Edtheduck Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 Hard to believe, but I shed some tears for you today. I have ups, and downs. I don't know what to think about you anymore. Almost 2 months exact since you BU with me. I know I'm a good person. I didn't deserve this. Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted June 14, 2012 Share Posted June 14, 2012 Having a bad moment..... I really wish i could be with you. your popping up in my head a lot today. I don't know why. I cant stop thinking of you. But you did stop thinking of me. So I guess I should use that to not contact you. I really wish I could though. you were my best friend. Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 Last night was hard. I could barely sleep, and you were on my mind. It's coming up to two months exact. 8 weeks? Where has the time gone. Why do I still feel like I want to be with you? I miss you Betty. And I know as the weekend draws in, you'll be with your new someone. It makes it even harder to stomach. Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 Hi L. I really do hope that one day you get the help that you need. I hope that you will be able to figure out that you can have a relationship without constant manipulation, constant lying, and constantly using women. Link to post Share on other sites
msfreebyme Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 Dear Monster, It will be 6 months as of tomorrow since I have left you. Wow, has time flied =)! I have learned so much in this half a year and I have grown. My heart actually really hurts for you though. I am sad that you still insist on manipulating the girls you apparently love. I am not jealous anymore which makes me so happy. I can now stand the idea of seeing you with the new girl and have even tried the exercise where you picture you having sex with her (I know awkward but yea). I kind of am saddened and scared for that girl because I never want any other person to go through what I had to go through. I heard even after such a short amount of time being together you already control her. I guess it's who you are and theres no growing up there...but I still send love to you and hope for my future. I realize I miss when me and you were friends as freshmen. I know friendship is just stupid now and I'm not considering it because now you turned into a controlling and manipulating jerk. I miss the nice guy you used to be. =(...but maybe it was all an act to get the girl. I heard you got in a wreck...not gonna lie but that is karma dude. Other than that I haven't heard any news about you haha. I don't really care though. I have my best friends by my side and I am happy. I do hope for your mental health and happiness too. Also for you to have a little regret for treating me so badly the next time you see my hot ass since I've lost 25 pounds. That face will be priceless. It will be better when I just smile and wave at my enemy....I know it pisses you off to know I'm happy....especially without you. P.S. I forgive for everything you have done. I don't hold grudges. That only hurts me. But I want absolutely nothing to do with you and your life. But thank you for the three years of company. Link to post Share on other sites
Tinyfish Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 I just wish we didn't end THIS way. Just stopping to contact me, acting distant when we run into each other, making things awkward for all our friends,... Was it really that hard to just tell me straight up that you would like to end things? I'm not a difficult person, usually, but somehow I feel in our situation we could have talked things out so we could remain friends. Or at least friendly acquaintances. We share common friends, for the love of God. We live in the same town! Will it forever be this awkward when we happen to be at the same bar? I tried enough, anyway. It's all up to you now. Even though I know what that will mean... Link to post Share on other sites
Winning Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 I still don't understand; I never will. Someday it will cease to matter, but right now it really really hurts that you didn't even care enough to be respectful or even kind when breaking up with me. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 I really wished you had told me about these feelings when you first had them. Had I known I could have prepared myself better for the end. You seem to be pretty over it by now. But that's becuase you had a heads up in knowning for months you were going to end it. I will get there too I guess. It just hurts because you seem so fine with it by now. I miss talking to my best friend. I miss hanging out with your family. I miss you. But I guess time will help me out. Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 15, 2012 Share Posted June 15, 2012 Why the **** are you on my mind today? Is it because I miss you!? Is it because I know your new fella is seeing you most likely tonight? **** these emotions. It's killing me inside, even though I don't show it on the outside. I hate this **** Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 The phone rang late tonight. I thought it was you. It was not. Today I found myself fantasizing that you called me and told me you were getting the therapy that you need and that you wanted to try again. But I would still say no. I hate the fact that none of this hurts you and most likely you are working on gf no. 3 since our breakup. But most of all, I hate the person that you truly are. IF I knew you were really this way, I would have never gone out with you. I hate it that you played games behind my back and play-acted through the entire relationship. Damn you. I hope that your life continues to be ridiculous. May your bladder run at work. May you underarms continue to funk people out. May your sneezes become inverted and come out of your flat, woman-like buttocks. Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 I'm on a date today, she's pretty, almost my age, independent, no kids. Yet this morning, all I think about is you? Crazy. I hope you're not on my mind later. This lady doesn't deserve that. Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 In times like this... I need your loving arms... I hope you know how much I need you around now... Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 Please just let me be happy. Please don't be selfish. Please grow up. Link to post Share on other sites
