Dragonsden Posted February 27, 2012 Share Posted February 27, 2012 I saw your facebook page today and read some of your status updates. So glad to see you are happy. I thought of sending this one for real but may be I will wait longer. Link to post Share on other sites
Bradly Posted February 27, 2012 Share Posted February 27, 2012 I Think I'm starting to fall out of love with you... I miss the attention and affection of true love.... Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted February 27, 2012 Share Posted February 27, 2012 Update: You're still nasty. Go and wash your filthy, raggedy buttocks. OMG!!!!! I don't think I've laughed this hard in forever!!!! Thank you for the much needed laugh:) Spent the better part of today walking around baffled and quite sad:) I need to be creative and write one of those notes, LOL!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
padparadscha Posted February 27, 2012 Share Posted February 27, 2012 I'm sorry your brain works the way it does. I'm sorry your so dysfunctional. I'm sorry you look at relationships as merely a way to use women. I'm sorry you are a compulsive liar. I can't imagine what it must be like to live life the way you do.... Amen to that sister! I feel you. To the liar who pretended he was such a strong Christian when he was really a demon, I will simply say your a fu^^^&ing fool. I figured out all those things going wrong with my phone bill and website really were you. My mother warned me. She was onto your ass long ago. She told me you are not as dumb as you keep acting. She said nobody is that stupid and still functioning. She told me someone close to me was trying to rob me. She assured me it was you. I realize that the moment I changed my phone number and did not give it to you....and the moment I changed my credit card number you decided no more talk of marriage instead lets talk about break up. Then the wife I never knew about magically appearing from Africa. No wonder you are not contacting me. The game did not go your way. Your a liar, a thief and a conartist. I was dumb in love but did you honestly think I was dumb with my own money as well? Okay I admit after over three years together I wanted to marry you. I was an idiot too blinded by love for you to realize you were trying to rob me blind. I just figured it out tonight. One month after we broke up and the wounds still wont heal I realize now I got played badly. I was just an all around fool right? Jokes on you thief, you could not get "All of me." Get a real job and stop using women's weaknesses. Tell your filthy wife 350 pound to get a job as well. Who does that? You are both disgusting conartist and I wish you would go back to your countries and stop praying on Americans. You hurt me. YOu got a good laugh because my heart is broken. My wallet is not. You failed that task but lucky you, and that dirty wife got me good. I cant stop thinking about this. It hurts. Hahhahahaha jokes on me right Link to post Share on other sites
smoke_n_mirrors Posted February 27, 2012 Share Posted February 27, 2012 This was a letter I was thinking of sending a week ago--- Dear....... You were never supposed to mean so much to me, if anything at all. I was so proud of how I started out, so strong, so bold and so calm. I was everything I wanted to be and then I met you. And when we met, I didn't like you. Perhaps sleeping with you too soon was the fault, but I have a feeling this would have ended the same way no matter what. I did what I felt like doing and you created meanings out of nothings. You are a superior salesman and have a gift at taking cheaply made emotions and turning them into valuable works of art. You poisoned me with words, feelings, acts and demonstrations that were toxic to my system. In a matter of weeks, I crumbled into petty pieces in your palm. You had me fall. And somehow, as I fell, you vanished. So as I slammed against the ground and shattered into the thousand pieces I had so diligently put back together BEFORE I met you, you were not to be found. Not a peep, not a sound, not a bang, not even a goddamn whimper. And this is how the world ends... So here I am, everyday, pasting and gluing and piecing together fragments. It's a beautiful, painful and devastating process. And though you worked so hard to have everything be about you, this, 'friend', has nothing to do with you. You will not be found in the crevices and healed over cracks, nor in the glue or grout of every fragile piece. No, your initials won't be found nor a portrait or quick scribble. All that remains is a small scar, the width of a fingernail and in the curve of an old and dying moon on the top of my wrist. But as time passes, the story of that too will be forgotten. Yes, you too will be forgotten, erased and completely misplaced amongst the scoundrels of my history. You are but a minor character in a story so much bigger than yourself, so much fuller. Enjoy suckling the desperation out of Fate's teats, as that's all I see in store for you. So, salesman, best of luck. Perhaps I mean it, perhaps I don't. But either way enjoy the ride and I am hopeful that you too, one day, will be left poisoned and shattered amongst the muck. I believe it'll be the greatest learning experience you'll ever have and perhaps it'll give you a chance to quell the demons that gnaw at your joints and heartstrings. But then again, you might just remain the heartless bastard you made yourself out to be. Forever. