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[AnchordHeart]

Hey Hun,

 

Your telling me things arent working out with your EX? The one you left me for?

 

Jeez, and I thought you could pick right up from where your two month relationship left off. Gosh.

 

Your sorry for putting a practical stranger before your best friend of three years/lover for 8 months?

 

Jeez, yeah, I wish we could have worked past your man-whore tendencies too.

 

Have to go though.. party tonight.

 

---

Oh god. I want this phone call to happen someday.

[CopingGal]

Hello Bastard,

 

How are you? You poor, pathetic thing. It must be hard to find out you are not really a man.

 

Well, I have to go now. Make sure to keep track of all of your lies this time.

 

bye bastard,

 

-S

[Mcnulty]

What's going on with your hair?? Saw you ouside the supermarket peering into my car, nosey! You don't look as nice as i imagine you to look.

 

Then you sit in your flash new 4x4 watching me, thinking i can't see you, i did, i drove off and you sat there watching me...why do that? You stitched me up and scarred me for life, leave me be to regain my health and my heart.

[CopingGal]

I still think about all the terrible things you did to me. But I'm getting by, day after day. Any woman who gets involved with you should be pitied and comforted. I imagine you are no longer with this woman, unless she is a doormat like I was with you.

 

Sometimes the pity I feel for your is strong. Sometimes it is not. But no matter the case, I still know you are screwed up.

[Blastoplast]

Hey, you know what would be great? If you'd stop calling me crying and telling me not to hate you -- you only make it worse every time. Stop feeling guilty. This is what you wanted, and there's no going back now. Clearly I'm taking this time to get my **** together, while you're still going downhill. You know, this place I got was for us to start the rest of our life together, but you saw it as an anchor. Why did you always have to be cynical? I've got everything I need right in front of me. I could always do better, but I could ALWAYS be worse off. You talk about how bad your debt is, then you mention how your friend has over twice as much as you? See how short-sighted you are? Life is nothing but a series of deadlines and roadblocks, and unless you have something in your life to break up that monotony, you have NOTHING. I pity you, please get yourself in a good place so we can be friends again, and maybe if the planets alight correctly, lovers. You'll always have a place in my heart, be well!

[MayleneHallelujah09]

If you don't want to be friends with me, why can't you just say so? If you don't care about me, then just tell me! You said over and over that we were friends and that you still cared about me, but all you did was blow me off every time I asked you to hang out. You seem to be perfectly able to make the time for everyone else. I have no idea why I even care whether or not you talk to me ever again. I have no idea why I still care about you after you treated me so badly and used me. I pray, and I guess that's about all I can do. I hope one day you will realize that I am a good person, a real friend, and someone who deserves better. I hope you will regret all you've done and said to me, and I hope you'll grow up and start being nicer to people. Stop being so selfish and arrogant! You're no better than anyone else. I don't care how nice your job or your car or your clothes are or how many "friends" you have, so please don't feel the need to remind me anymore of how much more you have or how much better you are. Do you not desire at all to be a good person?

[zanzi]

It turns out I was only your rebound.

Ive never had a healthy relationship but I will remember the one I had with you as one of the worst, most deceitful, pointless, and manipulative relationships I have ever had with another person, if you could be called a person. You are just like your father, a black hole with no soul.

 

I don't even know how to feel besides disgusted. Again with the lies. Again with the using me. Will I ever meet a man who isn't a coward with no balls like you?

 

bumping into ruined my afternoon but it most certainly did not ruin my evening, which was VERY enjoyable indeed. It disgusts me that your lying hands ever touched my body. It disgusts me that I ever kissed those disgusting lips full of lies and believed you were an actual human being. You are a monster, tour new gf is an awful awful person just like you, and your daughter shouldn't hold her breathe because for you to be her father you'd need to be a responsible human being with feelings and compassion and you are not, you are an emotional terrorist and the most feral looking couple I have ever seen.

[coltsfan1]

I'm just living for the night

[kushal]

u knw how much i miss you? bt u did not trust me ever... always i tried to contact you but you did nt give damn to me. u cheated me still i want you but now u dont wanna come back near me......................... ur wish.. bt i miss u ever and forever

[SoConfusedAndInShock]

wow i wish you knew how much i miss you and everything about us.

