jgregory4614 Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 Hey baby, Im still missing you. I dont why. Even after all the hurtful things youve done to me in the past im still missing you. Sometimes i feel youve moved on maybe youve met someone else to take my spot. But i know you still think about me. Even though im saying all these things i stll couldnt get back with you. After all the cheating and lies i just cant go on living like i was. Your such a good lier. Link to post Share on other sites
AwptiK Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 It's such a terrible feeling to find single long hairs from you on my bed still, knowing that you're already with someone new. I just don't understand. There wasn't even a reason to break up and now you're talking to a new guy who is "just like me". Link to post Share on other sites
rhw Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 i want to hate you. i want so very much to hate you. you are a spineless coward in all facets of your life. i can't imagine how i ever thought it was okay for me to be with someone so cowardly. look at me now; my head and heart feel like they are perpetually detonating. how the **** do you leave someone after over a decade without even a goodbye?! how can you be that spineless?! Link to post Share on other sites
mistermr Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 I want to talk to you so much. We spent over 5 years talking, laughing, and everything else everyday. And now it's all gone. I don't know if you even care. I think you do, I hope you do. If you are still the same person I knew, I know you didn't want to hurt me. But you really, really ****ing did. You sucked all the life out of me. I can't blame you wanting something better, who wouldn't? But why did you screw me over like that? I thought you loved me, i ****ing loved you. You were my everything and i ****ing told you that everyday, look at your phone, it was everyday. Maybe that's not what you wanted? I don't know? But what do you want?? I really don't ****ing get it. It can't be that scumbag, you know he's bad for you, but maybe that's why you want him, you like the drama? I honestly don't know? Why am I still pinning over you? You are cold hearted, self bitch. **** you. **** everything about you. You've done this twice now, and i fear this is the circle you're going to get trapped in. Heart breaker. Well, enjoy that life, becuase eventually it will be a lonely one. You keep screwing people over, there's going to be no one left. I don't wish you any harm, but i think you really, really need to have your heartbroken, just to get a taste of your own medicine and maybe save some other poor soul who will get sucked into your trap. I really want to talk to you. I don't want to remember you as this ****ing skank. I love you more than I'm in love with you and i know you're not a bad person, you just did a bad thing, you ****ed up. If you ever loved me, show me, prove to me that you are the person I thought you were, the sweet, kind caring person I once knew, give me some ****ing hope in the human race. Because you left me bitter and untrusting, you left me ****ing punished for something you did! Link to post Share on other sites
InAFog Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 I never expected you to be perfect. I don't expect perfection from anybody. but I DO expect, especially from one who claims to love me and want to share a life together, I DO expect honesty. I had expectations for you to not constantly lie to me. I expected you to at least TRY to keep the promises you made to me. If you couldn't, you tried but you just couldn't, you could have told me. I'm more understanding and forgiving than you think. I wish you would have let me show you that. But now, there are things that I don't know can ever be forgiven. And even still, I wish I could. I wish I could forgive you for myself. So that I don't have to carry these resentments around. So the memory of our life together isn't tainted with betrayals. I still want explanations, I still want apologies. But I know I will never get them. I hope that somewhere in your heart you do feel sorry. I hope that you haven't just buried any and all emotions concerning us and what's happened, like it seems you have. I need to be able to look back at us in the future and be happy. It was some of the best years of my life. I can't let that be ruined. Link to post Share on other sites
