BlindRage Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 (edited) I hope you and your new bf are compatible.. ie he's cold, selfish, a freeloader, and has no interest in sex. Quoted for truth -regarding my ex too-. Cold, cheating, selfish and an ungrateful freeloading skank. Edited March 10, 2011 by BlindRage Link to post Share on other sites
layla1983 Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 You are an amazing man. I wish that I wasn't too blind to see it. I know you broke up with me but I understand that you didn't have a choice. I am so sorry for being so cruel and movin gn so fast and rubbing it in your face. Looking back though at how you handled yourself during that time truly defines to me who you are. After everything I did you were still kind to me and kept your promises even when I had hurt you so badly...Ryan whatever girl gets a hold of you won't be stupid enough to let you go and just knowing that kills me everyday---I LOVE YOU Link to post Share on other sites
SweetyBear Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 Every day I see more and more that I did the right thing by breaking things off with you. I promise I will not be selfish and contact you. I will not call you just to see if you miss me or have been thinking of me. I will move on and let you move on. I still love you lots and miss you, but I can't see how we can be together under the circumstances. In my heart of hearts, though, I wish you would make some grand and bold gesture to win me back. I know that's silly. I just wish your love would compel you to do something. Link to post Share on other sites
KennyD Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 Dang I miss you. It just irritates me because I can't wrap my head around how could I miss someone so much who has continually let me down. What is it about you? Perhaps I'll never know. It's just a feeling I guess. Please know that if you can ever get your head on straight, I would love to see what we're capable of together. You've got to want to make this work though. Please stop running away. If you think I'm such a wonderful man, then why do you treat me like garbage? It just doesn't make sense. I like this one. Man it hits the nail on the head for me... Link to post Share on other sites
radiodarcy Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 day two of NC and i'm already floundering. i know this is normal but it's still frustrating. i wish time would go by faster and i could get to the part where i feel better. it doesn't help that i'm having the day from hell with work today. i hope you and your new gf are doing well. i'm sure you are. you can both rot for all i care. Link to post Share on other sites
ReturnToSender Posted March 10, 2011 Share Posted March 10, 2011 I hate you. Link to post Share on other sites
Newwaveofgoodtidings Posted March 11, 2011 Share Posted March 11, 2011 I have a pretty good idea what you are planning, and it hurts tremendously. You always throw our marriage in the toilet. Every chance you get. I hate being the only one to vote "yes" anymore. I am pretty damn sure that you are only trying to placate me so that I don't guess what's up. Or else you would have come to see me by now, or called. I smell it, the same as when the last one left. You are running and disappearing and avoiding again. This isn't what a father and husband does. Not when the husband and father is a good man. It blows my mind that you could cheat so much but couldn't handle the fact that it hurt me and desperately needed to stop. I think that you will be lonely for a long time if you go through with it. I will be lonlier, I always am. You always run and screw up your brain so that you don't have to feel anything. I hate that you have an escape from All of your pain and responsibilities, but that I am left with enough pain and responsibility for both of us. I know you say you will follow with your treatment, but you've been saying that for years. If you were dedicated to it, you would have done it whether you were with me or not. I wonder how long it will take for you to realize that the problem isn't me. It's the fact that you don't deal with ANYTHING. and expect everything to change to accommodate you. It must be tough expecting a fantasy and getting reality staring you right in the face day after day. This isn't to say that I don't miss you. I wish it would just kill me and get it over with. Link to post Share on other sites
SweetyBear Posted March 11, 2011 Share Posted March 11, 2011 When I get home from class tomorrow, I am throwing everything away. I can't even open the drawer in my dresser that has your stuff in it, but tomorrow I will. I have waited over a week for you to call me and give me the answer to all my questioning and you haven't. I know a week probably seems like a short while, but it has been long enough to get my mind around all of this. I can't believe I thought we had something. I believed you when you said we did even though everything pointed to otherwise. I never met your parents, your daughter, your co-workers, or your friends. Even if there was no shady reason you did it, it sure didn't ever feel like you were exactly welcoming me into your life. Three years is long enough to feel like an outsider. Link to post Share on other sites
worldgonewrong Posted March 11, 2011 Share Posted March 11, 2011 I really miss our dog, dearly. It pisses me off that I can't see her because of you. Link to post Share on other sites