 

tomorrow would have been our big day (our anniversary) it kills me to know we wont get to do everything we had planned. i'm sure while i sit here with my heartbroken you're probably smothering her with all your love and affection. just about everything i love and miss about you

 

if someone had to told me we wouldn't be together 2 months ago, i would have laughed at their face. But here i am today, more then 5 weeks into our BU still in shock. i'm so mad you for being so so quick to give up on us after all this time we've been perfectly happy. well, i guess now that i know the truth about your new chick it all makes sense as to why you haven't called or texted. Not a word from the guy who used to cry fearing that i would BU with him some day. wow if only you we're in my place, you would cry tears of blood.

 

I really do pray that you wake up soon or in time to experiences the effects of this BU. i hope this new fling thing you've got going comes to an abrupt end as you ended things in the same manner with me. i hope you cry for days, day and night just thinking about me and what we've had, a balanced and amazing relationship that all of our friends and family wanted for themselves. everyone used to be so jealous of us. people even used to think we we're siblings because of the amount of respect, love and affection we had for each other and also because we spent every single passing moment together. Even when were both in school then in college mils away from each other. UGH i miss the times we had when we visited each other on the weekends in college. well, i guess this coming year wont be the same.

 

i wish you knew what you meant to me. you were more than a bf and best friend. but i'm just in shock as to how you tossed me the minute we had one big argument, which even ended up being a miscommunication that we both apologized for. I guess i was the only one playing the honestly and loyalty field. i was giving you the benefit of the doubt but you proved me wrong. i really thought we were gonna get past that but who knew what you had planned in the back of your head that night. i really thought i knew you, but now i question that since you've broken every promise.

 

Funny how you even promised to be here for me after the BU once to speed off right as i got out of your car. wow i didn't know you how much you wanted to get away from me. then wtf was the whole sweet talk the next couple of days after the BU? uhm..all to lessen your guilt huh? Im just glad to know your true colors. i thought you were so different from all the other, but you're just a statistics. If anyone up there heard any of my prayers and you were to come back again, i would tell you this to your face.

 

i hope your little bad boy group of friends and your new chick drop you like you were yesterdays history. I gave up a lot for you and for us to be together. yes i admit i have my moments to, but never would i ever do what you did to me. i don't have that kind of cruel and evil heart. every dog has its day meaning and mine is coming. you out of all people should know karma is such a bitch soon or later it will catch up to you. Just remember me then. when you have bad days remember me crying in your car begging you not to leave. when she drops you like a peace of trash, remember my face as i sat there in treas shocked as you gave me the BU speech. when shes feeding you lies and cheating on you, yea remember me because i have never and would never do that to you. no person deserves to be treated the way you did me wrong!

Edited August 3, 2012 by SoConfusedAndInShock

[HumptyDumpty]

I guess I might try this as well...

the only difference is: there is no NC!

I'm a big failer at this. Not only can I cut out someone out of my life who hasn't f*cked my mind up and well... I do appreciate you!

It is sad the relationship failed for several reasons. Deal-breakers. And well, I was kinda moody back then. But I wasn't the only one either. Having me break-up wasn't any easier, to be left with the only solution on the market. But well, it obviously could not go on.

NC with no success, however you moved on. The idea of a friendship came up. Seemed all well... but however, how deep were those feelings for such a rapid closure? No taking me back even after a slight change... But it seemed well.

Then again, NC. My B-day came up. I was happy with NC, I went better, just fine. And never even got a message. It hurt that day, sure, but it was for the better. NC. That after 3 days I got a text, it hurt me. But like an addict, I couldn't leave my phone be anymore...

We sure do get along very well. But just too well sadly... Which made me moody. Wanting to cut off all contact, the time to heal. But I couldn't!

I'm subject to my feelings which have died a little but combined with false hope, are just poison. Like an half-crushed insect who still manages to move...

When we meet, it's just perfect. We laugh a lot. We get along well. But just being in a friendzone, it just hurts. What am I doing wrong to not have the privilege to be your gf? Why not start over since we get along well and that NC was either broken by me or you? Oh well, the dealbreaker, the kids and marriage thing... even though I changed my opinion after thinking for hours, I guess the love just died.

