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[SimonSerenade]

quote : SimonSerenade "I felt we deserved a much better ending than you one you gave us"

 

i feel the exact same way. i though you would give us a much better end, with all the love you professed and how we would always be friends and how you were always so prayerful. but in the end you were cold as ice. cold, unkind, uncaring.

 

 

It was hardly a lot to ask were it?, just feels like all those special moments, those gooey feelings, everything we had and meant to eachother, it's all tainted now and if I had to look her in the eye again, I'd only see a petty little stranger and that saddens me because she used to be so much of a person than who ever she is now.

 

She dropped my son off with my mum and step dad today and I accidently saw her as I was walking by to go the shop, she just looked at me with a cold emotionless stare, just reminded me how much I took from the relationship, I was devastated and clearly she wasn't, she didn't give a rats ass what she was doing to me and whenever I made a real effort to get something out of her, I'd get cold hearted one word replies.

 

All I wanted was a real explanation and a heartfelt goodbye if she had to leave at all, not so much to ask really considering all the time we had together and I'm hoping one day she'll come back and apologise for not ending things on a better note, she may look different now and in some ways a tad better than what she was but on the inside she's just the same old self centered bitch who broke my heart where as me on the other hand have bettered myself and learned from the experience.

[Leviia]

It's been so long since I last heard from you and do I miss you?, maybe a little but I'm getting on with my life quite well, every so often you'll pop in my head but it's nothing major, It's just remembering everything we went through and everything you were to me, That saddens me a lot sometimes, I felt we deserved a much better ending than you one you gave us, I thought you were different to everyone else but I geuss after all this time, I was dead wrong all along, your just a heartless spiteful selfish manipulative spoilt little bratt, I don't hate you by the way, At the moment I just dislike you with great intensity, one day I'll be over you completely and I can feel that day edging ever closer and closer, you hurt me more than anyone else ever could and what hurt most is how you promised you could never do that to me, hope your proud of yourself.

 

 

I could have posted most of this myself. I'm not anywhere near close to being over him but .... yeah this just about sums it up for me.

[Shatter3d]

I love you, so so much. I know you told me there is nothing left to talk about, but for me there is. I guess I will never get the chance to tell you. You are being so cold, yet not long ago you were the most warmest, gentlest person I knew. What happened to you? Who is the real you? Did I ever really know you?

 

If you have any ounce of regret, please let me know. If you want to try again, please let me know. Dont be stubborn about this. You've shattered my heart twice into a million little pieces, but I love you that much that I'd be willing to try again. I'm not saying I'll make it easy for you to come back, no no no. I wont be a doormat. You'll need to work for me and show me that you really are invested in this relationship and you wont just run away when things get tough again, because i guarantee you, there will be tough times ahead. But I'm willing to take that journey with you. I just hope and pray that you do too. That you will reach out to me one day soon and give me a sign.

 

If not, then I pray to God to take this pain away from me, because it is unbearable. My life is empty and meaningless without you.

 

I normally dont beg, but please text/call/visit/,something. Show me you love me and want to be with me as much as I do you. Please xx

 

I love you.

[dadlost]

Hi ex, just calling to say thanx for nothing. It was really nice to find out you are already seeing another guy after a month of our break. I guess all our promises of growing old together and watching our children become adults were all lies.

 

It was also SOOOOOOOOOOO heart warming to find out from our three year old daughter his name and her showing me how mommy kisses the new guy.

 

Thanks for breaking the art my first little girl made me, shows me that you arent bitter at all and you respect my things.

 

Thats all that i have to say, thanks for letting me have my life back. Thanks for showing me your TRUE character.

 

Take care of yourself, i wish you all the happiness in the world ;p

 

P.S. Lick my n*ts!

[huskers11]

I made the mistake of contacting my ex last friday. I was doing so good before that. Since then I have been a nervous wreck, stressing about where he is, what he's doing! I was probably checking his facebook every hour. Way to detox from him, I have deleted my facebook temporarily. I will get it back in a few days once I get all of the craziness out of my head. I did alot of journaling and talking to friends yesterday and I think I finally have my thoughts and emotions back in check but I still need to get my head back on straight! The conversation wasn't that bad at all. I could just tell he didn't really want to talk to me and he was only being polite by answering my questions. It felt like he had stopped caring about me and didn't miss me but then I realized that if that was the case he would have either a) not answered me all together or b) acted as if nothing was different! With time the awkwardness will pass, but I need to focus on me and my school right! My detoxing from him and facebook will get my head back into check and hopefully help my heart heal a little more! I have learned my lesson tho! NC!!!!

