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[BackonTrack2]

hey sup,

still thinking of you, haven't found anyone else.

haven't really been looking, threw away a couple offers.

good offers too, wasn't ready needed to be alone

 

i'm ready now so next time something comes up i'll be sure to take it.

not mad anymore or sad, just like damn, i kind of loved you, sorry u left to, your gonna miss it all.

 

hrm, what else? thats it, took a while to recover, maybe 8 months, guess u really liked dude, dunno what else to say, can't say i wish you well or anything, can't even talk to you in public if i see you, thats bad, we rode the relationship to the death kneel, can't say i expected anything less.

 

love you baby girl, sorry we can't be friends again in this life.

good luck to you.

[Sysyphus28]

We tried at being friends. It was some of the most guarded/boring conversation I ever took part in. You blabbed about yourself, I tried not to say anthing emotional, you lied about what you had been doing, I lied about what I was doing.

 

it is too soon, and it might never happen. I have to cut my losses on this one and just go NC for good.

 

Day 3. After seeing you sunday for dinner. 2 months of self-work, and I am leaping back into the driver seat!

 

Goodbye babe,

thanks for all the memories.............

 

I will not pick up your calls, and I will not answer your texts.

 

goodbye.

[BackonTrack2]

you know, when i broke up with my ex ex a few years ago, i went looking for her after this breakup, she was happy to see me, at the same time she wasn't supriseid at what happen, in a way she loved me yet hated me, i think she felt i wronged her, i think i feel u wrong me, in a way after our meeting, i laughed to myself and said "she hates me but she still loves me" and i couldn't really give two ****s about her, i hope when i see you again i don't give out that vibe. i wonder if u don't give two ****s about me... na, thats not possible, lie to yourself if you like, but your always going to feel something when thinking about me baby girl.

 

now i sound like a loser talking to a imaginery person, oh well thats life, got to keep moving, got to keep running, can't look back, later whore

[UnamedSeven]

you thought what you told me, was the truth? that, your retarded friends wouldn't blabber it to me somewhere along the lines? I never even liked them anyway. I completely ignored them once i saw them trick or treating. Oh it was hilarious how they actually thought that i still considered them "Human Beings".

 

4 months...To the Damn Date its been. You could simply careless because of how good your life is now. Can't exactly say thats the truth since you still haven't returned the phone calls that i sent. Hoping to get the reply that i never once did.

 

Part of me still loves you to my dying breath, while the other is just praying to god that you get used and led on so that your heart can shatter the same way mine did.

[ahhhchooo]

You blabbed about yourself, I tried not to say anthing emotional, you lied about what you had been doing, I lied about what I was doing.

Gosh.. ain't that the truth.

[BackonTrack2]

hey whats up, how are you.

haven't seen or spoken to you in months, what you up too?

i messed up big, i let the business and the money slip away, but you know u always say i wait until the last moment to do anything about a situtation, guess you were right.

 

i'm scrambling now to recover, i think i am going to make it.

you sort of caused this whole thing, didn't know when you left i would of taken it so bad.

 

anyway not sure what else to say, still wondering when i'm going to hear from you, haven't forget you yet, been about 8 months NC, don't know how long its going to take to forget, i'm alone most times, sometimes i look over to my right side of the bed and your not there, funny you haven't been here for over 1.2 years, i guess it didn't matter because i knew u loved me and would always be there for me, but i was holding on to a false image.

 

not sure but i managed to seperate you into two people, the person who left, the person who loved me, i guess i'm talking right now to the person who use to love me, i hope she's still there, i know she's there but she wont acknowledge me anymore. its cool, i'll find someone else.

 

i can't see, hear, or feel you anymore. it stoped about 3 months ago. your still in my mind though, i guess all i need now is your replacement then i wouldn't be here writing this message to you.

 

i messed up big when u left, i threw it all away, i didn't want none of it, i was waiting on you to come back but u never did. took me a while to pick myself up, just with less money, new apt, new car, same clothes, less friends, more business opertunities, more places to hang out, a little smarter about relationships and life, but thats about it. nothing really changed.

