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[TaintedHeart]

Miss you, even though I hate you. You used to be my lil' jellybean. You're pretty good at not having anything to do with me. You know, one week you would've married me...little over two weeks later you were done with me so easily. Now you haven't said a word in months. Hope you're friggin' happy....

 

 

It's weird, why do most dumpers act this way?

 

*Hugs* RodG x

[Dig0923]

Today is on of my down days K. You were the one who said you didnt know if you were in love with me anymore, you were the one who said you can't be with me right now and that you don't know what the future holds.

 

Its been almost 2 weeks with NC with you and you are having feeling for someone else that you know only through text. I find that total bull**** but whatever its your life. I really don't want to go to this concert with you friday but will always wonder "What if" if I don't. I hate that you did this to me...

[bikinibeach]

you never really saw me.

[patagonia]

Today is on of my down days K. You were the one who said you didnt know if you were in love with me anymore, you were the one who said you can't be with me right now and that you don't know what the future holds.

 

Its been almost 2 weeks with NC with you and you are having feeling for someone else that you know only through text. I find that total bull**** but whatever its your life. I really don't want to go to this concert with you friday but will always wonder "What if" if I don't. I hate that you did this to me...

 

Don't go, don't go, don't go!!!

[ashez92]

Hey, how is your life? Remember me? The girl you supposedly loved for 13 years and cheated on and screwed over the entire time and now you wont talk to me for three weeks strait?? Have you forgot all about your family? Do you even care if Im alive? You are dirty filtly peice of sh** and you will never amount to anything.

 

You will be living in your moms basement for the rest of your sorry exsistence.

 

I hope the peice of a$$ your getting from your new fling was worth losing everying.

 

Sure cost you alot.

 

Have a nice life!!

[bonpaw2008]

Wow here I am again. How many ****ing times is it going to happen to me? How many sleepless nights do I have to have, thinking about the ****ty ****ing things you do to me before I god damn learn????

 

I killed myself helping you move. I worked so hard. Only to have some chick come up the ****ing driveway and throw her arms around you. Same ****ing girl that we broke up with because you weren't being honest with me a year ago. GOD DAMN IT WHY CAN I NOT LEARN???? You went to introduce me and the stupid bitch wouldn't even look at me, of course who really is the stupid bitch?? ME of course. There has never been a stupider girl on the planet.

 

Then after she leaves and all your friends slink away because they know that something is going on, I am the one to have say "wow that was awkward" to your blank ****ing stare and saying "what?". I said "Mark, I could tell that you were uncomfortable, what was that all about? Why did she act that way, why was she here, how does she know all of these friends?" Your answer was "yes I have a friend that is a girl, there is nothing going on" "OK" I say "but I am your supposed BEST FRIEND how do I not know about this girl, that you are still talking to her?" "My friends know her because she goes out for drinks sometimes, that is all", THEN WHY WOULD THE BITCH NOT LOOK ME IN THE FACE?????

 

But I didn't lose my cool. I told you that you were hiding her from me for a reason. You said because you knew that I would be upset. GUESS WHAT?? IF I AM GOING TO BE UPSET THAT MEANS YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING WRONG!!! You are such a coward, such a selfish ****ing bastard. Glad I got to see her up close because she is a ****ing snaggle tooth, but still Mark, JFC, is there going to ever be a time that you think about me, my feelings, what I would think?? I know the answer to this question and I have known it for the past three years. This is not the only thing you are hiding from me, I am sure of it. My intuition has been screaming, what is so gd special about you that I lose all of my sensibility?? NOTHING IS SPECIAL ABOUT YOU! YOU ARE AN EVIL VINDICIVE DICK THAT HATES WOMEN AND WILL NEVER EVER BE ANYTHING BUT A TOTAL ****ING LOSER.

