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[LikeCharlotte]

Hey O,

Our life is much more interesting than we thought. I wanted you to know. I'm pretty f-ing amazing. Life is good and I'd love to share with you.

-LC

[bikinibeach]

i have proof that you are starting to crack. go ahead and send me an email! i relish the idea of another opportunity to hurt you.

 

since my words fall only on deaf ears smothered in a comfortable fog of denial, i will let my silence speak for me.

 

you think that you can go through life punishing women for your mother's neglect and the weak ones you've manipulated so far have validated this by keeping you around after how miserably you treated them.

 

you're shocked that you haven't heard from me by now aren't you?

 

you are now one of those plenty of fish lifers who will probably be a perpetual bachelor living in his moms basement and going on unsuccessful internet dates for entertainment.

 

oh and it annoyed the HELL out of me how you drum the steering wheel when you drive. you have fat guy hands,they are not meant for that!! i thought you would have figured that out after accidentally sounding the horn on more than one occaision.

 

i was thisclose to starting to complain about it.

 

your dad has gas that's just as bad as yours.

 

your mother is a smothering strange lady with zero social skills.

 

oh and i always thought your brother was hotter. i wondered if you noticed our connection that night we all went out together.

 

and yes, i did tell steph that you were too cheap to pick up the cheque when we went out! i also complained to her that even though it was fun, i came EVERY time with greg and very rarely with you.

 

so yeah. that too.

 

also you have stretch marks that i didn't want to say anything about.

 

and my friends recently confessed that they didn't want to say anything while we were together....but they didn't get my attraction to you at all. one of them described you as 'greasy looking'.

 

so, how's your summer going?

[patagonia]

i have proof that you are starting to crack. go ahead and send me an email! i relish the idea of another opportunity to hurt you.

 

since my words fall only on deaf ears smothered in a comfortable fog of denial, i will let my silence speak for me.

 

you think that you can go through life punishing women for your mother's neglect and the weak ones you've manipulated so far have validated this by keeping you around after how miserably you treated them.

 

you're shocked that you haven't heard from me by now aren't you?

 

you are now one of those plenty of fish lifers who will probably be a perpetual bachelor living in his moms basement and going on unsuccessful internet dates for entertainment.

 

oh and it annoyed the HELL out of me how you drum the steering wheel when you drive. you have fat guy hands,they are not meant for that!! i thought you would have figured that out after accidentally sounding the horn on more than one occaision.

 

i was thisclose to starting to complain about it.

 

your dad has gas that's just as bad as yours.

 

your mother is a smothering strange lady with zero social skills.

 

oh and i always thought your brother was hotter. i wondered if you noticed our connection that night we all went out together.

 

and yes, i did tell steph that you were too cheap to pick up the cheque when we went out! i also complained to her that even though it was fun, i came EVERY time with greg and very rarely with you.

 

so yeah. that too.

 

also you have stretch marks that i didn't want to say anything about.

 

and my friends recently confessed that they didn't want to say anything while we were together....but they didn't get my attraction to you at all. one of them described you as 'greasy looking'.

 

so, how's your summer going?

 

hahahaha that's nice!! But you forgot the fling you found

[antinko]

I didn't miss you earlier during the day, but after getting back from a gig after party and spending it alone, I miss you. You would have liked it. And no, I'm not drunk - I stopped drinking before we broke up remember? I'm trying to maximise fitness...

 

Anyway, I doubt you're thinking of me. Perhaps you have someone new now; I really don't want to know, but, yeh, despite all your faults, despite the hurt you caused me and, well, the whole **** storm I've been through, I miss you. I miss the times we spent together talking of the future, supporting each other.

 

Why did you have to walk away? You made me believe, honestly. I believed in you. I believed in us. You broke my heart.

 

I'm trying to move on, but even knowing I am, when I try to move on and 'get busy' so to speak, it hurts. It hurts because it's another step away from what we had.

 

I know I could find someone who would love me better, but maybe I don't want to?

[bikinibeach]

hahahaha that's nice!! But you forgot the fling you found

 

(for patagonia) ps: thanks for leaving the condoms at my house! i mean free condoms!!