D-One Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 Been three days since you decided to leave my life. After all we been through and all the building that took place while we lived together. How do you give up so easily? How do you let go after being so "in-love" with me. I gave you all that I had and now you don't think I'm good for you. I loved you beyond words and took the actions needed to show you that I was committed to you. Well unfortunately I cant do this with you again. This is the third and final time you will abandon me. I value myself too much to let you burn me again. I gave you all the security and love others couldn't. I promised to give you the world if I could give it to you but you rather see what else is out there I guess. Well thank you for hurting me like others have hurt you before me. Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 28, 2012 Share Posted August 28, 2012 I promised God last night that I wouldn't look at your Facebook or Instagram today. I told him I would try to go a day without doing that. Maybe that will turn in to more days. Who knows? Beside that, I wanted to tell you I love you. I hope you're doing well. I'm on my third day of sobriety. It's funny, because when I missed you before, I used to just want to drink and I probably would have. Now I just want to stay sober. I know that alcohol and drugs will make me miss you more. I just want to handle the pain naturally. In reality, nothing is going to help this go away aside from my own efforts to make it go away. I hope you think of me. I don't know if you do. I doubt you do. In any case, I hope you're doing well. You deserve to be happy. Maybe when we cross paths again, you'll fall in love with me like you did almost two years ago. I'll be a better man then _______. I've been visiting this site, intermittently and posting letters that I want to send to you, but don't. I'll visit again later. I'll give you a progress update on the things I do. Until then, I love you Bantu. Be safe and think of me fondly. I'll be the man you remember. Goodbye. Link to post Share on other sites
AwptiK Posted August 29, 2012 Share Posted August 29, 2012 Been three days since you decided to leave my life. After all we been through and all the building that took place while we lived together. How do you give up so easily? How do you let go after being so "in-love" with me. I gave you all that I had and now you don't think I'm good for you. I loved you beyond words and took the actions needed to show you that I was committed to you. Well unfortunately I cant do this with you again. This is the third and final time you will abandon me. I value myself too much to let you burn me again. I gave you all the security and love others couldn't. I promised to give you the world if I could give it to you but you rather see what else is out there I guess. Well thank you for hurting me like others have hurt you before me. I swear this is exactly what I could write right now... five days instead of three though, but word for word elsewhere. ... D, for the sake of not texting you one last time, now that i've said being friends is fine, here goes.. I don't know why, but what hurt me the most out of what you said today was telling me that, "I did put forth effort but apparently it wasn't enough." I can't explain how dumb you sound for saying that...All I ever complained about was that last few days when you were distant before leaving me. I LOVED every minute before, every single minute with you was perfect. For the first time, i'm watching a relationship fall apart that had no reason to. You keep justifying it with a new reason as you tell our friend about it, but there was nothing wrong.. I've dealt with a cheater, i've dealt with my own issues being angry, i've dealt with things that just weren't right..but it wasn't that way with you...everything was fine the entire time. :/ I'll never understand and I guess i'll never get the chance to. So go, be "single and have fun" all you want to. Since we're apparently at "different points in our lives" even though we're in college together. Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted August 29, 2012 Share Posted August 29, 2012 Im tired of playing on the team It seems I don't get time out anymore What a change if we set the pace face to face No one even trying to score Oh oh I can feel the magic of your touch And when you move in close a little bit means so much Ooh yeah, youve got to understand baby Time out is what Im here for God, I miss you. Or I just miss being touched. Hmm. Link to post Share on other sites
John85 Posted August 29, 2012 Share Posted August 29, 2012 I've got a date coming up. Thought you might want to know... Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 30, 2012 Share Posted August 30, 2012 I wish I hadn't peeked in today. I promised that I wouldn't. I saw you with the man you're seeing. I feel gross and ashamed. I am sorry if you are annoyed by me. I'm moving on now _______. I prayed to God and asked for strength but I also promised that I wouldn't look in to your life anymore. I disobeyed that promise and I am paying for it. You seem to be moving on and that's fine. I will not bother you anymore. I'll get better and I'll continue this way that I'm on and maybe we'll find each other again some time. Who knows. I love you _______. Nothing will ever change that. Please be safe and have a good life. Link to post Share on other sites