 

i wonder whats your updates. i'm sure you forgot about me by now, its cool, as long as your happy, i don't have to worry about you anymore, i just wanted to watch you grow and become successful and be there for you and make sure no one bothers you, but i guess u didn't want that, i am not even mad anymore, i'm just like damn, i miss my friend.

 

u know, i started to tear the other night, hadn't done that in a few months, i thought i was over it, but i wasn't. i think i fell into a whole so i can hide the pain and now i'm emerging becoming me again and realizing your not there, i think i slipped into depression for a while, but i got myself out of it with no outside help.

 

some dudes tried to rip me off the other day, but i had to put them in their place, i was going to get evicted but i started making payments on the rent too. i guess now i have to keep moving forward, get a new wardrobe and try to get more clients.

 

hopefully i'll meet someone on the way who won't leave me like u did. well technically i tried to leave you but i kept going back and you hurt me and got in the last word so its like u left me. anyway it doesn't matter now its over, that OM ****ed us baby, ****ed us good. I guess i should blame you too but I don't think u knew what was happening, but u figured it out, and u strung me along and then started to use me for money, then threw me away when i became angry and blamed me for everything, atleast u said sorry, but i didn't let you finish talking but i know what you were going to say, but you were happy the way things turned out so i guess you wasn't that sorry.

 

my car got towed again, $800 to get it back + another $1100 on tickets not yet in judgement. Man I must of paid atleast 10grand on tickets & towing, and my car is worth like $3000 if that.

 

I always wondered why you were acting so crazy and funny when I tried to give you things, like u made me think it was my fault or something and you would get real defensive and i never understood, i was a fool, u must of knew i was a fool, u started to toy and play with me like i was a fool.

 

sometimes i still can't believe the person i knwe would do this, but it doesn't suprise me, it was always within you. i seen it.

 

know that i know how you are, it saddens me, u weren't the person i thought i knew, your two different people in one. atleast you were, i haven't talked to you in so long, maybe you found peace within yourself now so u could stop lieing to people around you.

 

i always wanted to help you because you were nice to me that day when we first met, so i decieded i would be nice to you as well, i loved having sex with you, i never planned on staying but you stuck around for months, lol, stuck to me like glue, but u must of got bored or something, i don't know, then u started cheating on me.

 

its cool, took a while but i recovered, i guess it was at that moment when things were officially over, i just hadn't realized. u tried to warn me too, was saying strange thingsi "I loved you" talking in past-tense like you knew it was over, i just thought you were stupid and things like "Your going to bring girls over, I am going to be working, your going to ignore me and I am going to be sad", I never knew what the hell you was talking about but now I understand.

 

"Why are you so nice to me, I feel like a whore" - I never understood, but I guess your heart/conscience was bothering you, u didn't know how to tell me, u didn't want to tell u, u thought I deserved it, you had all those emmotions jumbled up inside of you, it must of been hard.

 

if u loved me, why didn't you just leave the guy when i came back? you contiuned it, you must of liked the sex, then when i left again and came back, why were you sounding so sad and making plans with me for the future and us still having sex? why did you try to come back and then just do a 180 degree turn. u were really confused.

 

u must of got it together, well you were getting it together for a while, i just wasn't apart of the picture nor did i realize you were seeing someone esle. must of decieded i was right for you or we weren't right for each other but we never broke up and i was there loving you while you were there ****ing another, resenting me.

 

u can't do that to people, its not nice.

 

anyway thats it, back to work now.

hopefully i won't see you in the street, hopefully i won't run into you for a very long time, i hope by then i will be calm enough to speak to you without attacking you.

 

in the end, u really didn't care

[lofi_tokyo]

MAN! It was last week (the 27th?) that you broke NC to talk to me. After three weeks of NC.

 

Since then I KEEP BREAKING IT! Daily almost! Well not daily, but every few days.

 

Today is time to stop I guess. I don't know why I talk to you now, you seem somewhat hostile, and that makes me feel defensive and blah.

 

Anyways.

I miss you, but not this you, and I don't miss you enough to stay away for good.

[BackonTrack2]

hey, its going... whatever we had ,its leaving me.

i can feel it.

