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[Rorschach64]

Dear N,

 

I still love you but I feel since all this time has pasted do I even know you anymore? Hell, even the break up showed me this side of you I never knew existed so I guess I didn't really truly know you or how cruel you could be. I still love you though and forgive you.

 

People tell me that you were only seeking attention and then when I wanted things to get real and special between us that it caused you to run and turn in to a monster. They also suggest that the person that you left me for, even though you denied it up and down which I know now that is just a self defense mechanism, wasn't the only guy you had in your pocket.

 

I still love you, I still check my e-mail waiting for you to ask me how I am or that you miss me so it can reassure me you care even a little bit about me. At this point I know that this would probably be only a manuever just to stroke your ego and/or to know that I am still here waiting for you in the least bit.

 

I have no idea what our futures hold but I guess it is best to assume that we will never be together. I still love you though and still think you are beautiful how you are, just you need to grow up and learn what a real relationship is.

 

Sincerely R.

[Johnboys82]

i wanna kill her brother and am actually planning an attack on the prick. who the **** do they think they are treatin me like **** and walkin away after bleedin me dry to take drugs and spend their life in pubs when i lost everything on an apartment for the bitch when she stayed a month and walked away. wanna kill d cunt she text hi out of the blue just to wind me up and probably reel me into a trap with her new fella if she has 1! going mental.

[sunflower11]

I missed you this morning. I thought about you and it made my heart ache. I feel better, the pain comes and goes now and I am getting better everyday.

[Berlington Bob]

I thought I was getting better but I feel an intense urge today to call her and at least try to explain how much she hurt me. For 5 1/2 years she reeled me in talking about marrige and kids. Got me to feel comfortable letting go of my commitment-phobia and propose to her. Then out of the blue with no warning signs (yes im being honest with myself) she meets some guy at a bar and after making out with him for 2 hours she decides that what we had doesn't meen s**t. But she doesnt tell it to me like that, she drags me on for 3 days of absolutley no sleep telling me she can't decide what to do... Like an idiot I believe her and tell myself its just cause she hasn't been getting much sleep and because she is so stressed out... Then she goes and sleeps with the guy while I am cleaning her house... I want to try and explain that there is something very very wrong with her and that she needs to get help. I want to tell her that it boggles my mind how someone can be so nice and caring for 5 1/2 years and then one second snap and do a 180. I want to tell her about G.I.G.S. and that she is only doing this because her friend who does nothing but sleep around and party is influencing her decision and making her feel trapped and that she didn't get to have the fun she thinks she sees her friend having...

 

The sad part is, as much as I have been telling myself otherwise for the last 2 weeks that I couldn't ever even think of being with her again. That even though the feelings of panic have for the most part passed so I am able to actually WANT things again instead of just wanting control back in my life... The sad part is I actually do want her back and I want what we had... I know its not a good idea logically but I seem to be having a tough time accepting things as they are.

 

I feel like I'm in denial but I'm so far in denial I dont know if I really do want her back but am telling myself I dont so I can get through life till she calls me to beg for me to come back or if I dont want her back at all but think I do because i'm going through withdrawl symptoms.

 

That is what I seem to want to tell her... Most of all I want her to tell me she misses me and to come home...

 

Thanks for this thread. I think I might have called her without it.

 

Thanks LS peeps.

[BillieAnn]

Love doesn't walk away, people do.

 

Unfortunately, yes

[Kamila]

I'm amazed at how a picture of you two made my heart flip. It's like I needed a push to deal with all my suppressed feelings for you. My heart vomitted emotions. I felt sick to my stomach. After a good colleague of mine was celebrating the fact that she got engaged and showed everyone her magnificent diamond ring, I couldn't be more pleased for her. We talked about where and when she would get married. After an hour I couldn't take it anymore. I felt my tears coming up and I escaped to the toilets.

 

I cried, oh I cried a lot I had to put my hand in front of my mouth in case someone would hear me. I stayed there for some minutes. It was like it was only yesterday that I broke up with you.

 

After a few hours, I felt better, but I'm still confused about this picture and how this is affecting me. After more than a year I should be over this no ?

 

What is my heart telling me ? That we really could have been in a good relationship ? It's not fair I get this shoved in my face. At the most crucial time I needed you, I needed validation from you. You asked me to trust you in the beginning. And I did. I never asked something impossible from you. I just needed something to get me going on. To keep moving with you. I wanted you to prove that people we're wrong about you. That you do care for me, that you do see a future with me. That I'm not deluding.

 

In the end, I stood there alone, and I felt so ashamed.

The nightmare begun from that day.

I hate that i love you so and that you don't see that.

[RecordProducer]

I promised myself never to pray to God for anything but for the health of my loved ones or my own (for their sake). I have to break this vow. Somebody has to die today or this week or this month. Somebody innocent in some terrible accident. Please God, if you have to let someone die, do not let that person die - have my ex die instead of that person.