aanderson088 Posted August 30, 2012 Share Posted August 30, 2012 I talk to you every day. In the bathroom, down the hall, in my room, at my cubicle. Every day, every time that I can, when I'm alone. I wish you could hear me. I wish you could some how sense these feelings of mine. I wish you could feel my thoughts of you. I know we used to have that connection, that "shine". It's a shame if it's gone now... But what can I expect? Link to post Share on other sites
CopingGal Posted August 31, 2012 Share Posted August 31, 2012 The days go by slowly and it's hard, but I'm getting better. I'm still not ready to date yet because you did so much damage to me. I know, it's weird to you. You expect people to bounce back immediately after you do damage to them. I understand. You life your life wrapped in your own filthy selfishness, how can you expect to understand my pain? You don't understand anything you did to me, but that's okay. You thought it was necessary to treat me the way you did simply so you can get what you want. You don't understand what it means to love a woman and you never will. I think out of all the things that are so sad about you, that is the saddest. But I'm pushing forward with my life. I'm alone and lonely, but I'd rather be lonely than to have you back in my life. I truly mean that. I'm amazed at how much I have grown as a person. I am a true woman. I need a true man, not a mischievous little bastard who likes to play tricks on people. I don't need someone whose emotional growth became permanently stunted many years ago. I'm a good woman. I'm a strong woman. And I will be damned if I would let a dysfunctional, silly, hard-core bastard like you ever back in my life again. You are a menace to society and a disappointment to every woman who dates you. You are the truest, purest loser I have ever known. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
msfreebyme Posted August 31, 2012 Share Posted August 31, 2012 So you dare to even try to add me on facebook after ALLLLLLL of the things you've done. Really? I think the fact that what you have done to me is slowly starting to eat away at your soul so you want to talk to me since you're single...quit your job which was all that was working for you. Loneliness is bitch isn't it. I quess that awesome saying about how girls feel all this pain in the beginning of a breakup while the guy is going out and getting laid is true...but in the end the guy is always the one with the pain while I am free from pain. You truly now get to feel that I am the one that got away. I don't cry anymore from you...I don't feel sorrow from you. Of course you're on my mind but I am free =). I am happy with how far I've come along without you and I am not planning on going back...lost 40 pounds. Cut down my medication by 75%. I have a bright future ahead of me. I am finding ME again. I know for a fact I will do so much better than you. Link to post Share on other sites
mistermr Posted August 31, 2012 Share Posted August 31, 2012 I really want to talk to you. You were my best friend as well as my lover. I wish we could talk, chat about nothing and everything but I'm really still angry at you. I'm not sat here boiling with rage but that anger still burns inside. I'm not sure whether it's anger for betrayal or anger for disappointment? I know I am disappointed in you for not fulfilling the character I had built you up to be. In my mind you were my sweet, caring loving girlfriend. You have now tarnished that image of you and I'm sure you are still all of those things but now cheating has been added to that list. It's like I'm angry at you for ruining a perfect oil painting. Why would you do that? A beautiful piece of art that only bought joy to people who saw it. I'm angry that you threw our friendship away. I'm not even sure how to comprehend that? I hope you are just lost in infatuation, it would make all of this so much easier to understand and maybe one day that beautiful oil painting can be restored? I miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted September 3, 2012 Share Posted September 3, 2012 I miss you so much. If you only knew. But I can't let you know. I'm sorry that I have to play this game of not knowing you, forgetting that you exist, but it's the only way I can survive. You are so stupid. I can feel you hurting but this was all your doing. You are such a fool. Someday you'll be the last thing on my mind Link to post Share on other sites
InAFog Posted September 4, 2012 Share Posted September 4, 2012 I've been missing you today. I wish that my heart could realize that the "you" i miss is not the you that you really are. The "you" that i miss was lies. Link to post Share on other sites
Dog Woman Posted September 4, 2012 Share Posted September 4, 2012 (edited) I miss you so much. I just feel so helpless that there is nothing I can do to help you at the moment. If things were different, I would be by your side, supporting you every step of the way. There are things I wished I had said to you the last time we met. I know you thought the world of me and I know you wanted to be with me. I wished we had both been braver and had just got together as a couple. I know I have to let you go and I hope everything is okay with your health. There will always be a place in my heart for you. May be our paths will cross again some day and we find ourselves able to be together. I love you and always will. Edited September 4, 2012 by Dog Woman Link to post Share on other sites