So, meeting up is great but when I get home, all alone, it eats me up, makes me cry and upset and stop, in order to maintain a proper friendship. I can cope better with this but being depressed, the question of what I'm doing wrong is torturing me.

Well, I'll be doing my best to keep moving on. Whatever the future may withhold for me... in any case I'm hurt right now. Not being able to communicate, is the worst thing ever. Not being able to talk in the real life. Having to discuss those issues with a text. It's pathetic. May this just end one day I hope...

[Ang.gg]

I've been doing much better lately not thinking of you. I got back into working out and feeling much better about myself. It's like I don't have the time to think about you for long periods of time

 

Yesterday and today I've been thinking about you though. I started missing you too but then I reminded myself how horrible you treated me and that made me feel ten times worse because I loved you.

I miss your company. I miss your smile. I miss talking to you. I miss hearing your voice.

Then it hits me how you treated me. I was always honest and open with you. I treated you with respect and honesty because you deserved no less. I wanted you to feel appreciated and cared about.

I got none of that and I haven't hurt like this in as long as I can remember.

You left me heart broken. When we have to see each other I just want to run away because I allowed you to take me for a fool and I feel stupid and humiliated. I regret allowing you to see that side of me. I regret being intimate with you because you never appreciated me and left me feeling you could take me or leave me.

I'm sorry I gave you the benefit of the doubt. You really are the way you come off. Cold and unfeeling

[coltsfan1]

Sometimes, sometimes.........

 

 

 

Mostly when I have been drinking. Its been eo long since I heard your voice, and I won't ever again. Guess life is full of tough choices, I had to make this one. You made your choices!

[Gulf-Delta]

You are not a dumb, childish bitch. Why are you acting like it?

[not-a-drive-by]

In a way, I feel really disappointed. I don't know why I had hopes that you would text me again and wish me a safe trip. I hate that you have moved on so quickly and you haven't bothered to contact me at all. I wished you did. I wished you came back to me. I hate this space between us and the fact that I am no longer important to you in any way.

[SoConfusedAndInShock]

dear what used to be....

 

woke up today and realized we wont get to do what we've planned for our anniversary. i miss the guy i fell in love with, the guy with a big heart. that guy would have never gone a day without calling or txting me even when hes having a really bad day

(guess that shows what i meant to you...NOTHING)

 

you'll never understand how much you mean to me and how much i truly loved you. i still do very much so even after all the pain. i meant it when i said you're something so special to me guess that was never true when you said it in returns.

 

i'm not gonna lie i thought by now you would have called or txted me to see how im doing but its clear now i meant nothing to you and it was all a lie.

 

just know that i haven't moved on no matter how much i try but i know you have and you seem happy with your choice to let me go. you still live where my heart used to be. i wish things we're different.

 

its sad to say i wish we never crossed path 2 yrs ago. now i know what its like to have loved and lost. where ever you may be i hope you're having a good day. i hope you're smiling on this day. if there are any Gods up there, i pray that you'll be back in my life and for you to realize there's more to write on our story. so here's to what would have been on this day...instead of me sitting here with a broken heart and tears down my face, i would have been in your arms talking about how amazing you are when planning date nights.

[Follower]

You made me LAUGH SO DAMMED HARD yestarday...

 

How pathetic are you trying to hide your new man walking miles in front as if i don't know and then ignoring me when i had the courtesy to say hello... as if you didn't see me.... your funny, get over yourself....

 

That genuinely made me laugh so hard..

 

Finally the questions are all at rest. i really am over your sorry ass.

[msfreebyme]

I am on trip of my own and I don't realize how much of a big step it is for me. How far I have come on my own to make a life more and more for myself. I actually drove outside of the state by myself! I feel so proud of myself. I can drive monster! You wouldn't truly care though...but thats how it is for you. I have realized that all of these accomplishments I have reached now would have never happened if it weren't for me being alone and away from you....you always knew how to talk me out of things for your own gain. I know for a fact I can take on the world on my own!!

I've realized though that behind that facade of attacking me so damn much I have misdiagnosed you (as me being a college psychology student). After learning about a disorder call Borderline Personality Disorder I have realized you are not as crazy as you seem to be. You suffer just as much as I do and I can bet so because you still think of me....alot. Your version of coping is drinking like a fool and having sex like a whore. It's all sad. You aren't a bad person monster I know...you just refuse to believe that you are being a total tool to everyone around you from your fear of being alone. You're such a sad child.