kaygato Posted March 11, 2011 Share Posted March 11, 2011 I really, really do miss you a lot. I still don't know how much of that is ego-driven but it's still how I feel. I wish I could get you out of my head but I don't think I'll be able to for a long time. I'm trying to not ruminate over you and the break-up so much, though. When I start to think of you too much I'm just telling myself to put it in god's hands. I really, really loved you. I was in love with you, in my own way. Maybe not as deeply as you were but I think the timing was to blame for that more than anything. I'm planning to transfer to be closer to you. I know that that's stupid but it's what I feel I want to do right now. I don't even care if we get back together anymore. I just want us to be friends, but I want us to be close friends. I hope that someday that will be possible for us. I don't know whether I'm crazy or not. I just know I care for you a great deal and I'd really like for us to be friends. Of course, assuming you stay with your ex for a while, I'll have to get over this breakup and let my jealousy fade before that's really possible. I'm just hoping you eventually miss me and want to reach out to me. I can't handle being the only one reaching out anymore. It hurts too much to be rejected by you again and again. I don't know what the future holds for us, really. I just know when I met you you were so easy to talk with and I knew I wanted you in my life in some way. I hope that going to school closer to you will help us become friends again. I really do. And maybe my "in love" feelings will re-develop after that and be even stronger than they were when we first got together. And maybe you'll fall in love with me too all over again. Obviously, that's all a nice dream but not what I'm expecting to happen. I just know right now you're the person I miss the most. I truly get sad thinking that we may never be in each other's lives again. Or at least not as close as I'd like us to be. I really hope that we can be friends again in the future. If that is all that happens between us I know I can be happy with that. Link to post Share on other sites
Flowerzzz Posted March 11, 2011 Share Posted March 11, 2011 You just passed me in your car while I was walking. You sorta raised your hand like you were going to wave but then you did not wave. You just passed on by me like I was a total stranger. It is like those 3 years were nothing to you. I hate you right now. I really do. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 13, 2011 Share Posted March 13, 2011 We had it all, something to build on for our future, a beautiful son, a nice quiet place to live, why you felt there was something missing is beyond me, it's almost like you've completely wiped your memory of me all together, I hope you find what your looking for either way, I personally don't think anything would compare to the way we had it but you ended that and pretty much put our 3 years to shame and if you can live with yourself after all you've said and done then more power to you, Just know that there will never ever be a chance for us to reconcile in the future anymore, Not after you completely wiped me out of your present and never gave me one sniff of emotion or explanation for it, I hope one day you look back and understand that, I don't want you, I don't want your friendship, I want nothing more for you to turn around one day and see what kind of man I grow in to and feel shame for how you treated me and to one day apologise for it, until then, you ain't worth my time. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 13, 2011 Share Posted March 13, 2011 Well today was an emotional one to say the least, Just seeing our son crying to be leaving me, just breaks my heart, I actually wound up having a bit of a cry too after he left, I hope your proud of yourself, depriving him of a good proper upbringing like you did, I did all I could to prevent that and was desperate to make it work but you had none of it, at least I get out of this guilt free unlike you, I hope it catches up with you fast and hits you harder than a ton of bricks, I didn't deserve this and neither did he, we had it all set up, shame you had to be a bitch and spoil it, stay out of my life cause you sure as hell don't deserve to be a part of it Link to post Share on other sites
petal11 Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 i thought we had a future together i thought we woul grow old together.. its been the hardest 2 months of my life.. i cry every damn day.. im doing my best to get on with things and not wallow.. last night i dreamed of you you were holding me in your arms the way you always liked to go to sleep.. it was so real.. and then i woke up and realised the truth.. im so angry with you and angry with myself for obsessing over this after all i can see now that you really are immature selfish self righteous arrogant and emotionally stunted.. you put me into a compartment labelled friend what a joke you dont ahve any friends and im certainly not going to be one the things i loved so much was that we could always talk.. it hurts so much that you shut down and now you have met someone new.. im sure its all exciting and fun and wonderful to get to know someone new .. ow you could move on so quickly is beyond my comprehension.. you said i cant be alone .. im proud that i havent initiated any contact... im glad i talked to you the other night funny how you were upset and i was calm... i need to take care of myslef now Link to post Share on other sites
