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[me007]

going on 2 weeks now of not calling, but 1 1/2 weeks ago I sent him back a card he sent me last year and inside he wrote how he would never want to lose me and would cherish me till his last breath...I wrote a letter with it saying something as good as we had deserves another chance. He hasn't called or anything.

 

I seen he was online tonight,so that might be a good sign that he wasn't out on a date. Tempting to IM and say hi to see how he is doing...but that will only be setting me back.

 

It's been over a month since I seen him in person. He said give him time then and then quickly said said he doesn't want to give me hope.

 

2 weeks feels like a really long time..everything should be done and forgotten about by now because that's how I'm feeling..all the bad memories are so far away and all I want to do is hug him and tell him how much I've missed him. but 2 weeks to him everything is probably still fresh in his mind.

 

It feels the longer I go with NC the more tempting it is to break it...how do yous deal with this?

[MaximilianL]

Haha. I've never given anyone this much. You said you never loved me? We lived together for a year in Residence. Ha.. I understand there must have been alot of pressure. I'm sorry too for not being more willing to receive love but you called the end to this. You told me you used me. Every one of your friends/elder sibling told me that you were like that. I didn't want to believe, I chose to believe you. Haha.

 

O well. I have since moved on, you never once told me that I was handsome, which is what I loved hearing more than anything. I have since gotten offers for part-time modeling. I haven't moved on until I at least talk to you in person when you move back for second year university. You broke up with me on the phone. I need to know what it was from your view in person. Just wanted to let you know, if you were being a ***** 2 weeks after you broke up with me when I asked nicely how you were doing, and whether or not you booked your flight, was that you wanted me to move on. Well I am going with this last hope, school starts in a week you know?

 

PS: I've pretty much moved on and will after I give you my last stand/proposition, as I have met someone who is interested in and who I am interested in too. But I'm not ready to love her yet, I need to be ready to give her my best. So please do not run, please just tell me when school starts, if we have a chance.

[LikeCharlotte]

If you are even thinking "I told you so" let me remind you that you didn't say a word and I'm fine.

 

Brushing off the nightmare you wish

Could plague me when I'm awake

And now you see your first mistake

Was thinking that you could relate

For one or two minutes she liked you

But the fix is in

You're all pretension

I never pay attention

Nobody broke your heart

You broke your own because you can't finish what you start

 

kthxbye

[Mending1985]

I hate you so much today. *screams* You are selfish and uncaring and a f*cking liar! "Oh I care about you, I'm there for you" Blah blah freakin BLAH!

I am NOT breaking NC this time. I am officially DONE.

[tealeafbud]

(Ok. this is supposed to be therapeutic. this is supposed to help me. this is supposed to be therapeutic. this is supposed to help me. How? I have no idea.)

 

hi. since I know you'll never get this, I guess I can express myself freely.

 

I thought I'd be over you by now. (Ok. this is supposed to be therapeutic)

 

the truth is that I am not. Sure, I've made progress, but I'm not completely over you. And I am the one who dumped your selfish ass. how _ucked up is that?

 

I miss things about you. I wonder if you think about me. I wonder how your family is. I wonder if you still forgive me. I wonder if you are happy. I know I shouldn't wonder these things because it is pointless.

 

(Ok. this is supposed to be therapeutic. this is supposed to help me. this is supposed to be therapeutic. this is supposed to help me. How? I have no idea.)

 

I've been having the feeling of calling you, but I dare not. I imagine myself calling you and speaking with you. Hearing your voice, but it's just crazy imagination. You're starting to be a distant memory, but there are moments where I think of the good times, old times, serene times. They fade as quickly as leaves wash off of a car in a rainstorm.

 

as much as I think about how I ultimately made the right decision, I still miss some parts of you.

[Jono]

I was so tempted to call you today.

It's been a week or two since I've spoken to you and it is making me feel better.

I'm glad I didn't call you, because it's not the current you that I really want to talk to, but the version of you that I knew before. The version of you that was still into us.