[timchambo]

words can't describe how big a piece of **** you are. Leaving for another man and going on like you did nothing wrong and I mistreated you all that time. Wow... after all I did for you. Neither of us know any relationship where one partner gave as much as I did. It borders on criminal. You worthless piece of ****. I am sure your parents are proud of you. Your friends think your a joke... trust me they've told me. Why do I still care about this? I thought about writing this, then thought why do I even care anymore? Went through with it just to get it off my chest. Will this be the last time?

[radrluv72]

I miss you so much, baby.

 

I don't think about you as much as before...but like a ghost, you're still there. Whether it's in a song or someone who catches my eye because just for a second, I thought it was you...I know that I still love you.

 

The thought crossed my mind tonight...what if I broke this silence and reached out to you. What, if by some miracle, you reached back, and we both told eachother how sorry we both were? Could we finally have the chance we deserve, and do things the right way? Would my doorstep be the first place you'd want to be when you come back home?

 

Once upon a time, when we found eachother, we gave eachother peace. Why you took it away...I still don't know. But still, 11 weeks later, I'm not the same. I still feel wrong. I still feel broken. There is a piece of myself that I may never get back...and that is because that piece now belongs to you. You have it with you, thousands of miles away on the other side of the world...holding it captive behind the wall you put in front of me. You sit behind your wall, the silent, stoic soldier. I can only pray for a crack in the brick & mortar.

 

I am lost without you, my sweet, sweet soldier. I can only pray that my love for you will show you the way back to me...I have to believe that someday, it will.

 

I love you, Flyboy. Please come back.

[Shatter3d]

Hey You

 

I've been so close to actually texting you tonight, but each time I've refrained. I keep remembering your text over and over again "there is nothing left to talk about"

 

I had to speak to you at work today. It was so weird. We were like strangers. I mean not long ago we were sharing the same bed and making love together, now we are so distant, it's incomprehensible to be honest.

 

How did we get like this. I will ask you this one question. WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT YOU DONT LIKE? WHAT IS STOPPING YOU FROM WANTING AND BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME?

 

Please tell me, I need to know. I am a good person, sure I have my flaws but dont we all? You are shy, quiet and very inexperienced, and then I come along who is quite popular, has experience and you are totally obsessed with me. Is it because Im too much to handle? What is it ? Is it because I always close up and go quiet when I get upset? But really, is that a deal breaker? Is it worth risking me forever?

 

I know you still love me Matthew, I know it, my heart and soul feels it. Then just stop it and come back to me. Life is too short, we might all die tomorrow and here we are, being stubborn with each other and not just letting everything go and loving each other.

 

Please honey, I love you so much. I can't reach out to you as much as I already have. I've even joined a dating site ffs to try and get my mind off you. Our love was way too strong for our paths to never meet again, I just need the strength now to be able to be on my own and grow and cherish the time I am on my own without you, till we meet again x

[SimonSerenade]

Well life's going quite good at the moment without you believe it or not, Starting to think of less and less as the days and weeks go by, time is finally getting back to normal and passing me by, I'm starting to see every little bad thing you said and did to me, you didn't have one ounce of respect for me all along and I couldn't trust you cause time and time you always went behind my back and called me all the names under the sun, what bothers me the most about how you broke up with me is how you did it with lies and deceit, you set the whole thing up all along, I deserved so much better than to be walked out on with our child and dumped several times for nothing, you really do need your head checking cause all I ever did was love you unconditionally regardless, you'll regret this one day but I'm glad your gone cause I'm regreting every wasting my time on a low life dead beat like yourself, get over yourself and get a real life cause at this rate our son's respect will deceise as he grows older just like mine did, your pathetic and you always will be, stay out of my life for good cause in honesty even though your the mother of my child, you don't deserve to be in it, you've earnt nothing but failure in my eyes.

[proactivedreamer]