I still miss having a boyfriend and having that rock to lean on but I am becoming content with just being me and alone until the right guy finds me. I wish I didn't miss you...it can sting sometimes but I feel WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY stronger than before. The right guy that I deserve will come for me soon enough and make me forget about this pain and make me realize that there are so many better men out there for me. Letting the universe know I AM READY TO TAKE HIM! Or go on a date =P

 

Until then my first love you will always be in my heart...somewhere...and in my deepest sympathies.

Edited August 5, 2012 by msfreebyme

[jennisfora]

i still miss you. my mom seems angry at me for still having feelings. she doesnt understand how i can still care for someone that hurt me and my boy so much. what she fails to understand is that we are hurting because we loved you. and i cannot and will not believe you intentionally set out to win us over just to abandon us. i just can't see you as an evil person. i refuse to believe the person i fell in love with would do us harm intentionally.

 

my son went to a birthday party at a bowling alley by your place. made me think of you and wonder why you havent tried to reach out. makes me sad. i keep telling myself it is for the best, but i dont believe it. my son asked to go to your apartment, he never forgets. you were wrong about that. he has never forgotten you. *hugs & kisses*

[ihateslowjams]

Your text message tonight and your lack of thanks for my response was ridiculous. Why can't you ever thank me for any of the stuff I've done for you? Seems like its the reoccurring theme of the relationship since the very beginning: I give and give and give, but no appreciation whatsoever. I should have broken up with you from the beginning, but you begged and pleaded, stating you would change. I should have known better... 3 1/2 years later, you dumped me.

 

I can't believe just how much of my time and effort I invested into the relationship without it being even slightly reciprocated. I know SO's don't owe the other anything and can come and go as they please, but you practically did nothing for me in the relationship. I kept wondering the whole time what was I doing wrong to not get anything in return and felt as if I was walking on eggshells. I expressed that feeling to you multiple times, yet you didn't even get phased by it one bit.

 

I may not have a degree at the moment or money to provide for you financially, but I was there for your during your darkest moments and lifted your spirits/confidence/self-worth so high, you admitted you were on cloud 9. I was working on my degree and the money will follow it soon after, yet you decided my career path isn't what you wanted in a man. For 3 1/2 years you JUST REALIZED that now?!?!?! I didn't know a computer engineer career is lacking in women's point of view...

 

Honestly, a lot of this BU did not make any damn sense. Especially how quick you were to tell me the reasons of the BU, pack up all my stuff, and escorting me out of your place. Ive never been rushed like that before in my life.

 

Im not angry with you for deciding to leave me, I just wished it didn't take so long to end the relationship. I wish you find what your looking for and hope your find true happiness. Goodbye

Edited August 6, 2012 by ihateslowjams

[SoConfusedAndInShock]

today has been really really tough for me. i just cant get you our of my head. i was actually doing so well over the weekend. i was starting to feel good for once, but i woke up this morning with your name ringing in my ears and mind. i just cant stop it. i'm just so mad at myself for believing that you we're gonna keep in touch and at least check in by now, but here

 

i am still holding on to a little hope. maybe not a hope fo us to get back together, but hoping that you would actually reach out and initiate contact. i feel like sh*t knowing that all of your exs get the special treatment of hearing for you and you keeping in touch with them or even staying in their lives, but i dont get that. The girl you dated the longest and fell for the hardest dont even get that ur other exs got. well that just says a lot about what i meant to you.

 

i miss you so much. i miss your face, your touch, your company, how we always had fun, & just about everything with us. im just really sad. i know it been over a month but this breaks my heart even more. i dropped all my friends with we were together so now that ur gone i'll stuck here alone in a moment where i cant change. no matter how hard i try your all i want and think of. i wish you stupid friends would just disappear from your life so you would actually have the time of the day to think about us. i just wish i meant something after 2 ys. Nothing and no one has ever loved me the way you did but also no one broke me the way that you have. its a shame the good person ends up getting hurt at the end. theres so much more i want to say but im just so hurt right now and i cant help but cry. all i do is wait. not for you but for God to hear me.

