Gridlock23 Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 UNGHHHH why are you so dumbbbbb we were meant for each other... right? Link to post Share on other sites
Gridlock23 Posted May 28, 2012 Share Posted May 28, 2012 WHY are you so eager to throw away everything we had and knew we were happy with for a what if with your ex?! DO YOU RUN FROM HAPPINESS?!?!?!?! WHY CANT WE JUST BE HAPPY TOGETHER :'( WHAT CHANGED. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 My birthday celebration if winding down. It was so delightful. I see that I can have a great birthday without you. Link to post Share on other sites
abandonedandlost899 Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 What does she have that i dont? How do you just up and leave you family. Why dont you love me anymore? Link to post Share on other sites
Gridlock23 Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 :'( , I feel dead inside... anywhere I go you're there... I go on facebook, and you're online, and all I can think about is how happy you probably are without me whilst you talk with your ex, and how crushed I am and worthless without you in my life.. Sometimes I wonder if you miss me at all, or if you really did get over me that easily... Link to post Share on other sites
Frank13 Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 (edited) This really sucks. 5 months no contact and I seem to be doing worse. I don't know if you are missing me or not. If you aren't that is all the more reason to stay no contact. If you are, you haven't reached out to me so what difference does it make? I know you didn't care, at least not nearly as much as I did. It is dumb but if I knew you were hurting, it would be easier for me to move on. Your silence tells me you don't care and don't miss me so either way it should be easy to move on. When we used to fight and stop speaking, you went to great lengths to remind me that you were still around. You used to hate the fact that I could pretend you didn't exists. It bothered you that that I seemed happy without you. So why doesn't it bother you now? Out of sight out of mind or we are done so that's it? I miss my best friend so much!!! I have no one to talk to or do anything with. Although, when I really needed some support, you criticized me. Then when you knew it upset me, you made sure to follow it up with an email attacking me more. So what did I lose really? If I had no one, I would have still had no support, but at least I wouldn't have been criticized either. Part of feels the need to reach out and put this all to rest. I kind of think we both think we hate each other. Maybe if we clear the air and say a proper good bye, we, or at least I, can let go. This really really sucks. I am getting so tired of feeling like crap when by this time I should be feeling better. NC is supposed to make me feel like I have power and am in control. What difference does it make if we never see or talk to each other again? I know I won't contact you. What is the point? I just don't see having any power or control when you don't care and aren't missing me enough to contact me. Edited May 29, 2012 by Frank13 Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 :'( , I feel dead inside... anywhere I go you're there... I go on facebook, and you're online, and all I can think about is how happy you probably are without me whilst you talk with your ex, and how crushed I am and worthless without you in my life.. Sometimes I wonder if you miss me at all, or if you really did get over me that easily... Hi Grid! I feel your pain. But why are you still friends with your ex on facebook? You should cut off all the communication... You cannot be friends with her while you attempt to get over her... Resist the temptation to check her out, what is she doing, what is she up to, who is she with. It will only make the pain worse. Sitting there looking at her happy recent pic and reading their updates about how she is not that affected like you is not going to be fun. Do not put yourself through that... 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Gridlock23 Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 (edited) Hi Grid! I feel your pain. But why are you still friends with your ex on facebook? You should cut off all the communication... You cannot be friends with her while you attempt to get over her... Resist the temptation to check her out, what is she doing, what is she up to, who is she with. It will only make the pain worse. Sitting there looking at her happy recent pic and reading their updates about how she is not that affected like you is not going to be fun. Do not put yourself through that... I know its horrible, I actually did un-friend her on facebook, but i'm so pathetic that when someone else was over my house, I checked using theirs.. There's a part of me that feels sorry for her, and that hopes that she works out with her ex.. I just want her to be happy. If being happy means being with someone else and not me, than a part of me wants that, but the other parts of me hurt knowing that someone else makes her happier than I could :'( It also doesn't help much that we work at the same place... While in different departments and complete other sides of the store, I