I've been getting absolutley wasted the last week, goin out every night. Met a girl on the weekend, kissed her, got her number. And for some reason I felt bad about it. I compared her to you, she didn't stack up in my mind, and it sucks, cuz there's nothing wrong with her, she's just not you.

Obviously I'm still not over you, though I'm trying to force myself to move on, trying to fill the hole.

I miss you. I miss having someone to care about. I hope you're happy, I do, even though I'm still angry at you. I just wish I could be happy too.

[iceis44]

Hey ex,

 

So you say your cyber girlfriend thinks your studdly and sent to save her life from welfare. Oh she thinks your a hot stud.

 

Want me to call her and try to explain your small dick, and 2 minute game plan.

 

And you have never even ventured to the multipule orgasm charts.

 

Thanks to my new friend, all of the above has been shown to me. Thanks for nothing

[colourithappy]

I had urge to txt you today, I'm glad I haven't done that. To do something like that does not no achieve or change anything.

 

I'm not angry anymore. To be honest, in my moment of weakness I actually miss you. I miss the person at the "right" times, I could talk to. I miss being loved, and important to someone. I miss being special to you.

 

I can sit here silently in tears and look back on our relationship and realise how ****ed up it was. I know I did many bad things. I also knew you being my first love was never going to be my only. What if you were as good as it were going to get? I really f***king hope not.

 

You messed with my head. I mean absolutely nothing to you now. You told me to go away. I have. I remembered your birthday but still respected your wishes and stayed silent.

 

This is just a blip, and I'm glad you'll never know my feelings & thoughts ever again. I'll never give your massive ego a rub any longer.

 

I still hope I don't bump into you any time soon. It's easier if I don't see you, you don't exist.

 

I still wish you all the best. I think I'm done bad mouthing you. You're a good person. Just not meant to be with each other.

[sugahoney]

Why do I let you do this to me??? Why do i constantly allow myself to get my hopes up. Well it will happen no more. Tonight begins the NC, please let me do this, I cant take feeling like this anymore. It hurts too much, why must i always hear things i should not hear. Did you not have the slightest bit of respect for me to call her when you left by me so i wouldn't hear what you were saying.

 

This was the last straw, I just hope I have the strength to stick to it this time, I dont know how I will get it done.

[justme43]

I would have to leave this on his voice mail because he screening his calls but here goes I hope I feel better I'm tired of crying

 

You are a liar you act like a child and Foff and die!

 

 

:-) hehehe

[blackandblue]

All your words hit home. I could have written that word for word because I did the same thing, I gave and gave and gave, and it was never enough. I kissed her ass for so many years to try to make her happy. It didn't work. I wonder though, your last sentence is something I hope will give them something to think about, but I fear that once they have moved on to someone else, we aren't even a thought in their mind. I hope one day she looks back and realizes what she had and then she has to realize that she let me go and now she has to live with it.

So, I will echo your strong words. It has taken me a while but I too, have gained some strength and some self worth. It's a long, slow road unfortunately.....

 

 

Yeah, I'm still on the long, slow road but I've passed the stage where I felt like everything was my fault and I wasn't good enough - now I'm looking at it and going "Wait a minute, I was a really good boyfriend, I don't deserve this". And as for not being a thought in her mind, no way - I bet she thinks it's only a matter of time before I'm begging at her door for her to take me back. My last sentence is because she knew she had a good thing going and she pushed it just so she could have that little bit more, now she's lost it all and it's her fault.

[watermeloncandy]

i f%^ing hate you.

you are a pig!

you are a liar!

you are a hypocrite!

listening to you yesterday made me sick.

it also made me feel good knowing you still love me and this hurts you.

i am so confused.

i want to support you.

i hate you.

why do i still love you?? why do i cry all the time??

why can't i just let go?

are you meeting one of your sluts up in ottawa???

gonna have an f'ing good time??

i hope you catch something rotten.

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

you are a piece of lying shyt.

WHY COULDN'T YOU BE NORMAL?? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO F%$^ THIS UP??? WE WERE SO GOOD TOGETHER!!!!! I'M SCARED THAT I WILL NEVER FIND ANYONE ELSE...THAT I WILL NEVER TRUST AGAIN...HOW CAN I EVER OPEN MY HEART AGAIN TO SOMEONE??!!