 

God please give me strength to leave him. I hate the hold he has on me, that he can suck me in with all his bs and then treat me like this and make me feel like I am the one that is wrong and crazy. **** you Mark, **** you! I have realized that I will not win, that there is not some great prize at the end of all this torture, it is just more torture and a never-ending string of hurt and pain. I am not wrong, you are a selfish ****ing dick and you don't deserve me. I deserve so much more than someone that only cares about himself. Seriously dude, I am so embarrassed all of the time I have wasted on you and all of this nonsense. Go have a ****load of girl "friends", let's have a casual relationship just in case someone you want to **** is actually interested in your fat ass you can justify it. All done with the punishment? Hope so because you are the one that is losing.

Edited August 8, 2011 by bonpaw2008

[1Dunno]

I know you don't think about me anymore. I know you don't care and that you're probably just trying to manipulate me. Well it's worked. I can't stop thinking about you. So yes, you won. I think you already know that but I've been trying my hardest not to show you. Trying my absolute hardest not to show you that I care about you, even though you took me for a fool, and rubbed my face in **** even when I was nice to you and supported you when you said that you didn't want a relationship.

 

One day I won't give a flying **** about you anymore. I can't wait for that day.

[bonpaw2008]

I have been giving you all of me for so long and getting nothing in return, now you lie to me and hide things supposedly for my own good? Thanks for blaming me for your bad behavior. You never take responsibility for anything and because I am too "emotional" it is my fault again. You never let stuff go, I can't make mistakes or have feelings without them thrown back up in my face. Emotions are normal, loving someone is normal. You are the one that sabatoges this relationship every time it is good. I don't deserve to be lied to. And keeping me out of an obvious important part of your life just cements the fact that you are just using me. I gave you all the space you asked for to my detriment but you had to create more this way.

 

This is bs and I am done - don't think it is ok to say that you were protecting me from myself, face the fact that you were protecting yourself, as always, because you are selfish and have always only thought about yourself. You are absolutely right that you can be friends with whoever you want, do whatever you please. But when people truly care for each other they think of how their actions will impact the other person, and they don't do things that will knowingly hurt. You being her friend doesn't hurt me. You lying about who you are with when you are out and misleading me into thinking that I am your best friend and that you tell me what is going on - that is what hurts.

 

I guess you're right Mark, you can't win. Because winning is at my expense and I refuse to compromise myself and my feelings and be used by someone that doesn't give a god damn **** about me.

[RuinedLife]

I love you so much, I miss you so much and its killing me knowing that you don't love me anymore.

 

I know I'm not good enough for you, I'm sorry that I'm not.

[Thieves]

Dear ex,

 

I don't know what to say anymore.

 

I think I've just gotten to the point where I'm getting tired. Tired of going over the past, of analyzing things. I miss you do, I do. But I don't miss the way you treated me at times. I hope you think of me occasionally and smile. I want to talk to you, if only to reassure each other that everything's alright. But I need to heal. And more and more as the days go on, I can't be angry with you. I can only wish it would've worked out between us. I wish we could've enjoyed what could've been. I wish I could've made you happy. That's all. And for that I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say. I've said it all already.

[radiodarcy]

(for patagonia) ps: thanks for leaving the condoms at my house! i mean free condoms!!

 

unfortunately, they are much too small for my new guy.

 

i'd offer to give them back to you but let's face it....you're unlikely to be in a situation requiring them for some time, no?

 

especially if you've hooked up with your frigid ex or that horse girl whose face is a major boner killer.

 

i might as well throw them out- they expire in 2013

 

later!!

 

side note: this could actually be funny, but this is actually his grim reality..lol

 

i know i'm a little late to the party but :laugh::laugh:

 

thanks for the laugh! and i'm glad you're feeling better!!

[reimeivn]

there was this time, like everytime, i got out of my three hours class, and i went to the place you worked, and i asked about you. and you were no happy to see me, and you were annoyed. and i was just sitting there and you didnt even show any affection toward me, so i was sad. i was about to leave when i found out this pen on your hand. it has the word i love you on it. and i did not have a chance to say anything because you pulled the pen back from my hand like a child getting back its dearest toy. you got mad at me. you said it was from diane. i was really sad. what could i say, you got mad at me when i went over to see you, while you yourself never eve go out of your way to go see me, and you cheated on me like that? and you thought you didnt do anything wrong? and so i walked out of the door, and you never held me back, and you never apologized. and i dont know why i didnt leave you right then.

