spackle Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 feeling angsty and want to pick up the phone but I want. you know I still have some feelings for you & I feel you're using me for a ego massage while you're with her and & making me worse. I'd never want to pull a guy away from his kids but this is crazy. If you don't care let me go as I did you before reeling me back in to this drama. It's hurting me and as much of a pig you have been I know you don't want that. Today is going to be a pain in the arse. Link to post Share on other sites
angelboots Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 so thanks to this morning you dominated my thoughts all day... I want to say I miss u too, that i hate you though. You didnt even apologise for what you had done. You just said you cared and wish we didnt try again because you miss chatting to me.... that hurts.. I miss everything except the abuse.. you miss chatting? fark u Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 =] I'm off to a gig tonight with my best, I suppose I should thank you cause if you didn't fire me off I'd of never known him so nice one cheers , as for you, I hope you know just how pathetic you really are, you threw away a perfectly good relationship and every special thing we had and meant to eachother, I hope whatever you find next winds up being far from what's the best for you, only thing I think of now is how we live our lives apart but hey life's pretty good right now for me =] I don't think I've seen the back of you, far from it but you've seen the back of me now, no going back from now on Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 Well I wasn't expecting that random phone call telling me you'd quit your job and are planning to spend more time with Lucas, I didn't really want to know to be honest, could of just plain kept it to yourself, you don't deserve to hear my voice to be honest, you deserve nothing. I think I've done well though cause I'm not analyzing what the phone call meant or feeling sad or bad or anything like that, I just feel normal and don't care what it meant, maybe that's you checking in or maybe it's you second geussing, I don't know but if you was second geussing, geuss again cause your never getting me back, I am second to nobody and I always said I'd never have you after someone else has but after the way you treated me and what you carelessly put me through you'd never have me in your life again after that. I hope this time alone sitting on your arse on benefits makes you think and makes you sad at what you really lost back then, these days your nothing but a stranger to me, just somebody who came in my life, turned it upside down, disrespected me and left, watch me do better than you, you bum! Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 I still have anxiety about the legal aspects of the divorce, but I feel great that I DON'T GIVE A F*CK ABOUT YOU ANYMORE. Like seriously. No more! Link to post Share on other sites
SweetyBear Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 Today I want to talk to you and I tell myself it's for closure. Honestly? I wish you would call me and tell me how wrong I am, how you want me to be a part of your life. I wish you would make some grand gesture that would make me know you at least loved me. I know I can't contact you and expect any of that to happen and so I won't contact you. It hurts so much and really messes with my head. I always thought we would eventually come together and work everything out. The total loss of that hope devastates me. I still love you but I know that you will never love me more than whatever it is your job gives you. How can you go over two months without seeing the person you love when you're only 45 minutes away? My answer is you can't. When did you stop loving me? Link to post Share on other sites
poopierabbit Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 Yes, screw you. You don't deserve to have any part of my heart. You are a manipulative, money hungry skank. Take your Kojak looking, bald headed, cancer looking, old man boyfriend with you, you piece of ****. I should have left your ass a long time ago! Link to post Share on other sites
betterdeal Posted March 8, 2011 Share Posted March 8, 2011 There's a letter here for you. I think it's your tax rebate. Link to post Share on other sites
dreamingoftigers Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 I am missing you so bad, you aren't my ex yet, but I fear that you will be. I know you haven't been happy in a long time but you also won't take responsibility for what you have done. Or maybe you will but I haven't stood out of your way long enough for you to do it. Maybe I should now, and I hope it isn't too late. I miss when you used to smile so much. I miss when we used to press our faces together and how you used to love my body and the things we used to do together. I miss travelling with you, and I miss cuddling up to you skin to skin on a cold day. It pains me that we didn't do more family hugs with our daughter. I can't believe that everything is so broken. We used to be full of thousands of days full of promise. Link to post Share on other sites
dreamingoftigers Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 I know that you are close by. I am not going to email you. I am not going to talk until you are ready. I will not find you, you know where to find me. I miss you lots and lots. I want you to be happy. I can't wait around for you to show up or come home all of the time. You will arrive when you arrive and I need to find something else to do. I miss you. For a long long time 'us' was the very best thing that ever happened to me. I absolutely adored you and I never thought I deserved someone so special. Link to post Share on other sites
dreamingoftigers Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 This is brutality. I will go through this because by letting you go we have the best chance of one day being a family. Link to post Share on other sites
timchambo Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 I cried watching a movie for the first time since I was a child today. It wasn't some sappy movie like the notebook. This one was about a man risking his life and sacrificing his family and all he knows for his wife. It reminded me how deeply I loved you. What was important in life. Made me realize how much yu have changed. How different we really are. You were right. I will find that love again one day. This time I will chose mor carefully. I have learned so much in the last month or two. At this moment I'm no longer mad. I will never forget, but I have experienced moments of genuine happiness since the split. Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 so i finally got up the nerve to say enough is enough and cut you loose. this time i sincerely hope it's for good. seriously, did you expect me stick around and watch you embark on your quest to find a gf -- when i spent well over two years of my life begging you to give me a chance to be that girl? my friends tell me there are plenty of men out there who would be willing to be a good bf to me but seeing you go out there and will to be that man to someone else - - just tears me apart - - more than you will ever know. i don't know how someone can be so cruel and unfeeling. i really don't. but bitterness isn't going to get me through this. i just need to keep moving forward and never look back -- ever. because you don't deserve me as a friend, much less a gf anyway. Link to post Share on other sites