[CopingGal]

I told you this morning that I wanted nothing more to do with you. You lied to me, used me, tricked me, and cheated on me. You psychologically abused me. You emotionally abused me. I know you are sick and I am sorry about that. You use people like pawns and you put them in place for your next move. I am very, very sorry that I ever met you. You took advantage of me time and time again. I feel very sorry for you. You ruin everything you touch. You feel that people were put on this earth to be manipulated for your agenda.

[radiodarcy]

i am bummed. that is all.

[SimonSerenade]

So it's almost another christmas without you, been quite overwhelmed lately with all the people that have been interested in me but yet... I just don't have it in me to take it any further with anybody, almost like the memories of you and the feelings we shared are holding me back from being happy again... if that's even at all possible, I geuss the way we felt back then still lingers in my heart and mind, I wish I could discard those feelings and memories like you did but there so precious to me but I geuss I've got to stop living in the past and get a grip and find myself a future.

 

Life with you was good back then, I honestly never thought it would end and since it has, I feel I've lost myself a bit and just sort of wander around aimlessly, for the most part I am over you... I just wish all of what I've experienced and been through had meaning and worth to it, I needed that closure but you chose not to give me a reason and let me second geuss everything, we never talked about why we ended or anything that we meant to eachother before we said goodbye, hardly an ending fit for the kind of loving relationship that we once had.

 

I hope one day we can talk about it... but I geuss until that day, I gotta move on best I can and see where somebody else can take me

[ChelseaLS]

B,

 

My heart skips a beat when you stop by my office day after day, but then it sinks when I don't hear from you all weekend. I want you to call me, but I also don't want you to call me. If you were to call, make it a call full of self discovery and reconcilliation. Otherwise I don't ever want to hear from you. I don't want to see you. Not because I hate you, but because when I see your face I melt; when I hear your voice I melt. You are so handsome, smart, and you made me laugh.

 

When we met I had a giant wall up, but you broke it down, only to leave. I had been burned before and so you weren't supposed to find your way in. 42 days after BU and I cannot help but love you unconditionally and think about you constantly. I was so proud of us, of our relationship. I was certain we were going to be together forever.

 

It brings me to tears when I think of a future with you not in it. Know that I love you, but know that I am doing what I can to move on. Know that I am respecting your request for space and time, but I cannot wait around, its too painful on this heart of mine.

 

C

[ThisMan]

Well, I broke and texted he didnt reply. I'm okay with that. I needed to get something off my chest and he needed to hear. I will begin again with NC. However I feel better sense I cleared my thought. You don't have to reply as I stated, but you do need to hear me. I don't hate you. You say you don't hate me either. But your pain comes from somewhere other than what your expressing. I think it's because I left the organization. Well, I had to. I couldnt be around you feeling like I do. It was best that I removed myself. You say your okay with it, but if that was really true, why are you mad? saying never to call or text, email you ever again. True enough you said this before and we got pass it.. But this time I was going to call your bluff. And I did. Yep, I know your saying " Since when Have I ever listen to you whenever you tell me not to do something" Well, I love you and I can get you back if I want. Gonna take some work, but not sure if I want to try. Don't be mad forever.. I left to make our lives easier. I thought I was doing us both a favor. Now, your sad and mad.

[IfiKnewThen]

your just a real a......

 

you were absolutely great to me, yeah. i made the most foolish mistakes of my life not treating you more tenderly and lovingly. i messed up royally. but you were completely clueless as to how much you were loved and admired. and yes..that's my fault too. i was a complete and utter failure.

 

but the cruelness and coldness in you in the end....you can take responsibility and ownership for that all on your own. you'll never know how much i humbled myself and how much of that i could have given over to you. and all you could do was to practically spit in my face and not care if i was dead or alive. at least that's how it feels. as perfect as you were...thats a soil on your character.

 

i dont know what else to make of this pain.

[Lis007]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Edited November 19, 2011 by Lis007

[Niaka44]

I really thought this was all behind me. I got close to someone else and didn't think about you at all, so I thought I was done missing you. But then I realized what this guy was doing with me was essentially what I did to you this summer, the thing I did you still don't know about and never will know about.

 

It's been 115 days since I left you, 89 since we've spoken. That's the longest we've gone without speaking in 4 years. And the last time I actually saw you was before I left you, so that means more than 115 days. That's probably the longest I've gone without seeing you since the first time I met you in middle school. These numbers blow my mind and hurt my heart. I know how stupid that sounds and I don't care. I miss you.