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 27, 2012 Share Posted February 27, 2012 I'm glad you didn't think I was a good fit for you. I would never want to be a good fit for an abuser. You said the old, ignorant smoker/alcoholic was a better fit for you. That's such a shame. Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Things I wish I could say to him, but using this to vent, LOL.... Dear..... Please remember, when having a new lady to your home, to toss all of your ex wife's things that you have saved for whatever reason. When I went to put my makeup bag under your sink, there were pads and Massengill that is no longer made. Your divorce was final over 2 years prior. I was tempted to stick the pads all over your bathroom,but I figure you would toss them out after I told you about it. you pushed them aside to make room for new things instead, thusly keeping these notions. Also, each time I tried to discuss your sexual dysfunction with you, you blamed it all on me and make a crude joke about it. Mind you, if you want any kind of success with the ladies in the intimate department, you must always remember to wash down there. No lady enjoys the smell of a port potty on a sweltering summer day in Oaxaca. I tried tolerating that, but I could hardly hold my breath any longer. Still you were all saggy, droopy and floppy. I hope your new g/f appreciates that better than I could. Oh! Don't eat too much, burp, fart and roll over to sleep with your back turned to her while she is dressed in something sexy. Women frown on stuff like that. We are never too tired in the beginning of a relationship for a little romp. Maybe because you gained so much weight from eating at Nifty Fifties all the time? Also, you can't tell her she is your goddess while telling 6 other ladies on Facebook that they are goddesses/godii? and think this is acceptable behavior. We ladies like to feel like we are the one and only. And don't think I didn't hear you passing wind when you rolled over on me. "CAN'T A GUY SLEEP??!!! I WORK ALL DAY' is also not acceptable in the honeymoon stage. Just keeping you in the know. Telling a lady that every lady in his past is a psycho who gave you drama is frowned upon as well. She will be the next psycho, I am pretty sure. you behave in a controlling way; blocking a lady when she sees dubious behavior isn't the answer, either. Doing so makes you look guilty. What's that? You wanted to be friends on FB but fixed the settings so I could not see your wall? Very mature for a 44 year old. Glad you finally found someone after trolling at least 6 dating sites your ex wife told me about. You said you were going to tell me when the time was right. I did the math--you were on all these active sites when you begged me to spend a weekend with you and withheld affection. After that weekend, you quickly dropped me off and were quick to tell another woman on your page how absolutely beautiful her smile was--and forgetting to call me. 2 ladies saw through you and blocked you--I did not brainwash them such as you have tried explaining to them. Though, I do thank you for assuming I have that kind of power over someone--I have decided to take that as a compliment, since compliments were few and far between. All of a sudden you wanted a woman with long legs, someone older with a different style hair. I am barely 5 feet tall and 3 years younger than you. Sorry, but my hair does what it does. I stumbled upon your latest picture of you and your new love interest; there you are eating as usual. You look quite old for your age, those crow's feet are godawful and from the looks of things, your breasts are 4 sizes bigger than mine. Maybe you should invest in "the bro" to hold those suckers up. Lastly, I hope that you remember who you are with. No calling your new girlfriend by your ex wife's name. You called me by her name at least 6 times and acted like you didn't realize it and then say "sorry, but I am still healing from my divorce"---don't get with someone until you are healed. We ladies like to be called by our own names. Hey, maybe you will slip an call her by my name. If you were a decent man, we could have parted as friends, but you are horrid. Abusive and using ladies for your own personal gain. You kept reiterating to me how much you miss that extra income and someone to keep house. You didn't count on one of my friends telling me that you had the audacity to ask her how much she was making from her divorce settlement and what her income was. I hope you get what is coming to you, you smelly, grossly overweight, sweatpants wearing-in the summertime, disgusting slob...... whew!!!!!!!!! that felt good!!!!!!!!!!:bunny: 1 Link to post Share on other sites
