kepners Posted May 5, 2007 Share Posted May 5, 2007 well, i have lost my ex. i am utterly GUTTED. this is so not manily but i am doing my best to not man-cry over it. she was being rude... she admitted that the arguement we had, changed her opinion of me. that i am not as important to her. she admitted to being in a bad mood and leave it till monday.... i couldnt stop skratching at the itch now... she hung up when i was say WTF!... msn'ed her after she had blocked me(not cool) wrote an email... now i am blocked and deleted... i have lost her. this utterly stings... i am now sitting on my pc with all my friends and family busy... no one to talk to online cept dave and drinking. this utterly sucks! i was on a crest of a wave this time last month, her wanting to see me and work and uni going well... now i am flat on my face... and it stings. i dont even have anywoman who are interested in me... and i am not going out on my jackjones (own's). i cant contact jess anymore, but i really really want to. i will only make everything worse!... all the advise i ever got was dont go there! my heart said do it! my head said WTF - but at the time said do it. at least i told her i love and loved her that does make me a little happy. she not replied to my email... i went over the top but i hate being mugged off. u know, before i told her my opinion on something that friday, i was totally on top and dominating her, and she was loving it! now look... keps Link to post Share on other sites
Touche Posted May 5, 2007 Share Posted May 5, 2007 Huh? .................................... Link to post Share on other sites
Author kepners Posted May 5, 2007 Author Share Posted May 5, 2007 sorry, basically i wanted my ex back, i thought i was getting my ex back... then we have an arguement3weeks ago... everything changed... then blocks me... then i bring her out of her hole this week... and get her to talk... and then everything when wrong 24hours ago... and now i am utterly blocked and deleted! and not replied to the email where i say i love her... and i am not sad, because i dont have her as my friend anymore. i havent ever meet someone who i clicked with before... now i am alone! and it sucks! Link to post Share on other sites
Touche Posted May 5, 2007 Share Posted May 5, 2007 sorry, basically i wanted my ex back, i thought i was getting my ex back... then we have an arguement3weeks ago... everything changed... then blocks me... then i bring her out of her hole this week... and get her to talk... and then everything when wrong 24hours ago... and now i am utterly blocked and deleted! and not replied to the email where i say i love her... and i am not sad, because i dont have her as my friend anymore. i havent ever meet someone who i clicked with before... now i am alone! and it sucks! I'm so sorry kepners. It's hard to lose a friend. You'll be sad for a while but in time you'll feel better and maybe you'll even meet someone who is even better for you. Get out and try to do something fun or keeping posting on here to help you get through this. She sounds like she's not a nice girl though if she blocked and deleted you when you told her how you feel. Link to post Share on other sites
Author kepners Posted May 5, 2007 Author Share Posted May 5, 2007 yeah i know you say that and your right. and i cant help but defend her. and stick up for her, because when she wanted me she wouldnt do this... its horrible because as much as i wanted to be GF-BF i always kept it in check and always told her i wanted to be friends. because to me having someone you connect with is better than not having them at all. but now look. i have nothing. and feel like man crying. i have stopped myself so far. but i am feeling low. i am going to book myself in to a speeddating thing this week... though i am not sure thinking on reflection its a good idea, because i am headover heals in love with jess. you know something, when we broke up before,the roles where reversed... almost though i never got an email from her. i just blocked her. when i was with someone else i only every thought about JESS, i had to activily control myself talking about her. once zena said, you have gone for a whole week without talking about jess! sad i know. i want to call and text and msn her now. i know shes sitting at her pc on MSN as i type this! Link to post Share on other sites
Touche Posted May 5, 2007 Share Posted May 5, 2007 Don't do it. You'll feel worse. Try to think about something else. And what's with the "man crying" thing? Is that different from a woman crying? Go ahead and cry. You'll feel better. Link to post Share on other sites
Author kepners Posted May 5, 2007 Author Share Posted May 5, 2007 its the difference that Rudard Kiplin wrote 'if' about these type of men. i know if i start crying i wont stop and make everything worse... i hate these feelings, specially feelings that know i will never speak to her again or hold her or make her laugh or anything.... i have so much to give... but shes not interested - and i cant do anything about it. its awful when she said these last few words to me "you where the top of the list, and after friday uv slipped down and i have other friends" the shock at hearing i was her fav! its was the first time i knew this!!! thats when i said WTF and she hung up... good i feeling the water building... god damn it!! Link to post Share on other sites
Touche Posted May 5, 2007 Share Posted May 5, 2007 its the difference that Rudard Kiplin wrote 'if' about these type of men. i know if i start crying i wont stop and make everything worse... i hate these feelings, specially feelings that know i will never speak to her again or hold her or make her laugh or anything.... i have so much to give... but shes not interested - and i cant do anything about it. its awful when she said these last few words to me "you where the top of the list, and after friday uv slipped down and i have other friends" the shock at hearing i was her fav! its was the first time i knew this!!! thats when i said WTF and she hung up... good i feeling the water building... god damn it!! Well let it out already! You say you're afraid if you do you won't stop. You'll stop and feel better for it, trust me. She sounds mean. If she really had you at the top of her so-called list then she wouldn't have dropped you for what sounds like no reason at all. Look, it's obvious she just wasn't interested in you in the same way that you were. That sucks but what can you do? Just cry and let it out and you'll feel better. She does sound mean and immature to me though. Link to post Share on other sites
Author kepners Posted May 5, 2007 Author Share Posted May 5, 2007 sadly shes a regular english woman. and i know the whole if she really wants you she gets you... but not all woman are american agressive.... but that dont mean shes not mean and heartless and cold... like all women who do this... but ur right... Link to post Share on other sites
New Hope Posted May 7, 2007 Share Posted May 7, 2007 sorry to hear that mate, life works weird so u neva know..Its best u go into NO Contact and move on.....................at least u got it out of your system..Now u can truly move on......... Link to post Share on other sites
Author kepners Posted May 7, 2007 Author Share Posted May 7, 2007 yeah i know.... NewHope U got Myspace? MSN? Link to post Share on other sites
New Hope Posted May 7, 2007 Share Posted May 7, 2007 I got Yahoo and aim...it works with msn as well..Nah no myspace..I deleted it bought me to many problems man.... Link to post Share on other sites
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New Hope Posted May 7, 2007 Share Posted May 7, 2007 Yeah I send the request Link to post Share on other sites
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