BackonTrack Posted August 4, 2008 Share Posted August 4, 2008 I was driving today, I started to think about you, but its a different kind of thought. Like your someone from my past whom I shared time with. I guess this is what was happening to you months ago, I am only now catching up. Its strange, I no longer hate you or love you. I feel nothing for you, but I still wonder what your up too. I don't want to wish you luck or happyness, its like your just a picture in my mind of someone I use to know, but I don't know u anymore I am going to move past you in life, I'm sorry U couldn't come with me. I'm sorry things ended the way they did but u caused this demise, the sad part is, I dont think your sorry. Link to post Share on other sites
Crazy.S Posted August 4, 2008 Share Posted August 4, 2008 You Bitch! Link to post Share on other sites
tealeafbud Posted August 4, 2008 Share Posted August 4, 2008 You're not good enough for me. Make this from me also. But maybe i should modify this a little. it's not a matter of being good enough. You're just not good for me. Link to post Share on other sites
Graduate Posted August 4, 2008 Share Posted August 4, 2008 Hey you, what's going on? How come I have not heard from you in a week? Are we broken up and you forgot to tell me? I wish you had said something before I left, or at least sent me a text or email so I knew where I stood. This disappearing act you are pulling totally sucks. Am I not even worth a goodbye? What happened, did I miss all the signs that you no longer wanted to be part of my life? I thought I meant more to you than some short-term fling. Why did you open up and tell me so much about you only last week, if you didn't plan on staying in touch with me? Is it the long-distance thing or is it something else? I wish you would just send me a text or email so I'd know you at least care enough to stay in my life, even if only as a friend. How long does it take you to buy a stupid phone-card or go to an Internet-cafe or public library? It is no freaking rocket science. I miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
Faded Posted August 4, 2008 Share Posted August 4, 2008 Why would you keep talking to me, If you know it's hard on me? I don't understand. Link to post Share on other sites
LikeCharlotte Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 O- You were right. I don't remember a thing about you and whatever it was that you called "us". I am possessed by a light you cannot understand, suspended in a state of joy and long gone. How does it feel to lose? -Charlotte Link to post Share on other sites
Terminator Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 Dear x I love you and miss you, and always will, even though you have probably wiped me from your memories. No-one else comes close. me Link to post Share on other sites
Raina Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 I'm kicking myself in the head because I'm writting here when I don't even need to. I don't miss you. I don't love you. I'm just pissed off. You can't ignore me like this. Well, actually you can but we both know its useless. How long will the NC last this time? 4 days? a week? 2 weeks? I didn't even do anything to make this happen. I respected you, I was sweet to you. You simply decided I was not worth your time. Is this how you treated your girls? You did everything wrong, you have no common sense, no ethics, no sensibility. Cheating on your ex with me, writting that kind of **** about oral sex and women and bragging about it to me, showing me your ex's necklace and then lying in my face saying you never really think about it. LIAR LIAR LIAR!!! Who keeps ex-girlfriend's necklaces right next to the bed??The only time you ever bothered to send me a letter was to insult me. You only bother to keep me interested when you want sex. You're the kind of man that talks to his dirty friends in the middle of a bar how your girlfriend likes to lick you or how she loves when you cum on her face. I bet you hate that you can't brag about it now, don't you? I'm laughing inside. You're not man enough. Wow writting this makes me look like the bitchy sad girl doesn't it? Maybe I should delete the "I don't love you" bit and try to look more desperate for your love. No. I won't. You know why? Because you suck! And I hate you for making me this resentful person. I hate you for stealing from me the hope for better men in the world. Go to hell. I despise you. I hate you. Link to post Share on other sites
wareagle Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 I hope you don't come back to work! That would make my life a whole lot better!! If you do I hope I can look at you and not want to kiss you or hold you, or just talk to you cause you don't deserve my attention! Please leave me alone, act like I don't exist! If you ever really loved me IF you ever really loved me you will do this for me!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Melrapuo Posted August 6, 2008 Share Posted August 6, 2008 It's been about half a month since we last spoke, and it wasn't the nicest of potential last words. I stopped talking to you because I was only giving myself false hope whenever I did. For a bit it seemed like you were trying to reach out to me, but when I confronted you about your intentions (after leaving me for another guy but dumping him within a month), you told me you still wanted to date other people. I had it at that point. I told you I was getting rid of things that reminded me of you. I don't think you were ready for that to happen. Even one of your friends messaged me the next day askin how I was, but I didn't play into it, especially when that person has rarely (if ever) contacted me. I'm doing NC because I need to help myself. You coming back would only be an added bonus, but even at that point I wouldn't know what to do. Your family has helped me a lot, even when I really haven't asked for it. They're concerned about you; I bet you friends are too. And even after all the pain I've been through, I'm still just as concerned. But I'm not a doormat. And I can't be just a friend. Being a friend would only hurt