Edtheduck Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 So I went on the date. She was pretty, smart, smiley, upbeat, funny. Everything you were when I first met you. I doubt she likes me enough to see me again. I'm home now, alone, thinking where you might be, and with who I'm sure is your new partner. Mixed emotions, but I still very much do miss "us". If this new lady wants to go out again, I will accept. I deserve to be happy, as much as you do. Link to post Share on other sites
pricillia Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 Amazing that this thread is still going strong after all of these years!! Have a great day everyone 1 Link to post Share on other sites
storm007 Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 I wish I had not given my phone number to you, you only talk to me because I looked like your ex girlfriend, i felled for you because you had not had a women for 3 years, and you talk about how sex was with other women, you are a man, why was your ex a gay women, when you know I am straight, you wanted me to be like her. you need mental help. Link to post Share on other sites
Jose11 Posted June 16, 2012 Share Posted June 16, 2012 I still haven't contact you. i am happy about that. Although i miss you. I miss also hanging with your family. I don't know how it doesn't affect you as much as me. I wait for the call that will never come. I wish i knew how to stop waiting and just be happy without you. To not have you at the top of my head as i wake and my last thought as i sleep. I hope one day i will. I hope i can be as happy as you are without me. Link to post Share on other sites
BigBear Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 Hi M, Yes, I guess we'll have to keep talking about this. Probably better in person than via email. You're now encouraging me to sleep with other people and maybe I have put you on too high a pedestal by declaring I won't. That probably gives you too much power. If you don't value our marriage - or what's left of it - enough to keep it just between us and it's just a flippant thing to you to let me go screw someone else, then maybe I am stupid to vow to be loyal. I mean really...I thought our marriage and commitment to each other was real, even if things were not perfect, even if things were not happy happy joy joy and stress-free all day. I thought it was worth saving but I guess you are so far past it you couldn't care less. Thanks. I do hope you get some help and get off those meds, because what we had (to me at least) was beautiful and worth preserving. It wasn't perfect but it certainly wasn't just disposable - to me. It makes me wonder a lot just where your mind is at or how long you've really not been into us...for years maybe? Have I been married to a woman who for years faked it? Has all the power and hanging around all these men that make all sorts of money turned you into someone who doesn't value simple things anymore, doesn't value love and affection, just wants to get ahead at all costs? It also really makes me question if you've truly been faithful, because to just have this attitude all of a sudden and fall completely out of love and welcome me to go screw someone else...it's all very weird to me. It seems it's been awfully easy for you to toss us away and really not care what becomes of me or what our marriage was worth. Oh well I guess, right? People are just disposable. Having a loving and caring partner isn't really all that important if he doesn't make a quarter million a year.... I do see that I will likely have some opportunities in the coming weeks or months to get laid, so you'll have to decide if that's really what you want me to do, if it matters that little to you where I stick it. I meant it when I said I would be loyal to you, but you don't care anymore, so why should I? Very very sad M. I hope gaining your independence from this horrible tyrant that I was and this absolutely intolerable life you were forced to lead is all worth it. You will interpret this as me being angry I am sure - you always do. The mood tonight, when I look at this, is just disappointment. Disappointed that my partner just stopped caring and treated our marriage like it was just another thing to not finish and move on from. Goodnight. Link to post Share on other sites
BigBear Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 Why spend so much time and energy pining over her? She's always busy, always tired. You have to book ahead just to get a few valuable minutes with her Highness. And then she tires of your voice and has much more important things to do than listen to boring old you. There's always something much more important that needs planning or delegating. She's too busy stressing over every possible and impossible thing that could happen to pay you any attention. You are just a pain in the ass to her. She resents having to devote any of her super-valuable time to you. She has no interest in pleasing you and has to be begged for oral sex. And then when you finally do get it it is positively the WORST EVER blowjob. She's the world's busiest woman and she just doesn't have time for you. So find someone who does you moron. ======================== Add to this... Remember she has never shown: - Any remorse - Any inclination to work on it - Any real hint that she would