Do i deserve another chance

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Ok this might be alittle long but i really need some advice from someone who isn't involved. Ok like freshmen year of highschool i met this girl we shall call her sarah. Anyway when we frist met we were just friends nothing more, i didnt really know her to well. Then in 10 grade we became better friends because i had classes with her and so on. Well 11th grade rolls around and her crew and my crew sort of combined so i hung out with her all the time like all the time. Then summer after 11th grade i started really likeing her , like alot . My best friend who happens to be a girl was really shady to me that same summer so i vented everything to sarah and she was such a fun and good friend that i really thought i was in total love with her. Then me and my best friend became friends again and she kind of figured out how much i liked her and talked me out of liking her by saying things like you know it wont work out and stuff like that. Well that whole summer me and sarah were attached at the hip we were such good friends. But i didnt want people to know i liked her cause i told them i didnt so i started treating her bad at the start of senior year, just constantly making fun of her and putting her down in everyway, i even made her cry a few times:eek:, but we would always end up being ok in the end. So for a whole year of school i was miserable because i really liked her but i didnt want other people to know so i just kept being an ass, at my senior prom we were in a fight and we didnt talk the whole night and she was one of my best friends, i was just too stubborn , i would never say i was sorry either i was just not a good person. So summer came again and we were closer than ever, we hung out everday , i drove her were ever she needed to go and i even got her a job at our family buisness because she needed money. We got so close that she would call me crying in the middle of the night because of a fight that she had with her parents or money issues or whatever was going on . There was only a few days over the whole summer that i didnt see her ! Well we got in a fight at the end of the summer about a concert that we were going to, she told me that she didnt want a presale ticket so i ddint buy one and when we got there it was sold out and she blamed me. I snuck her into the concert and she didnt even say thank you, she said that was expected!!! After that i didnt even talk to her i was so upset, so summer ended and we went to college. When i got there i realized how much i missed her and how important she was to me. But when i tried getting in touch with her she had this real attitude against me , and who could blame her. So eventaully i got to have a phone call with her and i said i was sorry for everything under the sun like i said i was sorry for everything, i took the blame for everything!!! and i told her that i would never treat her bad ever again because i dont care what people thing anymore i really do love her and that i needed her in my life even if its just friends. She said that she would think about what i said and get back to me, but she never did. I tried emailing her again but she just responded that she never wants to speak to me ever again. So im back home and my friends are all hanging out and i cant because she's there!!! do you think its worth trying to talk to her again because im going crazy i miss her so much...please help i jsut dont know what to do anymore