more. I hope you realize you made a mistake. I know you tend to be very stubborn about things, and hate admitting you're wrong. Most of my friends and family tell me you aren't worth it, but I know you better than most. I hope you still have feelings for me, but I won't pursue you. You have to come to me. And if that's not the case, then I only want you to be happy, with whomever you meet. And I hope you wish the same for me. You're the best thing that has happened to me in my life, and you showed me how much I really am worth it. I don't think I could ever thank you more for that, even if you don't think you did that much for me. I know I love you, because I can look past my anger and sadness and know that I only want whats best for both of us - whatever that may be. I hope everything's ok, and that you find happiness in your life. Please don't self-destruct. You're worth it, just as much as I am. I don't know if I can say the same thing later on in life, but I know right now that I still love you, and I hope me not talking to you is the right thing to do, because I feel just as lost as you do right now. You told me that I was the only person that ever truly made you happy. I hope you were telling the truth, and I can only wish that it stays true forever. I wish I could hold you and be there for you, and I know I did things that pushed you away; problems that were mine and not yours, but ended up affecting my actions around you, and made me treat you in a way that I didn't realize. I was blinded by my own stupid habits and problems; so much so that I pushed you to the point of unhappiness, and made you think that dating another guy was the right move. I hope you can forgive me, because I can forgive you. But I can't keep waiting. I'll hope that sometime in the future you contact me again. You weren't only my girlfriend of almost two years, but you were my best friend too. And I would have done anything to make you feel better, or to make sure you were safe and secure. That part hasn't changed, and never did. My ignorance to my situation was my downfall. Don't make the same mistake though, and throw away something that can be worked out. But also follow your heart and your gut. No one can tell you how to live your life, but recognize that your life choices are the smart ones too. I hope to hear from you again, and I hope that you'll want to reform our relationship again. But until then, I can only say goodbye, and that I love you. Rob 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Crazy.S Posted August 6, 2008 Share Posted August 6, 2008 Just when I really needed you, you are not here. I love/hate you and it's hard. You wouldn't understand though, since this was all your idea. I can't pretend you never existed, because then I will lose 4 years of my life. It sucks not being able to enjoy the memories without hurting inside. Thank you for showing me how much I can hurt. It's refreshing, maybe you should try it sometime. Link to post Share on other sites
BackonTrack Posted August 6, 2008 Share Posted August 6, 2008 I still talk to you, but then I realize your not here. You left me almost a year ago. Then I tell myself, its cool. She's lost right now, one day she'll return. Link to post Share on other sites
nopainnogain Posted August 6, 2008 Share Posted August 6, 2008 This is how I wanna live ,hard to change after youve been so negative Link to post Share on other sites
tealeafbud Posted August 7, 2008 Share Posted August 7, 2008 yo, i ignored your call yesterday because it is the best thing for me. I had no idea why you called, neither did I care. When you texted me lated that day that you were sorry you called me, and that your pregnant sister was rushed to the hospital and were just scared, and that it was a mistake and you shouldn't have bothered me, I obviously was concerned. But, I feel that I still couldn't respond or reply to you. If there were a way to show you I wish your sister is ok and that things will be ok with her without contacting you directly, I'd do it. But right now, I need to not communicate to you. I hope you understand. Link to post Share on other sites
BackonTrack Posted August 7, 2008 Share Posted August 7, 2008 Hey baby, do u miss me? Do you think about me? Do you still love me? When are you going to come visit me? Am I never going to see you again? I like the way you managed to turn the breakup around on me. That was smooth. What are you up to anyway? I can't remember you anymore, its very very hard. You've changed me, I don't know if its for better or worst, I am a different person on the inside. The breakup caused me to rebuild myself, my mind, my heart, my everything. In the night, when I am sleeping, my subconcious is fighting with me. Its trying to make me angry at you & hate you, I am trying so hard to not hate you, I think I have managed to subdue it this time. I don't know how much longer I can hold out, its been 5 months and not a phone call. I can still see our life, as clear as day. This is silly, I am not sure why I'm writing on this forum, your the past. We had a good run. I don't know why you left me though, I treated you nice but you hated me. u hated me because I didn't claim you which in essence gave you the green light to go cheat on me. You hated me for that. Baby, you were suppose to know you shouldn't do that. I can't forgive you ever in this life, infact if I should see you in public and you have not apoligized to me and you attempt to talk to me, I shall spit in your face and probably attempt to choke you. Yes I know its not that serious, but your a whore and should be treated as such. You are lucky I was still madly in love with you when I found out, you are lucky I didn't know the full extent of your betrayel, had I known, I might of killed you that night. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
sao2 Posted August 7, 2008 Share Posted August 7, 2008 I am pretty sure you don't love me anymore, but I don't have the energy to care anymore. I wish I did. Please stop signing your emails with "always", it is a reminder of a potential that was never reached, a promise not kept. If it had been always, it would have been then, it would be now. But it wasn't and it isn't. They say actions speak louder than words, your words say little and your actions say even less. Link to post Share on other sites