[lymtal1]

You know I am not sure why I do I just do. That is what has me so perplexed. I know that you are wrong for me. I want to be mad and angry at you so it will help me get over you. I can't be because you are a very good person and you did me right when you ended things. I would have expected nothing less from you. I know that you need time to live your life but I expected that it would be with me. I am sorry that I retreated to the state that I did and that I in a sense pushed you away. I was going through a great deal of turmoil in my life and should have talked to you more about what I was feeling. We did not communicate very well, I know you know that. I also need you to know that you really never told me things that could have changed things. It was just a bad situation that we both put ourselves in. The whole situation was so complicated that looking back it was meant to fail from the begining. We really had no chance. But then why did you always talk about us getting married? Why did you and your friends talk about us being the most perfect couple and that you couldn't wait till we could be married. I guess that is why I am so devastated. I really understand where you are coming from thinking that you need to have some crazy time but I also know that you could do that with me. That was mentioned here to me by a very smart girl who helped me realize that that is probably just an excuse. You told me you knew that you would regret doing this and you know what, we always seem to regret things in our life once it is too late. I did everything for you, took you from a very bad place and time and helped you regain your confidence and self esteem. It is funny how now mine is so low that I don't know how to get it back. This from someone who was always so confident in everything he did in his life in every aspect. Amazing how loosing your love or should I say loosing the relationship did that to me. Just so you know I have gotten off the couch. I have lost over forty pounds and really look good. Think back to the first time we met. Yup that is now me. I have good days and bad days. You ended our relationship two months ago and for that two month period I fulfilled every promise I made to you to help you get through your situation. Walking out of your apartment last week was the hardest thing I have ever done. Saying good luck to you about your upcoming journey was heartbreaking as I was suppose to be with you on it. I shut the door picked up the phone and changed my phone number. I then blocked you from every way of finding me. Your friends who I loved as much as you can't find me either. As I said to myself it is time to fall off the earth. Or as something I read on here someone said "Cut the dam leg off". I did and I am paying for it now. I know I won't hear from you. That is actually ok as I don't think we would be able to put things together anyway. Although you know I want you to find me. The slippery slope that I am walking is very unhealthy. N/C is without question the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. The funny thing is it has only been an issue with you. I am not sure when I will get over you. I do realize that it is nothing more than the fantasy that I am missing but I created it so I am paying the price. What a great lesson I have learned. You have allowed me to find out things about myself that I would never had known. So there you go again being that great person that I always knew you were. D*** couldn't you do something that will make me mad? I want you to be happy. I want you to find that special person that brings you what you want and need. You will always have a place in my heart. I have not grieved this much in two months because I have had hope. I now can as I do not have any. I know you are gone no matter what my heart thinks. I have to figure out how to get my heart in the same place where my brain is. I know it will take time and I am going to hope that some of my friends at LS will help me get through this. I am so ready to head down that path. I will never forget you I just don't want you to take up so much space in my heart. I'll give you .001 percent space. Sorry girl for being so chatty but I needed to tell you some of this but know that none of it would matter. I hope someday we can talk, you can tell me about how great your life has been and that you are really happy. Untill then I am gone.

[antinko]

I think, I think, I'm getting over it or at least accepting it. I do forgive you. I know you never intended on hurting me. I know you hurt yourself; I just wish you didn't, that's all. I do think we could have been happy...in an ideal world.

 

Anyway, I miss the you I fell for and the you who loved me.

 

I no longer have you on a pedestal because I don't want to be with who you are currently. I'm too hurt now and I'm trying to heal.

 

Just take care.

[Nohbody]

I'm burning the ghost of you out of me.

[Diatribes]

I hate you. You played my emotions and were untrue to me and never fully vested in our relationship, yet said you loved me when you never truly did. The fact that you could say that in passing while you knew you felt that way about somebody else shows your lack of moral character. I'm better off without you, because without you in my life I have the opportunity to meet that person who does appreciate me for who I am and will give back what I have to offer.