DAMN YOU!!!!!

[nowhereman82]

Had a dream about you last night.

 

You said I hadn't changed. Why does my subconscious plague me?

 

I am not perfect, but I am aware of my faults and I have set my best foot forward. I think I expect full change over night when in reality it takes time. I have unrealistic expectations of myself and should ease up.

 

I have made leaps and strides since we separated. I just have to remind myself of that.

 

From what you do share with me...it sounds like you are the one that hasn't made any real change....but that's wrong of me to claim. I do not know you anymore. I do not claim to know what you do with your time. But what you do share with me....makes me sad. I don't think that if you were to come to me today and want to try with me again, that I could say yes with a clear conscious.

 

I don't really know why I feel that. Like I said, I only know what you have shared, so perhaps my conceptions are off....but just the fact that what you do share has made me think that....well perhaps you still need to work on your communication skills.

 

But that's not even fair to claim. You are not beholden to me so you are not obligated to. So I am stuck. Don't know if you changed and hide it because it's none of my business....or if when we do talk, that's you in a nutshell, and it's not enough.

 

It's a good sign that I woke up this morning from this dream of rejection and didn't feel upset by it. You don't know what you are missing out on.

And by then, it will be too late.

[sunshinegirl]

The more time that passes, the more unreal it seems that you just kicked me out of your life and never looked back.

 

I thought you would somehow contact me. I imagined that the hooch thing would be a flash in the pan. I imagined that you would miss me. I imagined I would have bumped into you somewhere.

 

I loved you. There is just no getting around that. That's what is making it so hard to see you realistically. I believed in you, I always believed in you - and I told you that. I wanted your happiness and I thought I could wish it for you even if it wasn't with me. But you made it so hard for me to wish you happiness. You didn't appreciate the gift I gave you - the gift of my tenderness and concern and care for you. If I had any sense that I made a difference in your life, that I impacted you in any way, that you cared for me... maybe I could pick myself up and move on.

 

The thing is, I'm a strong person, but you brought me to my knees. You disrespected me so deeply, so fundamentally... I am still grappling with the shock you delivered in being so utterly hurtful and dismissive.

 

Four months later, I am still struggling to move forward... while it's entirely possible that I don't cross your mind at all.

 

I take no pleasure in the idea that you may never understand what it means to love a person deeply.

[seminoles84]

**** you you ****ing whore bitch c*ck sucking c*nt

 

Okay I feel a little better.

[JooLee]

i dreamt about you last night. i dreamt you wanted me back. i was surprised, but what i was more surprised is i dont want you back. hahaha, the satisfaction of that even if it was just a dream! but...

 

i still cant stop thinkin about you n her. you're a liar.

i dont wish you happiness for now... i hope misery follows you everwhere.

 

and plus, i realise now dat it was the wasted time n effort that i was sad about not the relationship!

[nickelinadime]

I still can't believe that you left me. I did everything for you. I know we fought a lot, but you didn't have to tell me that even two months after we broke up that you still loved me and that it wasn't your decision to let me go. You didn't have to tell me that we'll be together again when situation permits. I still love you too, but I'm moving on.

 

I miss you.

[sacg]

Not a letter, just some facts and a solid goodbye.. And you won’t like me for them, but I don’t care anymore babe, I really don’t. You should be happy.

 

I don’t want ANY response, get on with it. I mean it, don’t say anything, or this will get really nasty. I just want you to know how I think about you, and ****, and what you have done. You’ve made your bed, lie in it. I love you, and this hurts like hell, but I will never yearn for you again. I will never see you how I did. Whilst I admit my faults, it shouldn’t have happened this way. You should found the courage and left me babe

 

I think you still had feelings for me, but he made you question them, and you suppressed them and replaced your feelings with me with feelings for him.

 

If you didn’t leave me for him, then he definitely gave you a little extra confidence or reason to finally do it. You couldn’t get together that quick otherwise. You met him before you left me, if you’re attracted to him now, you must have been then.