 

I deleted our message thread on Facebook. There were way too many happy/painful memories in there. I'm in the process of allowing myself to read our Skype chat log one last time before I delete that too. It's killing me. I can't stop crying. I know we may never speak again, let alone be friends, but at least I know we had this once. We had so much and no one can take that away from me, not even you with your silence. I apologized and I know it probably meant nothing, especially since it was done via text, but I knew I couldn't call. I've wanted to call. I almost did call last week, but maybe you wouldn't answer. Maybe you deleted my number. I think you'd still recognize it if you saw it. I hope you would.

 

I told my best friend that I no longer love you, but I think I was wrong. I think part of me will always love you, because I think when you truly love someone you keep a piece of that love forever. And you told me you'd always love me, but that was before we cut each other out of our lives so maybe you've changed your mind. I wish I could say I hope that if you do have someone else now, you're happy with her, but I just don't know if I can want you to happy with someone that isn't me. I hope I get there though.

[fenderjames]

Are you off to the Santa Claus parade with the wee one this morning ? Bet she's wicked excited . I remember last year she was starting to wonder about the big Santa lie . I was uptown watching it , but got too cold so came home . I truely wish I was indifferent to what you've been up to, apparently I haven't reached that phase (yet ) . I can't wait til these @*#% holidays are done .

[BigDumbFoot]

I can't live without you today AC. You meant the world to me. Everything that I did for the last 6 years was for you (obviously to my detriment, cuz look where I am now). I am not in a good way these days. It's been four months and I still question whether or not I'll ever get better. I know that you are not suffering like I am.. not while you're with 'that guy'. And speaking of 'that guy', how could you be so ****ty to me, and lie to me as much as you did when we were breaking up? Why did you give me some line of bull**** about wanting to be single and not wanting to be seen as "AC and Bobby" and instead wanting to just be "AC".. And then you immediately hooked up with someone else. You knew what you were doing.. you knew that you just had strong feelings for someone else. Why did you have to play mind games with me and tell me you wanted to be single when clearly you didn't.. I know there's no way that relationship will last.. But I also know how incredibly insecure you are. You are insecure and stubborn, so i know that you will probably just try to hop into yet another relationship because you think that's the only way you're going to be able to heal.. I feel bad for you.. I may be alone, but at least I'm gaining insights into myself now. Something I wouldn't be able to do if I had rebounded like you did. I was tempted to, trust me. But it's not worth it.. I can't be as selfish as you are and bring someone else into this pit with me..

 

It just comes down to this.. I don't get you. You're reasoning didn't make any sense to me. Yes things get a little stale in relationships sometimes, but people who make a nigh 7 year commitment to each other should be able to work them out and not run away into someone else's arms. It's your loss AC not mine. I wonder if you'll be able to live with what you've done to me in a few years from now. You let something really great go by the wayside. Good luck with your life.

[ChelseaLS]

B,

 

Damn you. You have been on my mind a lot these past few days. I am not really sure why, nothing out of the ordinary has happened.

I just wish you would have an epiphany and be on my door step. Selfish I know.. but you still have my heart.

I feel like I really don't deserve to be feeling this way. Why didn't I get the lasting relationship? I am a good person. It seems so incredibly unfair. It's so unfair that you never told me how you were feeling, you just expected me to read your mind. I didn't have a fighting chance. I didn't see what I was doing was pushing you away, I thought it was the sweet gf thing to do. Oh the things I would change now if I could go back in time. I wish it was a year from now, I wish I was off this roller coaster.

I miss you. I love you.

 

C

[motive2002]

It's over and I'm coming to terms with it.

 

You strung me along for 2 months while you were dating someone else. Telling me how attractive and amazing I was.. and that if it didn't work out with the other guy, you would definitely want to be with me.

 

Well it happened. You broke it off with the other guy. Started dating me. Everything seemed great until you dumped me out of the blue just a month later. No real reason. No explanation. Probably to get back with the other guy I would assume.

 

I have had all I can possibly stand from you. Your lack of respect for me has been proven time and time again and I'm just not gonna take it anymore.

 

Begone, and don't ever come back.

[nevadagirl]

I don't know what psychological label to affix to you but I'm sure there is one. You were hilariously sensitive yet completely insensitive to me. I got robbed at gunpoint a few days before our last Christmas together and you didn't even have the decency to send me a courtesy mesage the next day to ask how I was feeling. Or to show up at a decent time for our 'scheduled day' to hang out. You punished me for not being "affectionate" enough - yet this is the kind of **** I dealt with all the time. And now? You're finally over me after dumping me for the 4th time in a year? Yet you never stopped emailing me, inviting me to chat, sending me pictures of you, stalking my stupid dating profile - because God forbid for ONCE I tried to move on rather than sitting in my room sobbing over you hoping that you come back. **** your public Facebook - **** me for looking at it but I think there's only so much someone witha broken heart can take before you're able to get under their skin. So hey you're really cool now. You FINALLY moved out of your parent's house - couldn't do that while we were together could you? Oh but you could leave me without a ****ing place to live the DAY before we signed the lease on OUR apartment your pathetic piece of ****. So you go and visit the one girl you made me feel the most horrible over - your ex - and you take pictures - and they're public right there for anyone to see on ****ing Fakebook.