zalsa Posted August 8, 2008 Share Posted August 8, 2008 I still miss you...nothing will ever change that. There are so many things I want to tell you, to share with you but you are not here anymore... You said you care about me in your last mail, you said I am not disposable..but I think I am because you nolonger care about me enough to want to know how I am doing. Perhaps you don't think I care either, perhaps this is the justification you gave to yourself, that I do not love you enough to want to change for you, but I do love you perhaps even more than myself, I just want to feel that you love me too... You said I should choose what will make me happy. But you do not know that I don't want anyone but you, I don't ever want to feel this way again...but I cannot become something that I am not, I cannot make you love me more. Perhaps I should not have said things that I did not mean when I was upset, telling you that I would rather be alone for the rest of my life than with someone who do not treasure my love. The truth is I do not want to be alone, I want to be with you, but you are not here anymore. Everyday, I miss you more than you'd ever realize. I still wish you all the best, to be happy in whatever you do and whoever you are with, even though I could not be a part of your life anymore! I wish you love! Link to post Share on other sites
Teacher's Pet Posted August 8, 2008 Share Posted August 8, 2008 K: No, I'm not going to come "for you". It's all about me, sweets. B: You are still a whore. H: Your loss. -tp next! Link to post Share on other sites
MayraPelayo Posted August 8, 2008 Share Posted August 8, 2008 Hey A, Good morning I am here at work stressing over if you are ok, I don't understand it and it pisses me off because I am pretty sure your ass is over there thinking that I slept with the whole city of chicago... now I would love for you to know that that is not true regardless of stupid mistakes I have made... You claim that I am a fat ugly whore and a peace of s**t for a mother but the truth is you just downed me because you were the ****en peace of ****. I am trying to stop thinking of you and will eventually and I cant wait for that day when I look back and say wow what the **** was I doing with such an asswhole... The love I had for you has been tarnished by your stupidity and words. So with that said you will never ever touch this fine beautiful STRONG woman ever ever again bitvh.. GO **** YOURSELF ****EN HARD YOU ****EN COCK SUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad::mad: Link to post Share on other sites
BackonTrack Posted August 9, 2008 Share Posted August 9, 2008 i think i come on these forums and post you a message because i know i am forgetting you. i think by posting on this forum, its the only way to remember you. i think i am holding on to your memories because deep down i am waiting for you to come back. i don't know whats taking you so long, its been about 5 months, the odds are not looking to good. i don't think you are coming back Link to post Share on other sites
nopainnogain Posted August 9, 2008 Share Posted August 9, 2008 "You treat me like I was your ocean You swim in my blood when its warm My cycles of circular motion Protect you and keep you from harm You live in a world of illusion Where everythings peaches and cream We all face a scarlet conclusion But we spend our time in a dream" Link to post Share on other sites
LikeCharlotte Posted August 10, 2008 Share Posted August 10, 2008 O- I tried to post this earlier but it was lost in the abyss. You keep changing things and running away when what you need to change is inside of you. Nothing you change about the external things is going to make it better. Look inside. What do you see? What do you really want? I really hope you can face it someday. I hope it makes you stronger. Find a hand because you'll need it. Good luck in your new endeavor. -Charlotte 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Teacher's Pet Posted August 10, 2008 Share Posted August 10, 2008 B... You happy? I just survived another psychopath. Sheesh, at least I got to bang you 42 ways from Sunday.... -tp really just needs a good f buddy at this point. Link to post Share on other sites
HeatherAngel Posted August 10, 2008 Share Posted August 10, 2008 I miss you. It has taken a lot of self-reflection to say that... for a long while I wondered if it was really you I missed, or just having someone to talk to, someone to smile at, someone to be there. But it isn't - it's you. I miss your eyes most of all, and your hands. Your smile and your wit and your charm. I miss you in my bed, even though you weren't in it at the end. I just - miss you. I hope you're okay, and you find what you need in this time. You may never know how much you changed me - and how much you leaving me, changed me NOT 'back' - but for the better. "Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But - because I knew you, I have been changed - for good." Be happy, baby. My love for you is what it is - if you need to not be with me to be happy, then I want that for you. I really do. And I want it for me, too. Learn to love yourself - and you can love anyone. You always knew this, didn't you? It must have been painful to watch me hating myself, and yet desperate for you to love me. I didn't know how to be married - but I'm learning. I miss you. Link to post Share on other sites
BackonTrack Posted August 11, 2008 Share Posted August 11, 2008 where are u, you left me alone. the only person i had was you. i think i am starting to hate you now i did not know things would turn out like this i hope your not going through what i'm going through, its good you found someone else i hope your happy. oh what the hell i'm talking about. its not so bad, i'll see you in a few years, long after i forgotton about you Link to post Share on other sites
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