still have no choice but to be in the vacinity of her when we share shifts.. The good thing is that I don't have to so much as look at her while I work, as our work has completely nothing to do with one another's. In terms of that the only thing I can do is ignore her when she glances at me and pretend that she doesn't exist. Edited May 29, 2012 by Gridlock23 Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 90% of my day, I think about you and your kids. It's so hard to not talk to you, see you, smile with you, laugh with you. You wanted commitment and a family, I would have given it to you. My stomach hurts from the hollow feeling I've had for the last 7 weeks. When I said I'd marry you, and we would grow old together, I meant every word. Whatever you're doing, whoever you're doing it with, you'll be in my thoughts. When I rest my head to go to sleep, I always think of you. It's been amazingly hard. Link to post Share on other sites
Derevko Posted May 29, 2012 Share Posted May 29, 2012 I'm sorry I had to be so cold and to the point when I ended things. But if I wasn't, I would not have been able to go through with it. It was never my intention to cause you harm. And I know it was never your intention to pull away from me, to fall out of love with me, to fail me every step of the way. But you did. And we both need to accept the way things are now. I wish I could go back in time and better explain all of the details of why I can't have you in my life anymore. I was a mess with her death and not thinking clearly enough to use the proper words with you. I held back for fear of causing you additional unnecessary pain. I regret that now. I did you a disservice, and myself one as well by not getting it all off my chest. Had I better articulated the reasons, maybe over time you'd be able to recognize them and change the way you treat people. You could learn the importance of being there for others - and perhaps what happened to us wouldn't happen again in your next relationship. You were the best friend I ever had, I loved you dearly, and for a time you made me the happiest guy in the world. I won't forget, but I will move on. I wish you well. Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 was at the parents house today cleaning out the old room and I found my OLD cell. Boy did it bring back memories, I forgot about those texts you sent me while I was visiting my grandparents. I had to watch them, I really shouldn't have but hey. Your sure were sexy back then, well thanks for that. Link to post Share on other sites
eles83 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 You know when I miss you most? When I have these sudden random memories of how freaking fantastic you used to be and how amazing and wonderful you were to me, once upon a time. You really loved me, you know that? Like, you really, truly honest-to-God adored me and... that's the standard I have now of what love is. Of what love can be... not you now, but... back then. Like that time you came home from work for ten minutes because I was scared, and you called in an emergency and didn't complain even though it must have been so ridiculous from your point of view. You never complained! Why didn't you complain and tell me to treat you better, why didn't you tell me to appreciate you back when you were willing to go to absurd lengths for me, why didn't you tell me that I had better be etching every moment in my head because they WEREN'T GOING TO LAST?! You never complained... And I thought that that was going to be us forever. I thought it was a permanent kind of thing, that I had time to work out my issues and time to relax and time to take it slow. I thought I had TIME. I'm sorry. Not sorry to you, not to the man that dumped me, that didn't care enough and didn't love me enough, but ... I'm sorry, to the you that was amazing. I'm sorry to the you that was the best man I ever knew and deserved a better girlfriend than the one I was. I didn't know you were fading away, I didn't know I was losing you and I will never forgive myself for not fighting for YOU, for the amazing, wonderful, perfect for me you that was. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 Hi Grid! I feel your pain. But why are you still friends with your ex on facebook? You should cut off all the communication... You cannot be friends with her while you attempt to get over her... Resist the temptation to check her out, what is she doing, what is she up to, who is she with. It will only make the pain worse. Sitting there looking at her happy recent pic and reading their updates about how she is not that affected like you is not going to be fun. Do not put yourself through that... Seriously...don't. I resist the urge every day because the day I gave into the urge and went to facebook...ugh, the results were awful. I keep my ex and his son blocked now. He's also blocked from my email. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