Blastoplast Posted September 4, 2012 Share Posted September 4, 2012 I hate how you're not fully upfront with me. You say one thing, but then contradict yourself with your actions. Either pull your pants up and be an adult, and TRY to be a friend if what you really want is friendship -- or get lost. You used to complain about how friends wouldn't call you, or how this friend would annoy you etc. Well now I can see it from THEIR side. It's like you call me when you need me to help you with something, or when you need to let some emotions out, but if I just want to get together for a simple lunch or to even hang out for a bit you always have excuses for why you can't! I can't handle this wishy-washy bull**** much longer, it's draining me emotionally. Link to post Share on other sites
Dog Woman Posted September 5, 2012 Share Posted September 5, 2012 My brief encounter with your wife last night has made me realise that you have probably been lying to me and are not as ill as you have made me believe. If she has gives you grief about my general friendly text, then you deserve all you get. You obviously have a history for playing away from home as she clearly doesnt trust you. She immediately jumped to the conclusion you are having an affair with someone. I'm going NC with you and want nothing more to do with you. Link to post Share on other sites
kindest Posted September 5, 2012 Share Posted September 5, 2012 Been dreaming about you more than usual. I miss you so much. It's killing me. Link to post Share on other sites
barese1 Posted September 5, 2012 Share Posted September 5, 2012 I've been in contact with you again recently becuase you think I'm ready to be friends. I thought I was but i still want you. You are haoppy with this new guy now. You literally are Summer its unbelievable. I actually want him to mess you about just so you can see what its like. Link to post Share on other sites
barese1 Posted September 6, 2012 Share Posted September 6, 2012 Have a great weekend with your new guy. I hope you get attached so that he rips your heart out. O not the nice person you remember? That's because you made me cold and bleak! Link to post Share on other sites
AwptiK Posted September 6, 2012 Share Posted September 6, 2012 I have so much i'd love to say to you, but I just don't know where to start...or what to really say anymore. Was everything a lie then? Why'd you really leave me? So many unanswered questions...so many varying reasons I've heard other's share. Honestly, if I told anyone the entire story and said I still wanted to apologize, they'd probably call me dumb. But I am still sorry, sure I didn't do anything wrong, besides get mad at you for justifiable reasons at the end....but that's because I cared enough about you and us to make a point. I still want you back, after everything. Now i'm really being dumb, huh? I guess I just remember what we had...and I still have the willingness to restart. You're with someone new now...a kid compared to me. I might be 3 years older than you, but dating someone a year younger than you is a pretty big difference. I do hope he drops you like the last guy you tried talking to. ........... Link to post Share on other sites
mike5770 Posted September 8, 2012 Share Posted September 8, 2012 Hey Lisa?! How are you remember me?? You should the guy that treated you like a queen and were with in Vegas just 2 months ago making love and telling me you loved me. The guy who listened endlessly to your constant drama on the phone on how ****ty your life is with no job, three kids and a crazy ex who flakes on your alimony and child support. Remember me I showed you the greatest vacation of you life and you said to put the pic of us iverlooking vegas in the eiffell tower on your website. Well thanks a lor after having a really ****ty day I just wanted to go on Facebook and look at our pic together and I noticed you untagged yourself so it is not on your facebook anymore. I guess I an obsloete to you now since you are back home. What are u afraid I would scare some hick u are trying to date?? I guess the hell with me. I bet your kids miss me they said they loved mr mike and were dying for a daddy but u just cant have it. U are so selfish u dont care about me or your kids. I will never understand you but good luck finding a kind loving successful man to replace me. Not too many guys are going to sign up for a jobless mother of three with a psycho ex who is on welfare. U blew the opportunity of a lifetime if u noticed i blocked you on facebook and cut you off. I am not going to kiss your ass anymore and be mr wimp nice guy. I deserve better. Link to post Share on other sites
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