 

I reckon you had feelings for him whenever it was you first met. My guess would be around April, as that’s when you didn’t want to make love to me. It would also explain how quick you hated me.

 

 

You really changed weeks prior to you walking out. You were very distant, spending more time out. That was when you’d already met him and started feeling different, to the point of wanting out. It’s common signs there’s someone else.

 

Don’t you think it’s a big coincidence that you met him before you left me, then when you left you end up being with him?

 

He was with you the times I asked, your sisters etc. And you lied, lied, lied. You lied to me babe.

 

You were with me for 7 years, we did everything, and now all you want is me to vanish, disappear, go away.

 

I think you wanted out of our relationship for a long time, you just needed something to help you, and **** was that something. I quote; Its quite possible that while the breakup is a recent development for you, your ex may have in effect emotionally broken up with you a long time ago and just needed the guts to be able to do it. In this situation, the "in love" may well have ended for them well before the breakup, so it means they come out of the breakup with a sense of relief and also "ready" for a new relationship. Sometimes (I have found this personally), its the realization that you can have strong feelings with someone else that you have never had with your partner that precipitates a breakup in an otherwise amicable relationship.

 

Would explain why I was shocked.

 

These things happen, I just wish id have been more aware and you’d have been more honest with yourself. I never thought it could happen to us. I truly thought we had more, something special. You will never fully understand the pain and hurt you have put me through. I’m gone babe, one week after I know your with another. Telling me this, weeks ago would have ended it and saved me this pain……and you and **** this grief.

 

These last few days have made me realise everything, I think your wrong **. I never want to hear from you, hear of you or ever ***in see you again. I don’t even want to know you exist. You ***ed me over babe.

 

Our relationship was in trouble, and wasn’t strong enough to deal with the first charming bloke that came along when you started to feel better. Can you not see how that looks? As soon as you felt more confident, and that **** was there, you left me after 7 years, you just walked out on what we were going through. It was your release.

 

I hate you, I really do. I never thought you’d do this to me. I hope you get what’s coming to you. You did it to *** with me and you will always be that way. I really hope this prick **** is worth it. I hope you’re happy with him. All we had was trashed in an instant. You acted like 7 years meant nothing.

 

Even when I knew, you still made me feel vulnerable. You said you didn’t want him, do you think im that naïve, that I think you could leave me for another bloke, how massive a decision that was, that you would not carry on seeing him. What must your folks think of you, finishing after all this time and shacking up with him straight away? Its not right babe, it’s not right.

 

Your going to be on your own for a while, what a ***in joke. You can’t do that. And do you think im that stupid that I don’t see you say that so I *** off and deal with it easier whilst you two carry on ***in and having fun. I hate you, how could you lie to me, me babe?

 

I hope you’ve had a great weekend in his arms. Laughing, loving, just getting on and not regretting. Making love to each other and not having a second thought. I know you don’t think of me anymore or give a ****, but I hope one day you may regret this. I hope karma pays you back.

 

You have to deal with the fact that the other person seems to be moving on from your relationship without a hitch. Aren't you supposed to feel hurt and suffer the consequences of the end of the relationship together? Not in this case. While you're at home feeling totally ****, your ex is out having fun with her new boyfriend.

 

I so wanted you to regret and come back. Not now mate, I hope you do, and I would *** you off. How the hell could I ever be with someone that picks someone else over me? I could never feel comfortable again. I hope the grass is greener for you.

 

You said we’d have kids, we were planning a holiday, we bought stuff for the flat, and a few weeks later you leave and end up in his arms. Do you think im mad? Every time we went shopping for stuff you never seemed interested, obvious why now. You were lying to you and me. You knew you were going.

 

Be with him babe, give him everything. I personally don’t think a relationship started so soon will last. But for your sake I hope it does. Cause if it don’t, and I’m happy, maybe you will regret.

 

All the years you spend with someone and think you know them you never really do.

 

All the fears you had of me getting fed up with how you were with me and ***in off with someone else. Did I? No, but you ***in did, pretty soon after you felt better.