 

i waited for as long as i could, life is taking over now.

nothing more i can do

 

i can feel it, u can still stop it

you have to do something

can u hear me?

 

please u have to do something, i know myself, i'm probably going to

spit in your face the next time i see you....

 

why do i still have hope, lol thats stupid, no word in 8 months.

i saw that you were happy, i saw that you were good with the way things

were, its like me beating a dead horse.

 

look its changing already, slowly but surely, its going away, i'll try and hold

out a little bit longer but its not looking good...

 

there is still a tiny bit left, its going away now though.

its hard to remember,

[SelfCentered]

Hey, really feel like saying stuff now.

 

Might be because I'm drunk. Actually, that is the reason why. It's funny how sometimes the drink makes me forget you, other times I think about you non stop.

 

I saw a friend tonight that I hadn't seen since May. He knew about our beakup. He was shocked, said he thought we were made of something stronger. He also asked why we broke up. I couldn't answer. Is it because there was too many reasons, or because I'm still confused about that myself?

 

Tomorrow will be hard. We're supposed to see that band together. I know there's a group of us. But still, it'll be horrible. The only reason I am going is because I don't want you to think I'm weak. And plus my friends want me too. It's funny how far I'll go for friends.

 

It's funny how far I'll go for people in general. I do wonder if I would have made so much effort to have seen you over the summer if I had known this would have happend.

 

I still remember the good days. I remember when we first started dating, how you would use to give me an eskimo kiss and smile so brightly. That image stays lodge in my brain. So painful.

 

Tonight I could have gone home with many girls. Tonight I saw a lot of girls I fancied. Tonight I bad mouthed you to some random people. Tonight I missed you. What's up with that?

 

After the way you dumped me, after the way you've treated me, I can never forgive you. That is why we can never be friends. But honestly, right now, I would give my an arm and a leg to erase all of it and still be your boyfriend. My god I hate you for making me this needy. I feel like I love you. I feel like I hate you. I feel awful.

 

Tomorrow will be hard but my mates will help me through it. They're good guys. After that, I will delete your number off my phone. I've already blocked you on MSN and deleted you as a friend off Facebook. No contact is really what I need. I can't be doing with you saying hi every now and then.

 

Just disappear out of my life, please.

 

Kind regards,

 

A wonderful person you broke up with.

[LovieDove24]

WOW, READING SOME OF THESE POSTS IS DOWNRIGHT DEPRESSING. BUT ITS ALL REAL. WE'VE ALL FELT IT. SO HERE GOES MY VERSION:

 

Damn you for apologizing that you "used" me. Is that supposed to make it better? You always ****ing compared me to her and for what reason? Because you lived with her and bought a dog together? Is that why she was so great. **** her for being loved by you and not me.

 

Well guess what? You and I have a CHILD together now. Doesnt that mean anything to you? I guess you say I was your rebound but our relationship produced a child, how could I NOT be more than that to you?

 

I have been so angry at you for so long. I have thought and over-analyzed and contemplated and never understood how you could straight up say to my face you loved her more than me. I was not your one night stand I was your girlfriend of four months. And I had your child. Period. That SHOULD mean something, but with you it never will. I was just a means. A producer of child. Nothing more, nothing less.

 

And now I am beginning to move on with my life. I have gone on countless first dates. And I now realize I am valuable and that you are not worth my time.

 

But that still does not mean I wouldnt like to wring your neck...

[EmperorR]

I hate what you have done to me, I've become the things I always hated in people, a damn loner, a recluse, scared of social interaction, scared of trusting anyone, thinking everyone is out to get me. I hate the way I feel, and its all your fault, if you ddn't want to be with me just tell me, instead of opening your damn legs you slut. Now I have to rebuild the pieces, I'm talking to a few girls but I feel nothing, and I hate how nice they are it just reminds me of how nice and sweet you were at the beginnig. thanks for destroying every future relationship I will have thanks to trust issues.

[Peter_pan]

lol i actually laughed at some of the anger and words used in these, not because i want to be mean or anything.

 

these are great and i think its great everyone can say what ever they like about there ex.

