when your town is a small one...

[freakygal78]

I have moved on well and truly moved on from my EA with a MM at a former workplace. I have to say I haven't really recovered from my botched work situation since having been in temp employment since (take heed women in R's with a workplace MM). I am onto my 2nd serious BF since the whole shemozzle. We are looking to be pretty happy together and all. I happened to bump into him y'day after about a 3 month no contact period. I emailed him (as friends) about my life a whiles ago and told him I'd met someone new. He chose not to respond and I thought that was it BAM! A well and true closure on that chapter - but it hurt to someone still in denial. I should have accepted it was the right thing for someone older and more responsible to do considering what had happened in the past but passing him in a shopping complex by sheer coincidence still affected me - sure I did not feel faint but I did blush and strive to avoid him after the obvious humiliation of him not replying to my last email where I told him about the wonderful person I'd met and to thank him for the painful albeit useful lesson I had learnt from the interaction with him. Sure it would have been a bit of an ego kick to him considering I had worshipped him for the best part of a year trying in vain to forget about him. Thankfully I was engaged in a conversation on my mobile phone so there was no obvious uncomfortable avoidance but still it affected me and I realise in such a small town, it is bound to happen. I dunno it still messed me up after all those months of accepting he had finally cut me free. I just want to know from other women who have had only EAs how long has it taken you to get over the MM. I have met a great person but yet the tragic romance of it all overwhelms me like some sweet forbidden fruit I want to go back and revisit i.e. pine over when I clearly have more useful things to do with my life. I'm sure seeing me affected him too - he zoomed in on me like a hawk once he'd seen me. It was so awkward considering what had happened and the fact that we had to ignore each other like mere strangers after the close interchange etc. His choice not mine and I would never contact him again unless I wanted to have totally no dignity at all. I think he had his fun ego boost in me and he's over it but if I see him in the street which is bound to happen at times - I really don't want to have to blush like some embarrassed schoolgirl - any similar experiences anyone?