ReturnToSender Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 Im sorry too. I loved you, I believed in you, I really thought you meant the things you said. Only to find out it meant nothing, everything I did was for nothing, and it was just a waste of time. Im sorry that this time, I cant rationalize any reason to believe when you say you love me, or all those times you said how you cant imagine your life without me, or when you told me just last week that Im the best thing that ever happened to you. Because if any of that was true, if even one of those was true...I would mean more to you than this...I would matter. Instead, I feel like nothing to you, and like the past 4 years of my life involving you was a lie, a joke and a waste. Yeah, I dont even believe you are sorry. Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 I'm not a trusting person at all. I trusted you, everything you said. All your promises, your commitment to me, our son and our family. I know things weren't going well and I know I made mistakes, but the way you handled the whole thing still makes my stomach sick every day 8 months later. You are exactly what I prayed you weren't, a manipulative, dishonest, selfish, cold hearted person with no conscience whatsoever. What you have done to me, my family and most importantly our son is beyond reprehensible. All so you could get with another guy that was waiting in the wings. I can honestly say without any reservation the WORST day of my life was the day I had the misfortune of meeting you in 02. Link to post Share on other sites
TryTryAgain Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 I thought about you all weekend. Now that we have more daylight during the evening, all I could think about was the fun times we used to have grilling and playing with your dog that summer when we first met. Those first few months two years ago were pure bliss. I long for those days. I hope perhaps moving into your new house will be turning the page on a new chapter in life. I hope that somehow we can start over together at some point. I wish I could see you and hold you right now. Link to post Share on other sites
Iselia Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 A few nights ago you texted me. Hahahaha. You really think I want anything to do with you? You f*cking emotionally cheated on me. You screwed up dearie. It's your own fault. I'm too far gone now. Link to post Share on other sites
IfiKnewThen Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 i am sick of you. whether you pop up in my head or dreams. purely sick of you Link to post Share on other sites
marqueemoon4 Posted March 14, 2011 Share Posted March 14, 2011 Thats exactly how I feel. I am SO TIRED of being hurt and depressed over this. I loved you so much, things fell apart but I never stopped loving you. You're rebounding with some dude and I STILL would work things out with you if you wanted. What the hell is wrong with me? I used to have SO much self respect and dignity. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 15, 2011 Share Posted March 15, 2011 This is not the end, this is not the beginning, just a voice like a riot rocking every revision (I'm holding on to what I haven't got) Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 15, 2011 Share Posted March 15, 2011 Your voice is finally beginning to leave my mind, do me a favour and don't contact me again unless you absolutely have to!, I keep thinking about the way things should be and the way things are right now, you have no idea how big of an idiot you have been but I geuss you won't think of this kind of stuff until you grow up a little more and stand on your own two feet, I loved you with everything I had, just ashame you had to turn around and tell me that you didn't anymore, one day I'll find better but as for you, you'll only find worse, enjoy. Link to post Share on other sites
Stilicho Posted March 15, 2011 Share Posted March 15, 2011 you send so many mixed signals, u call me, text me, leave me notes, flirt, ask to hang out, yet you say ur happy with the guy you ran to when we broke up due to your mistakes. what do you want??? we say to never talk, yet you continue to do so at all times. ii love you, and i care for you, but i doubt reconciliatioon would work, and you certainly dont observe it. but i wish you would say exactly what it is that youre thinking. Link to post Share on other sites
TryTryAgain Posted March 15, 2011 Share Posted March 15, 2011 Well, today is the day. I hope everything goes smoothly for you when you open this new chapter in your life. Now that you'll only be 5 minutes away, I truly hope we can reconcile and maybe start over. I miss you dearly. Link to post Share on other sites
SimonSerenade Posted March 15, 2011 Share Posted March 15, 2011 I'm actually scared that I'll never ever meet somebody like you again, that I'll never find that special love we had again, I get worried that you won't meet somebody nice, that you might meet somebody who'd be abussive and horrible to you and our son, despite what you've done, that would break my heart, looking back on how we first met and how we fell for eachother instantly, I know I'll never get that again, that's once in a life time stuff, I just hate how you changed and made me feel so unimportant, I deserved better than that, there's no going back now. Link to post Share on other sites
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