padparadscha Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Things I wish I could say to him, but using this to vent, LOL.... Also, each time I tried to discuss your sexual dysfunction with you, you blamed it all on me and make a crude joke about it. Mind you, if you want any kind of success with the ladies in the intimate department, you must always remember to wash down there. No lady enjoys the smell of a port potty on a sweltering summer day in Oaxaca. I tried tolerating that, but I could hardly hold my breath any longer. Still you were all saggy, droopy and floppy. I hope your new g/f appreciates that better than I could. whew!!!!!!!!! that felt good!!!!!!!!!!:bunny: Oh I almost forgot about that part. You see I made him chase after me. He courted me for a year before I finally had sex with him. A year of trying to build a future with a man I loved. He told me he loved that about me. After a year of celebacy, I got a chance to test out his ride. It had no trouble staying up so I just knew this would be a nice ride. His big gigantic thingy could not last longer than 30 seconds. Thats right I had already invested a year into the relationship so I figured eventually he will improve. Two extra years later no improvement. Still coming before I had a chance to say, "Is it in?" I bought him a timer. I even tried a vibrating ring in him. Nothing worked. He came twenty seconds after the condom got on. But he waited for me (so I thought) so I will wait for his nasty ass. Tried to train him. **** after over a year of not having sex ( I was celebate when he met me) I felt like a Pro trying to train him how to hold it. But you can't teach and old 44 year old dog new tricks. Its because he is so Christian he only had sex one woman in Africa and with his wife who was also a virgin. Yeah right. I was naive. He was the winner in fooling me. He was simply inadequate in bed. Now that you mention it BewitchedandBothered, those two teeth that fell out that he could not replace because it cost over $5,ooo.00 will have to be replaced if he wants to keep someone. I always shuttered at the sight, but being the stand by your man type of woman I decided after 2 years of dating him I was not going to bail out because he was now missing the teeth he dated me with. That just wouldn't be right. Oh well, the new woman that he will lie to and pretend he is not married to a woman in Africa will be happy to date his toothless, non-performing ass I am sure. Well that's if she doesn't hop into bed with him. Still he better get the teeth fixed to be on the safe side....... 2 Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Oh I almost forgot about that part. You see I made him chase after me. He courted me for a year before I finally had sex with him. A year of trying to build a future with a man I loved. He told me he loved that about me. After a year of celebacy, I got a chance to test out his ride. It had no trouble staying up so I just knew this would be a nice ride. His big gigantic thingy could not last longer than 30 seconds. Thats right I had already invested a year into the relationship so I figured eventually he will improve. Two extra years later no improvement. Still coming before I had a chance to say, "Is it in?" I bought him a timer. I even tried a vibrating ring in him. Nothing worked. He came twenty seconds after the condom got on. But he waited for me (so I thought) so I will wait for his nasty ass. Tried to train him. **** after over a year of not having sex ( I was celebate when he met me) I felt like a Pro trying to train him how to hold it. But you can't teach and old 44 year old dog new tricks. Its because he is so Christian he only had sex one woman in Africa and with his wife who was also a virgin. Yeah right. I was naive. He was the winner in fooling me. He was simply inadequate in bed. Now that you mention it BewitchedandBothered, those two teeth that fell out that he could not replace because it cost over $5,ooo.00 will have to be replaced if he wants to keep someone. I always shuttered at the sight, but being the stand by your man type of woman I decided after 2 years of dating him I was not going to bail out because he was now missing the teeth he dated me with. That just wouldn't be right. Oh well, the new woman that he will lie to and pretend he is not married to a woman in Africa will be happy to date his toothless, non-performing ass I am sure. Well that's if she doesn't hop into bed with him. Still he better get the teeth fixed to be on the safe side....... Totally relating here. Initially he could get it up, but he could never orgasm. there were 2 instances where he got off me really fast and said he had to go to the bathroom; my gut tells me he finished off in the bathroom. Came back and wanted to go to sleep. His ex wife and ex g/f told me he had trouble in that area; they both said he 'took forever' and always seem distracted. He told me once "I giggle when I come". Creepy. Sorry, but that is creepy. Altough I did listen in when he was in the bathroom for a giggle. After awhile he told me he could not perform because I wasn't tight enough.--his words. he had a lot of odd fantasies, too, which, when I tried fulfilling them, he didn't react at all or ignored me. He had this creepy pantyhose fetish. I put on the thigh highs and heels and he straight up ignored me. Control I am sure is what that was about. Or maybe our guys are gay and you and I were the experiments? A common thread is my ex had little experience as well. Married his first who left him for another woman. The ex g/f said all they did was oral---he was obsessed with it; giving it and even bragged about his 'magic tongue'. I said, show me these references--who tells you you have a magic tongue??? LOL Honestly, though, my ego hopes that his new g/f gets to experience his lack of normalcy down there. There is always that fear that maybe it was me. but if his last 2 ladies said he had trouble and I saw he had trouble, then he's got some trouble. We weren't together that long when I asked him why he can't ejaculate. He told me that if it would make me happy, he would do so on my face. I shut down the chat immediately, I was creeped out and offended. We were only an item for about a month, I believe (talked and chatted for 5 months). He told me he never talked sexual to a lady and felt odd about it, but when he was abusing me, he found a friend of mine on Plenty Of Fish and talked sexually to her that night---told her what he likes in bed. I can't figure him out. His crudeness is bound to come out with this new one right??? 1 Link to post Share on other sites