robkris8079 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 3 months broke up and NC. I get this very message monthly Her "hello. How r u?" My response that I did not send. I'm spectacular. Hope you're well too. Friends told me you smashed your car. Hope you came out of that without getting hurt. Noticed I don't see your name on FB anymore. Did you delete it or just block me? Either way it was prob for the best. I think at this point you really should just let me live my life. No more random texts once in awhile or anything. It doesn't do anyone any good. So I wish you the best. Good luck with live and be happy. Like you always said you only got one life to live so live it. this is not what I would say to her but just want to clarify the only reason I noticed her name not on FB is because she comments on mutual friends stuff and likes a ton of my brothers stuff and then today I noticed it was all gone. I did no snooping or looking her up. Link to post Share on other sites
Gridlock23 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 I still can't believe or accept that I was the rebound.... That I'm now the runner up... I feel so used, so crushed, like nothing, worthless. We built each other up like an intense game of jenga, and you foolishly just quit and smashed it all to pieces like an enraged little child. If only you could realize the mistakes your making, appreciate what you have instead of what you wish you had, and live life being happy. I want to tell you how stupid you're being, how ungrateful and dumb you are, but I can't talk to you... it would only bring more pain to an already wounded heart Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 And there you are again. You are so f*cking predictable. Too little, too late. Wish I could respond to you but I'm done feeding your bloated ego. I hope I can control myself, never respond to you again. I hope I never miss you again. Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 Well, you know, I am hurting right now... I can't believe I'll feel devastated seeing you with some whatever chic after I dumped you... I just hope she'll be as great as me... Good luck! Link to post Share on other sites
Follower Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 So very very tempted to snoop your facebook, but i shant... Your not worth the time anymore... Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 So very very tempted to snoop your facebook, but i shant... Your not worth the time anymore... I'm with you right there... Link to post Share on other sites
cherrypie2 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 Hi, I am new here. If you could swear on this forum I would be typing every swear word there is, in CAPS, frantically. I am a mature lady, never been in love until this man came along and broke my heart. I am so upset and angry right now, I could scream. I spent these last three months deluding myself. Thinking he was thinking of me but he is living with a new girl he now refers to his better half. I so HATE him right now for making me fall for him. I am writting this post but from this day forward I will not waste another moment of my life thinking about this waste of space!!!! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
shayla Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 I hope not. She sounds like a victim too. And your ex sounds like my ex. And yes, it is important to figure out why we put up with these bombaclots. I'm bombaclot free these days. She is no victim, she is a volunteer. She knew about me, she jumped into bed with him less than 2 months after her husband died. I hope that she suffers the same fate that I did, but I hope that when it happens to her, she will be too old to find someone else. Ol' stank heffa. Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 I'm in the same boat for the thread. Saw her last weekend at the movies with her family. She looked at me like i was a stranger after being together for 8.5 years.... Really want to contact her. can't even snoop on FB because she is barely on it. Link to post Share on other sites
edwards99 Posted May 30, 2012 Share Posted May 30, 2012 I love her n miss her..like many who post here, im having a real hard time..the thought of none of our dreams coming true..listening for footsteps..wanting to know what she is doing..memories..omg....i cannot get out of the emotional pot im in..at any moment i can cry...i miss her so much.. any ideas.... Link to post Share on other sites
xxSRMxx Posted May 31, 2012 Share Posted May 31, 2012 I havent cried today. Today we was meant to be going away, remember that suprise trip i arranged for us? Our flight wouldve been in 3 hours. I would like to see you find a girl who would arrange something like that for you. When u find her, let me know.... a-hole. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted May 31, 2012 Share Posted May 31, 2012 Still going strong. Still anger, but anger is still less. So many things remind me of you, but not as many things as before. Still exercising control over myself and keep myself from going to facebook. Losing me is your lost. I don't know if you will ever realize that because I don't think you ever loved me...in spite of the fact you told me all the time. It's hard for me to think that there are people in this world that lie as often as you do and use people as often as you do. The only thing I can do for myself is to stay away from people like you. Link to post Share on other sites
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