 

unfortunately, they are much too small for my new guy.

 

i'd offer to give them back to you but let's face it....you're unlikely to be in a situation requiring them for some time, no?

 

especially if you've hooked up with your frigid ex or that horse girl whose face is a major boner killer.

 

i might as well throw them out- they expire in 2013

 

later!!

 

side note: this could actually be funny, but this is actually his grim reality..lol

[ScienceGal]

 

I'm trying to move on, but even knowing I am, when I try to move on and 'get busy' so to speak, it hurts. It hurts because it's another step away from what we had.

 

I know I could find someone who would love me better, but maybe I don't want to?

 

You don't want to YET

[patagonia]

(for patagonia) ps: thanks for leaving the condoms at my house! i mean free condoms!!

 

unfortunately, they are much too small for my new guy.

 

i'd offer to give them back to you but let's face it....you're unlikely to be in a situation requiring them for some time, no?

 

especially if you've hooked up with your frigid ex or that horse girl whose face is a major boner killer.

 

i might as well throw them out- they expire in 2013

 

later!!

 

side note: this could actually be funny, but this is actually his grim reality..lol

 

that is horrible!!!

[antinko]

You don't want to YET

 

I like you - that just made things feel a whole lot better.

[amethyste]

i might as well throw them out- they expire in 2013

 

The ones I keep too expire in 2013 as well. :lmao:

Mine are extra large though

[Steven T]

I sit here drinking a beer and still in disbelief that we are no longer together. How can we have a perfect relationship and being so close, to having nothing anymore...

 

All the words, gifts and promises we exchanged... I meant them, I guess you didnt.

 

I devoted my life to you, the times I spent with you were the happiest days of my life.

 

I looked up to you, god damn I miss you. Maybe I shouldnt have changed my number after we broke up but if you did want to be with me I guess you could email or better yet be at my door step.

 

I am trying to forget you and live my life but it's hard.

 

Trying to get over you is the hardest task I have ever had to face in my life, I understand first loves rarely last and everyone has to face a break up.

 

But I truly believed we were destined to be together, no one understands how great we were. I guess I was naive to believe you felt the same way I felt for you but I am sure you did! Everything we did together and everything you said to me proved this! You couldnt have been lying!

 

You will always have a place in my heart as I meant every word I ever said to you.

Edited August 6, 2011 by Steven T

[eidolon]

(1 month NC)

Hi! I miss you, and I hope you're doing okay.

I hope you're lonely though. Horribly lonely.

I want you to be happy, just not without me. Is that mean? Do I care if it's mean? I'm allowed to be selfish.

Y'know, after all those nights I stayed up waiting for you to finish your goddamn raids.

And you started playing WoW again? Nice. Bet you're talking to lots of insecure girls who are perfectly willing to yet again email you pictures of themselves while you pretend you're not flirting.

"ANGELSTEEL, HERE." **** you and **** your server. **** your prot pally.

It's so difficult getting through the day without being reminded of you. I can't read books I want to read because we've talked about them. I can't watch movies that I know you'd like or that you do like, so I have to watch ****ty movies. Great.

I'm learning Swedish and it's fun. Why does it have to be so similar to Norwegian?

Can't listen to goddamn power metal or folk metal or bluegrass or Rush or Pink Floyd or Yes.

Can't watch my favourite shows.

Can't play games I played with you.

 

You live 600 miles away but somehow everything in this godforsaken city reminds me of you.

 

Ugh.

Jag älsker dig.

Jeg elsker deg.

 

Jag saknar dig. So much.

[Christian79]

When you said to me 'te amo' it was special. I guess because in English we only have one way to express how much we love someone, one level of sentiment. I know you hadn't said those words many times in your life. When I heard them I got butterflies in my stomach. Even more so than the feeling I got everytime you walked through my door, everytime we met. The truth is that everytime I saw you felt incredible. You made the most boring things exciting, riding an escalator on the Metro, standing on the step below you so we could kiss. I walked you home everytime we saw each other, nobody had ever done that for you. You never wanted me to stop doing that, and I never would have done. It was worth it just to stand on the escalator with you! Maybe in some ways I gave you too much.

