'm struggling to give my life and projects a sense. You don't love someone to the point that you'll want to get married, move in and have kids and then disappear. You just don't. Grow up, K, there is no GIGS. Only on your mind. I still love you, I still do. But you don't deserve it! I wanted to talk to you! I miss you, but I am not proud of it. Link to post Share on other sites
kaygato Posted February 12, 2011 Share Posted February 12, 2011 M, God I hate you so much right now. I've been mad at you since waking up this morning and it has pretty much given me the strength to move on and start no contact. I mean, I still love you and would take you back but you'd have to work for it. And if you get mad at me for ignoring you I'll just laugh at my phone....serves you right for just ditching me the way you did after you said you wanted to work things out. I know I'm worth more than this. Yes, I made some mistakes and I'll admit I still haven't given you the full explanation/apology that you deserved...but you're not interested in talking about it and working things out so what's the point? I said I was sorry and it's not like people don't sometimes go through hard times. Well, I'm feeling better than I was then and I'm working to become even happier/stronger than I was before we met. If you still don't want me back then some lucky guy will get to have me. I know I'm worth it and I'm not going to let your approval get to me. I'm moving on and I hope to get to the point where I don't even feel angry at you...just pure indifference. Link to post Share on other sites
angelboots Posted February 12, 2011 Share Posted February 12, 2011 thinking of you less which is good, but considering I was foolish enough to make you my world for over a year thinking about you less still means I think about you a lot, thankfully its not gut wrenching the way it used to be, but sometimes like tonight god i miss your company. I just need a hug and a laugh. I still friggen love you and I am actually sorry you and your ex didnt work out. I am sorry because I was comforting myself with the thought maybe you guys were really meant to be together, and that tossing me served a higher purpose then just being a dumb move by a dumb guy. I know you keep contact with me through guilt and because as always I fill your "gaps" left by her... and because deep down you aren't ready to let me move on completely either because then you would be "TRULY ALONE" funny how what i thought was love all that time was just being a "second best choice" to you even though you said different at the time and still claim you meant every word.. up until she decided she "might" want you back, which she didn't in the end after all. What I hate is that, for you, I let my walls down and truly trusted someone for the first time with my heart, only to have it used abused and discarded. That was a low act considering how much you knew I adored you. I know I am meant to hate you but I just cant. I want to see you happy. Still more then I want to see me happy and that blows too.... Anyways blah blah pfffft i miss you ******* Link to post Share on other sites
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