 

I know it's in vain but I hope these snapshots of The Great Life you've created are simply that - snapshots. Some part of you has to know you're a piece of ****. So enjoy your gangbang rooms - I hope you can't ****ing get it up. You wanted to have a sexy life with us - what I couldn't tell you is IT WASN'T ATTRACTIVE for me to see girls having a LOUSY TIME with you.

 

You think I was just insecure? **** you I was the one who initiated that whole stage of our relationship together. You got a taste and wanted more but didn't know how the **** to even perform.

 

So I hope it's ALL SO HOT AND SEXY FOR YOU NOW ON ADULT FRIEND FINDER GANGBANG HOUSE UP IN BUM****.

 

Enjoy going to VENUES TO SEE ALL THE INDY BANDS YOU MADE FUN OF THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. Enjoy being the hipster sell out that you HATED so much. Enjoy not being the most judgmental ******* in the world - something I had to deal with for two years. I guess something just HAD to be wrong with me to not find DRINKING AND CLUBBING AND EXPERIMENTING so bad, huh? I hate you.

 

I hope you catch something.

[dicky_fish]

Change back!

 

If it was so simple for you to change then just do it again so we can go back to being normal!

 

6 months and I still love you with all my heart. I just want you in my arms again. I want to marry you.

 

I can't betray who I am anymore.

 

Please just have another Harrogate moment!

 

I love you Fi xxxxx

[ladyravenloft]

Hello Pet,

 

It's been over a month since you told me you needed time to think (and just a few hours later I learned you had a gf), and I've not heard a word from you, regardless of your vow that I would.

 

It hurts, I won't lie. It makes me no longer believe you ever loved me, and it made me question myself, wondering how I could have been so blind and stupid to have trusted you so much, even over looking the signs you were giving me.

 

Even though you have caused me so much pain, you've also done some things that I must thank you for. You've made me grow stronger, since I am learning how to push past the pain I've been feeling in order to improve myself and keep going towards my goals.

 

You've made me realize I can't fully trust anyone except myself, and that I can save myself a lot of heartache if I would just listen to my instinct.

 

All those plans we had about moving in together, sharing the rest of our lives, well....obviously that's not going to happen....at least not with you. You see, I've always been on good terms with my exhusband. He didn't want our divorce, I did because I wanted him to make some changes that he realized after we split were actually for his own health and benefit.

 

For two years he worked on making those changes and I never noticed, too busy focusing on you and your lies. Now that you've disappeared without a goodbye like a coward, I've been sobbing on my ex's shoulder. And I've now seen the changes, and view him in a new light.

 

Yes, you left me without reason and without a goodbye, only for me to find out that you've been playing me for a fool for quite some time now but instead of being angry, I'm actually thankful. Because of you, I'm now back in a relationship with a man that truly loves and appreciates me. And while I still have a little bit of sorrow to work through, the majority of my thoughts of you are simply pity and even amusement. I know you haven't changed, and that if your new girl doesn't leave you first, you'll pull a vanishing act on her. Karma will soon bite you on your sorry rear, pet. Enjoy it. I know I will, especially while I'm making love to my fellow.

[ChelseaLS]

Dear B,

 

Call me? Call me with a revelation.

I am not sure why you have been on my mind all weekend. I am struggling here. I want to call you. I want you to hold me. I want to kiss you. God dammit I miss you.

Don't forget me... I am still here. I want to be here forever, but I cannot wait. Come back to me.

Why oh why do I feel like this? I've been doing so well and then you pop in to my thoughts.

I miss you. Thats all I can say... I miss you.

 

C

[nonameone]

Call me. Text me. Email me. Anything. I keep checking my phone. Call me and tell me you've had second thoughts. This is killing me. I don't want to be alone. I want our life back.

 

This is me in a weak moment. I wonder how many times I've checked my phone.

 

I'm afraid I'll be alone forever, or I'll never find someone like you. I want to find someone better and I want it to get back to you.

[wmids]

Hi, i hope your okay. When i said i didn't want to be friends was wrong, it was ment as i can;t be friends with you at the moment.

 

4 years and a million memories and avdentures we shared together, the best 4 years of my life were with you.

Yeah we had some rough times togeher but if we're friends then ill always be in love with you and always be heartbroken.

 

And in my heart i will always love you and be thankful i got to share so much of my life with you.

I dont regret moving all of my life here to be with you i only regret not being the best person i could be for you until it was too late.

 

i will always only ever want you, thats how in love with you i was.

 

Because i love you so much all i want for you is to be happy in life and if i can never make you happy with me thats why i want to let you go