AlexDP Posted June 11, 2012 Share Posted June 11, 2012 I got a strong urge to Google you today. But I did not. Why should I learn about your life and compromise my recovery? For who? Someone who's a fool and a moronic monster? No friggin' way. My recovery is important to me. My self-esteem will continue to grow. I'm not going to set myself back for someone as ridiculous and disgusting as you are. F-you, you cock-eyed bastard. Kiss my wrinkly, milk-chocolate a$$. Why did you say wrinkly ? Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 11, 2012 Share Posted June 11, 2012 I think of you daily, I hope I can move on soon. I still have feelings, I know they're strong. I do miss you, but it's not my choice to chase anymore. Especially when you have a new man chasing you. I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you thought you could settle down with. The trouble is, I know I am. You will never see it though. Link to post Share on other sites
Gridlock23 Posted June 11, 2012 Share Posted June 11, 2012 I really do miss you, and even though all the things you put me through, all that you've done and the person you've become, I still miss the person I loved and my best friend.. I saw some pictures of you from an event you went to via another friends pictures, and it made me miss you... you're just as beautiful as I remember, and I truly miss what we had. <_>..... Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted June 11, 2012 Share Posted June 11, 2012 I miss you. I miss all the plans we had made together for the future. It hurts to think about them and how I now have to do them without you. You seem happy though now. And I am happy that you are. I hope that I can get to that point soon where I don't think of us and who we use to be together. The old you and me don't exist anymore, but I hope I can find the same happiness we had together again for me in the future. Link to post Share on other sites
billythefish Posted June 11, 2012 Share Posted June 11, 2012 thanks for letting me figure it out for myself you were about to end it..i stood by you & stuck up for you cos i adored you..6 hours after we had a laugh together then it all changed & i knew it was over. did you know that one of your work mates told me that NO ONE likes you at work...not because we finished,but because NO ONE likes you....WOW. have i been blind ????..not sure but i was taken aback when your workmate said this to me....i dont hate you as its been 10 months now but your drunk messages you sent after we split made me sooooo angry as i hoped you would send the same messages when you were sober as at least i would know you might have meant them... tell your so called friend shes an idiot....the same friend that leaves you alone to find your own way home after a night out when she finds some guy to ****...the same friend thats happy were finished as she HATED us being together...the same friend that treats you like a P/A... shame it didnt work out.....you were sooo cute Link to post Share on other sites
billythefish Posted June 11, 2012 Share Posted June 11, 2012 your workmate was bang tidy by the way:....heres hoping:D Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 I thought about you today. It makes me so sad what you did to me and how little respect you had for me. It makes me sad that you said making me physically sick and stomping on my heart was worth your cheating. I miss who I thought you were. I really did think you were a human being. It hurts to find out that I was with a monster and an actor for three years. I've never known a compulsive liar before. I never knew a person who had sociopathic traits before. It's very painful...very painful...very painful. I guess the thing that hurts the most is your lack of remorse and the pleasure that you got by throwing that woman in my face. What you did makes me sick...sick...sick. But as sick as I am, I have more pity for you...so much pity...so much pity...so much pity. Link to post Share on other sites
lorhel56 Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 (edited) Great topic, amazing how you can be with someone in a serious relationship, although not living together, (not in my control) and break up over yahoo im when you know i am not online, and sleeping. Wow, thought you were somewhat better than that. My mistake. Best of luck, if you find someone like me, oh wait, you won't, best regards. Edited June 12, 2012 by lorhel56 Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 Every morning for 10 months straight I sent you a good morning message. For the last 8 weeks, it's felt so odd not to. This is the longest time I've not heard from you. What made you turn from super loving and caring love of my life, to cold and callous woman, who ignores me and thinks I'm a piece of ****? Did I really deserve that? You said it yourself, I did nothing wrong. I was the perfect B/F. Somehow, I think you gave up without trying. Day 7 of NC, 8 weeks since you BU. Sad Link to post Share on other sites
MadSworthy Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 I was right! That kid is not my son! Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 Last night was crazy... but I'm not regretful... Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 (edited) This morning I felt like I relived every rotten thing you did to me. I also recalled how I felt in the relationship. One feeling that came to mind over and over again is that you let me down. I constantly felt controlled and let down throughout the relationship. I wish I never met you, but it's good to know first hand of the kind of sick, twisted, dysfunctional people there are out there. You are a very, very, very sick and twisted man. You are mentally ill and have no idea. You are VERY dysfunctional and have no idea. People who are charmed by you don't know the real you...the compulsive liar who is so dysfunctional, he can't handle anything other job than being kind of the sandwich makers. Everytime you leave that job you come running back because you can't handle any other job...because you are so dysfunctional and twisted. Edited June 12, 2012 by CopingGal Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 What happened to us is so painful. People talk. They jump to conclusions. Rumors getting out of hand destroy people. I feel sorry that I can't have you in my life for now. I just can't. I am sorry I have to leave. Please help me find the peace I need to heal myself. I feel like I've been in an emotional rollercoaster for the last 4 months. It's driving me crazy. I am one of a kind. You will not find anyone like me, ever again. You know that I am good for you, maybe even too good. You do not deserve me. And if you do not change your ways, you will never deserve anyone. Beneath that thick wall of ice is a good heart, the heart I've gotten to know when we were together. Listen to it, only by that will you be truly happy. Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 Its hard to think that this doesn't affect you as bad as me. I wonder if you think of me at all? I think about you all the time and wonder what you are up to? It's hard to believe we got to where we are. I never thought it would end like this, but then again, you never really think about how it would end when you think your both happy. All i ever wanted to do was to treat you like the princess that you were to me. I just wanted you to have everything you ever wanted. And i know you don't want me anymore, so in a way, I guess at least I was able to give you one last thing and didn't fight you to stay. I don't wish you harm, and I don't wish you ill will. But i just hope you think about us at least once in the future and realize what we had and that you regret it. Not forever, but just at least once. I wish nothing but happiness for you and me. Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 12, 2012 Share Posted June 12, 2012 As I lay my head down on the pillow to go to sleep, I want you to know I had to fight the urge like never before today. I resisted. That tells me two things. I am getting stronger by the day, and you don't deserve hearing from me right now. In fact, you may never deserve it. To not even say sorry during the BU....it just shows. Goodnight to your kids. They deserve the world. Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted June 13, 2012 Share Posted June 13, 2012 I'm assuming you found someone to replace me. My heart is breaking all over again. I miss you so much. Link to post Share on other sites
billythefish Posted June 13, 2012 Share Posted June 13, 2012 you mean nothing to me.....my mates are all i need cos you are woirthless.... i would never have said this 10 months ago i have now healed... Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 13, 2012 Share Posted June 13, 2012 So you txt me to ask how I was today? How do you think? I'm glad you satisfied your need to think you've kept me sweet. Truth is, I felt mixed emotions. That shows I'm slowly healing. It's a long process, but I know I treated you well. I'm still holding my head high, and doing it the right way. I may still miss you, I may still love you, but....... It's time I started being me again Link to post Share on other sites
billythefish Posted June 13, 2012 Share Posted June 13, 2012 after reading lots of posts here, ive came to a conclusion we are good people... we loved our partners with all our heart & never recieved anything bacik. im glad i was in love....pity it was with her....she didnt deservre it Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted June 13, 2012 Share Posted June 13, 2012 I'm getting better as days go by but I still miss the man you pretended to be. Since your relationships only tend to last some months because women leave you, I suspect you are alone again. But of course, within one week you will have a new girlfriend. I've never known anyone to go thru women like you do...never looking back and examing mistakes, just get one, then another, then another, then another. You set a terrible example for your son. Does your son know that you used him in your lies so that you could cheat on me and push me away? Does your son know that you are a slut? What does your son know about you? Probably very little. Your mother should consider herself lucky that you continue to reject her and treat her like dirt. You act like you need to stay away from your family so you can stay healthy. How can that be? It's you who are dysfunctional. You think I'm dysfunctional, your girlfriend before me is dysfunctional, your mom is dysfunctional, your ex-wife is dysfunctional...Yes, always blaming everyone else for your problems. Don't worry though...you are normal...for a sociopathic person. So go on and be yourself...keep causing havoc, consistently lying, and stepping on women. It's what you're good at. You are being you. Embrace the monster within you for all I care. Just stay away from me. Link to post Share on other sites
Follower Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 So over the past few days my heads gone from not giving an utter toss about you to a wierd type of missing you, hard to explain but i do still miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
coltsfan1 Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 ALL I HAVE TO SAY Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 L: *I was reading up on psychopaths/sociopaths. The website said that most people like you put the minimal energy into the relationship. They said there are 3 stages to a relationship with someone like you: assessment, manipulation and abandonment. The website also said that people like you will start a relationship with someone else before breaking it off with the current partner. There is a book called "Snakes in Suits." I will get that book so that next time I will spot someone with your traits more easily before I get into a relationship with that person. Wow. There are things on that website I had not read about before when it comes to people like you. These things certainly apply to you. There was a certain calmness I experienced after reading the info on that website. You seemed more of a very sick man and less of a monster. The pity I felt for you deepened and I prayed for you. I hope someday you can get help for this, but I doubt it. It's hard to get help in therapy when you lie to the therapist throughout the session. Everyone lies. And I'm not a kind of person that says you have to share everything with your partner. I certainly have my dark secrets of my past. You have a right to keep certain things to yourself- unhealthy thoughts you are dealing with, problemed situations in the past, etc. But when you choose to ignore me and cheat on me, choose to keep the fact that you had contact with your ex, choose to manipulate me and lie to me constantly so that you can keep me in the dark about things you are currently doing in the relationship, lie to me about things you are doing in the relationship behind my back...no. I hope one day you can understand that there is a different between lying and telling the truth. *Source: Blog: A Perfect Target Entry: Beward the Techniques of the Sociopath June 30, 2006 A Perfect Target: Beware the techniques of the Sociopath 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 I just wish things had ended differently. If we could have only tried to make it work. but you didn't want that. You could have said lets change things and try to make them work, and you know deep down I would have made changes. It just hurts more because you checked out of the relationship a long time before you let me know. I don't know if you are fine with tossing me away like yesterday's trash or because you checked out your way ahead of me on the healing process. I wish you had told me when you did. I don't know what you are thinking, and I guess I never will. I gave you my heart 8 years ago and you just tossed it away so easily. I guess it was never really meant to be as hard as I wanted to. Link to post Share on other sites
Boulware58 Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 Trying everything in my power not to stalk her facebook and see what she's up to. When I can pretty much already pinpoint what she's doing. I hope she can look back and feel as miserable as I am on all of this, and when that happens and she ties to break the no contact, I hope I have the willpower and self-esteem to say no more. Everyday I wish, and also fear that she'd contact me and I could pretend like her having a new guy didn't happen, and put it in the back of my head, but if she did I know i'd continue to go through this cycle again and again. Here's to hoping that she doesn't ever contact me again. Link to post Share on other sites
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