grieving

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My dad died four years ago when I was 17. I was a terrible son and I remember he started to take diet pills because of me telling him he needed to lose weight. I did other things too, like never telling him that I loved him, screwing around at school, starting fights with him and other people in the family... I remember him still trying to get closer to me by doing activities that I was involved in, but I never connected with him i don't know.

 

He was still proud of me though and I remember sometimes he would talk about me like he was proud of me even though my schoolwork was bad. I think I made him depressed I don't know.

Now I don't know who to apolegize to or what, and it's hard for me to live with that. I odn't know.