 

We had plans for a normal, happy life, a flat, kids, just simple things. We both are to blame for it not happening, maybe it wasnt meant to happen, maybe one day it still will, but in the meantime I will get on with my life without you and try to make myself happy.

 

I miss you, and yes I am still in love with you.

[bikinibeach]

highs and lows.

 

week after week.

 

thank god that my job gets me out and walking in the sunshine.

 

last night i had a horrible nightmare about you. just horrible. awful. the circumstances were pretty outlandish but the idea was the same. the things you did in that dream were awful. even sadder still, they are things i would not put past you to do in real life.

 

every single thing about you in this dream was negative.

 

yet i woke up sad and missing you.

 

i don't know why some part of me insists on missing you when the reality is that the idea of exposing myself to your toxicity in any capacity is revolting to me. i have NO DESIRE to email, talk to you, see you...anything like that. maybe i don't miss you. no, i don't miss you. i just remember the past and it makes me sad. that is what is happening.

 

you are so ill! and i'm so angry about the decisions you made to favor people who had no respect for the woman you supposedly loved or your relationship with her. you're such an idiot! such a child.

 

i'm worth fighting for. and the only thing you had to fight against was the unhealthy way you lived your life. but you didn't want to give it up. well, now it gave YOU up! that couldn't have felt good.

 

i write on this site to get my feelings out. it feels good to know that im far past the point where i have to try and prevent myself from sending these msgs to you.

 

i keep finding articles though i want to send to you. articles that i feel diagnose your condition...one about something called the nice guy contract.

 

guys who CANT say no due to their desire to be seen favorably by their "friends"...aka manipulative women who will be your "friend" until the day you say no, you can't ditch a trip to the mountains with the woman you lve to help her move, no you can't drive her i**** ass to the store for 'schmokes'....

 

the article talked about how if you took your favors out of the equation, favors that you do in order to build up some kind of return favor equity, that there really is no "friendship" there, just two people using each other.

 

pretty sad that you would let that be a detriment to a relationship with the best thing that ever happened to you, the real thing (in your words).

 

i was also thinking today how there's on ly one ex that i actually miss. he was really good to me. you were a complete sack of ****.

 

im glad you're suffering.

 

keep living your lie.

[Single Sid]

(for patagonia) ps: thanks for leaving the condoms at my house! i mean free condoms!!

 

unfortunately, they are much too small for my new guy.

 

i'd offer to give them back to you but let's face it....you're unlikely to be in a situation requiring them for some time, no?

 

especially if you've hooked up with your frigid ex or that horse girl whose face is a major boner killer.

 

i might as well throw them out- they expire in 2013

 

later!!

 

side note: this could actually be funny, but this is actually his grim reality..lol

 

made me chuckle, sorry, i hope that doesnt offend you in anyway.

 

it kind of brightened up my day

 

i was thinking that really does need to be posted to them.

 

thanks for putting a little sunshine in my day.

 

much love to you, stay strong

[Single Sid]

Hoping these are my final words to her, even though she will never read them it makes me feel better to know they got sent in their own weird way.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Guess im guilty of mistaking our relationship for something much more than it really was, and for you, youve mistaken my want/need to be a great father for your own personal freindship.

All i want is for you to be happy, our presence is no longer needed in each others lives. For me i feel this is a positive for us both, im happy within life and myself and wish for that to continue. You get to continue living a life of peace and happiness with your partner without the worry of the past re-emerging at anytime in the future.

 

I sincerely hope you found true love and happiness with your partner and wish you nothing but a life filled with wondrous moments and joy.

I really wish you the best with your future.

 

This isnt a choice as such, it was part of the pathway laid out for us.

We both knew this time would arrive eventually, its unfortunate but just a matter of fact. We will both keep moving onwards and smiling, upwards and strong but just not parallel with one another.

Hopefully in the next life we will find the time & strength to share our pains with each other and maybe heal at least a small part of the past.