[jdids247]

Well dear, I just wanted to hop on here and say I'm sorry.

 

I'm sorry I was accusing you of having an alcohol problem when I clearly did too. I feel we weren't helping each other out with our addictions. The problem was you went out and did it and I stayed by myself and medicated. I just thought yours was worse because you always would cry about it and say you needed to stop. I was on board with trying to help you out on that. I would have went cold turkey too. It's a shame you met those friends of yours who don't know what you were going through. They were thinking taking you out was making you better when it was making you worse. That in turn made me worse in the end.

 

The past 6 months have been fairly good. I can't lie about that at all. I've watched myself go from a damaged head case with crazy emotions to the level headed goofball that I used to be. It feels good to be back to normal after being torn down and emotionally f*cked for the past year. I still don't know what I did to you to be treated the way I was, but hey, it's over now. This is the happiest I've been in years and it feels great. I still think about how much fun we could be having, just like we used to and it makes me sad. I just wish things were different and I knew what I did to make you so bitter towards me during the last half year of our relationship.

 

I hope you're doing well, and I wish you nothing but the best. You need to find that 'something' that is going to finally complete your life. Hopefully these demons subside soon for both of us. Be good, don't have your life full of 'filler' trying to find that something to piece your head and heart back together. Temporary emotions are just that, so remember that.

Edited August 6, 2012 by jdids247

[SoConfusedAndInShock]

for the last 3 hrs ive been crying my heart out...after 2 yrs of us being together and you ignoring me like this i feel so unwanted and unappreciated. two feeling ive never felt in my life. i just can't stop thinking about you today. i hope you find out what it means to be nothing within the eyes of someone you love and care about so much. i hope you cy ten times worst soon. i pray you experience everything you made me go through. PAIN and sorrow. tears and fear of the unknown. i hope ur life turns into nightmare

[LostJustLost]

Its another one of "those" nights, ***. You know, the nights when things get really quiet and for some reason, when all is still.. you pop into my head without warning. It's been almost a year since you told me you would be back as soon as you could. When is the phantom you left behind going to leave as well?

 

I miss my friend, my confidant, the other half to my half full glass. And I still don't understand why you did me like this. There's no way I deserved to be left waiting, with no clue that you were never coming back. But here I am.. still trying to sort it out. Still missing you. Still caring about you.

 

God I wish this would stop.

[BigBear]

M,

 

Well it's been a while since I've written you here. Here is what is up with me...

 

I have in fact dated and slept with someone new, I'll call her K. She is the polar opposite of you... which is both good and bad. I don't know what to make of her.

 

Where she's better: She is caring of other people and doesn't criticize everyone incessantly. She's a fantastic communicator and can really express herself. She is about 1000 x less tense. She's incredibly generous in bed (holy sh*t, I knew I was missing out on some things but forgot just how much). She likes to talk and listen. We can talk like we've known each other for years. She leaves work at work. She has great insight into how people think and act. She's genuinely kind.

 

Where I miss you: Only you are you, and I love you, but not her, yet. You're a better cook (truly, it may be difficult to eat this stuff she prepares; I may need to have her at my place more so I can be the cook). She has some way-out parenting ideas that I wouldn't push on our kid. Her son is 8 and can't read because she doesn't want to push him too hard - geez, I have a hard time with that. We haven't found our chemistry yet, and I'm doubting that we will. She's a very nice person, but I'm a bit worried she's starting to get a little too into me. I want to feel it with her but I can't yet. Will I?

 

Good to hear you are getting help with your shrink. I can hear some progress in your voice. You do seem to be making an effort to be extra nice to me. You sound sad and lonely. I am too.

 

Why did you have to do this? Life is way more complicated, less stable and less enjoyable this way. But we've done such severe damage to our relationship now that even if we both decided we wanted to try again there would be so so much to repair.

 

I don't know what I want but it is comforting to hear the real you on the phone and feel you experiencing emotions, not just being cold and emotionless. Probably best I continue to limit our contact, I keep trying with K, and we see where things go.

 

Simultaneously angry with you and sort of missing you. Going to try to push off the latter feelings, probably healthier in the long run to not get back into missing you. As soon as I do you pull back and I get hurt all over.