[SimonSerenade]

Hard to believe it's a few days off being a year since you broke up with me, looking back now, it's hard to imagine it's been so long and how I've stayed so strong throughout all this time, I feel for the most part I'm over you, I remember the times I just couldn't get you out of my mind and all I felt was hurt, darkness surrounded me, that's all gone now, I don't think I'm ready to see you let alone anything else but I can take comfort in the fact that I'm back on the right track at least .

 

For what it's worth I'm not angry anymore and I'm not upset, I accepted the break up and learned a great deal from it, I changed a hell of a lot in the process and all of it is for the better, I've been alone for a long time now and to be honest, That dosen't really bother me anymore, I like it, I do whatever I want with no complaints and no arguments, everything is peaceful at the moment and I love it that way.

 

I forgive you for the pain and I forgive you for everything that went along with it, Life's too short to hold any grudges or to look back at how we did and didn't handle things, I hope your happy and I hope your well, I hope one day you'll find somebody who can give you what I couldn't, I pray you'll be fulfilled and live a meaningful life with good people around you, that's all I ever wanted for you and that will never change no matter what.

 

I hope one day we'll be in contact again and we can be friends, I think our son would want that for us, I just want peace between us but the contact part is up to you, I'm always here should you want that friendship but it has to be you who wants it, The memories we shared will live on forever in my heart and in my memory and will always be precious to me, For the very last time, Take care my darling and have a good life

[cantaloupe]

I hate how you breaking up with me helped me realize how much you really did love me for many years. It also helped me realize the depths of unconditional love I have for you.

 

I read through your love letters to me yesterday.

 

I miss you. I miss that guy. I wish he was back. I know you said you were having a tough time getting back to that guy after all the stress you have experienced. I wish in my heart of hearts you get back to that guy because he was wonderful.

 

The break up was messy. You were pretty terrible. I said some stuff I didn't mean. I want to apologize for that but I am not initiating any contact with you. The worst part is that it makes me increasingly aware that you aren't contacting me, either. It's been 3 days since we have talked.

 

I don't even hold this stuff against you. You never even needed to be forgiven. Just come back to me.

[SugarHoney]

How could you break my heart again like that

 

When I told you how much I'd be hurting.

 

Why give me all the false hope, the flirting etc and then reject me all over again.

 

 

I do hope we can be friends some day but is going to be a long time before we can I think, as my heart hurts so much right now. I love you so much and yet you've thrown me out into the cold.

[Diatribes]

I f*cking hate you. I gave you my everything, and you gave me nothing. You used to as a tool to make your abusive ex treat you better. You didn't have a care in the world for me or had any consideration for my feelings and how I'd be hurt by your actions. As far as I'm concerned, I'm better off without you. Now I can find someone that will appreciate me. I hate to harbor negative emotions for anybody in this world, but you definitely deserve this. And much worse. Thanks for nothing, and I hope you live miserably throughout your wretched existence.

[Looby]

Just be us

Just be me with you

you be you with me

Outsiders have no impact

No influence

Are they in this?

Do they know?

How I feel? How you feel?

What do we have?

I feel respect from you

I feel loved

I feel valued

You enjoy hearing my opinions, even if they differ from your own.

You're older

It bothers me

Is it a reason not to be with you?

Have I made it a reason?

I feel selfish when I admit this

But I don't want to eventually be your carer

I want to be your friend, your partner, your lover

I don't want to nurse you. I think I would die a little

I think it would kill us

Can't I let myself be loved? Because you do love me.

I know that. I feel it.

I feel the loss of it.

I am bereft.

Have I made the wrong decision?

Am I wrong?

Are you right?

I cannot ask you to wait for me to work myself out

That's too unfair. You've a life to live.

I think you will be happier without my doubts to hold you back and pull you down

I may regret, when you recover, and meet someone new

But that's my problem, and I'll deal with it

And wish you everything that you deserve

I hope she's wonderful

I hope she adores you

I know she will.