 

Take care

 

Keep smiling

[bikinibeach]

made me chuckle, sorry, i hope that doesnt offend you in anyway.

 

it kind of brightened up my day

 

i was thinking that really does need to be posted to them.

 

thanks for putting a little sunshine in my day.

 

much love to you, stay strong

 

thanks love

 

glad you had a giggle.

 

i am staying strong. you too, okay?

 

xo

[bikinibeach]

i am complicated and eccentric.

 

i miss having someone who knew my heart.

 

now, when i pray for someone like that to come into my life again, i will remember to ask that they be someone who can be entrusted with its care.

[Single Sid]

thanks love

 

glad you had a giggle.

 

i am staying strong. you too, okay?

 

xo

 

good for you for staying strong.

 

me okay? yes, been through the worst of it. came out the other end, although a fleeting moment 10 years on left me feeling like ive kids throwing stones at the back of my head whilst they hide out of site. hence me being here.

 

Strange how life can deal the best of us the worst of cards at times, maybe its our test to rifle out the best from those pretending to be.

 

[Single Sid]

i am complicated and eccentric.

 

Aren't we all? if i could only share a portion of my life with you on that matter.

 

 

i miss having someone who knew my heart.

 

i knew that feeling, it fades as you learn to love YOURSELF again, then your heart becomes yours to give again. When you know your own heart you'll then be confident enough to share with someone again.

 

 

now, when i pray for someone like that to come into my life again, i will remember to ask that they be someone who can be entrusted with its care.

 

You wont need to ask, all youve learnt upto now and until then will let you know exactly how you feel. Its a risk us with love will take even though we know the possibilities, the hope is though we find an equal, nothing more, nothing less, just a pure equal. And should you find that equal your care will be entrusted unconditionally. well, heres hoping.

 

On the flipside, i love being single, and have been single for 9 years of the last 10, o being single is not a downside, its not only a part of the healing its also a part of having and experiencing a great social life outside of all thoughts of wanting/needing that someone/anyone.

 

Someone real special will be along one day for all us that have and want to love.

[RodG]

Miss you, even though I hate you. You used to be my lil' jellybean. You're pretty good at not having anything to do with me. You know, one week you would've married me...little over two weeks later you were done with me so easily. Now you haven't said a word in months. Hope you're friggin' happy....

[johndoublej]

rodg - my thoughts exactly:P

[uant]

its been a while. nearly a year has passed. i don't even know if i am actually getting better... i still look for the resemblance of you when i walked pass ppl on the street. your face starts to fade but the pain remains the same. It's your birthday on Tues.. You will be 21 soon.. i used to say i would celebrate this big day for u.. planned on a million things to do for you but now i can only pray.. pray that you are doing well and be happy. it starts to eat me away again... but i really wish you well Eugene. i really do miss u.

[SillyS]

I'm still confused. With everyday that passes, it confuses me a little bit more. Did you love me at all? Was everything you said a huge lie? Why did you not only have to break up with me but also hurt me so much in the manner that you chose to end it?

 

It doesn't make sense to me. I have never been one of these people. I always kept a certain distance from people, and to think that someone that I let in completely could go out of his way to hurt me so badly is just incredibly sad to me. But I will always be someone that is not gonna stay down for too long, so just know that I'll be okay eventually.

 

I started my new job, and my co-worker has been showing me some attention and got me a gift from his day trip to Belgium. My friends are all trying to spent time with me and make me feel better or distract me from what happened, but I'm just having a hard time with it all.

 

I understand men bottle things up, and I understand that this means that men are sometimes bombs waiting to explode. But it's so unfair, to take out all anger on me and simply explode on something I was never told was a problem. But hey, the why will drive me crazy because I still don't understand at the end of the day. So I just focus on accepting its over, that you didn't care about me, and that most of the things about starting a future with me were not real for you. I was a fool, and that's okay with me. Huge fool!