 

rock on everyone

 

and f you ex, you dumb **** head

[gdap]

I still miss her. I'm feeling better than I was a couple of weeks ago, though. And getting used to the idea of never talking to her again. I'm sure she's fine - I just have to get to the same stage!

[Crazy.S]

I just realized that "something you forgot" is a lil wayne song. Maybe I am being a little selfish but I have reasons to believe that was meant for me. I hope the message is not true because you seem to be playing with my heart again. I used to listen to the song from my perspective and now I saw it from yours. If it is true, why don't you call me? I don't understand what is going on. I am as confused as ever. I am trying to move on so please don't **** with me. I still wonder how someone I love so much could hurt me so much. Don't you think I deserve better?

[Sbrizio]

I feel like i have to start it all again!

I try to forget you, try to push you away...then i log on facebook and without even asking i see your news about your relationship. WHY, WHY, WHY?!!!!

 

And this morning i feel like Sh*t again, as if you refused me again!!!

 

I want to stop feeling like this, i want to forget you forever!!

 

I want to get rid of all my feelings!

 

Go out of my life...you never brought me any happiness, you just toyed with my emtions...and now i feel like i'm dying!

 

I hate this...i would like to call you to say this to your face!

 

Sh*t.... i wish i never met you.

I wish i never met you...

[SelfCentered]

Dear you 'b' with an 'itch'.

 

Refer to "A Friendly Goodbye" by Bowling for Soup.

 

Signed from me.

[BackonTrack2]

hey baby girl whats up, i started working again, thats good, i was in a hole for a long time. feels funny now though, i know your gone, been gone a while, almost a year, but now its different. i got so use to you, sometimes i still think your here with me but something always snaps me back to reality, and i realize you left, hadn't been here for a while. i honestly miss u, where are you... i dialed your number today TWICe by mistake, i was trying to call my mom, but kept dialing your number, I hit send TOO, oh my god, i am so glad I realized and hit the END key before the call actually went through. your like a distant memory now, i don't hold any bad feelings or anything, i forgiven you long ago, i wonder why you haven't contacted me yet, the ony thing i could think of is, u must of forgot about me, its cool, one day you'll remember. well thats about it, waited a while for you, u never came back though, almost 9 months, u never came back. it came by in the blink of an eye. life goes fast. you must really be in love, thats good for you.

[BackonTrack2]

hey sup, me again.

its going man, i can feel it.

i don't even know what to say, i have no words.

 

never wanted it to end, can't even say we had a good run, its almost like it was a fling that ended badly. ended before it got started but you stayed almost a year, i wonder if it was my fault, i wasn't ready, na it wasn't my fault, your a whore, cheated on me n lied to me for months then came around only for money, then wanted to come back but changed your mind and told me to **** off once i called you those 8-9 times trying to tell you to come back but i never got the words out, i just let it go and gave in.

 

it was to hard, i was crying like a little girl, i'm not like that but with you, everything was different. i'm sure you forgot about me by now but its cool, your time is coming.

 

i feel it going, each night, a little bit goes away and i carry forth with life. each night, i pray, i guess it wasn't meant to be.

[BackonTrack2]

damn, its me again, i'm back... lol

**** i'm healed, oh baby holla at your boy.

took a while... ****, it took a while.

 

guess i won't do that again, **** u really moved on, took almost a year to believe it, but u really moved on....

 

lol u go girl, you been trying to leave me for so long, you finally did it and even then, i let you go, loser.

 

oh man, the sheild is up oh baby, thanks for lesson you thought me in life, i appreicate that, i'm sorry i didn't do more for you, i just was you now... in my own world. damn u stayed a while, u must of loved me.

 

i'm sorry i hurt you. i really am, i shouldn't of cussed you out, i was angry

 

to my credit, i tried to do more for you, u wouldn't let me, u were cheating on me, i never understood, hell baby, i ammased a small fortune for us, lost it though, u wasn't here so i just let it go, i didn't want it, i only wanted you, u know i got everything i wanted, but i'll trade it in a heart beat if it meant you would stay with me forever, but hey, thats not what fate had in store for us, for you, for me.