padparadscha Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Totally relating here..... when I tried fulfilling them, he didn't react at all or ignored me. He had this creepy pantyhose fetish. I put on the thigh highs and heels and he straight up ignored me. Control I am sure is what that was about. Or maybe our guys are gay and you and I were the experiments? Wow, were we dating the same man? You talk about him and its making me see who I was with. I was on here upset because I did not understand why he deceived me after all we had together. That part eats at me. Yet reading your post is bringing back memories of RED FLAGS I ignored. I swear he never looked at me either. Did we date the same man? I never needed to buy anything sexy for him. I could have holes in all my undergarments and he would never care. He was not a visual person, which is why when he flew the wife in from Africa she was 350 pounds by the looks of things. She had one half her head weaved and the other half still needing to be done. Did he care? Nope! He did not want or need anything sexy nor did he do a thing to look appealing. He was not into being sexy. It was unchristian in his eyes. He told me although I am not religious that Adventist women did not wear jewelry nor did they wear makeup or anything to adorn themselves so he did not want anything sexy. If anything he wanted me to take off the nail polish and the gold. I didn't because its not my religion, but he asked me often to. I always made him wash. It was not spontaneous, but he wore the same underpants for at least a month to bed. He never changed them. He hung the underpants over his chair when he came home from work. Then he would put them on when he went to sleep. The underwear never got washed until after a month. He told me that was because he showered and he was clean and Africans did not need a lot of clothing. Because of my past, I was not intimate with more than three men. The other two were not highly sexual either. My relationships normally last many years.... him and I being the shortest. I dated "many" men, but only was only intimate with three so I did not have many men I was with sexually with to compare him with, so I figured its a "Guy thing." So I just told him he had to wash. Now I realize that this was just filthy even for a guy. Your making me remember. Funny, how your words are making me remember. Were we with the same men? Goodness...hahahahhahahaha it's nice to laugh about. He is gone but I realize that I now that I had truly lowered my standards. I was about to marry a man I did not belong with. Even if he did not have a wife in Africa and even if he was not on the internet searching like your man. Regardless, I still did not belong with a man with such low morals, dirty habits and who used God as his cover to do wrong. Someone is going to get that man and not ask him to wash. They are going to get in the bed with him and unlike me they will not make him change his sheets. Uggg, he's going to lie to them as he tried unsuccessfully to do to me and say, "I just washed them two days ago, they are the same sheets but they are clean." Everything gets washed after a month in his world. Your making me remember....Gosh you have me laughing when I was kinda depressed. Hahahahahahaha oh I am laughing. Someone got that "PRIZE WINNING PIECE OF S#@T." I have wasted brain power trying to understand why he did all he did to deceive me and now I have my answer thanks to you. He did it because he was a dirty filthy liar. The saying is, "It takes one to know one." So I was baffled and confused and hurting because I am not one. So how could I know until you started posting about your heartache. Suddenly the things I wanted to contact him about and ask why are clear as a bell..... Hahahahahaha 1 Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 OMG!!!!! I don't think I've laughed this hard in forever!!!! Thank you for the much needed laugh:) Spent the better part of today walking around baffled and quite sad:) I need to be creative and write one of those notes, LOL!!!! I'm glad I could cheer you up. I have known some nasty men in my life. I once knew this guy who smelled sooo badly. I couldn't get his funk out of my face. His arm pits smelled like a dug hole that was visited by elephants. He gave me the most disgusting kiss ever. His tongue was coated with funk. It was like kissing socks that had been worn every day for six months and then rolled around in a mixture of rotten eggs, black coffee, and cabbage soup. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Dear L, I still think about you. Sometimes the anger is strong. Sometimes my pity for you is stronger. You'll never be a good fit for any woman. That is the reality of it. I really feel so very sorry for you. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Dear L, You suck. -S Link to post Share on other sites