I am still having trouble sleeping. I woke at 4 am with raging thoughts of our last hurtful exchange of words. There is still much confusion from my end. I reread our chats and things still don't add up. I just want this nightmare behind me. It is incredibly unsettling that just a little over 4 weeks ago we were saying how much we loved and couldn't wait to see each other. It is exactly a month today that you dumped this massive wave of pain onto me. I am greeted with such hostility and lack of consideration but I am suppose to respond with grace? It is so sad what we have become. I have no idea if there is something else behind this but does it matter? The other day you said you broke up with me because I was childish, irresponsible, and a dreamer...ouch that hurt like hell. The pain boiled over after that statement was delivered. You lit a fire under me...oh you hurt me so bad with these judgments. I linger in the pain and I think if I am honest with myself, its going to take me a while to recover from this. You said so many things that just don't make sense to me-I can't make sense of all that was said, how do I? Just seemed like a fusion of excuses and bad assessments of the situation. There is no sense in reasoning with you because I can't. So much gets lost. So much is miscommunicated and we both leave exhausted from trying to explain. I just don't understand how we arrived here. I just don't understand any of it, and I am left broken and wounded. When will I rise? Not sure but my wings are broken. I try to not think of the future with you, but I still ponder what it would have been like if you would have been patient with my process of discovery, in terms, of what direction to go with my career. So much of this is wrapped up in money and security, which I understand, but I don't think I proved that I was absolutely unreliable financially. Don't you remember my efforts? Don't you see my strengths? Our arguments have much to do with your judgments of me. I said that you weren't the man I met in 2009. I said it because you knew of my confusion and my weaknesses with career choices and financial position. I hid nothing from you. You seemed to relate that confusion, which is partly why you left to travel. I thought you understood my position. I thought you empathized with my inability to make a choice.I love you. I want you. But I want some support. I want someone to edify me and help me gain perspective in terms of which way to push forward. Yes I am young and open. But I am also serious. I want to settle down but still have adventure. I want to have a little one with you. I liked so many things about you, and I know you'd be a great father, and I wanted you to be the one to share that special gift with. I miss you...and I am sorry that I couldn't be it all right now. I hope to do some growing up in the coming months. I will be 25 this year. I wonder where I will be in my mind then. I wonder if time permits and our lives align will you see me differently and love me the way you once did. I can't hang on to hope but in this moment I still wonder...

[SimonSerenade]

I could have posted most of this myself. I'm not anywhere near close to being over him but .... yeah this just about sums it up for me.

 

 

I felt like that at one point, couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, every waking second had a supressed thought about her in it, life was at a complete stand still, as time went by and no contact was in place, I eventually got in to a good mind set and stopped thinking about her as the person she used to be because she's far from that now, it's been around 7 months for me without her, how long's it been for you?

[huskers11]

I wake up and go to bed missing you! I wish things were different. I was falling in love with you and it hurts so bad that you didn't feel the same way! You say I'm not the one and we don't have a future, did you ever really give us a chance? The pregnancy scare put alot of stress on us, I just wish you would have given us time outside of that to see if there were more feelings. We have never even fought before the breakup! We seriously had a great relationship! How can you just throw us all away! I can see a future for us, why can't you? How can you fall in love with your ex girlfriend, who was a bitch and hurt you more than anyone but you can't/won't with me?! I want you back so bad but I cannot beg. It will only make me look weak and desperate but I promise you will realize soon how big of a mistake you made! I cannot believe you just say it wasn't working for you and you were having doubts when you put on this huge act and made me think that not only were we great but you were falling in love with me too! It kills me that we will never be together again! We used to talk everyday, all day! Now you won't even speak to me let alone look at me. You broke up with me, you broke my heart and you won't even give me a hi whenever I see you! You make me feel like I was nothing to you! You knew how hard it is for me to let people in and trust them and you basically strung me along only to break my heart! Not only did I lose my boyfriend who I adored, I lost my good friend who I could tell everything to! I just want a do over! I want us to be friends again and I hope that leads to us having a second chance but even if we don't get back together I want my friend back. I want the guy who used to treat me like a person and talk to me! I miss you so much and you don't seem to miss me at all! You don't even seem like you care about me! I want us to get back together, I know it would be different! I would never told this against you, I just want you back in my life!!!

[marqueemoon4]

you're possibly the meanest, most heartless person I've ever met and you're with an OM but for some reason I still miss you!! wth is wrong with me???? i have a crossed wire or something.

[radiodarcy]

you are such a f****ing a**hole!!!!! i would ask you why you're treating me like this but well - - i just answered that question didnt i?? i should be asking myself why i let you treat me like this.

 

you're probably chasing after some chickie you're hung up on. i hope she enjoys is while it lasts. i actually feel bad for her because you and i both know two months from now you'll be doing the same thing to her.

 

jerk.

Edited March 2, 2011 by radiodarcy

[proactivedreamer]

It hurts. This hurts. I am on the verge of tears. I am a mess. Pining. I don't even know what to say. I am glad I am not feeling reckless. I don't want to be angry about this anymore. I don't want to think about this anymore but I can't. I have been awake since 5 this morning. I wish that you would leave my thoughts. I wish I could just have a full day with no thoughts about this. I wish I could have some peace of mind. But I don't because I feel so misunderstood. I don't want to turn 25 and I didn't push forward. I am so mad at myself for losing you. I don't want to lose anymore time. I am so sad that you are everything I could hope for and now its over, and its my fault. My fault for being indecisive about my career, and not acting. I just wish you would have waited for me. I am missing you so much. I just want to be happy again. I want to be over you. Slowly but surely...Still in love in the meantime.

[worldgonewrong]

You've torn my life asunder.

I'm at times lost and disoriented at where I've arrived.

We could have talked things over.

We could always heal.

But your stupid pride and arrogance overrules everything.

My love for you is becoming like a museum piece now - detached, something to put on the shelf and be observed from a distance.