 

**** it, cry two tears in a bucket. One thing that gets me to this day is WHY were you so mad? I also wonder why u never came back to call in like 8 months, I know the answer but damn I thought we had something special, guess I was wrong, hell I thought you wasn't going to leave me, wrong again, **** hell, i didn't even think you were the type of cheat on me, wrong again, seem i had it all wrong or maybe I didn't and you were just stupid?

 

Oh whatever, later whore, go suck some more cocks, sad, thats what you are now, lol everything we had meant nothing, your just a whore now, so sad, I pegged you for a good girl. Wrong again.. Either you fooled me or I believe what I wanted to beleive.

 

Anyway whatever, who cares, later whore.

this is like one of those mysterious where you're like "huh, what, who, HUH??!!" yeah one of those things.

 

u know, in reality, the truth of the situtation was, i was comfortable, i forgot about you, i thought you were happy, i liked having sex with you n being around you and i figured i would see any problems that might come up and i did, i just never understood, i honestly didn't understand, i'm sorry, u were nice to me, u loved me and cared for me for a time, then started doing a 180 degree uturn, slowly but surely, something happen, either something i did or something u did or something we both did or outside influences, i have no idea but something happen, tore us apart, we never recovered, i never recovered, u never recovered, i think it was our age, i woudln't mind you as my wife, then again man i'm 24 and you were my first real girlfriend, i don't let people in easily, i guess its why 8 months later, i'm still thinking of you,

i guess its why, it took so long for me to recover, actually thats not true, i honestly didn't care anymore, eventually though, time forced me to move on, hell i don't want to move on, i want to go to sleep at night and think of your pretty face and then i just feel calm, but i can't do that anymore

 

a) your not coming boack

b) i think its bad for my health

c) my mind literally hurts me doing that

d) i think other people would view me as pathetic

e) its not that big of a deal anymore, got past it.

 

anyway, later whore, damn, i'm viewing you as a whore, and nothing more. how low your reputation has fallen, thats sad, considering i thought you were my angel sent from heaven to restore me, u were, u were doing it, u didn't want to be with me, but never flat out told me, and then started ****ing another, man u move fast. think whore, think.

 

atleast when you left u did tell me all my problems.

a) i seem to think the world revolves around me (true)

b) i seem to think u should come at my every beck and call (well no, but you always did so i assumed you were cool with things)

c) you think i have behavioral problems (you lucky whore, your lucky i didn't murder you that day, pull that same stunt in the future, your going to get hurt, dangerious game your playing

d) hrm, i think that was it, now that i think about it, those were all lies, lol, u liked having sex with dude, couldn't just break up with me, i did nothing wrong, u had to find a reason, so you wouldn't look bad, lol the lengths you went through to hide the decpition, boy your good lol.

 

hrm, maybe i should take tips from dude, he must know something i don't.

i hope the sex was worth it, i hope it was worth it, i hope it was worth it.

 

anyways so here i am, took 8 months but i'm right back to my old way of thinking, you = whore, i can't explain it any other way. i'm trying to see things from your point of view but i just can't,

 

you was interesed in dude, i went away, you sized on the opertunity, went on dates, was having sexual relations, at the same time i'm not caring whatyour doing, it progressed, u checked in with me first, i said do whatever bascially, so u did, then u started acting crazy, then u tried to save the relationship, all the while i'm like 'HUH, wha???, WHO??, yada??' then i went away again, u checked in with me again, i was like whatever, all the time hate n resement is building, but you kept it hidden, u couldn't hate me, you had dirt on your shoulder, u couldn't be mad, so i came back and you sure started fooling my ass until you got confused and thats when i started to take note and realize that you only came around when i gave you things and your response was "thats bad", and it just kept progressing, u just kept distancing yourself, i never knew what was the matter, then i returned and you started coming back, then i found out certain information and you were sorry for like a week then flipped the script on me, then i reached you, it was so hard, i reached you, but i let you go, then i went mad and i don't remember what happen for the next few months, but i woke up, its like it was a dream, i have a new life, your gone, you are really gone, i still can't believe it, i still can't believe it. i under estimated you...you were playing dirty, thats not fair, hell even then u still couldn't leave, why were you so tided to me? what did i do?