 

You should have had the strength and courage in yourself to leave. You should never have waited around for things to return when you knew in your heart they couldn’t

 

It’s just a case of, relationship goes stale, someone comes along at the right time and shows interest and flatters, and someone else decides to leave what they had for what they could have. Nothing wrong with that, just wish you were honest and didn’t stay all the time you didn’t want to. Again, I didn’t think it would happen to us. We agreed not to let that happen.

 

There, done, over. No going back. Good ***in riddance. Do not say a thing, get on with your new life with ****. Forget me.

 

I couldn’t give a monkey’s if you are angry or not. I am! Very! and understandably. I’ve said all this so I can’t go back, so I can’t apologize and be nice to you. Even after all this pain and betrayal, I still love you with all I have. But I want nothing to do with this or you again. I have to severe this and this is the way. I bet you’re sat there clapping your hands with relief.

 

This probably will mean nothing to you and you will shrug off all I’ve said, if you even got this far. You’re probably rolling your eyes, but it’s really hurt me, destroyed me, knocked me down and made me think different about people being truly in love. How can it happen? How could it to us? I don’t regret meeting you and what we had, as I felt something I’d never felt in my life before, but I regret how we both lost touch, and you were so weak. We lost something most people never experience.

 

I never thought either of us would put the other through this. I thought we had something unique, we didn’t, I’m just another bloke in your life.

 

There, turn to **** and laugh, kiss him and say It’s over. You two can move forward and find your future.

[nickelinadime]

I hate you.

[aloneatnights]

i love you, always will. be happy... i am

[colourithappy]

Why did you text me at 5am this morning after approx 4 weeks of NC, the NC you initiated by telling me you didn't want to talk to me again, didn't want to be my friend, wanted to sort your head out etc etc? I accepted & respected your wishes.

 

Don't ask me how I am. Don't apologise for the fact that it was probably a drunken state of mind that thought it would be a great idea to text me. It is quite insulting. Certainly don't tell me you hope to hear from me. You won't.

 

You're not a part of my life anymore. You don't matter to me the way you used to. I don't want to speak to you. I don't want to hear from you. I can honestly say 100% I am over you. I'm happy. I do hope you are too.

[Sbrizio]

Maybe it's just the alcool, maybe the events of the night...but i'll wish you to be near me now. I don't know what you're doing now, but i know that tonight i miss you.

 

I miss you a lot.

[audrey_1]

I should be doing some work, but I can't focus. I wish I had listened to what others were telling me and not invested my heart. Too late now. I'm hurting. Tomorrow is another day. And then the next day. And the next. *sigh*

[JooLee]

i've found a new song about us... for you...

 

all that is left is an empty shell

of my heart that is crushed

i don't never wanna see

what my mind has seen

when you loved me

every night, every night alone with you

every night alone now

 

when she sits on your lap

try to pretend to laugh

when she does stupid things

just like i used to do

do no hate her

don't you even try

for to leave her is to love her

the same as you and i

I love you

and i miss you too

i really do love you

and i really miss you too

 

but i don't know you

and i don't need you

and i don't want you anymore

 

every night, every night alone with you

every night alone now

[HopeDiesLast]

God i hate you right now. i dont really hate you- i hate what you've done. what the hell is the matter with you???? seriously? can't you see where your life is headed? cant you see those people you're hanging out with dont care about you? why would you throw away a good thing? i just cant deal with this. i really cant. you know im right. i know im right.

and still i ****ing sit her and pine over you. over and over. i analyze every little thing trying to come up with answers to questions you dont even know. i cant do a damn thing to change this. only you can. and frankly i dont trust that you'll ever realize. how could you walk away so easily??????? how???? why did you sit there and cry? why did you act like this was so ****ing hard for you? if it was that hard would you have been able to do it?

i was trying to be the good influence you wanted me to be. you told me to be! you said i made you a better person. you said you would never leave. how the **** can you not care???????

god i cant let you go. please just let me let you go. please just get out of my head and out my heart. i really feel crazy. i cant take this anymore.

just come home or get the **** out of my heart.