sadlittlebee Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 I'm leaving for Florida tomorrow. I should be excited. I've been waiting for this vacation for months now. But I don't know why I miss you so much right now. It just hit me today pretty hard. Not sad, not mad, ... just straight up missing you. I wanna talk to you SO bad. Like the good old days. Let's just go back. I've never missed someone this much. And that's really saying something in my life. My heart literally hurts. I wonder if this girl is just a phase.. like I was a phase.. like the one before me was a phase.. I wonder if you're ever gonna settle down and figure out which girl is really the right one for you. If it's with her, then fine. At least I'll know she's happy and your happy and it just wasn't in the cards for us to be together. But I really KNOW we had something special. We'll see. Give it a few months, you'll come visit my town and I'll get the call. Have your fun. And please.. I don't care if you hurt me, I can handle it. But please, don't hurt her. Please don't hurt your family anymore. Please don't hurt your future. Please don't hurt yourself. I know you're trying. Please. I love you. Together or not. I wanna see you go far and be happy. Prove everyone wrong. Prove me wrong. See you in another life, brotha. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 How many ice cream sandwiches have I eaten because I am so screwed up because of what you did? I was already very large and now I've gained a lot of weight, but POWER TO THE FATTIES! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I might never be thin again like I was in my senior year of high school, but I will be healthier. I'm going to change my life starting today! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
BewitchedandBothered Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 How many ice cream sandwiches have I eaten because I am so screwed up because of what you did? I was already very large and now I've gained a lot of weight, but POWER TO THE FATTIES! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I might never be thin again like I was in my senior year of high school, but I will be healthier. I'm going to change my life starting today! Can I just tell you??? I took an antidepressant; that is how awful I had been feeling; depressed and unable to function normally. I ended up gaining a ton of weight. The pill took the edge off and I felt numb, but I had this urge to eat. I would make toll house cookies just to eat the dough. That's how bad it was getting. I developed a terrible case of acne to sweeten the pot. So, I was depressed, overweight with acne. Eventually I weaned off the pill and took care of my health. Been going to the gym daily==that is my life saver. He got extremely overweight from what I saw in his picture with new love interest. Huge manboobs and of course, hand on plate in picture. He can have his food and his unfortunate new girlfriend. Link to post Share on other sites
Piggledow Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 I wish i'd registered last night and made use of this thread... it would have made today so much more bearable. made the mistake of contact. got backlash email making me out to be a monster from one of his friends. Dear X. while i still love you, you've really shown your true colours by your "friends" email i received today. the fact that you have surrounded yourself by people who will so readily sit down and type out more than a page worth of drivel, basically telling me how i made you miserable, i'm a miserable and dreadful person and a crazy b*tch to boot. someone i've never even met. if i really made you that miserable over the last two years, why would you move 200 miles to be nearer to me? why would you take me to meet both your parents, and your grandparents? how dare someone i've never even met tell me that i don't understand what the word "love" means? or just exclaim that i'm the one to make you miserable, the sole reason for that. i loved you to pieces. i still probably do. but you're not worth it. i wish i could give you up and move on as quickly as you did from me. i could paint you as a monster to everyone around me, like you did with me to the people around you. maybe that would make it easier. even though everyone thinks that of you anyway. and i'm still defending you. what kind of a fool does that make me? i know you don't care a single bit that you've destroyed me. i just wish i could make you see. impossible though. you're already done. Link to post Share on other sites
Follower Posted February 28, 2012 Share Posted February 28, 2012 Keri, i still want you back, havent heard from you for so long feels like a large peice of me is dying each day that goes past. Im much happier in life with all the things that are going right for me now, i just wish i could share it with you. I just hope that everything is good for you too. Link to post Share on other sites
The_Good_Me Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 Almost 11 months on and I still find myself crying at 4am simply because you're not here to hold in my arms. Why do you hate me when I love you so much? How can you be happy with someone who doesn't come close to caring about you the way I do? I hate what you have done to me and yet I'm cursed to love you until my heart finally stops beating. I long for that day, the day when I'll finally be free. Please don't let me wake up, I just want to sleep now. Link to post Share on other sites