 

I must of gotton in your head pretty far, farther than I know probably. Still doesn't explain why u didn't come back. I was sure you was coming back, u always come back, this time though,

 

why were you even cheating on me? i hope the sex was worth it. u confuse me.. ok damn, **** it, thats it.... its almost like you were getting me back for something i did, but u must of realized it was wrong, but you liked it, u didn't think i would find out and when i did, you must of just said **** it, the relationship is over anyway, i can tell him off now, but u didn't, you waited until it was all gone, u waited until i fired you (you knew it was coming), u waited until i cursed you out, its almost like you KNEW what was going to happen and you prepared yourself mentaility for the outcome.

 

Thats crazy, u could of just left anytime u wanted before all this drama happen, but you rode it out, i didn;t even know it was that bad, ithought it was good, hell i was making plans for the future, hell i even got us an apartment and told everyone i wanted to marry you, hell i even planned to take you with me cross-country, i had plans, enough to fill ourselves for the next few years, man u would of ben so happy, oh my god, you would of been so happy, i was studying you, i knew you, guess i was to late though, damn, it couldn't lasted another few years, oh man, baby oh man, it would of been so sweet, i smiling right now thinking about what your missing, damn baby, well anyway, whatever.

 

In the very end, it was just you and me, and you were still there. I let you go. I know I did. Despite it all, everything you did was a reaction to me, I know that. You were my first so I'll always have love for you. I won't ever show it, but its there, it doesn't go away at the same time though, you were two people in one, u really were two face, they warned me about you.

 

good luck to you and your relationship and i hope you turn out well in life. you are a good person over-all, you have to work on your sexual addictions though, i don't think your husband is going to like the fact his wife is sleeping with other people. its your nature, u can't change. good luck to you.

[gdap]

About three weeks NC on my part, two weeks on hers. I can't quite believe it. Maybe we will never speak again.

 

Regardless, I have far too much to accomplish (and think about) in the meantime!

[BackonTrack2]

nothing to say,

been a while, long time, almost 9 months.

took a while to realize u wasn't coming back, cool i've accepted it.

later

 

u really left, wow

guess u were right, guess u never really loved me.

guess you were just infatuated.

guess u found better.

 

u know, i never wanted you, never was going to stay.

i thought u stuck around for so long i had to do right by you, i didnt know it would be like this though

 

u forgot about me long ago. everyone's replaceable i suppose, i loved you.

i know i'll find another, but i liked you. i really did. guess feeling wasnt mutual. guess you found better. guess your happier without me. cool. do your thing.

 

boy i wish i hadnt tried to get back into a relationship so soon. all i did was mess them up. i suppose i dont really miss u, i need company.

[spike 1705]

Hey Baby,

 

Just wanted to let you know that I still love you and miss you every single day.

 

You are unique, extraordinary and the best friend I ever had.

 

I hope your life is going fine and I wish you luck and love.

 

That's all; just wanted to let you know.

[EmperorR]

I still can't believe it

[immizunderstood]

Karma is a *itch and I hope I'm there to see it!

[msjules]

Hey ---

 

I would like to clear up some misunderstandings because I think that you think I am off my rocker. Lord knows I threw you for a loop last week when I admitted that I am not doing so well after all---despite what I had been telling you and how I had been acting. I'm not a nut case, I'm just hurting and I can't believe you haven't tried to salvage our friendship like you so desperately tried to do when I broke up with you. You hounded me everyday for weeks until I took you back. And when YOU break up with ME I am lucky to get a damned text every week or ten days.

 

You are not who I thought you are. You are not the person I have literally worshipped for 4 1/2 years now. You knew that, didn't you, and that's part of why you left.

 

I was a fool. I don't know that the long term future holds for us --- whether we can ever be friends again like we once were. If that is to be the case it will be months and months before that can happen, not when you just happen to get a job and get your life back together. It's going to take time if it's ever going to happen. And right now I don't exactly want it to happen. I have some good friends who tell me never to contact you again and to let go of this permanently.

 

I think they are right. I can't imagine my life without you being a part of it, it's been years now, but I think that's the way it's going to be. You have lost far more than I have.