take you back - Any indication she may have made a mistake - Any flexibility - Any admission life is not better now - Much in the way of feelings or concern for you - Any admission that this may be hard on xxxxxxx (son) - Any suggestion that there were good things about our marriage, at all In short, she has been as unbending and unrealistic and stubborn as possible. She has convinced herself this is the better way even though there is a mountain of evidence it is a much harder life this way. Do NOT go back. She does not care for you, refuses to allow herself to open up emotionally (emotions repressed by drugs?), has not considered you at all with her moves, and cannot be trusted again. When she put this non-plan in motion her only consistent action was selfishness. She decided she was hell-bent on making all decisions, no matter how poor they were. The only important thing was that she made them. The only person she looked out for was herself, and even at that she did a ****ty job at making herself happier. She has recklessly, carelessly made her situation far worse, yet will not acknowledge this. You deserve better than this. No level of your faults translates into this sort of response. She's suffered a mental breakdown. =============================== Remember she: - Takes everything as criticism - Runs from anything negative as fast as she can - Changes the subject or focus when you confront her with anything - Will not answer any email that is not super-sweet - Attempts to control you by only acknowledging you when you are nice, and by avoiding, avoiding, avoiding as soon as anything critical is spoken - Cannot accept ANY criticism or blame - Turns everything into "you made me do it" - Sees herself as completely faultless, and everything she does is the result of someone else making her do it - Accuses you of "blaming her for everything", even when you take plenty of the blame - Turns your apologies around and actually amplifies them. You are better off not apologizing at all than admitting you did wrong and having her hold it against you - Sees no need to change anything she does - Is vindictive beyond belief. You do something to her, she has to do something of 10x the magnitude in return Or at least, this is her public persona. These are the tactics of someone who has the mentality of a 6-year-old. These are the traits exactly displayed by her mother. She would rather be right than face reality. There is no hope dealing with someone who is this controlling and determined to not take an honest look at themselves, not willing to compromise in the least. Thank god you are rid of her. This is not a person who understands what it is to be fair, or has any interest in reconciling, or doing the right thing. This is an angry person who wants to be right above all else. Link to post Share on other sites
Moonchie Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 The phone rang late tonight. I thought it was you. It was not. Today I found myself fantasizing that you called me and told me you were getting the therapy that you need and that you wanted to try again. But I would still say no. I hate the fact that none of this hurts you and most likely you are working on gf no. 3 since our breakup. But most of all, I hate the person that you truly are. IF I knew you were really this way, I would have never gone out with you. I hate it that you played games behind my back and play-acted through the entire relationship. Damn you. I hope that your life continues to be ridiculous. May your bladder run at work. May you underarms continue to funk people out. May your sneezes become inverted and come out of your flat, woman-like buttocks. Hee-Hee :laugh: Link to post Share on other sites
Moonchie Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 I wish I had not given my phone number to you, you only talk to me because I looked like your ex girlfriend, i felled for you because you had not had a women for 3 years, and you talk about how sex was with other women, you are a man, why was your ex a gay women, when you know I am straight, you wanted me to be like her. you need mental help. He sounds confused. Link to post Share on other sites
Moonchie Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 I still don't understand; I never will. Someday it will cease to matter, but right now it really really hurts that you didn't even care enough to be respectful or even kind when breaking up with me. He's a loser. Link to post Share on other sites
DuchessKaye Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 He's a loser. Definitely! Link to post Share on other sites
skyisfalling Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 i ****ing hate you. How the **** could you just leave me and ignore my calls and texts after all that we've been through. you ****ing told me you loved me and that i was different and that youd ****ing marry me and make me happy. what happened to all your ****ing promises you ****ing douchebag. i believed you and i trusted you, we made a prommise to each other that we wouldn't change and that we found "the one..." how the **** can you betray me like that and leave me. im so ****ing miserable without you, i ****ing drink every night and i ****ing take sleeping pills because of your sorry ass. i ****ing hate the way you make me feel and i ****ing hate how i gave you so much power over my ****ing life. well you know what ****ing cunt ass loser, im taking all that **** back. im going to regain my life back, become successful, marry someone whose twice as better as you and make you regret ever leaving me you ****ing piece of lying ass. i ****ing hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
skyisfalling Posted June 17, 2012 Share Posted June 17, 2012 and your sex was bad. so ****K YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
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