Bradly Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 I still can't believe this happening to me. I can't stop thinking about you. It's driving me crazy... I just want to think about something else for 5 minutes. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!! I'm sorry... Link to post Share on other sites
padparadscha Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 Everything seems so sad. You have done me wrong. Its impossible to get back that illusion of what we were. It was all smoke and mirrors. It was all some fantasy but nothing at all was what it appeared. Yet I would give anything to wake up and have this emptiness be the nightmare. To wake up and what we had was the reality. Because it seems like I am so strong and I am handling everything but in reality I am wishing so hard that my life did not feel as if it has taken a turn for the worst. Its suppose to be better now that I am not living a lie. It's suppose to be safer and more...I dont know the words. BUt what it really is a trap. I trust nobody. I was barely trusting before, but now I lost the trust completely. I dont believe in love. I see no real evidence. Where does that leave me but empty? Alone. And terrified because my life is not better without you. There are so many things going wrong. I still wish we needed each other. I know you were pretending. I was not. I did rely on you. I did love you. I didnt know you had a wife and I just cant accept this at all. Everything was lie? Do you know how much I need you right now? Do you have any idea how much I wish you truly were at the very least a friend? But you couldn't even be truthful about that. Damn you! Damn you! I mean it. Damn you. Why did you have to string me along for all those years? Thats too many years. Alot of years and I am sorry but I could really use my friend right now. You were my bestfriend and I never knew you were my worst enemy. Gosh you have no idea the way I wish you were my bestfriend all over again. I need you. Not your lies. Not the smoke and mirrors. I need that man who always knew how to make me feel so safe and so protected. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 I hate what you have done to me and yet I'm cursed to love you until my heart finally stops beating. I long for that day, the day when I'll finally be free. Please don't let me wake up, I just want to sleep now. The_Good_Me, are you okay? There is so much more to life than this person. Don't do anything to harm yourself. There are lots of people who can support you here. PM me if you want to. I care. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 Can I just tell you??? I took an antidepressant; that is how awful I had been feeling; depressed and unable to function normally. I ended up gaining a ton of weight. The pill took the edge off and I felt numb, but I had this urge to eat. I would make toll house cookies just to eat the dough. That's how bad it was getting. I developed a terrible case of acne to sweeten the pot. So, I was depressed, overweight with acne. Eventually I weaned off the pill and took care of my health. Been going to the gym daily==that is my life saver. He got extremely overweight from what I saw in his picture with new love interest. Huge manboobs and of course, hand on plate in picture. He can have his food and his unfortunate new girlfriend. Thanks for sharing this with me. I'm on antidepressants too, but they work very good for me. I have been on them for a few years, as I have a chronic case of depression. I'm walking more. I'm going to be exercising too. It's just so hard because I sit for hours and hours and hours and do school work. But I am going to take care of myself. Link to post Share on other sites
jus d'orange Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 K, I don't know if you'll be back. My feelings say this couldn't have been the end. Maybe that's just a feeling... but your feelings ended us, so maybe mine are important, too. It doesn't matter. I have to live my own life now. There's so much I could do with my head besides stay trapped in this never-ending thought process. I have to go forward. Maybe in some months you'll get in touch. Maybe you won't. I guess it'll depend on if we can see eye to eye about who we could/should be. I know I'm ready to start closing you out of my head now, though. I've learned what I need to. I wonder if you will do the same. I just don't know... and I can't know. You know how deep my commitment was. It was beyond desperate clinging, and I think you knew that. Maybe someday you'll appreciate the depth of it; maybe you'll really feel it yourself, as you said you did. Nevertheless, I almost feel guilt over having to let you out of my mind. I suppose you don't deserve my commitment anymore. Still getting used to a future without you. Hope you're well, jus d'orange Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted February 29, 2012 Share Posted February 29, 2012 (edited) Hi L, I'm still disgusted with you. I can't believe you did all those things to me. It saddens me that you would stoop so incredibly low. I wish that someone would go into the gutter, scrape you up off the ground, put you in a box and mail you to Antartica. The penguins would walk all over your frozen butt and the polar bears could have a nice treat for lunch. You still are and forever will be...a filthy bombaclot. Edited February 29, 2012 by CopingGal Link to post Share on other sites
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