SweetyBear Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 I figured out why I want to talk to you so bad. I want you to give me the solution. I want you to tell me how we can make it work even though I can't see a way at all. I won't call you because it's just selfish of me to open a wound or twist a knife. I remembered that song "Give me one reason to stay here" last night and realized that's what all my talks were about. If you had given me one good reason for believing things would change and there was a reason to stay, I would have. I love you but I don't think you have the answer any more than I do. I wish I was smarter or more creative and could've come up with something. Link to post Share on other sites
worldgonewrong Posted March 9, 2011 Share Posted March 9, 2011 Hey, I gave you the separation you wanted. Now please stop trying to trip me up while I heal, OK? Link to post Share on other sites
Flowerzzz Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 You really are a selfish jackass. Don't contact me ever ever ever again! If you see me in public, DON'T LOOK AT ME. DO NOT SMILE AT ME. Keep up the good work with your new girl. You are the flavor of the month, you know that right?! P.S. You got a new issue of Oxford American in the mail today. I threw it in the trash. Link to post Share on other sites
eleanorhurting Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 Hey... I just wanted to let you know that I miss you and I hope you are happy... All my mistakes I am paying for them because as much as I try to pretend I'm over you... when I see you I remember why I fell for you in the first place... and I regret how we let things fall apart the way they did. Link to post Share on other sites
TryTryAgain Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 Dang I miss you. It just irritates me because I can't wrap my head around how could I miss someone so much who has continually let me down. What is it about you? Perhaps I'll never know. It's just a feeling I guess. Please know that if you can ever get your head on straight, I would love to see what we're capable of together. You've got to want to make this work though. Please stop running away. If you think I'm such a wonderful man, then why do you treat me like garbage? It just doesn't make sense. Link to post Share on other sites
Cassandra92 Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 Why did this have to happen??!! I still wanted to be with you, I thought I made that so clear. I would have done anything. I don't even know who I am without you, and now all I am left with is this constant movie of our time together playing in my head. When I come back, and we have both sorted out our lives, I want to be with you. I love you! Link to post Share on other sites
azulcosa Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 Today has been the hardest day to get through. I put on a fake smile and made sure no one knew how I was really feeling. I remember crying in while having a shower today. I feel so weak and I should be able to cope with this. But I can't stop thinking about you. I can't even fall asleep right now. I want to ask you how you're feeling. I want to know what's going on in your life. I don't know if I'll ever recover from this. I hope I do and I think I will. But I'm feeling like I'm in an endless hole right now. Spinning out of control. Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 (edited) i don't know how long its going to take get over you being out of my life forever, betraying me for another man, lying about the whole thing, turning your back on me when I was at the lowest point in my existence, and all the other manipulative things you've done to get out of our marriage. i really don't think I'll ever to forgive you, even to myself. i doubt you care whether i ever forgive you anyway. Edited March 10, 2011 by marqueemoon4 Link to post Share on other sites
traces Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 I went to our favorite bar last night. You weren't there, of course, but I think I actually wanted to see you, to make you face what you did. I kind of wanted to show you that I'm still alive and doing well. Secretly, I hope the owner tells you that they saw me, and that I looked great... (but most of all, I wish I wasn't such a child when it comes to my feelings.) Link to post Share on other sites
starting2wakeup Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 For Fu*ks Sake Change Your Damn Mailing Address Already! I'm tired of my mail box filling up with your crap catalogues and bills. If I get one more Victoria Secret catalogue in MY mail I am going to scream. I do not need to be reminded of the little panties you use to wear. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 I hate being ill, always tend to think of you most when I'm ill, just can't wait until my illness goes so I can get back on the road to progress, I wish you hadn't rang me, your voice won't get out of my head, how you've managed to completely free yourself of these feelings is beyond me, geuss the last bridge to cross isn't the fact that I don't have you anymore, it's the fact that somebody else will have you now and there's nothing I can do about it, I was your first and only for everything and we had our first child together, it's almost a tragedy how only one of those things will remain true now, they won't compare though, no matter who you find. A couple of months back I would of been hung over the phone call and probably debating on contacting you but not anymore, no matter what I do or say nothing will change and if you should want me back one day, tough nuggets, things wouldn't be the same again and that's your fault, I'm letting go and moving on to better things and after all you said and did and that lack of respect you had for me, you can forget ever being in my life again, I thought of all people you'd be the very last woman on earth to treat me like crap and bail out, geuss I was wrong and that's horrible. Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 I hope you and your new bf are compatible.. ie he's cold, selfish, a freeloader, and has no interest in sex. Link to post Share on other sites
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