I'm living a f*cking nightmare, thanks to you.

If I'd known then what I know now, good God, I wonder if I would have let you pass by. Probably not. I'd still be a fool for you.

If only you could SEE the purity in my heart for you, you would wake up from this awful course.

[proactivedreamer]

I sit down again to write these thoughts. To examine these feelings. To ask these questions. I can still love you even though we are apart. I can still have warm thoughts and feelings toward you,even though, I am feeling abandoned. I think if I change my attitude and see it as simply that then I can move on steadily and not feel too much pain. I still can love you even though you will be absent from my life. I am going to take time to work on me now, even though, I still wanted to explore this relationship with you. I understand that you felt it best to go our separate ways, therefore, I must accept and proceed toward living the best life possible. I feel fear because I have so many memories and aspirations tied into this love I had with you. I hope to see you again. I hope to laugh with you one day...hope you are having a good day.

[BlindRage]

Well you officially ended all contact with me about a week ago -you change your numbers-. I'm sorry that it ended in that way. I wish we could had stayed friends. Take care.

[SimonSerenade]

Was thinking about you a little more than usual today but then I said to myself "**** you, can't be assed, drop dead" =] please do that.

[IfiKnewThen]

quite blindrage...Well you officially ended all contact with me about a week ago -you change your numbers-. I'm sorry that it ended in that way. I wish we could had stayed friends. Take care.

 

 

sorry to hear that blindrage. i remember your story. its her loss. hang in there.

[BlindRage]

quite blindrage...Well you officially ended all contact with me about a week ago -you change your numbers-. I'm sorry that it ended in that way. I wish we could had stayed friends. Take care.

 

 

sorry to hear that blindrage. i remember your story. its her loss. hang in there.

Thank you.. I'm trying

[proactivedreamer]

I think that your assessments of the situation before us is completely unfair and confused with unrealistic expectations. All of the things that were said just send in me into a frenzy, an utter frenzy, so I am forced to come here and sort these feelings out. I wonder how you will feel about laying on the beach in Thailand knowing that you screwed me over with this BULL****. You didn't have any patience and you didn't give a **** about making this work, as much as you protest that you did, you didn't. I would have done anything for you. I was going to do a great deal because I was serious about you. I read our chats and so many things just piss me off. I don't want to try to understand anymore...I just want you to leave my mind now. I don't want to preoccupy my day with thoughts of you anymore. You left me for the third time because of your stupid expectations and YOUR unwillingness to make it work with me and see me through. YOU had no ****ing faith in me. Yes, I have my faults but they were not so severe to break us up. A part of me wishes that I never fell in love with you. A part of me wants to erase all of those memories we shared. You couldn't push past the doubts because you had an idea in your head that I couldn't measure up to. Good luck in your life...I don't know if I ever want to talk to you again. I don't know if I really want you in my life after you could think so little of me...goodbye.

[azulcosa]

It's been a week since I've ended all contact. It's still hard to get you out of my mind. You probably don't even think about me anymore and having fun.

 

I want to call you, but I know it will probably make things worst. I hate the fact that you're friends with my friends. I hate the fact that you refuse to give me space and insist on hanging out with people close to me even though you know I can't be around you anymore. Every time I'm near you or see you, I still have feelings for you. This is why I need to be away from you. I've started to delete photos and am forcing myself to be distracted.

 

I have always treated you well. Never once was I mad at you or hurt you. Yet, you stomped all over my heart. What did I do to deserve to be treated like this?

 

Even though you've hurt me. I still love you.

[proactivedreamer]

In this moment, I am feel pain. I still can't sleep through the night. Between the hours of 4 and 5 am, I wake feeling anxious, sad, mad, emotionally exhausted. I am just so disappointed with this ending. I just wasn't good enough-I can't say that to myself though because I know that I am. I know that my own process for discovering what makes me keep on living is a bit different than yours. I miss you. I want to hear from you, but I know that we shouldn't talk anymore. You are slowly becoming a stranger-pffff. I don't know why we even got involved with each other anymore. I thought we going to go the distance but we didn't and I am so pissed at you for this. I don't want to know you anymore. You just left me. You just said goodbye and it seemed so easy. You say we weren't on the same page, well **** you. What page? What should have we agreed on that we didn't? I still feel so confused. The reasons are many, confusing, and contradicting. I just want you to leave my mind and heart already...I don't want to love you anymore.

[SimonSerenade]

My life's really good at the moment without you, I still find it hard to believe that you treated me like crap and left, I wish I'd never asked for you back when you left, I wish I'd just let you go and moved on completely, you have nothing over me anymore and from now I won't hold back on doing or being anything I want to, I loved you once and now I finally let you go your never going to find anybody else who will do what I did for you and feel what I felt, I truly was the best you'll ever and have ever had, goodluck finding that again.