1 yr and a half NC...

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Not a single word from either side ever since.

 

I haven't heard from her, nor have I heard of how she is doing. No myspace, no nothing.

 

I broke off all contacts even from my supposed friends to become another person.

 

But I am not.

 

I grew up, bettered myself, and my life is going in a direction that I want.

 

And then comes this past week, when I know that she is finishing up law school, and I keep running into people from my past with her. I keep thinking about her and contact her, be able to say congratulations, but I cant let myself do it, i know because it would be pointless.

 

I know no relationship could ever be done with her, no matter what. What good would it do?

 

My rational mind tells me to stop thinking about her, however, I am dying inside to contact her and find my best friend again, the person that was there for me. I keep remembering all the good times that we had during the 2 1/2 yrs that we had together, and all the bad times also.

 

I know an ex is an ex for a reason, but I can't help but think that I could contact her and just be friends with her again. But I know its not possible.

 

I have been dating, met new people, friends, even been in some longer relationships but I miss being close to someone, being in a real relationship again, and I yearn for that. I know it will all come in time, but I am starting to give up and feel like I had a good thing going on and I would fight to get it back. But I know it wont happen, no matter what I do.

 

Would you contact her? I know I am setting myself for some more heartache, but I would love to hear anyone who has been out of touch for long and contacted an ex again.

 

Thanks for your time.