[betterdeal]

Do you remember the night after I had that fight with your ex-landlord after he grabbed you by the throat, in the pub? The night when you asked, "Can I tempt you out with a pint?" (I see what you did there, you wanted me to come out of my shell and dressed it as a simple request to go for a drink). Then you got a bit frustrated with me not coming out of my shell and gave your number to that guy called Pat in front of me? You remember that?

 

Well, see, let me explain what was going on in my head at that time, for your entertainment. It felt like there was a black cloud in my frontal lobe. I, my inner self, was enclosed in this deep, dark, foreboding cloud. I wanted to curl up and die. To not exist. I was, by that stage, significantly malnourished. I was deficient in B vitamins and my mind was consequently screwed.

 

But you giving your number to Pat worked - it hurt me as you intended. But it was more of the same, wasn't it? I mean, a day or so after I moved all your stuff to my house in the middle of the night when your landlord evicted you by shoving you out the door, we were in the pub and you were crying and asking "do you care about me?" to your ex, on the phone, and that little weasel chap was there too. The one who was sniffing around you and you were using to get drugs from? You remember that?

 

You remember crying your eyes out on the anniversary of another one of your ex's suicide? Crying out "I WANT MY BABY" about him? And then saying, whilst you were cryiing, "this is the effect you have on women" to me? Do you remember that?

 

See, the list goes on. It was constant. You need male attention. You use men and you delight in screwing over any woman who lets you into her life. Whatever I would do was never good enough.

 

To top it all, you were crestfallen when I disconnected. When I moved on. You can't stand being abandoned. You f*ck over and sh*t on and screw up anyone who gets close to you, then you feel sorry for yourself when they block you out.

 

You see these scars on my wrists? This is the effect you have on men.

 

Go f*ck yourself with a broken bottle.

[Rorschach64]

Dear N,

 

I gave you everything you could have ever wanted, I traveled across the globe to be with you numerous times even though I had military and school to deal with I managed to find time and the money to go see you. Though despite you taking off of work and losing very little money and me giving you money before I left, outweighed the $3,000 travel expenses I had to fork over to travel from the US to Singapore. I gave you all the attention you could have ever wanted, showered you with gifts and affection. Despite all that you decided to throw me away, even after I gave you an engagement ring and wanted to be with you forever, because you assumed I cheated on you, which I didn't, and then I cleared my name of all your accusations you still came up with another excuse to not be together, because of all the hurt and you comparing this relationship to another? That's bull****!

 

You've been contradicting yourself left and right through this whole ordeal, one minute you would say you want to take a break and be single with the option of seeing others, you tell me this over IM after three days of being in Singapore - how disrespectful are you?!, and then you turn around say that you didn't mean THAT but just to start things over again as if we first met? The biggest joke of all is you constantly kept telling me I am the confused one? You keep saying you got over me in four days of NC and forgot me?! What the hell is that?! Then your friends tell me you are already talking to some new guy? I think YOU are the confused one! Then I confront you about seeing someone already and tell you how you made me feel, how you basically ripped my heart out to be with some guy you probably were messing around with behind my back and then you call me a idiotic, pathetic and I should wallow in my own **** because I wanted to fight for the relationship instead of giving up in two seconds like you did. Then you called me the most ****ed up person for thinking you moved on already and are already seeing someone, MAKE UP YOUR DAMN MIND! You say you cared for me and loved me and evidence of that is you still talked to me and wanted to be friends? That's you being selfish and riddled of guilt! Now you won't even take two seconds to talk to me outside of working out the logisitics to give me back my laptop, which I gave you out of the goodness of my heart because you were in need and you used it to spy on me, just because I accused you of being the messed up one! Who is really showing their true colors now?

 

I don't know what happened to you N, but I gave you everything and then some more. Maybe you feel the need to go out and party, drink, and have sex. I know this because you told me after you had a fight with your mom about going out, that you want to go out hang out with your friends, party, drink, and have sex. Why the hell would you tell me, your fiance, that sex part!? I don't know if I should ever expect you back or if I should even take you back because this last month has been complete hell but I am sure it is fine for you since you just so casually walked away from one fight and only fight we ever have had.

 

Sincerely R

Edited August 7, 2011 by Rorschach64