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honeybees28

so.. its been ohhh..3 months since my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me.

he skipped town 3 hours away to pursue his "dream job"...we stayed in contact a lot for the first 2 months after... though now it has been more than 2 weeks of consecutive NC. i think this has been the longest ive ever done. i am grateful for the breakup as it has brought out my own personal demons of which i've tackled intensely.. but i have always prayed for reconciliation.

 

though....i am hurting so so so bad tonight.

because i have found pictures of him

on a girl we both know's "flickr"...

i have ALWAYS had uncomfortable feelings about this girl...

she lives in the same town he now does...

 

the very recent one was of him cutting her freaking bushes..

and the caption said "i like jared because he cuts my bushes at 8AM"..

and i feel like BAWLING.

i thought i was doing so well with my healing..

and this just so quickly sets me back..

 

the tears are coming...

 

does this even matter?

it shoudnt.

she has so so so many guy friends...

but my heart just aches...

my stomach is in knots...

 

guys i want to call him so so so bad.

or text him.

i need advice. pleaseeee.

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A couple things.

 

#1: Stop looking up his MySpace or FaceBook. That's self torture.

#2: This guy walked away from you. Remember that. He chose to walk away from you and your love. He doesn't deserve any time in your head.

 

If you text him, you will be essentially saying "I can not live without you."

 

You can.

You will.

 

What I would like you to do is start hanging out with friends. As often as you can. Work out often at the gym. 45 minutes every day. Start picking up some new hobbies. You've already started working on making yourself a better person.

 

But the longer you stay in misery over the one who rejected your love, the longer it will take for the one who will NOT reject your love to find you.

 

I hate to say it, but you will be miserable as long as you choose to be. Being happy is a choice. You can choose to be happy or sad. Which one do you want to be?

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