I love you.

I'm sorry.

[cantaloupe]

Miss you today. Wish we could talk. Know you are busy with your family.

 

I'm feeling better about things but know that if we ever talked again I'd be sent right back to square zero. I haven't tried anything new in the past few days, I've been taking it easy on myself to get back on track. This is another reason I know that I am not ready to talk to you. I haven't had to time to fully take care of me.

 

Still don't understand how you could have so little concern for me.

 

4 days of not contacting you. Curious if you even notice.

 

I don't even feel the need to tell you that I love you anymore. Crazy.

[SugarHoney]

Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch...

 

My heart hurts so so much.

 

I don't have words to describe the pain.

 

I don't know how you can be so cold after all the touchy feely stuff the other and I've still no idea why you did all that really..

 

Just to throw an extra couple of knives into my heart

[Almond_Joy]

I meant something to you and you won't admit it now. That's driving me up the effing wall. I can't believe you'd forget about me, or that you never think of me anymore.

 

What am I supposed to do with this frustration, with this lack of connection? Being with you opened up a part of me I never gave to anyone. And you just.......walked away from it. Said to yourself "Eh, I can do better." I don't understand why what I have to offer wasn't what you said you wanted anymore. How can you change like that, from one day to the next, with no explanation? I hate that I'm obsessing over this AGAIN.

 

I don't want you back, but I want to understand what happened. Because besides your complete and absolute cutting of me out of your life, you are by all appearances the same exact guy. Nothing else seems to have changed, except how you see me. ....WTH? This is sooooooooo confusing.

 

My life is great, but you made it a little brighter. And no matter what I tell myself, I can't forget that. I can't dismiss it or invalidate it, because it's the truth. I haven't found something/someone to equal that brightness yet, and it's making me so restless. I truly wish I'd never known I could feel this way, or connect with someone like I did with you, if I knew that it would end like this. I could waste my life pursuing this feeling. The searching and waiting is worth it if I find it again. But what guarantee of that is there? None. F***.

 

I don't know how I feel when I look at your website. You take your clients to some of the nature places that we used to go to. And I know you love those places the same way I do. I wonder if the company of your clients is all you need....or if you take some new loved one there in your free time. The thought that you take someone else there....that someone else is special to you the way you said I was.....it doesn't hurt, it just confuses me. Like, what about me made our shared appreciations so insignificant? I have a suspicion that you're lying, though. Lying about being committed to someone so that you don't have to bother with women throwing themselves at you all the time. Or maybe that's what you want: you do love to be looked up to and respected and admired. Any girl could give you that. If that's all you want, then I guess you're set.

 

I waste so much energy thinking about you. Mostly because this could have been avoided so easily. 5 minutes of your time could have prevented this. But you already know this. You knew this when you did what you did. The truth is, you didn't want me in your life anymore. How you really feel about me, or what would/could/should have been done is irrelevant. It is what it is. And even though I have these bad days, where I think about you a lot, I'm accepting that. I thought I had done that already, but apparently I haven't completely moved on.

 

I battle with deciding whether or not you're the best match for me. These urges to see you come, and they go. I don't know if I want them gone forever, if I want that day to come. It would set me at ease to know that the memory of our time together crosses your mind, and brings a smile to your face. That you laugh at the jokes we shared, and remember the rush of warmth we felt when we saw each other. Maybe I'm naive, but I can't believe someone can fake that. You are denying to yourself that what we had was amazing. I am naive to think it's rare, I guess, but experience isn't convincing me of otherwise.

 

**sigh** well I've spent all the mental energy I can spare for now on you. As always, I hope you're doing well. I honestly hope you're happy too. I'd be happier with you in my life, but I can't say I'm unhappy. I love where I am, and where I'm going in life. I hope you find the love you're looking for. I have faith that I will, one day.

[lovesickmonkey]

I don't want to change your mind,

I don't want to waste your time.

I just want to know you're alright.

I've got to know you're alright;

You are young, darling

For now, but not for long

Under control.